Chapter 184: I Give You a Bloom (3) I'm very uncomfortable

"I don't know." Long Pei was silent for a while, spoke slowly, paused, and spoke again when Gu Mingxi was even more confused, "But Qin Zheng knows." You forget how good our relationship is. ”

Gu Mingxi was stunned.

Qin Zheng! She didn't arrive, Qin Zheng actually told Long Pei about her preferences!

weishenme！

Long Pei walked up to her and stood, his low eyes and gentle eyes flashed a trace of darkness, but it was no longer the hatred that had been suppressed in those years, it was a very complex and inexplicable emotion.

"Qin Zheng really likes you, as long as it's about you, he has to say it in my ear more than a dozen times, can I not know!"

There was a hint of awkwardness in his hoarse tone, as if he was jealous.

"Qin Zheng ......" Gu Mingxi's heart tightened when he mentioned Qin Zheng, and guilt almost swallowed her, "Ah Zheng is really good to me." ”

If Ah Zheng is still here, maybe he will rely on and warm him the most.

Long Pei saw that she remembered that Qin Zheng looked lonely, the light in his eyes was dim, his heart was hooked by her, and he said hesitantly, "In the future, I will also be good to you." ”

Although he didn't know how to be good to her, he would try his best to be as good as Qin Zheng was to her.

No, it should be better than Qin Zheng and her.

Gu Mingxi didn't say anything, raised his eyes and looked at him, there was no disgust, no hatred, calm and peaceful, thin lips lightly opened, "I believe you have been kind to me before, and now ...... There's no need anymore. ”

Long Pei frowned, and before he could speak, he heard her calm voice.

"I thought you killed Yan'er for Yiruo, I hated you, I had a bad life in the two years of country E, hatred was like a vicious snake entrenched in my heart, engulfing me inch by inch day and night. Because the fire I set at the age of eight doesn't even have the qualifications and rights to make me hate you. Huo Rimmo untied the knot in my heart, and it was he who set up a trick to let me know that Yan'er's death was caused by Yiruo. You didn't know it all the time, and you were also deceived by that woman......"

"I can't hold a grudge against you in my heart, but I can't forgive you. In terms of reasoning, you will be responsible for Yan'er's death! Because you didn't handle your emotional problems well, as a president, you are not wrong, and you are worthy of the citizens of the entire country C; But in my eyes, you are not a qualified husband and father! ”

Long Pei didn't speak for a while, and his accusation against her could not be denied.

I don't live up to the Long family, I don't live up to Country C, I don't live up to all the people, but I lose her and her daughter!

also lost himself.

"I'm already a woman without a womb." Gu Mingxi thought of his wave of his hand, which swept away their child and ruined her dignity as a woman, and her heart in the past was like a stab in her memory.

Her life is full of sin because of a fire, and because Yujian Long Pei is full of grief and scars.

"I don't know what else you're pestering me for, you're making me feel tired. Now I have no feelings for anyone except to find the murderer and Ah Li! I have nothing but chill and fear for you! ”

"Fear?" He understands and understands her coldness. He also has the confidence that he can warm her cold heart, but she has to fear herself!

"Yes!" Gu Mingxi nodded and bit his lip, "Because you are a man who has never been seen through, no one on this shijie knows what you are thinking, it seems to be smiling at this moment, but in my heart I am afraid that I will calculate again." I'll admit, I'm not as good as you on that! ”

"Mingxi ......"

"Don't come near me again." Gu Mingxi interrupted him coldly, his breath was indifferent and detached, "Those who are barefoot are not afraid of wearing shoes, if you don't believe it, let's try." ”

Before Long Pei could speak, she had already widened the distance between them, bypassing his side and striding away. The thin tail of the thin figure in this midsummer is not warm, which makes people feel cold and distressed.

Long Pei turned to look at her moving back until the back disappeared from his eyes, and his eyes refused to take a trace away.

Find the dividing line for a commuter pass*****************

After the conversation at school that day, it was not that Long Pei was busy and they didn't have time to meet, but that Gu Mingxi deliberately staggered the opportunity for them to meet. She never goes downstairs for breakfast, and returns to the room early in the evening, as long as she hears the sound of a car outside, she will never go out of the room.

Even if Long Pei rushed back to accompany them to dine with them at noon, Gu Mingxi stayed in the room and did not go downstairs.

Long Pei's sugar-coated cannonballs, gentle courtesy was useful to Gu Mingxi two years ago, and Gu Mingxi two years later would be confused for a while but would not go down again.

Now she is like a person walking on the edge of the hanging rock, a little careless, fell into the abyss, and never recovered. I have to admit that Long Pei's attitude is getting better and better, and he is very good to himself and Ah Li; It's a pity that she can't believe how good he is.

Because she didn't have a second womb to be taken away by them.

Long Pei said that his patience was running out, and she was not. I can't wait to find out the murderer behind it immediately, so as to avenge Yan'er, and then leave this place of right and wrong.

Nansi's invitation was to invite your husband and wife to attend the wedding, but Gu Mingxi didn't plan to go. First, she is not familiar with Nansi, and second, she doesn't want to appear in public with Long Pei again. Bai Yan asked her for a wedding gift for Nansi, and she gave it to Rubing and handed it to Long Pei.

Rubing knocked on the door and handed the envelope to Long Pei, "Your Excellency, Madame said that this is Mr. Bai's wedding gift to Mr. Qin. ”

The sword eyebrows frowned, a chill involuntarily poured out, his fingers clenched tightly, and his eyes stained dark when he stared at the envelope. She's hiding from herself these days, it's not that he doesn't know, but he doesn't want to push her too hard, but she seems to be getting more and more excessive!

Bo Lifei sat aside, and also noticed the strangeness of the past few days, the atmosphere was inexplicably solemn, and he said bluntly: "You quarreled? ”

Long Pei took the envelope and put it on the table, stared at him, and didn't speak. Waving his hand to signal that he would go out like ice.

Bo Lifei saw that his expression was cold, and he looked at him more, as if to say, "You deserve it!" ”

"Did you handle your mommy?" Long Pei avoided Gu Mingxi's topic and didn't talk about it.

"She must be busy with something big and hasn't answered my phone calls all the time!" For not being able to contact Bo Yixin, Bo Li is already accustomed to it.

Long Pei Jian frowned, picked up the envelope on the table again, and remembered that the day after tomorrow should be Nansi's wedding; Gu Mingxi definitely won't go. Yu Guang swept to Bo Lifei, who was looking down at the book, and said lightly, "You accompany me to Uncle Qin's wedding." ”

"I refuse." Bo Li replied without raising his head, he didn't like places with a lot of people.

"You don't have the right to say no." Long Pei tapped his smart head with an envelope, "From now on, you have to get used to life being exposed under the noses of others. ”

Bo Lifei waved his hand to block the envelope, staring at him with cold eyes, protesting against his "violence" against himself!

Long Pei raised his eyebrows, looking like a proud father who bullied his son.

Bo Lifei squinted his eyes and asked coldly, "Do you want to make her happy?" ”

"Do you have a way?" Long Pei narrowed his eyes, he couldn't make up his mind for a while what to do to Gu Mingxi.

"I'm going to tell you!" Bo Lifei raised his chin, snorted coldly, stood up and took the book and walked to the door, "Good night, good dreams." ”

Long Pei's face sank silently. Where did Bo Yixin get the child, smart and evil!

Find the dividing line for a commuter pass*****************

Nansi's wedding was set at noon, and Long Pei wanted to take Ah Li with him to avoid coming back to pick him up, and took him directly to the presidential palace in the morning to put him by his side.

Gu Mingxi didn't come down for breakfast, and he didn't know that Ah Li promised him to go to the wedding together. Thinking about Bai Yan in his heart, today is Nansi's wedding, I don't know how sad he is in his heart. didn't eat breakfast, and directly asked Rubing to arrange the car, she wanted to accompany Bai Yan.

At least for today, don't leave him alone with his thoughts.

Before Gu Mingxi knocked at the door, the door opened, and Bai Yan, who was also very good-looking in an ordinary shirt and trousers, saw her, and seemed to have no surprise, "I thought you should come too." ”

"I don't worry about you." Gu Mingxi said very frankly, and when he saw that he had changed his clothes, he asked, "Is this planning to go out?" ”

Bai Yan nodded, "I want to go out and go around, have you ever played in the national capital?" ”

Gu Mingxi shook his head, "It's better for you to take me to play today." ”

"Would love to be your tour guide." The smile on Bai Yan's face was far-fetched, and his delicate eyebrows were haggard and tired, he just didn't want to stay in the house where they once lived, guarding those loneliness and loneliness alone.

Gu Mingxi followed Bai Yan into the car and walked around the national capital, I don't know if Bai Yan was conscious or unconscious, the places where the car drove were all the places they had walked together, and they were getting closer and closer to the hotel where Nansi's wedding was held.

The sun is shining in this bustling economic metropolis, and the car is parked at the intersection, waiting for the green light.

Gu Mingxi sat in the car and looked at Bai Yan's side face, and swept to the tall building not far away, where there was his beloved man, who was going to marry another woman today.

His fingers hesitantly rested on his shoulders and said in a low voice, "Bai Yan, if you want to go, go ahead!" I'm with you! If you can only die if you see him with your own eyes, you are willing to accompany Bai Yan to face his pain.

Bai Yan's face gradually turned pale, his hands couldn't help but clench the steering wheel, and the cyan meridians on Bai Xi's skin loomed. His gaze swept over the towering building from Gu Mingxi's face, his heart tightened, and he bit his lower lip tightly.

When the light turns green, go straight to Nanji's wedding, and turn right to go back......

To go or not to go, only in his thoughts.

Gu Mingxi didn't bother him, his eyes were quietly looking ahead, no matter what Bai Yan's choice was, as a friend, he would accompany him to face it.

The red light flashed, Bai Yan's expression became more and more solemn, he almost held his breath, he didn't move, and the whistle behind him sounded deafeningly, and he didn't react. When Yu Guang swept to the towering tall building, his foot had stepped on the accelerator uncontrollably, and the car was like an arrow from the string, and there was no room to turn back.

The car was parked opposite the hotel, across the road, and Bai Yan saw that the screen at the door of the hotel was playing that today was the wedding day of Qin Nansi and Huang Rongrong, as well as their wedding photos, which looked very sweet.

Gu Mingxi just glanced at it lightly, and her eyes fell on Bai Yan's body, she didn't care whether Nan Si wanted to marry Huang Rongrong or Yang Rongrong, she only knew that Nan Si was negative after all.

The two of them sat in the car and no one spoke, Bai Yan's eyes kept staring at the opposite side, and from time to time guests arrived, and time began to rush towards the wedding little by little.

Bai Yan felt that his heart was being bullied by himself, knowing that it would hurt a lot, but he couldn't help but not look at it.

People, don't they all like to belittle themselves like this? Knowing that he is married, and knowing that the object will never be him, he still wants to see it with his own eyes, or he wants to see him happy.

The wedding car slowly drove to the hotel from the opposite side of Bai Yan's car, the distance from him was only a stone's throw away, Bai Yan stared at the wedding car, his heart was empty, empty and numb, there was a cold wind howling through but there was no echo.

Nan Si and Rong Rong sat at the back of the float, the glass window was lowered, and when they looked outside, their eyes fell on the car listening to the side of the road, their sword eyebrows moved invisibly, and their entire back bones stiffened involuntarily.

Bai Yan's gaze through the glass seemed to intersect in a moment, and he even felt that Nan Si had seen him, and the fingers on the steering wheel tightened more and more.

Their positions were about to overlap at a point, and when their eyes remained in the same straight line, Rong Rong beside him suddenly tugged at the corner of his clothes, "Husband, I'm so nervous, what if I forget the words in a minute?" ”

Nanji's gaze suddenly retracted, meeting Rong Rong's nervous and expectant beautiful eyes, and a comforting smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "It's okay, I'm by your side." ”

Rong Rong grabbed his arm and rested her head on his shoulder, "I feel like the happiest woman in the whole shijie." Nansi, xiexie, you are willing to give me another chance, I will be a good wife in the future, honor my parents, take care of you, and be your strongest backing! ”

No matter how you look at the smile on Nanji's face, it feels veiled and blurred. Fingers patted her hand as if to comfort her.

At that moment, Bai Yan seemed to hear his heartbreaking voice, intense, fierce, and desperate. The knife was cutting at him, but he couldn't see the wound or hear the sound of a river of blood.

He can still look back and see Nansi's wedding car, and see that he and Rong Rong are about to enter the happy marriage hall together with the blessing of everyone, and go to the road he thinks is easy to walk; But I also saw that Nansi's life and his own life are two intersecting lines, and there will be a focal point in the middle, and after the intersection point, it will never intersect.

In the past, when I worked overtime late, two people would spend one night on the sofa in the office. In his sleep, Bai Yan called his name very loudly, and then woke up, and when he heard the sofa opposite, he agreed in a daze, "Hmm." ”

Knowing that he was there, at that moment, I felt very relieved, turned over, and continued to fall asleep.

When my sister gave birth to her little nephew in the United States, she had a cesarean section, and Bai Yan was busy with work and didn't go back, so her parents and brother-in-law were by her side and sent her into the delivery room. Later, she called Bai Yan and said, "At that time, you must know that your brother-in-law is here to rest assured, in fact, even if he can't take care of anything anymore and is not a doctor, but if you just take a look at it more, you won't be so scared." ”

That's what husband and wife mean to each other. In the name of husband and wife, whether they love or not, they are born different from others.

I have heard many stories like this, no matter how bad the relationship between husband and wife is, the woman just does not divorce. Because occasionally waking up at night, knowing that there is someone next to him, a living person who can breathe and pant, even if it is useless, no matter how bad, but he is a closer person to himself than strangers and friends.

Sometimes, he is already a deep comfort.

At this moment, Bai Yan was really scared. Family and children are all fetters that are difficult to leave behind. If one day, he really doesn't plan to leave her and live like this, then what should he do?

Find the dividing line of the commuter pass****************

Long Pei took Ah Li to appear at the wedding, Nan Si did not invite those high-ranking officials, nor did he have so much red tape, a simple introduction, after greetings, he took Ah Li to stand in the corner and look at the group of people, expressionless.

Nanji walked over from afar with two glasses of wine and handed him a glass, "Your Excellency, Xiexie, you are coming to my wedding." ”

The two of them raised their glasses and took a sip, and Long Pei lowered his eyes and glanced at Bo Lifei, "You go and get the food yourself." ”

How could Bo Li not know that Long Pei deliberately broke away from himself, and didn't say anything, and went to get food alone.

Long Pei took out the envelope from his pocket and handed it to him, Nan Si didn't answer, his eyes looked at him a little puzzled, "Your Excellency." "The gift money has already been given.

"White words."

Nanji's expression froze, unnaturally pale, and he reached out to take the envelope, as if he was holding something weighing a thousand pounds in his hand, as if he would not be able to hold it and fall down at any time.

Opening only one receipt except for a greeting card, he couldn't help but smile miserably when he saw the model, why is Bai Yan still so good to him at this moment!

This sofa was seen by them at that time, and they liked it very much, but there was only a sample exhibition, and the real goods were imported from Italy, which needed to be booked a month in advance, and it would take about three months before and after arrival. Bai Yan also joked that he wanted to buy it for him as a wedding gift. He glared at Bai Yan viciously and didn't speak, and he didn't want trouble at that time.

Unexpectedly, Bai Yan secretly ordered it and really gave it to himself as a wedding gift.

When I opened the greeting card, there was no title, just a simple sentence - I wish that the present world would be stable and the years would be quiet.

Nan Si pinched the greeting card tightly with his fingers, and looked sideways at Long Pei's very bleak mouth, "Your Excellency, how did you pick such a fool in the first place." ”

Long Pei's dark eyes glanced at him calmly, looked at Huang Rongrong, who was accompanying the two elders, and hooked his lips, "There are many women on this shijie, weishenme is her?" ”

Nansi's gaze followed his gaze, and it happened that Rongrong's gaze also looked over, and nodded to them with a gentle smile; He tried his best to maintain the curvature of the corners of his mouth, and there was incomparable sadness in his voice, "Since it can't be him, it's the same for anyone to marry." ”

In the eyes of outsiders, Nanji is crazy, so he marries a woman who betrayed him. But he knew very well in his heart that marrying Rong Rong was no different from marrying someone else, and some things would never come back after they had passed.

He does not have the bravery and purity of the white words, nor the courage and majesty of Your Excellency; He can't leave the two old people alone, and he can't be the enemy of this shijie; He can only choose a path that is not too hard, not too difficult to walk.

Selfishness is human nature!

Find the dividing line for a commuter pass*****************

Gu Mingxi glanced at the watch on his wrist, the wedding had already begun, his eyes looked at Bai Yan with a dull expression, and patted him on the shoulder, "How do you feel?" ”

Although I know about him and Nanji, the number of times I mention it is actually very small. After all, homosexuality is an outlier in country C, and Gu Mingxi never asks about the details of their relationship, for fear of being embarrassed and awkward; Bai Yan never said it, probably because she was afraid that she would be uncomfortable and bored.

But except for Gu Mingxi, Bai Yan had no second person to talk to, hearing her pitiful tone, thinking that Nan Si immediately put aside his actions because of Rong Rong's actions, and suddenly tears welled up, and he couldn't control it.

has been suppressing patience all the time, trying to pretend to be nothing, emotions are always gray, it has become a habit, and there is no way to cry out loud and happy. It's just that the tears kept pouring out, choked and out of breath, and his voice trembled softly, "I'm so uncomfortable......"

Gu Mingxi had nothing to say. Feelings have always been like people drinking water and knowing themselves, and the affairs of two people, even if they are friends, the degree to which they can meddle is limited.

Bai Yan lasted for more than half an hour, and his emotions completely collapsed, and even he couldn't control it.

Gu Mingxi didn't want him to stay in this festive scene, and asked to change seats, and she sent Bai Yan back.

Nansi's happiness is known to everyone, but few people know the bitterness of Bai Yan.

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Gu Mingxi picked out two bottles of red wine on the wine shelf in the living room, went to the kitchen to get a goblet, sat on the carpet, and said while opening the wine, "Let's drink the bar." Drinking alcohol will make your heart feel a little more comfortable. ”

Raising the glass of poured wine in front of Bai Yan, Bai Yan glanced at her, sat on the ground from the sofa, took the wine glass and drank it all.

Gu Mingxi poured him another glass, "Do you have any plans for the future?" ”

Bai Yan drank the second cup and whispered, "I want to wait for him, until he is forty years old." ”

Gu Mingxi's action of pouring wine stopped, and his eyes looked at him indifferently, "Bai Yan, don't be stupid!" It's not realistic at all, if he can come back to you later, why should he leave now? ”

She really didn't expect Bai Yan to want to wait for Nansi.

Is it worth it!

Bai Yan took the cup and poured the wine into his mouth with a wry smile, pursed his lips, and looked at her with mist in his eyes, "Mingxi, I have lost the ability to love others." ”

It's not that he doesn't have the ability to love people, it's just that he can't do it if it's not that person, he can't imagine being with other women in the future, let alone men.

What he likes and loves is just that person, regardless of gender and identity.

This chapter is 6055 words****************

The end of the demon escape:

Brave series: "The President's Wealthy Ex-Wife", "Police and Bandit Sleep Together: Wives Do All Evil", "Contract Lover: Women Are Only Allowed to Love Me"

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