Guo Zhan had not been to school for a long time, and on this day a classmate came to his house and told him the news: The school was going to organize the students to go to the countryside to help the farmers with wheat harvests.

After hearing the news, Guo Zhanzhan, who had not been to the school for a long time, wanted to go to the school to have a look, and when he came to the school, he saw a notice posted on a wall asking all the teachers and students of the school to support the farmers' wheat harvest. When he looked at the notice, he suddenly felt that the voice of a girl not far away was very familiar, and he turned to see that the girl who was talking turned out to be Wang Shuhui, who he hadn't seen for a long time! Pleasantly surprised, he squeezed to Shu-hye's side.

"Wang Shuhui, there is nowhere to find the iron shoes, and it takes no effort to get them. I've finally found you! Guo Zhan couldn't suppress his surprise and patted Shuhui on the shoulder.

Shuhui, who was talking to a female classmate next to her, turned her head and saw that the person who patted her on the shoulder was Guo Zhan! Guo Zhan's sudden appearance also surprised Shuhui, and Shuhui said to Guo Zhan: "I'm looking for you these days!" I didn't expect to meet you here today! ”

Guo Zhanzhan said to Shuhui: "Let's go, let's find a place to talk!" ”

Shuhui agreed: "Okay." I have something to tell you! ”

Guo Zhan and Shu Hui squeezed out of the crowd and found a quiet place to sit down, the two glanced at each other a little stiffly and then lowered their heads, neither of them wanted to speak first. In the end, it was Guo Zhan who opened his mouth first: "Wang Shuhui, some time ago, I almost went around the whole city and didn't find you, where did you go?" ”

Shuhui asked with a thorn in her words: "We have already broken off our relationship, what are you still looking for me?" ”

Guo Zhan said: "Wang Shuhui, don't be stubborn, during the time I was locked up, you often wandered outside the room where I was imprisoned, and I know that you still think about me in your heart!" ”

"Nonsense! I hate you to death! I've already thrown you out of the clouds! Sook-hye deliberately turned her face to the side.

"Wang Shuhui, you look at me with your eyes, your eyes can say everything!"

Guo Zhan saw that Shuhui didn't turn around, so he turned to Shuhui and said, "I know that you love and hate me at the same time!" I want you to be honest and honest that I used to be bad. I have failed your feelings for me, and I am looking for you to apologize to you! ”

"What else?"

"Also, I want to mend the emotional rift between the two of us and get back together with you! Do you think we still have this possibility? ”

"Are you telling the truth?" Shuhui and Guo Zhan formed a deep revolutionary friendship in the Red Guard Movement, and she loved Guo Zhan very deeply, even if she was very angry when she ran into Guo Zhan and flirting with other girls, she could not completely erase Guo Zhan from her heart. Shuhui saw that Guo Zhan offered to reconcile with herself, and in addition to being angry and wronged, she actually had a hint of joy in her heart.

Shuhui ridiculed Guo Zhan and said: "Guo Zhan, you were very beautiful when you were a red five-class child, I, a black five-class child, is simply a scum in your eyes, and I have been looking for opportunities to take revenge on you since you abandoned me!" But God has eyes. You don't have to take action on my part, and you get the retribution you deserve! You're a son of a son like me today, so you want to reconcile with me to make up for your empty heart. Are you wrong, do you think I'm a fool who comes when called and goes? ”

Guo Zhan was full of shame when Shuhui said that he had always regarded his red blood as a proud and proud capital, and extremely contemptuous of the children of those who were rich and anti-bad rightists. But since he became a despicable pup, he immediately experienced the humiliation of being discriminated against, imprisoned, and beaten and scolded. The abrupt shift in social identity and class role made Guo Fighting painful, which forced him to deeply reflect on a series of previous so-called revolutionary actions from the perspective of the persecuted.

Guo Zhan said in a sad mood: "Wang Shuhui, after my father was defeated, I realized through personal experience that my previous thoughts and actions were wrong. I feel sorry for the people we have raided, smashed and humiliated, who have had their families broken, their property lost, and their personal humiliation. Some were injured and maimed, some even lost their lives, and I can vividly remember the sad and angry eyes of those we beat at that time, and their cries still echo in my ears today. Now the weight of guilt weighs on my heart like a big stone. I'm afraid I won't be able to move this heavy stone for the rest of my life! ”

Shuhui was moved by Guo Zhan's confession, and she said softly: "Fighting, I know that this is what you are talking about. I also made a lot of mistakes. I've done a lot of inhuman things with you, and I feel the same guilt as you! ”

Guo Zhanzhan said with deep feelings: "Only when we drink Coptis chinensis with our own mouths can we know the bitter taste of Coptis chinensis!" If we hadn't turned into a bitch, we would be crazy by now! ”

"yes!" Shuhui nodded in agreement with Guo Zhan's opinion.

Shuhui was silent for a while, then raised her head and asked Guo Zhan: "Battle, I have always had a question in my heart, you have to explain it to me clearly today." ”

"You say, I'll listen."

"Let me ask you, since you used to look down on us so-called Black Five class dogs, why did you maintain a relationship with me?"

"When we first joined forces to form the Red Guards in school, we got along day and night, because you are beautiful and have a very cheerful personality, I have feelings for you over time, you were still a red five-class child at that time. Who knew that after you had been criticized and repaired, you revealed that your father was a Japanese puppet policeman, and I wanted to get rid of you, the daughter of a historical counter-revolutionary, but, but ,??????"

"But what? Say it! ”

Guo Zhan blushed and said: "At that time, the two of us were already very close, you gave me the whole person, your beautiful and seductive body attracted me as strongly as a magnet, and I couldn't get rid of my infatuation with you!" ”

Guo Zhanzhan also said that Shuhui's face turned red, "Then why are you still messing around with other female classmates?" ”

"In order to erase you from my heart, I began to find other women to, but after messing around, I found that the woman I really loved was still you! Alas! I was foolish to do that! If you can forgive me and accept me, I promise not to mess around again!

"Guo Zhan, did your male classmates forcibly play with women when they raided their homes?"

Shuhui's sharp question made Guo Zhan's face flush all of a sudden, and he bowed his head and answered silently.

"You answered my question!" So-hye urged eagerly.

Guo Zhan said hesitantly: "I know that once, when they interrogated the daughter of a landlord, when they saw that the girl was young and beautiful, they stripped her of her clothes and touched her, and then they dragged the frightened girl into a house where no one was around. As the head of the Red Guards. At that time, I neither participated in nor stopped it, because I did not think that those lowly women deserved sympathy and pity, and they did not dare to speak out anyway. Later, the insulted girl hanged herself, and I am also very responsible for her death. Alas! I have sinned so much! ”

"Fight, I can understand your feelings, don't be upset! Let the past pass, let's start a new life! ”。

A look of surprise appeared in Guo Zhan's eyes, "Shuhui, have you accepted me?" ”

Shuhui smiled, but did not speak.

Guo Zhanzhi said, this means that she acquiesced. His face suddenly turned cloudy, and he asked with concern, "Shuhui, where have you been these days?" Tell us about your current situation. ”

"A few days ago, I went on a trip to the south with a few friends, and we met a few like-minded friends in a border city, and then we did something very great and meaningful together. Do you want to know the way? Shuhui winked mysteriously at Guo Zhan.

Guo Zhan urged: "Oh, don't sell it, say it quickly!" ”

Shuhui told Guo Zhan in detail about the things she had done after her acquaintance with the big shopkeeper, and Guo Zhan listened to it with relish, and he asked Shuhui: "You didn't cross the border successfully this time." What's next? ”

"I'm going to go abroad to meet the big treasurer, or I'll be a deserter who doesn't count! I've been seriously planning my next move, fighting, would you like to join me in supporting the revolution in the world?"

Although Guo Zhan is a hot-blooded young man who is easily restless in his heart. But a series of changes almost smoothed out the edges and corners of his character, so he had to think about this carefully, and he didn't answer Shuhui's question.

Seeing that Guo Zhan was hesitant, Shuhui changed the topic in order to inspire Guo Zhan and said, "Fight." I remember that when I went to sign up for the army, the army rejected me because of my bad family background and refused to give me the opportunity to serve the motherland. You were the famous Red Commander in our school. But after your dad was beaten as a traitor, you immediately became a spurned bitch. The prevailing theory of descent is like the caste system in India, which divides people into strict classes, with the upper class always noble, the trampled class always untouchables, and their children inherit the nobility of their parents. ”

Guo Zhan said self-deprecatingly: "I know the caste system in India, I have seen the Indian movie "The Wanderer", this movie criticizes the Indian caste system while describing the love story of Raz and Leda, I remember that there is a mantra of the villain in the movie: The son of the judge is always the judge, and the son of the thief is always the thief!" It's ridiculous! But wasn't it ridiculous that I used to be obsessed with the theory of blood? ”

Shuhui said indignantly: "Not only is it ridiculous, but it is also very infuriating! In the name of class struggle, those people divided the crowd into different respects, three, six, nine, and so on! If they look up to you, they should also put up a sign for you to 'children from exploiting class families who can reform the good ones', is this an honor? In fact, this is an even greater insult to personality! People like us are not respected and can't see any way out, and I am not convinced by this kind of bloodline theory from the bottom of my heart! Rather than being angry at home, why don't you go out to support the revolution in the world, like Bethune and Che? Guevara was an international communist fighter like that, and proved with practical actions that we are staunch proletarian revolutionary fighters, that we are no worse than the red descendants, and that our hearts are also red! ”

After listening to Shuhui's impassioned words, Guo Zhan asked Shuhui: "You couldn't speak well before, but now you are also like a river, and your words are very sharp, you have really changed a lot!" ”

Shuhui said: "The man nicknamed the big shopkeeper is a top student in the philosophy department, his way of thinking is different, he doesn't want to follow the crowd, and he is good at independent thinking. After getting acquainted with the big shopkeeper, I felt a little enlightened and reflected on what I had done before, and it turned out that what I thought was a matter of course was actually a big mistake, and my revolutionary actions were a blasphemy against good humanity! From now on, I no longer blindly listen to anything, I want to have my own independent thinking! ”

"Shuhye, you're right! We are also adults, our brains belong to us, we must learn to think independently, and we can no longer shout slogans along with others. ”

Guo Zhan frowned thoughtfully. He asked Shuhui again: "Look, those of us who have a bad family composition will definitely have no way out, but what about those who were full of passion back then?" Now that many of them have been labelled as smashers and looters, the vigorous Red Guard movement has almost come to an end. Do you think our generation has been completely abandoned? Guo's words were full of melancholy.

Shuhui said to Guo Zhan: "Fighting, you have your own destiny in your hands, and the revolutionary athletes are determined in all directions." Let's support the revolution in the world together! Outside, we can do a great thing vigorously! ”

Guo Zhan said: "Let me think about it. He lowered his head and paced back and forth in contemplation, and after pacing a few steps, he whispered a small poem in his mouth: "The young ranger is looking for the marquis, drawing his sword and looking around, hesitating, this is to Guanshan for thousands of miles, where is the way back to the end of the world?" ”

After listening to the poem, Shuhui patted Guo Zhanzhan on the shoulder and said: "I changed the last sentence of your poem to where is the way back to the end of the world: stepping on the thorns and becoming a smooth road." Don't hesitate. Just make up your mind to come with me! ”

Guo Zhanzhan raised his head and stared at Shuhui with blazing eyes, and he replied in a firm tone: "Shuhui! I will fight side by side with you forever! ”

"Great! That's great," Shuhye couldn't contain her excitement, and she shouted out in a let loud evaluation, attracting surprised glances from people in the distance.

Guo Zhan and Shuhui haven't seen each other for a long time, they want to make out a good time, and at Guo Zhan's suggestion, they go to watch a movie together.

On this day, Hongxing went to work, the children went to school, Gui Fang went to the street to buy vegetables and did not come back, and Wang Yunqing was the only one at home. He loved raising flowers all his life. Although he only lives in a small and simple house, there is still a free place in front of the door, and Wang Yunqing has planted a few Yueji plants on this land, and now these Yueji plants are ready to be released. Wang Yunqing took a small watering can to water Yueji. At this time, Shuhui walked in softly from outside the door, and she saw that the elderly uncle was concentrating on taking care of the flowers and trees, so she stood quietly and watched.

Shuhui saw that the uncle no longer had a trace of black hair on his head, and his originally emaciated figure became even thinner and hunched forward. The movements between gestures are also much slower. Looking at the weathered and dying old uncle, Shuhui couldn't help but feel sad, she felt guilty for the harm she had caused to the uncle's family.

"Wang Shuhui. What are you doing at my house? Guifang came back from grocery shopping, and when she saw Shuhui standing in the yard, she asked in a loud voice.

Wang Yunqing, who was concentrating on watering the flowers, was startled by Gui Fang's shout, he looked back and saw Shuhui, who he hadn't seen for a long time, standing not far behind him.

Wang Yunqing asked in surprise: "Shuhui, why are you?" ”

"Uncle, niece Shuhui came to visit your old man!" As soon as Sook-hye opened her mouth, she burst into tears.

Gui Fang was furious and stood in front of Shuhui and scolded: "Go out!" You conscienceless still have the face to come to us? Get out of here right now! ”

"Sister-in-law, I have done things to be sorry for you before, and I sincerely came to visit you today and apologize to you!"

"Don't cry and fake mercy, I don't believe you! Think about how cruel you were to us! Who in our family hasn't been beaten by you? I still have the scar on my head from when you hit me with a belt! Think about it again, how did Yi Jing die? That's not what you did! Our family has an enmity with you! Get lost! Get out of here right now! ”

Shuhui was scolded by Gui Fang, she knew that she had hurt her uncle's family too deeply, and it was difficult to be forgiven. In great annoyance, she bowed deeply to Wang Yunqing and said, "Uncle, my niece Shuhui used to have bad deeds, and I really know my mistake now!" I sincerely say I'm sorry to you and your family! ”

Shuhui turned around and left after speaking, Wang Yunqing hurriedly shouted: "Shuhui, if you don't take someone to raid my house, other Red Guards will come, you couldn't help yourself when you did that, I would have forgiven you a long time ago!" ”

Shuhui didn't expect Wang Yunqing to be so magnanimous, and her heart trembled. Shuhui stopped and turned around to kneel down for Wang Yunqing, "Uncle, the things I did before were too immoral and inhumane!" At that time, I was hot-headed, and I couldn't help myself, like a madman, and I did great harm to your family. You are a generous elder, and your forgiveness for me has only made my guilt even heavier! Take care of your old man, I have broken with the past, I want to choose the path of life again, I am gone! ”

Shuhui stood up, hid her face and cried. (To be continued......)