He didn't even dare to imagine how he had survived this period of incense.

Misunderstood by myself, lost a child, poor health, a series of blows...... Dongfang Che thought about it, and felt more and more that he was a bastard, a big bastard.

Thinking of this, Dongfang Che slapped the table fiercely, but he didn't realize that his hand was red and swollen because of the hard slap. He knew that the pain in his hands now was less than one thousandth of the pain in Zhan Meixiang's heart.

Dongfang Che's expression was a little terrifying, and he turned his head to look at Zhong who was standing at the door with red eyes, "You just said how could Xiang'er be poisoned?" ”

Zhong truthfully said, "It was the lord of Xuanyuan Kingdom who poisoned the soup that the queen drank every day, and there was no antidote to the poison, even the imperial doctor was helpless, and could only use medicine to temporarily control the queen's condition, and the queen mother was already ......."

Looking at the emperor's increasingly pale face, Zhong didn't continue, he thought that the emperor knew what he was going to say next.

Dongfang Che didn't know how to describe the feelings in his heart at this time, he thought that he was really a coward, and he didn't know that the woman he loved the most had suffered such a big grievance.

Dongfang Che kept sinking when he listened to Zhong's report to him about everything Zhan Meixiang had experienced recently. How could it be...... How could he be so confused......

Dongfang Che didn't know how to describe his mood now......

Sadness, pain, resentment......

He hated ...... He hated himself for being so confused, just like this, hurting a woman he loved and loved him so much that he couldn't do anything......

Dongfang Che thought of what he had done to Zhan Meixiang before, and he couldn't help but feel a sharp pain in his heart. Just when Xiang'er needed herself the most...... Just when Xiang'er needed her trust the most...... He not only chose suspicion and distrust, but also talked to Sun Guifei in front of Xiang'er...... He couldn't imagine Xiang'er's mood at that time, because he didn't dare to imagine it. He knew that if he changed himself to the position that Xiang'er was in at that time, he would definitely hate the person who was negative to him......

Xiang'er ...... Will you hate yourself, right?

Definitely......

Dongfang Che couldn't imagine that Xiang'er could have any reason to forgive herself, or even be willing to forgive herself......

And also...... Child...... Their children......

Their unborn child, who was supposed to be very happy......

Dongfang Che suddenly felt that he had failed to be the emperor, and he couldn't even protect his own woman, what emperor was called?! For the sake of the court, he has to sacrifice his own women and even his own children, what is the point of this emperor doing it?!

The stone that Dongfang Che pressed in his heart became bigger and heavier, and it became more and more breathless......

What kind of husband is he? What kind of father is it? Dongfang Che felt more and more that what he was doing was not as good as ...... Even if it is an animal that doesn't understand anything, it does something better than what he wants to do......

Will Xiang'er still forgive herself?

Probably not...... He ...... this time Is it really too much, too selfish...... It would be nice if I could compensate Xiang'er...... But...... What can be done to compensate for the mistakes he committed to Xiang'er?

For the first time in his life, Dongfang Che had the idea of death, but he was immediately suppressed by Dongfang Che.