Chapter 21: Love first and lose
Jiang Zhou didn't expect Cheng Yan to come.
It came without warning, but it was very accurate.
So much so that when he stood at the door with his suitcase in tow, Jiang Zhou thought he was dazzled.
It was raining outside again, and there was no time to think about anything, so Jiang Zhou hurriedly pulled Cheng Yan in.
"How did you find here?" Jiang Zhou asked as he handed him the towel.
"You're hurt, why didn't you tell me?" Cheng Yan didn't answer her question, but asked her.
"How do you know I'm hurt?"
Jiang Zhou was surprised, she didn't disclose this matter to Cheng Yan, and she didn't want to tell her.
"Fang Wei, when I was in graduate school, we were alumni."
Hearing the name Fang Wei, Ji An, who was standing still, and Yi Cang, who was eavesdropping, reacted.
Jiang Zhou really didn't expect that Fang Wei and Cheng Yan actually knew each other and were still alumni.
Then he can find this place accurately, and it must be the news given by Fang Wei.
Mouthy woman.
Jiang Zhou thought indignantly in his heart.
"Eh, let me introduce you, this is my friend, Cheng Yan." Jiang Zhou said.
"Mr. Ji, it's a good luck."
Cheng Yan stretched out his hand towards Ji An.
"Mr. Cheng."
Ji An looked at him and held it back.
The eyes are facing each other, and the electric light is flashing.
It turned out that he was Cheng Yan.
The phone call that made Jiang Zhou leave in a hurry was made by him.
Ji An sensed Cheng Yan's obvious hostility towards him.
"Come here."
Jiang Zhou said to Cheng Yan.
Cheng Yan retracted his eyes and walked over obediently.
"Go upstairs and take a shower in my room." Jiang Zhou looked at Cheng Yan, who was soaking wet.
"Okay."
Cheng Yan followed Jiang Zhou upstairs, and said in a voice that could be heard by Ji An and Yi Cang, "I miss you." ”
"Got it!" Jiang Zhou scolded.
Ji An watched the two of them go upstairs intimately, his eyes darkened.
Yi Cang felt the corners of her mouth twitch a little.
She was not too embarrassed to stay next to the silent Ji An, so she found an excuse to escape upstairs, and she wanted to share this gossip with Zhou Yingguang as soon as possible.
Not long after I finished a women's play, now I'm going to start a man's play again.
……
"What's going on?"
Cheng Yan pressed Jiang Zhou's arm and examined her wounds.
"Accidentally wounded with a shotgun." Jiang Zhou replied.
Cheng Yan stared at her eyes and saw that her gaze did not dodge.
"Why didn't you tell me? You treat me like... Friends? ”
"Even if you don't consider me a friend, then I'm your doctor. I have the right to know anything wrong with your body. ”
"Do you know how worried I was when Fang Wei told me?!"
"I can't wait to fly over as soon as I have a pair of wings!"
Cheng Yan complained, angry, unwilling and embarrassed.
"Fang Wei, why did you tell you? Does she know we know? ”
Jiang Zhou grasped the point.
"I have a good relationship with Fang Wei, and we met and had dinner together in the imperial capital. She told me that she had gone to Yishan before and asked for an answer from her ex-boyfriend. ”
"As soon as I heard her say Yishan, I thought of you. Say I have a friend named Jiang Zhou. She is also in Yishan. ”
No wonder.
There was such a coincidence.
"Is she going to get an answer?"
Jiang Zhou asked without thinking.
"Jiang Zhou! That's not the point! You go back with me! It's too dangerous here! ”
Cheng Yan Siwen's face was a rare anger.
"Nope." Jiang Zhou categorically refused.
"How long have you been here and you're wounded? What happens after that, you know? Ji An, he is dangerous, he is not a simple man! You're on his side, and you're only going to get more hurt! Besides, he already has Fang Wei! ”
Cheng Yan's emotions were very excited.
"What did Fang Wei tell you?" Jiang Zhou asked.
"She didn't say anything to me!" Cheng Yan replied quickly.
Jiang Zhou looked at Cheng Yan like this, and his heart was cold, "Have you forgotten what I told you the day before I left?" ”
Cheng Yan was stunned.
They did have an agreement.
Thoughts go back to that day.
Jiang Zhou held the red wine glass, the color on her nails was the same as the color of the wine in the glass, she looked coldly at Cheng Yan, who had been talking on the other side, and said something undeniable to him.
Pour yourself some more wine, watch the fuchsia liquid flow, raise your hand, and take a small sip.
"Jiang Zhou, have you really decided?"
Cheng Yan is Jiang Zhou's doctor, and it has been 10 years since he first met Jiang Zhou at the funeral.
He had always known that her emotions were capricious and freewheeling, but this time she decided, he really didn't expect it.
"What are you for? Punish yourself? Expiation? For yourself, or ...... Cheng Que? ”
Cheng Que, her young lover, it's been a long time since I've heard this name, probably a few years.
Originally, he was haunted by his dreams every day, but after his mother's funeral, Jiang Zhou never dreamed of him again.
Until that day, the night she made her decision, Cheng Que and her mother, these two people appeared in Jiang Zhou's dream at the same time.
Cheng Que is still like that, evil and handsome.
And the mother, she has always been pitiful. But in that dream, she saw her mother smile softly at her.
"It was my 27th birthday present."
Cheng Yan picked up the wine glass, drank it all, and finally burst out of his teeth, "You are creative." ”
It's clear that he can start again, but he has to run into a corner.
This woman, from the very beginning, he was from an outsider's point of view, looking at her decayed and withered appearance at that time, from taking her to the hospital after fainting at the funeral, and then becoming her doctor.
It all made him feel like a god, and he was saving her broken soul.
After helping her start all over again, everything was different.
Jiang Zhou has such a ability, even if she just treats him coldly, he still goes from an outsider to a completely insider.
Struggling, unable to escape, the more you try to escape, the deeper you fall.
"I'm still not going to give up, isn't it good to stay here? Even if you don't have anyone else around, at least... I'll be with you. ”
"Cheng Yan, do you love me?"
"I ......" Faced with a sudden question, Cheng Yan was speechless.
Love her, of course I do. has been with her for so many years, and how many years have they spent with each other. Isn't that love?
But he was too timid and cowardly.
Faced with this woman who once loved his brother deeply, he couldn't even say a word of love for her.
Or is it because he is too jealous, jealous that his own brother, who he hates the most and who is useless in his eyes, can get her complete and wholehearted love for two years.
Even if he was dead, Cheng Yan knew that in Jiang Zhou's heart, there would always be a small place left for him.
Jiang Zhou looked at the unpredictable expression on Cheng Yan's face and hooked his lips.
"Cheng Yan, you are too conceited. You look down on Cheng Que from the bottom of your heart, and you look down on me. You've always felt like you're saving me, and you've helped Cheng Que clean up the mess. So even after so many years, you have feelings for me, but you dare not admit it. ”
Jiang Zhou took a sip of wine, "But this is also right, I followed Cheng Que, at that time, I was a mouse in the gutter." Your mentality, human nature. ”
Cheng Yan was still muttering as if to explain something, Jiang Zhou pointed his index finger at his lips, his eyes were cold and firm, and motioned for him to shut up.
"I've already decided to go to Yishan, and besides, I've made up my mind to stay there for the rest of my life. If you really want to think about it, I can't sleep......"
Jiang Zhou's expression became playful again. "Then come to Yishan to find me."
……
"If you miss me and come to Yishan to find me, then there is no problem." Jiang Zhou said.
"But. If you want to take me away and let me leave Yishan, then, I tell you, no. ”
"Jiang Zhou......" Cheng Yan wanted to continue to speak.
"Didn't you always think you knew me, and if you knew me, why did you try to take me away? Why do you want to make decisions for me regardless of my thoughts? To your will? ”
"I ...... Sorry ......"
Cheng Yan's expression was decayed.
"Don't say sorry to me, you don't have anything to be sorry for. I'm sorry to say sorry to you, thank you. ”
Jiang Zhou said this and looked directly at him.
It's Cheng Yan, don't start.
"You don't have to thank me, you don't have to be polite to me, I'm most afraid that you will say thank you to me. It's as if I'm just a person you're not close to, as if I've only known you for ten days and half a month, and you're wary of me, wearing a mask, being respectful, and doing a full set of etiquette. It's not you, Jiang Zhou, it's not. ”
Cheng Yan's face flashed with pain, it took him many years to get Jiang Zhou to accept him, to be unkind to him, impatient, and even sometimes fierce.
Only in this way can we get closer to a more realistic river boat.
A personality that is cold because of vulnerability, and tough because of fear.
She has experienced too many pains and changes in her past.
She hid herself deeply.
"Let me stay with you for a few more days." Cheng Yan pleaded.
He felt more like he was pleading, begging.
"Okay."
Jiang Zhou agreed, for Cheng Yan. She owed so much that she couldn't refuse.
"Go take a hot shower. If you have a cold, don't infect me, I hate colds. ”
……
Ji An was chopping vegetables in the kitchen, a distraction, and by the time he reacted, the blood on his hands had already flowed out.
He quickly rushed underwater, ran upstairs, and just wanted to knock on Jiang Zhou's room, but stopped again.
He heard the sound of bathing water in his room.
Luckily, he seems to have a band-aid in his room as well.
Think back to when you were distracted.
What the hell was he thinking?
I don't remember.
Like a fish.
Not only does he have a seven-second memory, but he also accidentally hit a reef, swim ashore, and run aground on the beach.
I put on a band-aid and pulled out a pack of cigarettes from a drawer I hadn't opened in a long time.
Ignite.
The sound of the water next door seemed to last as long as a day.
A burst of fog.
The bitterness of nicotine fills the entire mouth.
But I can't hide the taste in my heart.
It is astringent.
Like green persimmons that are not ripe or soaked in herbal juice.
A voice in his heart was laughing at him:
Look, you've lost.
Go down in flames.