Chapter 38: Death, Not Afraid
Yiyi was silent.
The feeling of being strangled in the trachea came to my heart again, but my dry eyes did not have the urge to cry, my hands grabbed the hem of my skirt insecurely, bit my lower lip, and put my mind on breathing.
"Seventeen." Shen Xichen called softly.
Yiyi looked at him sluggishly, regaining focus.
A feeling that was even more touching entangled Yi Ting, she just felt that these words were so unbelievable from Shen Xichen's mouth, those years, it was like a different world.
"Shen Xichen, I still can't believe it."
I can't believe that I can have a place in the heart of this big president.
"We didn't just happen once, or even earlier, I yujian you."
"What?!"
Shen Xichen smiled bitterly, and sure enough, he forgot again.
"Shen Xichen, what else do I don't know?" Yijing frowned, and her mind continued to run rapidly.
Shen Xichen shook his head and smiled, that sour smile rippled in the humid air, making the air flow with suffocating sadness.
For more than ten years, this matter has been holding on to Shen Xichen's heart, and he has locked this relationship and ordered him not to think about it anymore. can dream back at midnight, and it is always inevitable to turn over this old account, silently miss it, and silently wish.
He's just a coward, after all! It's cowardice! Obviously, he watched Yijing pass by in front of him again and again, but because of that pathetic self-esteem, he refused to say that sentence.
"Seventeen, you have a terrible memory!" As if to laugh at himself, after Shen Xichen's words were received by Yijing, a ripple that grew bigger and bigger in Yiyi's heart.
Shen Xichen leaned against the dusty wall, his gaze resting on the black box.
There are only five hours left, and there are some words, if not said, that may really be regretted.
For both of them, it's the same.
Yijing was silent, with a lot of words in her heart, but she didn't know where to start.
"Shen Xichen, actually, back then, I really appreciated your appearance and didn't make me look too embarrassed in the noisy crowd. Everyone else is a parent who takes the luggage, but Xiang Youtian forgot about my existence because of work. In fact, I am very jealous of those who have parents to help, but at the same time I am very proud, I Han Yijing is an independent person, I don't need to rely on others. ”
"But when those books fell to the ground, I was really frustrated, I hated my own independence, if I could snort Xiang Youtian like my sister, maybe I wouldn't be like this."
"Then you appeared, standing in front of me, cold, but always with the temperature of the winter sun." Yiyi laughed, tears in her eyes with a smile.
If she could catch Shen Xichen's departing figure back then, maybe she could be very happy today.
"Then, I was at Han's house...... Now it should be called when the Cheng family ran out, and fainted aimlessly in front of your house. Then you took me in. ”
"I really hated you some time ago, you have a poisonous tongue, and you take pleasure in scolding me every day; You bastard, give me endless work to do every day; You're not human, and you've been pulling me up for many nights to help you do this and that. But it seemed that I was a little tougher again, and I even wore my hands down, only to suddenly realize that there were still more difficult days than before. ”
"Then I was shot, in fact, I think it's very innocent, isn't it just to deliver food to you, the president, and you can actually be lucky to be shot. When you carried me to the hospital, I could hear what you said in my ear, and I sensed your anxiety, and I suddenly realized that there would be such a person, anxious about my life and death, but you knew that this shot would not kill me. ”
"Those days in the hospital should be the most haode days I've ever had in these months, I can enjoy your tenderness unscrupulously, and I can curl up in your arms without any scruples. I think I'm going to die, I'm lost in the hospital, I can't see my heart clearly. ”
At this point, Yi Jing had a feeling of panic, like looking at the crumbling leaves on the branches, staring at the gust of wind blowing, and stretching out her hands in panic to try to borrow the leaves that she couldn't catch at all.
She was so scared that if she wasn't careful, she would take that hazy feeling seriously. She thought about those days, Shen Xichen's focus and gentleness, as if it was only for her, but this gentleness would always run out, just like the wound on her shoulder, which would always heal. I thought that the narrative would end here, but some words rushed out of my throat inexplicably, "When I realized that I had been kidnapped, I had a very contradictory idea, I needed you, but at the same time, I didn't want you to run to die, it wasn't worth it." You actually have a lot of things that you can't let go, you still have a good life, you won't lose to Cheng Yi, right? ”
Yijing looked at Shen Xichen, and a sentence popped out of her mind inexplicably: What is life? For the king. Why die? Die for you.
Death, Yi Jing has never been afraid.
Being alive is perhaps the most painful part.
Shen Xichen listened to Yijing very calmly on the side After saying this, his mood calmed down with Yijing's bland storytelling, not cold, not excited, as smooth as flowing water.
That's right! It turned out that they had been staying together for months. From the beginning of-for-tat, to the beginning of mutual dependence. From the beginning of just wanting to use, to the later sympathy. What he saw was the fragile side of this woman, but she gritted her teeth and refused to give up, she treated her so badly, but she thought about herself everywhere.
Her anxiety has always been just for her own life.
Shen Xichen turned his head sideways and looked at the woman with tears but a smile, if he still had a chance to get out alive, he would definitely not treat this woman badly.
Even if it's painful, I'll pick the slightest pain and try not to let her find out.
Yi Jingdai's eyebrows were slightly relaxed, she pursed her lips and looked ahead, and suddenly asked a very serious question: "Shen Xichen, what if we all die today." ”
Shen Xichen thought deeply, and was stumped by this sudden question. For those unknown events, he has always made a variety of assumptions to make himself mentally prepared, but this time he really couldn't make assumptions.
Either the bomb exploded and the two died together; Otherwise, you can run out with luck.
But what if he is dead or alive, can't he be by Yijing's side?
He never thought that he was losing to Cheng Yi, on the contrary, it proved very well that he was a true man who was willing to sacrifice for his woman.
Shen Xichen frowned and looked at Yijing, suddenly had mixed thoughts, took a deep breath, tilted his head sideways and hooked Yiyi's chin, and met her dry lips.
Unprepared lips connected, Yijing only felt that her brain was empty, and her mind was all on this magnified handsome face. A series of logical movements made her blink her eyes in shock, and her slender eyelashes like feathers and butterflies accidentally scraped the bridge of Shen Xichen's nose and tickled to his heart.
So, Shen Xichen hugged Yi Jing's slender waist and deepened the kiss hard.