His head was groggy, and he only felt that there were countless voices echoing in his ears, and countless images were swaying in his head, vague and fragmentary, so that Xiao Yuan couldn't sort out his head at all, but after a while, Xiao Yuan fell asleep. It didn't take long for him to finally wake up, and suddenly he realized that there were many more memories in his mind that he had never experienced before. These memories have never been seen before, yet they are so familiar, as if they were innate. For a moment, he felt at a loss, unable to tell who he really was.

Is it Xiao Yuan, the in-house disciple of Wangwushan, the first cave heaven in Shenzhou, or an ordinary high school student named Jang Sung-won in Guro District, Seoul Special City, Republic of Korea? Wait, what country is the Republic of Korea? What is the identity of a high school student? These terms are both familiar and unfamiliar.

Xiao Yuanzheng was thinking about it, and his head suddenly felt like it was about to burst open, as if something was pouring out of his mind, telling him what kind of country South Korea is, what high school students are like, and by the way, many of Zhang Chengyuan's past experiences also surfaced one by one.

Jang Sung-won, male, was born on February 24, 1983 in a small country in the southern part of the Korean Peninsula, which is also known as the Republic of Korea in his memory. When he was nine years old, his mother fell seriously ill and died, leaving his father Zhang Donghu alone to pull him to the present.

From the memory in his head, I know that this year is 1998, and it was the end of June when Zhang Chengyuan fell into a coma, according to the calculation of Koreans, he was born before March, which can barely be counted as 82 years, and now he is 17 years old, and he is only a freshman in the first year of high school (equivalent to the first year of high school in China)

When Zhang Chengyuan was in elementary school, because he did not have his mother's care, his father traveled on business from time to time, and he never even went to a parent-teacher meeting, and his classmates thought he was an orphan without a father and mother, sponsored by the government, and bullied him vigorously, and Zhang Chengyuan had three meals on weekdays, and was born with a thin body, so he couldn't resist at all, and he was often made to cry all day, and he had nowhere to complain. Over time, he developed a withdrawn, cowardly, and taciturn character. Until he fell into a coma, he was still often extorted pocket money by students from his school or even near the school and did not dare to speak out, and no one came forward to administer justice for him in such a miserable situation, because he didn't even have half a friend, and in the eyes of everyone he was just a dispensable little person.

In the eyes of his teachers, he was a quiet, trouble-free, well-behaved student with grades that were not up or down, neither outstanding enough to be eye-catching, nor so bad that he needed to stay in school for individual tutoring.

In the eyes of male classmates, this guy is not a few thin, and it seems that he can be swept away by a gust of wind casually, and if he is pulled to fight or fight, not only can not boost the momentum, but will boost the morale of the other party.

In the eyes of female classmates, Jang Sung-won, a turtle, is more down-and-out than the baby in the mountains of Gangwon-do, only the poor North Korean ghost in the documentary about North Korea that KBS TV has been broadcasting in recent years can be compared to him.

In Zhang Chengyuan's own eyes, he himself is a veritable wreck, he has no courage to resist in the face of bullying, he can only take care of himself and lick his wounds alone, no one will pity him, even his father is too lazy to take care of him. Except when everyone was bullying him, they all treated him as a transparent existence.

Instead of living like this muddy and unknown for what, it is better to leave this painful and depressing world as soon as possible, learn from those seniors who collapsed and committed suicide in the face of the college entrance examination, and commit suicide as soon as possible, and can also save a sum of money for his father's future tuition, maybe after his father does not have his own drag, he can marry again and form a happy family, and he can also reunite with his mother in another world as soon as possible and regain his life.

The difference in one thought made Zhang Chengyuan have the idea of suicide.

On June 29, 98, the last day of the school's first semester this year, on the way home, Zhang Chengyuan was dragged to a remote place by several bad students and beaten up, and even the relics left by his mother, an old automatic watch, were torn off by them and thrown on the ground and broken. This watch is one of his most cherished relics left to him by his mother, and every time he sees it, he remembers his mother's kind and regretful face before she died, and "Cheng Yuan, you have to live well!" The words are the support of his soul and the only sustenance of life.

Zhang Chengyuan, who was angry and ashamed to the extreme, broke out for the first time in seven years, and unexpectedly rushed over and bit the face of a perpetrator, and had the momentum to devour him alive, but unfortunately before he could bite a piece of meat, he was beaten all over his body by the young ** who reacted and were angry, and almost passed out.

By the time Zhang Chengyuan was able to get up, the delinquent teenagers had already scolded and walked away, and Zhang Chengyuan was the only one crying alone holding the watch left by his mother, because he could no longer hear the ticking of the second hand when it turned, like the soft whisper of his mother in his ear when he was a child.

Tired of crying, his heart was broken, he just felt that he had nothing to love, Zhang Chengyuan cherished the watch in the pocket of his underwear, and slowly got up, he couldn't feel the physical pain at all, only the feeling of heartache, at this time he only muttered a sentence in his heart: "Mom, I'll be with you soon!" You wait for me! ”

Staggering, Jang Sung-won did not go home, but walked in the direction of the Han River.

The Han River is a famous river in Korea and has been regarded as the mother river that has nurtured the people of Seoul since ancient times. Maybe it's because it crossed Seoul (renamed Seoul in January 2005), or maybe Seoul got its name because of the Han River? In this regard, Jang Sung-won, a high school student who rarely reads extracurricular books, is not sure, he only knows that the Han River is the most popular and spectacular suicide site chosen by suicide people in South Korea.

The psychology of imitating blind obedience is a common problem for almost everyone, how can Zhang Chengyuan at this time have the heart to think of a peculiar way to die, jumping into the Han River and drowning is the fastest and most romantic method he can think of at this time. Dying in the boiling waters of the mother river, which gave birth to the people of Seoul, is like throwing yourself into the arms of your mother, how warm and comfortable it is.

From the southwesternmost Guro district of Seoul to Yeouido Island on the side of the Han River, Jang Sung-won does not know how long he walked, anyway, the sky has already darkened, the lights on the side of the Han River are brilliant, prosperous and gorgeous, and the modern urban atmosphere permeates the entire river, and the silver waves shining under the lights reflect each other, telling the ingenuity of the people of Seoul who created the industrial miracle of the Han River, and witnessing the worst of many people who seek death.

In Seoul, over the Han River, there are more than 20 modern bridges, and almost every one of them has had a suicide "bravely" jump off the bridge and into the vast river. Among them, the Mapo Bridge on Yeouido Island has become a favorite of people who commit suicide by jumping into the river in recent years. Perhaps because after the 97 Asian financial crisis, South Korea's economy was greatly impacted, and some failed financial people on Yeouido couldn't stand the blow of bankruptcy, and they thought that jumping into high-rise buildings was too devastating to destroy their bodies, so they simply jumped off the Mapo Bridge, which is the closest to Yeouido, so that the bodies could remain intact, because the government would urgently salvage and save them, but by the time they were salvaged, most of them were already dead.

Today, this Mapo Bridge may also be the last stop of Jang Sung-won's life, and he staggered onto the bridge, ready to start the bravest move of his life.

However, God seems to really look at him unpleasantly, and even his most undesirable wish is not willing to be satisfied, when he walked to the bridge to look at the Han River, I don't know whether he was in a trance, or was blurred by the blood flowing down the corners of his eyes, Zhang Chengyuan unfortunately stepped into the motorway and was hit by a speeding artist nanny car. At that moment, he seemed to see his mother's face smiling at him in heaven, so loving, so warm; And there was reluctance in his father's stern gaze, and he flashed the last thought in his life: "Father, please don't be sad for me, you must live happily!" ”