The German philosopher Martin Heidegger, in Being and Time, discussed the concept of death in detail with rational thinking, and finally came up with the answer: the countdown method in the sense of life, that is, to live towards death.

Death is a process, and death is a result.

It is the knowledge that we inevitably die every day that fuels the desire to be born.

Jiang Zhou has never been afraid of death, but she lives, even if she suffers, because she knows that she still has a lot to do.

Even if it is small and meager, she wants to make her existence more meaningful.

It can be said to be an atonement.

Death is very easy, and those who easily choose to cut themselves off often lack a sense of responsibility. Because to live in this world, you must be burdened with responsibilities, and it is too difficult.

It's much harder to live than to die.

She is not a person without a sense of responsibility, and although she has always been free-spirited, she knows very well what she should bear.

That's the end of my past life.

It was mixed with hot water and body fluids, and it all flowed into the sewer.

After Ji An listened, he didn't say a word, and helped her wipe away the water on her body and the tears on her face.

Until both of them have cleaned up and turned off the lights.

Only then did he speak softly: "Except for Ling Yu's matter, you are wrong. Other things, at that time, you really just made decisions that fit your state of mind, and there is no right or wrong. If there is a mistake and retribution, you will bear it and atone for your sins, and now you have done a good job. ”

Because of all the things in the past, Jiang Zhou after him was used to putting himself on the tip of the knife.

This is true even now.

That's why her illness can't be cured.

She is not afraid of death, so she convicted herself of a crime heavier than the death penalty.

……

Jiang Zhou slept very incomfortably, waking up intermittently, and then falling asleep in a blur.

This causes her to not know when she is awake and when she is actually dreaming.

But whether in her dreams or awake, she felt someone gently patting her back.

It's like putting a child to sleep.

One at a time, tirelessly.

It's Ji An.

In dreams.

When you wake up.

It's all him.

……

"What will come tomorrow?

Maybe not you.

Maybe it's another kind of hug,

A new kind of contact and similar pain......

I will leave you with a unique conviction.

I will return as part of your own suffering.

I will come to you from another paradise with a new determination.

I will come to you from another planet with the same gaze.

I will come to you with a strange, wicked, and loyal soul,

With the traces of the beast in the desolate garden of your heart.

You will hit me, harsh and powerless,

Just as you are fighting against your destiny, your happiness, your stars.

I twisted the silk thread around my fingers with a smile,

And I will hide the little spool of your destiny in the folds of my clothes. ”

……

The next day, Jiang Zhou came to drive, and Ji An guided the route on the side.

The next stop they were going to was Linxi Town.

Linxi Town is a long way from Tingqi, and it takes about ten hours to drive.

In the morning, the river boat opens, and in the afternoon, the shore opens.

Because Ji An decided to go to Linxi today and stop in the village in the middle, the two of them bought dry food and fruits in the morning.

"Why are you in such a hurry all of a sudden?" In the past, it was slow.

"It was too long to delay. Duan Xiao was already a little anxious. Ji An replied.

"Duan Xiao?" Jiang Zhou asked.

"He's already coming with us personally." Ji An said. Jiang Zhou was kidnapped that day, and Duan Xiao was in Yuanshui, which was too much of a coincidence.

An abrupt cell phone rings.

"In the mezzanine of the bag." Jiang Zhou didn't look at it, and drove wholeheartedly.

Ji An finds the phone.

Cheng Yan.

"Pick it up?" I just wanted to hand it to him, but I accidentally pressed the answer button.

"Hello? Jiang Zhou? Cheng Yan's voice came from the other end of the phone.

Just passing by the toll booth, Jiang Zhou was busy paying.

Ji An had no choice but to pick up the phone.

"It's not convenient for her to answer the phone right now." Ji An replied.

There was silence on the other end of the phone for a while, and then the tone was extremely bad, "Ji An? Then I'll call back later. ”

"Okay." Ji An immediately wanted to hang up the phone, but this side had already been dealt with.

"Turn on hands-free."

I told him everything last night, and there was no shying away from it.

Ji An turns on the hands-free button.

"Cheng Yan, it's me." Jiang Zhou said.

"Jiang Zhou? What were you doing? How did he answer the call? You guys...... Together? Cheng Yan's voice was a little dry.

"I was driving just now." Jiang Zhou replied, "What's wrong with you?" With such a hoarse voice? ”

"I stayed up late and did three surgeries, and I was a little tired." Cheng Yan explained that Jiang Zhou didn't answer his call yesterday, and since then, he has been busy until now.

"I called you yesterday to say that I found news of Ling Yu. In some school records, this person can indeed be found, but then he was expelled from the school for unknown reasons. Cheng Yan would think about the news he had found.

This time it was much easier to find than the first time, because some information about the school had already been sorted out last time.

"Well, I already know." Jiang Zhou replied.

"Jiang Zhou, how are you feeling lately? Insomnia? Is tension and anxiety severe? Cheng Yan began to ask again.

"Answer honestly and actively cooperate with the treatment." Cheng Yan added another sentence.

Jiang Zhou swallowed back the words she had thought of, and besides, she felt the ...... of Ji An beside her Stare.

It seems that as long as she is not honest and lies, he will immediately copy the guy and clean her up.

Jiang Zhou sighed and simply stopped the car at the rest stop.

"Insomnia, it's still the same. Feelings of nervousness and anxiety...... Now I feel a lot easier than before. Jiang Zhou replied honestly.

After Ling Yu's incident, she really felt a lot more comfortable in her heart.

Otherwise, it is always like a sword of Damocles hanging over the head.

"Before you go to bed, stop thinking about anything and let yourself relax. As for the tension and anxiety, have you solved some things recently? Cheng Yan asked.

"Well, yes." Jiang Zhou replied.

"That looks pretty good." After Cheng Yan finished speaking, he yawned, "I'm sorry." ”

"You're really well-behaved. Hurry up and get some rest, I'm going to drive. Jiang Zhou said.

"That's good. I'll call you back in a few days. Cheng Yan said that he was indeed very tired, originally Jiang Zhou didn't answer his phone yesterday, he was in a hurry, but he was suddenly called for surgery.

He can't bring his personal emotions to work, otherwise there may be some mistakes, which is related to the safety of the patient.

Ji An helped her hang up the phone and put the phone back in its place.

"Where's my hawthorn roll?" Jiang Zhou asked, they passed by the small supermarket in the morning and bought a lot of snacks.

Ji An took out the hawthorn roll from the bag in the back seat, a long one, and handed it to her.

"Your gesture of holding a hawthorn roll is like holding a test tube."

Jiang Zhou said casually, got the hawthorn roll, and loosened the paper that was originally rolled up.

Ji An also peeled a hawthorn roll and ate it in his mouth, which was sweet and sticky.

"Why don't you just rest here and get something to eat?" Jiang Zhou proposed.

She looked at the nearby places, and there was really no good place, so it was better to stop here.

There is only one small grocery store and public toilets at the rest stop. Jiang Zhou glanced at the toilet.

There were many stains of different colors on the white walls, and there were many black footprints.

After standing in front of the public toilet for a full minute, Jiang Zhou lifted his feet and went in.

It was dirty and smelly, and it didn't live up to Jiang Zhou's expectations at all.

However, this is a little better than the place where she was locked up by Ling Yu before.

Opening a door, Jiang Zhou glanced at it, almost vomited out the hawthorn he had eaten, and a burst of sour air appeared in his throat.

Hurriedly closed the door.

The door next to it is also closed.

That's the way it is, you never know how smelly it will be when the next door in the toilet opens.

Going to the toilet is simply a test of Jiang Zhou's lung capacity.

Hold his breath and go out and walk ten meters away before Jiang Zhou dared to breathe.

When I walked there, I found that Ji An had gotten out of the car and had been waiting there.

A yellow puppy ran out of the grocery store.

Chinese pastoral dog, commonly known as earth dog.

Jiang Zhou wanted to tease the dog, but he didn't feel good.

From the crack in the cement road on the side of the road, pull out a dog's tail grass, and gently tease the puppy with the fluffy end.

It was very well-behaved, rubbed it with its black nose, and then lay down with its little white belly.

Jiang Zhou rubbed the dog's tail grass on its small belly while observing its black nose.

Moist and healthy.

Jiang Zhou ate a chocolate cake and a banana.

"Eat so little?" Ji An asked with a frown.

"I'll eat slowly while you're driving." Jiang Zhou replied.

After the break, Jiang Zhou and Ji An Liang and Re changed positions.

Jiang Zhou couldn't help but look at the man who was driving, the side lines of his face were sharp, and the proportions were very harmonious.

When he was young, he must have had a more noble and cold temperament.

And now, staying in Yishan, it is dark, and his skin is a lot rougher, and what replaces his original delicate and noble atmosphere is a sense of vicissitudes of a thousand sails.

It's unique and it's particularly appealing.

From the beginning, Jiang Zhou was attracted to it in this way.

After more than five hours, they managed to reach Linxi Town.

After checking in, I had some dinner downstairs, and the two of them would rest.

There was only one room again, but Jiang Zhou didn't care anymore.

When Ji An came out of the shower, he saw Jiang Zhou sitting on the ground, holding a photo frame in his hand in a daze.

While wiping his hair, he walked up to her and stole a look.

Terrace.

It's the view from the main mountain.

"This is what my mom painted on the main hill at that time. Isn't it particularly talented? ”

Jiang Zhou smiled lightly, turned the painting upside down, and showed it to Ji An.

"Indeed."

Although Ji An didn't understand these artistic things, but in that painting, from the perspective of a layman's viewer, he felt that the painter was extremely talented.

It is full of natural aura.

"Ji An." Jiang Zhou's tone changed suddenly.

The TV was not turned on, and there was silence in the room.

"Did you hear that...... A woman's cry? ”