In fact, each of us hides another version of ourselves.

It's like that for everyone else, even for me.

Those things that I have felt for a long time have been deliberately or deliberately avoided, because I know very well in my heart what kind of words I will say.

Because I know very well how I can say things that hurt others.

To be honest, I have thought of Lin Qiaoman's excellence more than once, quiet and well-behaved, and he doesn't have too many thoughts, just like a blank piece of paper.

But the more I think about it, the more I realize that I only have a slight liking for her who is so good, and I don't like it at all.

Now when I said these words to her, my head immediately lowered and I did not dare to look at her face.

I'm afraid to see the sadness on her face, I'm afraid to see her pitiful appearance.

But what I didn't expect was that Lin Qiaoman didn't seem to hear my words, except for her eyes that were a little hollow, her expression didn't change at all.

Her calmness made me a little uneasy, and every corner of my heart began to boil, and a feeling that was difficult to describe slowly surged through my body.

Finally, after a while, Lin Qiaoman's eyelashes trembled, and he said in a somewhat choked voice

"Hmm.. It's okay.."

As she spoke, she put her hand on her chest and continued to speak in a low voice

"I already knew.. It's just unrequited love.."

The voice was small, but it was very harsh.

I looked at her in front of me and couldn't speak, her chest seemed to be stuffed with cotton, and her hair was blocked again and again.

At this time, Lin Qiaoman's body trembled a little involuntarily, her face, her body, all revealed a desolate feeling,

She has always been alone, and there are so many things hidden in her heart.

But because he is not good at hiding, he has already revealed his heart.

It's just that.. I really can't treat her fairly, I really are.. I can't treat her normally..

Thinking of this, I suddenly felt a sense of guilt, if it weren't for the excessive care and closeness I had at the beginning, maybe it wouldn't be what it is now, right?

has never imagined what kind of emotions she will have for herself, but she ignores a serious problem, that is, there are no similar people around her at all.

No one will lend her money when she loses it, no one will hand her bread in her hand when she starves...

Those help that seemed ordinary and simple to her eyes were painted with another layer of thick color.

Did you do the wrong thing before?

The answer is clearly no, but it is so close to a yes.

At this time, I couldn't tell what was right or wrong, but I just looked at her blankly, and I didn't know what else to say.

And in my long silence, Lin Qiaoman suddenly took a deep breath, looked at me and said slowly

"I'm sorry, but saying something like this will definitely bother you a lot... But.."

"Not in the future, in the future.. Never again.."

After saying this, Lin Qiaoman stood up, and the moment she stood up straight, something seemed to shine and fell down.

I looked up at Lin Qiaoman, only to see her biting her lip, then turned around and trotted out of the classroom.

It wasn't until her figure disappeared for a long time that I came back to my senses in a trance. Never again." It echoed in my ears over and over again, as if I couldn't get rid of it.

Gradually, I had a feeling of uneasiness in my heart, and I always felt that something was going to disappear from my life from now on.

At this time, I lowered my head and sighed deeply, and at the moment when I finished sighing, I saw the desktop... That tear that hasn't melted away.

Seeing this small teardrop, my heart resurged, and a hand invisibly grabbed my heart cruelly, and it hurt faintly.

Later, for the whole afternoon, Lin Qiaoman did not come to the classroom again.

The empty position around me looked particularly awkward, and several times I couldn't help but want to take out my phone to send her a text message, but the moment my hand held the phone, I changed my mind.

It's all this time, do you still have to selfishly flood that ridiculous concern?

When I thought of this, I couldn't help but feel a chill in my heart, and my hand trembled and let go.

The people in the class also seemed to be very strange about Lin Qiaoman's absence, and it seemed that she was often absent for a while.

I could feel the sight from the back row all afternoon, which should have come from Yang Wei.

This guy has been surprisingly safe since he came, except that he still skips class or something, he hasn't done anything.

I don't know if it's because of my column, so he didn't do anything to the little white face.

Maybe he's still waiting for Friday's holiday, waiting for the holiday to take revenge.

But I'm not interested in caring about these, at this time I'm a little worried that Lin Qiaoman will do something stupid, but I think she is usually stupid enough, and no matter how stupid things are, I guess I can't do it.

In this way, until the end of school, Lin Qiaoman did not return to the classroom.

I sat alone for a while, and when the people in the classroom were almost gone, I sighed and walked outside the classroom.

I went downstairs to the place where the cart was pushed, and there was no shadow of Wang Jiaci.

Walking to the school gate, Wang Jiaci's face was still not seen in the crowd.

At this time, I couldn't help but take out my mobile phone, only to find that I didn't know when there was a text message in my phone, the text message was sent by Wang Jiaci, the content was to ask me not to wait for her at night, she had something.

I looked at this text message and was a little stunned, because I had been thinking about other things in my head, so I didn't feel when Wang Jiaci's text message was sent?

I do not know.

Then I put my phone back in my pocket and rode home alone.

The sky darkened with time, and there was an indescribable cold in one's home.

When I got home, I stood by the windowsill and looked at the sky outside, and the lights in the distance began to light up one by one, and the light poured into my eyes, but my heart overflowed...

I can't find a reason for my sadness, but it's real, very sad.

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When I woke up the next day, it was still dark... I took out my phone and looked at the time, and it was already time for my usual morning self-study.

I don't know why this is happening, but when I got up, I looked at it and found that the sky outside was surprisingly gloomy.

It's this season, will it rain or snow on a cloudy day?

Not sure the answer, but for the first time I think... Waking up cloudy in the morning seems like a bad start.

Sure enough, when I cleaned up and arrived in the classroom, there were already a lot of people in the class.

The moment he entered the door, he noticed something unusual, and when he looked up at the side of his seat, his body froze suddenly.

On the seat next to him, there was a girl, a girl in the same class, who had never spoken.

At first, I didn't react, but when I came back to my senses, I subconsciously looked around the classroom.

Soon his eyes fell on Lin Qiaoman, and his eyes fell on Lin Qiaoman, who was sitting in the middle of the classroom.

At this time, she still had a calm face, but her head was lowered, and her eyes were firmly locked on her desk.

Everything seems so natural, but it seems to be deliberate, hiding from something.

That's when I finally understood what she meant by the phrase "never again" she said yesterday.

It turned out to be that's it, that's her way.

yes, didn't you expect it early in the morning?

I knew early on that if something happened, things would turn out like this, so I could pretend that I didn't know anything.

At this point, I laughed self-deprecatingly, and although I had expected it for a long time, I still couldn't change anything...

Perhaps, this is better for Lin Qiaoman...

The story can't go on, so it's better to jump back in time before it begins.

Thinking of this, I turned around and glanced at Lin Qiaoman again, and then walked slowly towards my seat.

The girl next to me looked up at me when she saw me coming, then stood up and gave way to the space to go in.

The moment I saw her stand up, I suddenly remembered Lin Qiaoman's previous move of only moving forward.

Originally.. That's the difference...

When you are not familiar with it, you are no longer a strange existence in her heart...

At this time, I smiled wryly, took a deep breath and walked in.