After he answered the phone, his face became very unsightly, and he came over to me and said, "Chen Sansan, I have something urgent to go out, you should take a shower and go to bed early. Fastest update access: щщщ.79XS.сОΜ

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I opened my mouth to ask what I was doing out, but before I could ask, Zhang Minglang said, "My mother asked me to go to the hospital, saying it was urgent." ”

I said that I would go to the hospital, and I didn't want to ask anything, so I told him to drive carefully, and let him go out.

Because he never came back, I was worried in my heart, and I couldn't sleep at all, so I sat on the sofa next to the kitten and watched TV.

When he opened the 'door', I went straight to meet him, and I was even more worried when I saw that his face was not 'looking'.

So I quickly asked, "Are you alright?" ”

Zhang Minglang's expression was a little dazed, and he suddenly stretched out his hand to support my shoulders, stared at me and said, "Chen Sansan, I want to tell you something." ”

Looking at his expression, my heart chuckled, there was always an ominous omen.

Then, he suddenly pulled me into his arms and said slowly, "Chen Sansan, I'm sorry for you." ”

My heart instantly felt like I had been thrown from a high altitude, and I couldn't bear the torture of such speculation, so I said, "You better just say, what happened?" ”

Zhang Minglang took a deep breath, his voice became softer and softer, but I could hear it clearly.

"Su Xiaomi and I have a child, two years old."

This sentence, like a needle, pierced into my eardrum at once, and my ear was shaken and painful.

And the heart that had just fallen to pieces was like someone holding a hammer and a nail, pressing it on my heart and knocking it down, and the tips of those steel nails were so fiercely embedded in my heart.

The pain, like the crazy and arrogant aquatic plants in the pond in summer, has been growing wildly, and the branches are luxuriant trying to snatch away all the oxygen that I have just found in my heart, and I am so uncomfortable that I want to die, and tears almost fall.

I knew I couldn't hold on to his past and hold on to it.

But now, I'm scared.

Even if a few months ago, Su Xiaomi yelled at me, I was still a little sure in my heart, and I felt that I had the chance to win.

And now, things seem to be getting complicated.

That's me Chen Sansan, I lost my child just ten days ago, and she and Zhang Minglang have a two-year-old child, this is a living life, it is an existence that cannot be ignored at all, he is Zhang Minglang's blood, and his blood is thicker than water.

And what shall I say?

Yes, I don't know what to say anymore.

A little frustrated, I struggled to push him away.

I was so calm that I went to the door to collect the bills, and I asked him, "What do you want now?" ”

The sweetness of going to buy a puppy together a few hours ago is still vivid, and all the sweetness seems to be wrapped in my fingertips and has not yet dissipated, but now I know that all the sweet foreshadowing before is just to show how cruel it is behind.

I think I'd better calm down, I don't think I can shed tears right now, for him, maybe having a two-year-old child is a happy event, and from my point of view I think it's a tragedy for me.

The two of us, facing this matter, have completely different perspectives and psychological feelings, so I definitely can't be hoarse before I can say anything.

I still wonder what he thinks.

But I obviously wanted to hold back, but in the confrontation with him, my eyes were red.

At this time, the kitten on the side suddenly knocked over the cow's milk, and the bowl was pushed by it properly, and I finally found a focus to set my gaze, and I finally had an excuse to turn my face away from him.

I'm still afraid that he will see the surging and floating on my face.

After a period of silence, Zhang Minglang suddenly ran up and hugged me fiercely, and said in my ear: "Chen Sansan, don't you 'agitate' first?" Tonight, Xiaozhi was sick, and my mother couldn't stand it anymore so she called me. ”

Xiao Zhi.

I see, it's still a boy.

No matter what he Zhang Minglang has to say next, I seem to be able to see my sad future with him.

During this time, after losing my child, I was like a witherer, but that doesn't mean that I was so haggard that I lost my IQ, I still know how to observe words and 'colors', seeing Zhang Minglang talking on the phone in a low voice, and it didn't take long for him to 'agitate' and want to go crazy, and the fine and fragmented words in my mouth were carefully pieced together by me, that is, Zhang Bailing kept telling Zhang Minglang that after I lost my child, I didn't know if I could have children in the future.

I knew early on that Zhang Bailing didn't really accept me, all his kind and pleasant 'colors' during my pregnancy were all for the sake of the child, and I had already seen through the cruelty and disgusting of human 'nature'.

And now the man in front of me, I don't know if he is the same as Zhang Bailing, the same superficial, the same deep-rooted idea in his bones that a 'woman' should inherit his ancestry, whether he will treat Su Xiaomi differently because of this little ambition.

I would also wonder if he would be silent because Su Xiaomi gave birth to a child for him, which would 'provoke' him to have more pity and guilt for her.

The thought of such a possible 'sex' makes me so uncomfortable that I die and come back to life.

I became the kind of 'woman' that I despised myself.

I'm going to lower my bottom line again and again.

I was cowardly and timid to think that as long as he didn't leave me, it would be fine.

So I didn't dare to push him away again, so I lowered my voice and asked cautiously again, "Then what do you think now?" ”

Zhang Minglang was silent again, in the silent air, it seemed that many things were exploding, and he said halfway: "It's too late, why don't you rest early." ”

In the free time he went to the shower, I lay on the 'bed' and tossed and turned.

When the bedroom door was pushed open, I subconsciously turned around and pretended to be asleep.

With his eyes closed, I heard the lights being turned off, and then he climbed into the 'bed'.

Cautiously, he reached over and touched me and said, "Chen Sansan, are you asleep?" ”

Originally, I could still hold back my emotions, but as soon as he touched me, I cried.

Afraid of being seen by him, I didn't look back, but deliberately pretended to be asleep in a 'confused' and 'confused' voice, and I said vaguely: "Don't make me sleep." ”

Zhang Minglang suddenly turned over me, turned over and faced me, stretched out his hand and covered my eyes and said, "Don't cry, okay?" ”

In the dark, I couldn't see his expression, his hand was still on my face, I moved inside, and said stiffly, "I didn't." ”

Zhang Minglang suddenly sighed and said, "I'm sorry, it's my fault that made things complicated." ”

I didn't answer.

Zhang Minglang suddenly stuck to me, hugged me tightly, and didn't speak again.

In the end, it was me who broke the deadlock and asked, "Is Xiaozhi okay?" ”

Zhang Minglang was slightly stunned, and only said after half a sound: "Severe cold." Some time ago, he was brought back to Shenzhen, and he has been following my mother, I am in a cold war with my mother, she is the kind of person who doesn't look for her after a quarrel, and she won't pay attention to my spleen. This time I'm in a hurry, so I can know..."

Zhang Minglang said in the end, and forced the last words down to his stomach.

He may have wanted to say that I could only find out that I had a son, but he may have swallowed it to take care of my feelings.

I was reluctant to look at his embarrassment, so I thought for a while and said, "Can you tell you what you think?" ”

Zhang Minglang leaned over again, leaving a dragonfly on my forehead, and then said slowly: "Chen Sansan, you know, Su Xiaomi, she is like that." Xiao Zhi followed her, not good. My mother's three views are a bit problematic, and I'm afraid that if he follows her, he will definitely be ruined, I think..."

"You want to take him over and stay with us, don't you?" I cut him off and answered coldly.

Maybe they couldn't see their expressions in the dark, Zhang Minglang probably judged my emotions by my tone, he quickly held my hand and said, "I didn't dare to wronged you like this." But Xiao Zhi is innocent after all...."

I let out a sigh, turned away, turned my back to him, and said in a soft voice, "I'm sleepy." ”

Actually, what I want to say is, Zhang Minglang, why are you so sure that Xiaozhi is your child? Did you see with your own eyes that Su Mi was pregnant with your child? Did you get a paternity test? Can you not let your mother take a child and point at him and say to you that he is your child, then you really think it is your child?

But I don't dare to say.

This makes me look too good. He seems to be too aggressive and 'forced' people, and he seems too embarrassed now.

Moreover, it will 'expose' my heart, my cowardice, my unwillingness, my panic, and I don't want to accept the fact that he has a child with another 'woman'.

So I finally forced myself to fall asleep, hoping that when I woke up, it was actually a nightmare, and when I woke up, it would disappear without a trace.

But no, when I opened my eyes and got out of bed, I saw Zhang Minglang sitting there with a loose expression, and the kitten next to him was sitting next to him, he seemed to be unconscious, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

I was so sad to see him like that.

I found that I was afraid that he would be sad, more than he would make me sad.

I just watched him silently, forgetting that we were all going to work, and I was no longer afraid of being late.

He finally came out of his fugue and stood up when he saw me, and came to me and said, "Breakfast is ready, go wash your face and brush your teeth, and come out and eat." ”

However, I always feel sadly that all this is just a whitewashed peace.

What awaits us is a storm.

I almost wanted to spit out, I almost wanted to exchange my dilemma for his vast sky, I almost said, "Or, you can take Xiaozhi back." ”

However, I didn't say it after all.

How can I say it, I know that the child is innocent, I can't have malice towards this child I have never met, but I am not the 'flower' of the Virgin White Lotus, I can't be sure if my heart can really accept this child, and I am even more uncertain about such an uncertain future.

So, in the process of eating breakfast, sitting in his car and going back to Shengde, the two of us were silent, and there was nothing to say.

And I never imagined that what awaited me at Sidley was a storm that would put me on the cusp of the storm.

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