The most haode house is the school, which is a true portrayal of the country's increased investment in education. Obviously, just saying that this is the largest project in the history of Shijie education is already a great thing, but the development between regions is not balanced enough, and it is inevitable that the investment in education in some places will be overstretched.

Xin County is a well-known education county, and the online rate of the college entrance examination has been among the best in the province. It is located in a hilly area, and there is a Lianyun Mountain in the territory, which is called "Little Taishan" by the locals. Coal resources are abundant here, and economic development is affected by the economic situation of the whole country and even Shijie. People here especially like to eat insects, such as locusts, bean worms, bee pupa, silkworm pupa, cicadas, etc., which are all delicious on their plates. Here, everyone loves stones, thinking that "the home is unstable without stones", and often puts some strange-shaped stones in the room or inside and outside the courtyard to admire, which makes the vendors selling jade and strange stones from all over the country come to sell them from time to time.

The county economy of Xinxian County once developed rapidly, and many places in the urban area and its surroundings were heavily constructed, demolished and reconstructed, which was a thriving scene. However, in terms of compulsory education, Xinxian township schools, especially those located in remote rural areas, in addition to brand-new classrooms, are still difficult to take care of auxiliary facilities, and some have to temporarily use the original dilapidated tables and stools. Perhaps because of the need to build several window schools in the county, the schools directly under the county are much better, not only with teaching buildings, laboratory buildings, comprehensive buildings, etc., but also with various teaching facilities inside. Naturally, there are more invisible gaps hidden in the middle, making the county-level schools a paradise for rural teachers, and also have a strong magnetic attraction for students and parents. It's just that in recent years, it has been difficult for teachers in various townships and towns to be transferred to schools directly under the county normally, so compared with the booming economic situation, education in Xin County is also very calm.

The experimental middle school is the only junior high school directly under the county in Xin County, and it is also the leader of local junior high school education. Once, when I came to the school gate, it was the end of school, and the children who came out of the school gathered into a surging crowd, flowing happily, so that everyone who witnessed it could feel the youthful vitality. It is a veritable youth dance drama, starring those lively and lovely children, and the stage is this era of eternal change.

For memory, time should be the most haode washing tool. Let's just say that now, no one mentions the old things of this school a few years ago, and no longer thinks that it was once divided into two schools by the iron fence, let alone the shadow of one of the ordinary teachers in my mind.

I have to mention that I was very frustrated for a period of time - I have been a teacher for many years, and I have lost all hope in my work and life for a while. Yes, the teacher has been given too many beautiful names: a respectable gentleman, a guide to a long life, a hard-working gardener, a candle that burns himself to illuminate others, a spring silkworm that dies, and a selfless dedication of the son of a cow; Be willing to be a ladder, silently dedicated, "come with a heart, not with half a straw"...... The list goes on and on. In addition, teachers also have long winter and summer vacations that are the envy of many people, have an annual Teacher's Day, and have relatively stable jobs and incomes...... As a teacher, it seems that there should be no more reasons to be dissatisfied.

And I, indeed, entered the plateau period of my career, and became more and more depressed day by day.

Everyone, all the time, is affected by the outside world. I've been working hard, but sometimes someone will consciously or unconsciously stab my heart that is becoming more and more fragile. Just when I was repeatedly revising these words, a newly appointed colleague said to me, intentionally or unintentionally: "The struggle of the silk man is always accompanied by blood and tears, but what he gets in the end is often only tears and blood." "My teenage son and his mother sometimes join forces to laugh at me: you talk and act like a child, and your emotional intelligence is influenced by your students, and you will always stay at fourteen or fifteen years old. Naturally, this is just a joke, but when I think about it, it really hurts my sensitive heart. I can't help but admit that these may just be casual gossip from others, but for me, it is like an invisible knife, which is increasingly eroding my dreams and beliefs.

The factors that change a person are complex, and personal feelings are an extremely important aspect. Every summer vacation, I recuperate, fight hard, and then go through autumn and winter, maybe before I have time to enjoy the spring, a cycle will end in a hurry. Living within the school wall every day, like a donkey walking in the mill with his eyes covered, taking the same steps, step by step, circle by circle, and repeatedly, I don't know where the end is. Twenty reincarnations have left me in deep confusion, numbness, boredom and burnout.

What is the meaning of life? Where is it? I often ask myself this question, I feel ashamed of my profession, of my students, and that I am troubled all day long because I can't redeem myself. In order to pass those boring days, I often pass the time online under the screen name of "What time is auspicious".

By chance, a netizen who is also a teacher with the online name "Fig" piqued my curiosity. At that time, he posted a few sentences titled "The Teacher", which fit my state of mind at that time.

It is said to be the most glorious profession under the sun, but I am lost in the search for light.

I say that I am the engineer of the human soul, and I should doubt my own soul.

I wanted to bloom to the eyes of the passion, but I only looked forward to the iron palm that demanded the fruit.

No one asks me about my sorrows and joys, and I am worthy of being only a dull fig.

The ancient Greek philosopher Heraclitus once said, "The sun is new every day." The French writer Romain Rolland also said: "If you want to spread sunshine into the hearts of others, you must always have sunshine in your own hearts." Hearst's words give us hope, Roche's words make us feel a heavy burden on our shoulders, and the words of "Fig" show that his heart was darker and more sad than mine.

I inexplicably have an extra layer of worry - because I know that there are happy teachers first, then there will be happy education! I've always hoped that what happened to me was just an example.

If he hadn't posted another post "Lao Tzu Crimes, Son He Gu" to raise money online for a student suffering from leukemia, my previous communication with him would only be like a drop of rain and dew on a summer day, which would quickly evaporate in my mind, and would not even leave any traces.

Coincidentally, the "second floor" position behind these two posts is a very cautious three words: "Oh, teacher!" I think there's so much to savor in these three words—maybe sarcasm, maybe praise, or even more, whatever you want to think about it—like the divine word "hehe." But what really made me tremble in my heart was not these, but his screen name "Fig". In my personal experience, a person's screen name is often very revealing of his inner shijie. It is no exaggeration to say that when I am interested, I "blind" the other party's personality according to the screen name, which often makes netizens suspect that I am lurking by his side.

I casually took a look at "figs" on Baidu on the Internet, and it turned out to be really knowledgeable:

1. Fig (scientific name: Ficuscarica) is actually a flowering plant, belonging to the genus Ficus mogra, the flowering period is 4~5 months, and the fruit can become flowering and fruiting from mid-June to October.

2. It is one of the earliest domesticated fruit trees on shijie, which has a cultivation history of nearly 5,000 years, and was introduced to China during the Tang Dynasty and is widely distributed in Shandong, Xinjiang, Jiangsu, Yunnan, Hunan and other places.

3. It likes light, fertilizer, drought resistance, barrenness, and strong soil adaptability.

4. It is luxuriant, elegant, has more ornamental value, in addition to gardening and courtyard greening, it is also one of the most potted fruit trees.

5. Its fruit is rich in nutrients, which can be eaten fresh or processed into dried fruit, preserved fruit, jam, fruit juice, fruit tea, fruit wine, beverages, canned food, etc.

6. Modern medical research has proved that its fruits, leaves and branches contain certain antibacterial, anti-cancer, disease-curing, fitness, anti-aging and other effects, and there are many prescriptions for the treatment of diseases by the people, and it is internationally praised as "the patron saint of human health in the 21st century".

7. It has been mentioned many times in the ancient Hebrew scriptures and the Book of Genesis in the Bible, and there are many legends and stories about it.

8. It represents convergence and unassuming, and thus happiness.

9. Whoever dreams of it, the Lord is auspicious...... ("Zhou Gong's Dream Interpretation")

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In the face of so much content, I wanted to "blind" him, but I didn't think I would be stunned first. Fortunately, at that time, entrusted by several netizens, as a representative of the donor, I had the opportunity to go to his school and get to know him. He likes to use dreams to describe his day, so I put together a small poem with the word "dream" to summarize his experience:

Eager to chase dreams,

Wake up late in the cold,

When I wake up from my dreams,

Life is like a dream.

Chewing on his dull years, I feel that he is a very representative "teacher" - I also like to use this word to refer to teachers, just like "author", "singer" and "reporter", only indicating a profession, without any emotional color, and I have an urge to write something: to wash away the sacred and solemn oil paint on the face of the "teacher", to show the true emotions of an ordinary teacher.

Time is an unstoppable wheel, and the impulse of the past turns into perseverance. But I respect his plea: "True, someone is biased towards you to question the fake; is made up, and some people must find out the truth. Many people in society already like gossip, so you better let me teach for a few years with peace of mind. ”

Therefore, I only used his milk name - Fang Xinning.