Chapter 393: "Me" and "Unbearable Loneliness"
When Du Xinghe heard the news, he was quite depressed. He originally hoped that after Xu Nuo's mother returned to work, she would travel frequently, so that he and Xu Nuo would have another chance to mess around. Of course, this kind of gangster is definitely not a gangster who sleeps together, since they promised Xu Nuo's mother that they won't sleep together, they will definitely abide by it. But at least without Xu Nuo's mother's surveillance, the two of them will be much more comfortable messing around.
Now it's good, Xu Nuo's mother is retiring, this is a forced need to supervise them!
Du Xinghe felt miserable when he thought about it, if he hadn't been blocked in the room by Xu Nuo's mother, he could face Xu Nuo's mother calmly and state his attitude towards this relationship. But now, in Xu Nuo's mother's heart, he is estimated to be a child who can't afford to stay in bed, where is there any maturity to speak of? If you don't have a mature character, how can you be responsible? What about the future?
Alas......
In the future, it is estimated that he will have a headache.
Xu Nuo just came back from the United States, and it hasn't been sweet for a few days, and now Du Xinghe is alone at home again, he is really lonely.
After talking to Xu Nuo on the phone, it was already half past ten, Du Xinghe sat in front of the piano, and wanted to vent and play the piano for a while, but unfortunately he lives in an apartment building now, and if he wants to play the piano so late, he must be scolded to death upstairs and downstairs.
It's still a villa like Fang Yajun, with its own music studio, you can play music whenever you want, and that kind of life is interesting.
Du Xinghe thought about it, and his heart was moved, when the cloud world was on the right track this year, and the company had a large amount of revenue, he would have to change his residence. Even if he can't afford Fang Yajun's sea-view mansion worth more than 100 million, he has to get a single-family villa. You can play music at any time without worrying about disturbing your neighbors.
After casually playing the piano twice, Du Xinghe closed the piano lid, returned to his bedroom, closed the door tightly, closed the window, hugged the guitar, sat on the bed, and played the guitar.
Xu Nuo's mother really made Du Xinghe helpless. He had to rely on music to relieve this feeling. I was in the mood to drive a night train to copy books.
The melody that pops up casually is all lonely and helpless, and it is very easy, Du Xinghe transferred this melody to a song that he liked very much in the previous plane. It is also a song that he often hums in his wandering. Master Li Zongsheng's "Unbearable Loneliness".
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It's always for no reason ~sad up~
However, everyone is there~The joke is wonderful~
How embarrassed ~ go away alone ~
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It's not that I haven't thought about it~casually fall in love~
Day after day ~ Come on at the age of thirty~
How to explain to yourself in the days to come~
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Unbearable loneliness ~ unbearable loneliness ~
Love is the hardest wait~
Love is the most distant future~
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Time is no more~ Time is no more~
Only cheer for yourself~
Only I mourn for myself~
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It's like talking about a song. Du Xinghe spoke eloquently and sang this classic that left a deep memory on him.
There are some songs, some melodies. As soon as it sounds, it will evoke the memories buried in people's hearts, and even recall many forgotten things, making people feel as if they have returned to the era when they listened to that song and sang that song.
Du Xinghe was singing this song "Lonely and Unbearable" at the moment, and a lot of things in the previous plane flowed out of his mind.
Zhang Aijia said: "Everyone has a song Li Zongsheng in their hearts. ”
In fact, not only that, is there more than one Li Zongsheng in everyone's heart?
The older you get, the more you can understand Li Zongsheng.
Du Xinghe's age, although he is not yet forty or fifty years old, knows the destiny of heaven, but has experienced countless adversities in life, he still admires Li Zongsheng's music, especially the lyrics written by Li Zongsheng.
Speaking of which, Li Zongsheng's words are not as clever as Lin Xihua, not as good as Huang Weiwen's sword, not as satirical as Chen Shaoqi, not to mention Mike's classical.
Li Zongsheng's words, almost in the vernacular, are all about some ordinary truths, narrating an ordinary love story, depicting an ordinary you and me, but the strange thing is that Li Zongsheng's words can penetrate you at that moment, like the sun that breaks through the dark clouds, and suddenly you feel that this word is written about you, and finally there is a person who writes your thoughts and thoughts, your love, and your anxiety in simple words, and sings it to you.
This is the most powerful part of Li Zongsheng's lyrics, a kind of supreme realm that is close to being clever and not working, and seeking defeat alone.
In fact, there are many people who like Li Zongsheng's songs, but they are not fanatics of urban folk songs, and there are even many fans who are not Li Zongsheng.
But when the preludes of those Li music in the last century sound, many people will find that they are so familiar with these melodies, and the touching that these melodies bring to them is so far away and close.
This is the real classic, which can be imprinted into people's hearts, not only will not be diluted by time, but will accumulate over time, and the growth of diary people will sound more and more moving. It's like an old bottle of wine, the older it is, the more mellow it becomes.
Maybe you won't deliberately think of Li Zongsheng's songs and the qiē you experienced when listening to them, but you will never forget them.
When you reunite with your past again, that melody will bring the pain and joy in your heart again.
Just like Du Xinghe now.
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Unbearable loneliness ~ unbearable loneliness ~
Love is the hardest wait~
Love is the most distant future~
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Time is no more~ Time is no more~
Only cheer for yourself~
Only I mourn for myself~
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When I was young, I didn't appreciate Li Zongsheng's lyrics, but when you gradually touch what life is like and slowly taste what life is like, you will feel more and more the struggle, hardship, warmth, ideals, pain, happiness, sadness, agitation, helplessness, and all the lingering love and desire in every ordinary sentence.
Singing "Unbearable Loneliness", Du Xinghe had many complicated feelings in his mind. Just like the first line of this song, he was "sad for no reason".
does not have Li Zongsheng's rational attitude that can see through life, and Du Xinghe at this time is still a person who is far more emotional than rational.
From "Unbearable Loneliness", I recalled a lot of the past, and an inexplicable sadness was born in my heart.
The melody in his hand changed sensually, and with his eyes closed, Du Xinghe sang the song floating in his mind again.
Leslie Cheung's "I".
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Happiness is more than one way to be happy~
The most honorable person is the glory of the Creator~
No need to dodge ~ live for the life I like ~ No need to ink~Just stand in the corner of light~
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I'm me~ It's a firework with a different color~
The sky is wide ~ to be the strongest bubble ~ I like me ~ let the rose bloom a result ~
In the lonely desert~the same blooming naked-naked~
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This is a song that carries the hope of life in the midst of pain.
Calm. Brave. Humble.
Once upon a time, Du Xinghe's life was like being cuffed in heavy shackles, always going back and forth in a vicious circle. He forgot who he was. What he loves. What does he hate. He raced on a track full of thorns. Life seems to be sustained by fleeting hopes. But it's like Pandora has opened the box, and hope is at a moment's notice. It seems to be locked at the bottom of the box forever. He began to appreciate what Pascal said, that man is the part of the reed that thinks about the reed, that which is fluttering in the wind and so fragile.
Whenever he sings this song "I", he will feel a power from the bottom of his heart, and he will no longer feel sorry for himself, inferiority and self-hatred.
Everyone is equal, they are all the grace of the Creator, no matter what kind of path they have taken, people should not feel inferior for any reason, each of them is unique and free. To live like yourself, to understand what kind of life you want to live, and to work for it, that's enough.
Be the most authentic version of yourself, put aside hypocrisy and disguise, ignore the eyes of others, as long as you don't do bad things and live a bright and upright life.
To be different, to live your own personality, to make fireworks of different colors, to have the courage to face setbacks and criticism, and to go on strongly.
Even if no one appreciates it, we must bloom proudly, because we do not live for others.
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I'm me~ It's a firework with a different color~
The sky is wide ~ to be the strongest bubble ~ I like me ~ let the rose bloom a result ~
In the lonely desert~the same blooming naked-naked~
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has already understood the true meaning of this song, and every time he is troubled, Du Xinghe will sing it, so as to strive not to be affected by the outside world and be a true self.
In fact, Du Xinghe first listened to this "I", it was the Cantonese version of "I", and what left a deeper impression on him was also the Cantonese version, although the Cantonese version is not as popular as the Chinese version, but the initial contact is often the most impressive.
At this time, having sung the Chinese version of "I", Du Xinghe knew that he must not sing as deeply as "brother", so he put down the guitar in his hand, lay on the bed and called up the Cantonese version of "I" from the memory bank, and appreciated the true interpretation of "brother".
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I-am-what-I-am~
I am ~ what a special me ~ ……
How fortunate ~ the earth has more than one kind of footprint ~
God is a man of the world~ all kinds of colors have his justice~
I'm glad ~ standing on my roof and being a happy man~
Take my heart ~ tell the world what it means to be brave ~
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What am I~only one out of ten~
In the vineyard ~ the hymn of the water fairy sounded ~ What am I~ one of the gravel of eternity~
The stone is so big~I'll like this too~
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I'm very glad that ~ all living beings are upright in life~
With sincerity ~ tell the world what it means to be brave ~
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What am I~only one out of ten~
In the vineyard ~ the hymn of the water fairy sounded ~ What am I~ one of the gravel of eternity~
The stone is so big ~ I am grateful for being born with this me ~
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"What am I? It is one of the gravel of eternity, the stone is so big, I am grateful for this ...... of nature."
Silently recalling the last sentence of the lyrics, the troubles in Du Xinghe's heart were relieved a lot.
I'm full of energy. He carried his guitar out of the bedroom, ready to copy a book while he still had time before bedtime.
The vast transportation project of the Kim Fourteen was only a third of the way through, and he had to rush to complete it.
However, before opening the notebook and copying the book, Du Xinghe first put the guitar away, the guitar he played was not the guitar of the Yuqin Workshop, the guitar of the Yuqin Workshop was placed in Xu Nuo's house, and Xu Nuo was given it, although the few guitars he now has at home are not the best guitars produced by the Yuqin Workshop. But it's also worth a lot of money. They are all classics close to 10,000 yuan. It must be put away, and he will always take good care of the instruments that interpret the life of music.
Then I sat down at the computer desk and opened my notebook.
Although he was in contact with Lu Qin during this time. But Lu Qin is still as good as ever after the updated version of the floating cloud system. Just send him the latest version.
Today's floating cloud system. There is already a feeling of WIN95 on the previous plane, and Du Xinghe is very comfortable with it. At the same time, he opened a dial-up network for his home. The development of the Internet in this era is still very slow. The dial-up is only 2K download rate, but the cost is surprisingly expensive, and the network service fee per hour is 15 yuan! The low value for money is staggering. You know, there are almost no websites on the so-called Internet in this era. Networks in Asia, Europe, and the Americas are not yet connected.
China's website construction is relatively high, but the total number is less than 50, and most of them are text-only or bulletin-type forums composed of text graphics, and more than half of them discuss computer technology.
However, there are also a few universities that have opened their forums to the public, allowing Internet users to visit and participate in discussions. Among them, the Sioux City University public forum taught by Lu Qin is the best and has the most extensive user flow. There are quite a few people who use the Internet privately to chat on the forums at Sioux City.
Du Xinghe has long experienced the freshness of chatting on the Internet, and he has no interest in chatting on the Internet at all, not to mention that the online chat in this era is not interactive like QQ, but chatting with posts in the pale forum framework, which is particularly boring.
Du Xinghe now only occasionally looks at the news on the Internet, but the news website in this era is also very simple, and the update speed is not as fast as the "Evening News" and "Daily", and the advantages of the Internet are not reflected at all, which makes Du Xinghe have the idea to set up a network technology branch for the cloud world to vigorously promote the development of the Internet here.
However, Du Xinghe had a contradictory attitude towards this matter, and he didn't want to get involved right away. Because if he seizes this opportunity and gets involved in the Internet, with the technical support of Lu Qin's company, he will definitely be able to create a prosperous network in the cloud world, but this problem will come, if the era of the Internet explosion, people's thinking and behavior will undergo earth-shaking changes, and the entire music scene will be violently impacted.
Although the awareness of copyright protection in this plane is very good, this is only at the physical level, and in the virtual network world, many bad sides of human nature may be released.
The Internet, in a sense, will shape a whole new people, a whole new society, a whole new ideology.
Who can guarantee that in such an ethereal and unbinding environment, people can still abide by a good sense of authenticity?
Just like the European and American countries in the previous plane, before the emergence of the Internet, they also had a strong awareness of the copyright of cultural works, but when the free lunch of the Internet appeared at first glance, it still had a huge impact on the entire cultural industry, and many old record companies died in this wave of impact. It wasn't until later that countries introduced strict laws on the protection of Internet copyright, and the cultural industry was buffered a little, but this huge wave still overturned many traditional industries. First and foremost is the traditional record industry.
With the experience of the previous plane, Du Xinghe can predict that when this plane network hits, the traditional record industry will also be violently impacted, which cannot be spared, and there is no luck at all.
Although this wave of impact is a double-edged sword for the music industry, there are pros and cons, but in Du Xinghe's view, this impact will definitely do more harm than good, because it has caused the music industry in almost all countries to be depressed. The status of singers has also become much less than before.
It is based on this worry that Du Xinghe does not want to vigorously promote the Internet, but he has to seize this opportunity, so as not to be one step ahead, so that the future development of the cloud world will be boosted step by step.
He had to get the timing right now.
According to his current consideration, he wants to put the cloud world on the right track in the second half of this year, go to Fuwan University for further study for a while, and wait until next year, and then gradually let the cloud world get involved in the Internet industry.
At that time, the network technology of this plane should be more mature, and the advanced concepts he brought from the previous plane will be easier to implement.
Otherwise, find some technicians to write instant messaging software now, even if it is written, it is impossible to promote it, let alone build a web portal, the current Internet is still at the level of text forums, how can it be possible to establish a portal such as Sina and NetEase?
Even, at this time, the Internet was not even sound search technology, and it was unrealistic to build a search website like Yahoo.
He still waits for the Internet technology to be more perfect, and then realizes the concept of moving forward.
This can be regarded as a kind of protection for the traditional music market.
After opening the notebook that night, Du Xinghe habitually dialed a number first, boarded the Internet, and then glanced at the entertainment news from the only entertainment news bulletin station, and found nothing new, so he cut off the network again.
Then he opened the word processing software, called up the last chapters of "Heaven and Dragon Slayer" from his head, and began to code words.
He has already completed several relatively short novels before, such as "Yue Nu Sword" with only more than 10,000 words, "Mandarin Duck Knife" and "White Horse Whistling West Wind" with less than 50,000 words, "Flying Fox Gaiden" with less than 200,000 words, and "Flying Fox in Snow Mountain" with less than 500,000 words.
Among the long stories, his favorite "The Condor Heroes" and "Smiling Proud Jianghu" have also begun to tackle tough problems, among which "Heaven and Dragon Slayer" has copied the most, and thirty-five chapters have been copied, and there are still five chapters left to complete. Tonight, he is going to finish "Heaven and Dragon Slayer". (To be continued......)