Shen Xuan took a breath gently, feeling that the air in this summer was more cutting than the cold winter wax moon, and she sucked it into her lungs at once, the blade was the same, uncomfortable, and panicked, the moonlight was so holy, but it shone on her scarred life.

She looked at Pei Li's shoulders, not as wide as before, the person was also thin, and the body under her hands could be pressed to the bones, when she first entered the Pei family, Pei was fat, but her face was full of red light, and she was majestic, and she was not even angry and arrogant.

At that time, she looked at this old man, and her heart and liver were trembling, for fear that she would be eaten alive by him, for fear that he would take revenge on his grandson and cut her up.

In the Pei family, the person she used to be most afraid of was Pei Li, and now the person she respects the most is also Pei Li, this respect is even more than the grandfather of the Shen family, although this emotion is not tied by blood, but it is also as strong as blood and unshakable.

So once she had a miscarriage, it was her grandfather who laid down the board, but she didn't hold a grudge against him.

Thinking of coming to this family, she doesn't owe Pei Jincheng anything, she is even willing to pay him for her own life, she hands herself over, and people are not rare, it's not that she doesn't cherish it.

It's just that she still feels indebted to her grandfather, and when the position of the master mother was passed to her, she helped her think about the way back, the scene and dialogue at that time are vivid, the fund for the second half of her life is written in Shen Xuan's name, and the date is when Pei Jincheng has not woken up yet.

When grandpa was delirious, he remembered the wrong things and the wrong people, but he wrote down in his notebook that Ah Xuan loves to eat chili peppers, but he wanted to remind her to eat less, spring dryness, and fire.

At such an age, except for the grandfather of the Shen family, no one has ever been so good to her, including Han Qiyang's grandfather, who has never considered her so well in her heart, but she really hasn't done anything for him except for debt.

How good it would be if the night was hazy, so clear and clear, like lighting a lamp, illuminating the water dripping on the back of a person's hand, for fear of being saddened by this cold and bright moonlight, and the sadness will flow backwards in the blood, uncontrollable.

"Ah Xuan, Jin Cheng is a bastard, but grandpa treats you as his own granddaughter."

Shen Xuan's strength could no longer go down, the old man's sad and desolate voice was full of helplessness, she knew that her grandfather always couldn't remember things, but he was particularly concerned about the child in her belly, so when it came to children, he always knew that it was Ah Xuan's, Ah Xuan and Jin Cheng's, but Jin Cheng couldn't discipline him and was disobedient.

She could always feel her grandfather's powerlessness when he was slightly sober.

She even felt that her grandfather was already a little inferior because she often couldn't remember things, she was very afraid, afraid that when she left, her grandfather's damaged nerves could not be fully recovered, and now she knew that the person who was poisoned was Pei Xianye, and it was easy to prevent it, but the doctor's statement was still the treatment of mercury poisoning, and recovery did not only depend on medical treatment, but also on luck.

The Pei family has such a strong family business, and a matter of chronic poisoning actually depends on luck.

Pei Li couldn't discipline Pei Jincheng, he himself was always guilty from his words, he felt ashamed of Shen Xuan, whenever Shen Xuan saw Pei Li like this, she was very distressed, her own marriage was not handled well, but the old man was guilty, in the final analysis, she was still incompetent.

Squatting next to Pei Li's lap, Shen Xuan put her head on the old man's lap, like a summer day when she was a child, lying on her grandfather's lap, and telling him stories from the sky under the shade of the tree, even if her grandfather made it up randomly, she was fascinated by it.

At this time, she didn't listen to it, but sobbed slightly, "Grandpa, I may not be a good mother, but you will definitely be a good grandfather, whether it is a boy or a girl, I am very relieved to stay by your side."

I will marry in the future, and I will have other children with other men, I am afraid that my future husband will treat this child badly, it is better to stay by your side, you will definitely love him well and will not let people bully him. ”

Shen Xuan said things against her heart, opened her mouth, and didn't dare to cry, she only knew that the cry could be suppressed, but the tears and distress couldn't be suppressed, she was pregnant with a child of ten months, how much she wanted to be with him, but if she left and took the child away, what would grandpa do?

Grandpa often stood alone in the yard and refused to go into the house to sleep, and she asked him, "Grandpa, what's wrong?" ”

He always looked at the moon disk above his head, choked up, and said, "Ah Xuan, if I hadn't hit you that time, the child would have called grandpa, right?" ”

Shen Xuan knows what the child in her womb means to the Pei family's room, the Pei family attaches great importance to the heir, and the first child in the long room she is now carrying, her grandfather always says that it is a boy, if it is a boy, it is a descendant.

If it is a boy, it is the future head of the family, and she can't take this child away.

Shen Xuan knew that his grandfather couldn't remember the time many times, and he would feel confused that a long time had passed, he had always thought that the incident of beating her in the forbidden garden was many years ago, and if the child was still there, he would have been called grandpa. She knew that her grandfather was fantasizing, because she wanted to add a child to the long house too much, and she fantasized about the phantom of a child.

In the incident of the miscarriage in the forbidden garden, the scar in the bottom of the grandfather's heart is shallower than whom? If he loses another great-grandson, his old age is estimated to be over, and whether he can regain his former wisdom in this life is a trivial matter, the key is that he is afraid that he will not be able to accept that kind of heartache and cannot afford to be sick.

Shen Xuan knows that no matter how sad she is, she is younger than her grandfather, and the road in the future is longer, without Pei Jincheng, she can grow old alone, so it is okay for her to know in another place that the Pei family has loved her and the people she cares about are doing well.

She and Pei Jincheng are divorced, how can they continue to live in this house? "Grandpa, you can see that I'm not happy living here, Jin Cheng is in his early thirties after all, and I don't want to force him, while I'm still young, grandpa, just forgive me, I know I'm a bastard."

Speaking of this, she buried her face in Pei Li's knees with a "woo", "Grandpa, Ah Xuan has gone back on her word and treacherously three or four times, I beg you to forgive Ah Xuan, Ah Xuan is not intentional, Ah Xuan doesn't want to persevere, Ah Xuan really can't hold on!" I can't hold on anymore! ”

Shen Xuan cried sadly, Pei Li's hand was on top of her head, "Grandpa doesn't blame you, this time it's grandpa who is old and useless, he can't discipline that bastard, grandpa is useless, Ah Xuan, grandpa is useless!" ”

Shen Xuan listened to his grandfather's trembling voice and said sadly, "It's useless!" The pain in my heart became more and more uncomfortable, "Grandpa, don't say that, it's between me and him, it has nothing to do with anyone, it's just that I'm useless, I can't stand his toss like this, I just can't hold on." ”

She couldn't hold on, she couldn't even ask him to love her, but she wanted the most basic respect, but that contract said it all, he had trampled on her dignity.

Compared with Bai Shan's fair and honest care, she couldn't stand that he spent so much money to find a man that thousands of women are crazy about to seduce her.

After all, she still had fantasies, fantasizing that he was just acting, anyway, she didn't see him sleeping with Bai Shan, so why think so much? But that contract shattered the mirage she had built with her own thoughts. Everything came to naught in an instant.

The sky is falling apart.

He called another man to seduce her, seduce her to have sex with another man, just for evidence of her cheating, just to get her out of the house, just to get her out of the Pei family.

She didn't know what other reason to hold on except for her grandfather.

The only thing she was ashamed of was this old man.

"Ah Xuan, you stay in the Pei family, take the baby, and live with your grandfather." Pei Li never opened his eyes, but the tears in his eyes fell into Shen Xuan's hair like crystal stones under the illumination of the moonlight.

"Grandpa, after I leave, I don't want to see Jin Cheng again, please let me break this thought, you know very well, if I continue to stay, I will only be hurt by him, I know that you love me, so I made this request to you, but if you refuse to let me go, I will follow your wishes, stay, I will stay, whatever he gives me, I will bear it, I promised you, I will do it."

Pei Li didn't speak for a long time, he just stroked Shen Xuan's hair over and over again, as if he had touched Pei Xinyao's hair, that was his favorite little daughter, who had lived for decades, was in such a hurry, and suddenly arrived in ancient times, life was bitter and short, "Ah Xuan, if you want to come back one day, Wutong Yuan...... It's still yours, the head of Jincheng's generation, the hostess who lives in Wutong Garden, there is only one Shen Xuan, if he wants to marry any woman in the future, I will not allow him to bring him into Wutong Garden to live, grandpa lives here, and you will guard it. ”

Shen Xuan hugged Pei Li's waist on one side, her face was close to his heart, and she was choking and whimpering, she didn't know if everything would be wrong in the future, but she would remember that over the years, there was an old man who had no blood relationship with her, and he had protected her countless times, even if he was still protecting her, "Grandpa......"

Pei Li took Shen Xuan's hand, his eyebrows were spread, his eyes were full of tears, but the corners of his mouth were slightly curved, bitter, but smiling, "Ah Xuan, the baby's name, you can come up." ”

Shen Xuan looked at Pei Li, the corners of her mouth couldn't bend, she could only shrivele, shook her head, her hand wrapped Pei Li's hand, and shook her head with tears, "I don't want to name him, and grandpa won't tell me his name in the future, after I give birth to him, grandpa will let people take him away, don't let me see him, don't let me hear his cry, don't tell him if he's healthy, don't tell me if he's a boy or a girl, don't let me hear a little bit of news from him, don't let me soften my heart, grandpa, don't let me soften my heart......"

Today's second update is out of the pot. The monthly pass seems to be all wooden. What a hurry.