"But did you quarrel with your husband again? Miss, you have children, don't run away from home again, you see that your husband didn't come this time, it must be annoying. Last time, he lived next door to you, and he accompanied you all night, so don't toss, what a good husband, tall, handsome and rich, if you toss again, other women will snatch it away! ”

She didn't hear a word of what the waiter said next, but she kept flashing in her mind that when she left the Lu family at that time, was he always behind her, was he always there? No wonder when he went to the hospital to prepare for an abortion, he appeared directly in front of his eyes.

……

Ye Haining's tears were endless, and he was locked in the corner and hugged himself and cried secretly, lonely and helpless......

She also thought that she could live well without him, it turned out that all her luck was arranged by him behind the scenes, and her ears couldn't help but echo his arrogant voice......

"If it weren't for me, would you still be here to talk to me!"

"Without me, do you think you can live! Who do you think you are without me? ”

Scold......

She laughed self-deprecatingly with tears in her beautiful eyes: "You're right, without you, I really ...... Like a waste. ”

Lu Feifei is gone, she really feels how dependent she is on him, no matter what happens, she will unconsciously think of letting him help her, but now that he is gone, there is no longer Lu Feifei in this world, what should she do?

In the past few days, she has been hiding in this hotel room that she hated so much at the beginning, and she didn't dare to go out, because there were people everywhere outside talking about Ye Tianxing's corruption and bribery, TV news, newspapers and magazines, everywhere!

Until Ye Haining received a phone call......

"Miss Ye, your father's tombstone is ...... in XX Cemetery, Dongcheng District"

After hanging up the phone, I walked to the crib, held the baby's chubby little hand, and said slowly with a sad expression: "I'm so tired, I'm about to lose my life, there's no reason to live, what should I ......do?"

"Let's get out of here, shall we?"

The sleeping baby answered her with the sound of breathing, and she smiled faintly and pushed the stroller out of the hotel.

……

In the cemetery.

Ye Haining didn't want to bring her children to this kind of place, but did she have any other choice?

She held a bouquet of flowers and placed it in front of Ye Tianxing's tombstone, forced herself to pull out a pale and weak smile, and slowly spoke: "Dad, have you found your mother, is she okay......"

"I want to get out of here, it's full of painful memories, I'm going to live, but I still have children."

"No matter what you've done, you're always a dad. So did my mom. ”

"That's it, I'm leaving, see you ...... again"

In a few days, she lost weight again, no longer had such a clean smile on her face, and pushed the stroller out of the cemetery. She wanted to go to the Lu family's cemetery to see Lu Feifei again before leaving, but the person in charge of the cemetery said that she would not let her in, saying that it was the Lu family's order.

Ye Haining pushed the baby to stand outside the Lu family's cemetery, the whole person was shrouded in haze, it was really difficult to move an inch in the world without him, she was trapped in place, letting her memories slowly condense......

The little guy in the stroller woke up at some point, babbling happily and sucking his little hands.

She looked at the Lu family's cemetery with solemn eyes, and said softly, "Baby, tell your father to see you again." "Because the next time I see you again, you may not know when it will be, maybe a year later, two years later, three years later, maybe you will never see it again.

Booked a ticket for eight o'clock tonight, Ye Haining still wanted to do the last thing in this city, something she had not finished before.

She pushed the stroller to the Chinese restaurant where Lu Feifei brought her when she was pregnant, everything seemed to be back to that day, she sat in the window position in the hall again, and still served the same table of dishes as that time.

It's just different that there is no arrogant and indifferent Mr. Lu sitting on the opposite side, and there is always a trace of disgust in his eyes, but there is an extra stroller next to him, which is her and his child.

Ye Haining put a pair of bowls and chopsticks on the opposite side, raised a smile, and said to the air opposite: "You see, I didn't finish eating last time, I will eat all of them this time!" I had a good appetite today, it was so wasteful last time, I went back without eating anything. ”

So, she picked up the chopsticks and kept putting vegetables in the bowl to force herself to eat, in fact, she really didn't have any appetite at all, but she still had to pretend to be delicious, smiling and showing the air opposite.

"This one is delicious, you can try it too! Didn't you say you want to be a good father, then eat it for the baby! She picked up the chicken wings, the ribs, the fried vegetables, and so on, and put them in his bowl, and then lowered her head and ate the rice herself.

Time was passing little by little, the moment Ye Haining looked up, looking at the empty seat, and the bowl full of rice filled with vegetables by her, the words that Lu Feifei had said that day gradually sounded in her ears, and her voice was so low and lingering......

I'm not a good husband, but I'm going to be a good father......

Don't be disappointed in me, do you know the truth......

Then, she couldn't hold back crying anymore, tears fell down wildly, looking at the empty position opposite, her heart was so empty, it hurt, and she was about to lose her breath.

After a while, many people couldn't help but cast curious glances, why would she cry so sadly, crying so much that others felt a trace of heartache.

More and more people looked at her, but the more she cried, the more sad she became, as if she was venting the grievances and pain accumulated in her heart these days, and the tears fell down one after another, as if there was no end. There were tears hanging from the long eyelashes, and there was a bitter smell floating in the air, which was the smell of tears, the smell of sadness.

Ye Haining looked at the empty position opposite, crying so much that she couldn't stop, tears flowed wildly, perhaps, this is the feeling of sadness flowing backwards, desperate and helpless. The entire world realm has collapsed, and there is no way to escape, so it can only be trapped in the whirlpool and slowly fall, corrupted by grief.

……

At this time, a sad song "Breaking Up Needs Practice" slowly sounded in the restaurant......

It turns out that breaking up is something that takes practice

But over time, they will become braver

You slowly walked away, and I gradually let go

Isn't that the freedom we want

It turns out that breaking up is something that takes practice

But the wound will be relieved when it heals

[Author's digression]: Tomorrow this paragraph will turn the page aha, tomorrow our beloved Oreo will play HOHO

PS: Vomiting blood recommends a song "Breaking Up Requires Practice" ALin

Let's feel how desperate Ah Ning is, my uncle thinks this song best represents her mood at that time......