At home in Hainan, on the open-air balcony, I sat alone on the rocking chair after coaxing Fan to sleep, looking at the light rain outside, and my eyes were stunned.

It's been nearly half a month, I've tried hard again and again, failed again and again, tried to adjust my state, tried to grit my teeth and continue to live, but Liu Di's vague shadow jumped into my mind all the time.

People are complex emotional animals, thinking is composed of countless emotions, into adulthood, we will take the initiative to find the opposite sex, then falling out of love, it is inevitable!

Wang Mumu always enlightened everyone who has experienced lovelorn in Caesar: "Don't be like you are going to die, lovelorn!" No one has lost it, who do you show every day with a donkey's face? ”

Yes, no one has lost it, but the lovelorn crowd, they always have a thought, often after separation, subconsciously will say to themselves, maybe, we still have the possibility of coming together. After countless times of enlightenment, I slowly got through the difficult time, so as to achieve mental forgetfulness.

But what can I do?

Lyuddy died.

What reason can I use to comfort myself and get out of this circle??

A lifelong regret!

Lifetime irreparable!

The rest of my life will be in the big hands of guilt, strangled by the throat!

I have no one to talk to!

My soul was beaten by all the emotions that were discouraged, and I wandered in the sky tired, but there was nowhere to rest!

"Smack!"

Lighting a cigarette, I looked at the city that had entered midnight, where everything was silent, the rain washed away the dust of the city, the moon was obscured by dark clouds, and I was like a weary bird in captivity, buried here, and lonely here.

"Tick Bell!"

The phone lit up on the desktop, pulling me back from a state of distraction, I paused, picked up the phone and picked it up.

"Hello?" My hoarse voice rang out.

“!” On the other end of the line, there was no sound.

I picked up my phone and looked at the number again, it was a landline, the area code was 0434, the area code of SP City.

By this time, I already knew who was calling.

"Are you alright?"

"Are you alright?"

After a long silence, I asked at the same time as a female voice on the phone, followed by an awkward silence.

"Is Fan Fan good?" The woman on the phone, biting her red lip, asked.

"I've slept!" I glanced at the floor-to-ceiling window, bare-assed, sweetly asleep Fanfan, and said back.

"Hmm!" The woman on the other end of the phone didn't seem to know what to say.

"If it's okay, I'll hang up!" I gritted my teeth, my lips trembled, and I said something to the phone. I don't know how I should face her.

"I thought you'd be looking for me, I've been waiting!"

"If I really go to you, I will definitely kill Hong Tao first!" My eyes were red, and I gritted my teeth.

"For her?" Hong Xin paused and asked in a flat voice.

"She's a woman who doesn't belong in this circle! If it weren't for Hong Tao! She won't die! For what, there is a flood in every event! For what? I asked with a low growl.

"You're in love with her?" Hong Xin didn't mention Hong Tao's stubble, and asked again.

“！” I was stunned by the question.

"What about me?"

"I've loved you!" I bit my lip and tears glistened to me.

"But I'm not fucking loved, I've always loved you!" Hong Xin stared at the big godless eyes, the white and tender neck, the cyan veins bulging, clenched the small fists, and shouted hysterically.

"And what do you want?" My brain was in a mess.

"If you ask that, I won't think about anything!" Hong Xin's voice was much calmer, but there was no trace of emotion.

"I betrayed you emotionally!" I said slowly.

"Acquaintance, love, childbirth, single mother, wandering abroad, Meng Fei, I have given you every first time in my life, but I have never regretted it. From that winter, when you drove me away, from the Bruce Bar, you and I had a hangover until dawn I thought that I had overcome my family with you, over a long time in prison, over a long wait until today, I suddenly found out that you and I are not ill-fated, but my wishful thinking in the second half of my life, I don't live for anyone, only for my son, so be it! Hong Xin held an umbrella, stood next to the magnetic card phone on a street in SP, wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, bit her lip and hung up the phone.

A former lover, or husband and wife, are divided between the north and the south, the rain washes the silent and cold city, and the sky is full of dark clouds, which seem to echo each other thousands of miles away.

I looked at the phone screen that had been blackened, my head was cracking, my eyes were painful again, and since Liu Di left, I didn't know what Lu Dao was doing, and my vision was getting worse and worse, as if I was about to go blind

"Smack!"

Xin Xin pushed open the door of the magnetic card phone booth, her cheeks were pale, as if she had lost her soul, and she walked forward with wooden steps. The narrow umbrella at the door was stuck in the door, Xinxin let go without knowing it, and the umbrella fell to the ground.

"Boom!"

Thunder rose in the sky.

"Whoa!"

The cold rain instantly pierced Xinxin's clothes, and her two long arms, wrapped around her shoulders, and the biting cold from the inside out seemed to be able to freeze the dancing flames.

With tears streaming down her eyes, she walked through the storm with difficulty, like a homeless child who had lost everything.

Loneliness does not mean those days when one person has nothing to say, but countless people walking and shuttling on the streets, but no one can talk to.

This is loneliness, which is frightening from the bones.

In the past, Hong Xin didn't think that when she was waiting for me to be released from prison, she was alone, with a birthday cake and two dishes and chopsticks, it was lonely.

"Bang dang!"

In the distance, the door of a Land Rover pops open.

Hong Tao was wearing a half-sleeved T-shirt and a raincoat in his hand, walked over slowly, wiped the rain from his face, looked at Hong Xin and asked softly, "Why don't you call at home!" ”

"I won't fight again!" With her hair stuck to her cold and pale face, Xinxin looked down at her feet soaked in the rain and said lightly.

"You still have me, and Dad!"

"Brother, am I really wrong!" Hong Xin's aggrieved voice is so distressing, she is questioning the past, our past.

"Let's go home!" Hong Tao sighed, put on a raincoat for Hong Xin, put his thick arms around her weak shoulders, and walked towards the Land Rover.