Chapter 66: In the next life, can you love me too?
"You don't have to be nervous...... I won't bother you with this meeting...... Just think it's the last time, whether you recognize me as a son or not, whether you like me or not, whether you really care about me or not, I don't care."
Jiang Chengyi shrugged his shoulders very indifferently, but on the surface, he really didn't care
In fact, he didn't care, and what could he do, should he cry and beg like a woman, begging her to give him a trace of maternal love
First, there is no way he could do that
Second, even if you do this, you will get nothing in the end
The only love of relatives over the years has come from Huo Yize, although Huo Yize doesn't know that he is his own brother, but he treats himself as a relative, because Huo Yize will be willing to trust him so unswervingly
Thank you for this trust and for this affection; Since Huo Yize gave him so much, it is natural for him to do one thing for Huo Yize
Sacrificing him can not only be exchanged for Huo Yize's life, in exchange for the happiness of Huo Yize and Angel, but also in exchange for the peace of his mother and the Huo family
Mother didn't have to worry about him asking her out from time to time......
In fact, he had no ill intentions, he just wanted to see her, even if he just saw her, even if he couldn't get any love from her, it didn't matter, he was always grateful to her for bringing him into this world
met Lin Meili and Huo Yize......
Before falling in love with Lin Meili, he didn't know that she was Huo Yize's cousin, Lin Meili completely hid her identity and dated him, although he and Lin Meili were not related by blood, but if he knew early that Lin Meili had a relationship with the Huo family, no matter how tempted he was, he would never wade into this troubled water
But now, before he died, he was glad that he had waded into the muddy waters, and the memories between them were enough to remember him forever when he slept underground......
Mrs. Huo listened to his words, and the pace of moving forward suddenly stopped at this time, as if she smelled the unusual breath, is she sensitive
Mrs. Huo didn't know that Huo Yize's current situation was so bad that it was unimaginable, let alone that Jiang Chengyi would have such a spirit of selfless and selfless dedication, and dedicated a fresh heart to his half-brother in exchange for his existence
"Are you going back to England?" asked Mrs. Huo, still a little curious, as she turned around
In fact, Mrs. Huo still knows a lot about Jiang Chengyi, and she is not as indifferent as she shows, at least after Jiang Chengyi's father died, she secretly dragged other people's relationships to help Jiang's business stabilize, which can be regarded as what she did for Jiang Chengyi's son
After all, Jiang Chengyi is not at fault, and if she really wants to investigate the fault, it is her and Jiang's father, and she should not treat love and marriage as child's play, and it is this child who suffers in the end......
Thinking of the past, Mrs. Huo also had irrepressible sadness and sadness on her face, snorted, and tried not to let tears flow out of her eyes, "If you don't say it, I'll leave, no matter where you go, take care of yourself, you are not too young, it's time to find a woman to settle down and have children."
Her tone sounded so stiff and utterly cold, and it was easy to hear the impatience in her words......
Even though her impatience was disguised, it was enough for Jiang Chengyi
For more than 20 years, as a mother, she has never been willing to spread a little love and care to him, even the most ordinary words of care have not ......
Today, she took care and found a woman to settle down...... still shows that in fact, she cares about him, but her current identity as Mrs. Huo does not allow her to love and care for her ex-husband's son
A stream of sourness poured out from Jiang Chengyi's eyes, but in the end, he raised his head and forcibly swallowed this soreness, he didn't answer, but asked, "Can I ask you something?"
His politeness and respect for her were evident in his tone of pleading, pleading, even if he was usually unruly and unruly, he was still humble and polite in front of Mrs. Huo......
At this moment, there is no smell of gunpowder between the two of them when they first met, and the warmth between them is beginning to rise
Mrs. Huo's silence was acceptable
She really didn't want to meet Jiang Chengyi face-to-face, because this would only highlight her cruelty and irresponsibility, and even sometimes hate her ruthlessness, he and Huo Yize are also her own children, why can't she give him a little bit of love and ......
Jiang Chengyi has not had a mother since she was a child, and after she left, Jiang's father did not marry anyone else, and when it came to Jiang's father, career and women, he always chose the former
"The matter of Yize and Tong Mai...... Don't stop them from being together, Ze won't listen to you, the result of your non-concession is equivalent to that you are about to lose another son, you have already lost me, I don't want to see you lonely for the rest of your life, Mr. Huo, since I know the relationship between me and you, so far, I can only apologize, sincerely beg for his forgiveness, all these years, you have been hiding and refusing to meet me, don't you just want to keep Mrs. Huo's position, I won't bother you again after I leave, as long as you bow your head, I believe that he will not embarrass you about your relationship with Mr. Huo over the years, I very much hope to see you and Mr. Huo reconcile before I leave, if you can't pull down, I can talk to Mr. Huo……”
Before Jiang Chengyi's words could be finished, he was interrupted by Mrs. Huo's words: "Enough, enough, don't say anything...... Jiang Chengyi, what a vicious and despicable way your father is in the shopping mall, he doesn't care about the life and death of others, how did he educate you, how did he educate you, he was so soft-hearted, and there was no mistake in the spirit of a man, I was your mother, but I was an incompetent mother, I ignored you all these years, and never gave any care, even ...... I still hate to see you, don't you hate me?"
At this time, Mrs. Huo's words were full of sadness, the more merciful Jiang Chengyi was, the more guilty and indebted she felt in her heart, occupying every corner of her body, her heart seemed to be torn apart, and the pain of struggle finally couldn't help it, and tears were falling down......
Jiang Chengyi didn't want to see her crying, but he was very happy in his heart, and in her heart, he still had a little position, even if it wasn't much, it was enough
It can be regarded as letting him leave completely without any regrets......
"Mom...... My dad was vicious and unsympathetic, but he never told me: you want to hate my mother, he just said that my mother can't help herself, because we know that you can't help yourself, so I don't hate your father, and he doesn't hate you before he dies, he said he was sorry for you......"
Thinking of his father's nostalgia and apologies for his mother before the temporary, Jiang Chengyi's voice became choked, if she was a woman, she would definitely cry at this time......
"Don't say it...... Don't say it......"
Mrs. Huo covered her lips, and her tears slipped down one by one like beads with broken threads
This is the first time Jiang Chengyi has seen his mother crying silently in front of him, and it will be the last time he sees her crying......
In fact, he still has a lot of unspeakable pleas, such as: let her hug him like a hug Ozawa, hug himself, even if only once, he will spend his life remembering this hard-won hug
He wanted her to call her by her first name, not by her first name...... Or call him "son" intimately and frankly admit his identity
I want to get closer to her, and seriously remember her face, a familiar and unfamiliar face
Since he was a child, he didn't dare to get close to her, and she didn't let herself get close, so she could only be seen from afar, even on TV, major media and newspapers, and she and Mr. Huo attended intimately, and reported at major banquets......
even collected all the photos of her attending the celebrity club, and took them out to see when the emotions of missing her mother were overflowing, which was to make up for his endless longing......
It turns out that his mother is so beautiful and graceful, and it turns out that his mother is so temperamental, outstanding, and popular......
In short, in Jiang Chengyi's eyes, she has never been a bad mother, she is just an ordinary and noble mother, a mother who is out of his reach, and a mother who she can't love like other mothers in this life......
But he never hated her
It's like her father said, she has her difficulties, she has her own choices, and they can't be her stumbling blocks......
"Mom, go back, go back to Huo's house, now Xiao Ze is sick, he is very sick, he also needs you by his side, shushing the cold and asking for warmth, giving him the motivation to live," Jiang Chengyi's words came out, and Mrs. Huo's face changed suddenly, "What's going on, you make it clear, how can Xiao Ze be sick, he is so healthy...... You're lying."
"You can go to Dr. Yu's hospital and see if he's telling me if I'm lying."
He never lied, especially to her, and he couldn't lie
In the face of Jiang Chengyi's seriousness at the moment, Mrs. Huo also realized that the matter could be big or small, and after being stunned for a few seconds, she left in a panic, getting farther and farther away from Jiang Chengyi, until her voice and shadow completely disappeared without a trace......
Jiang Chengyi knelt down and kowtowed in her direction, which was a goodbye, "Mom, I love you......"
When he said the words "I love you", tears kept raging on his face
Mom, can you love me in the next life?
If it's really in the next life, if it's still like this in the next life, can I swap places with Ozawa, so that I can also enjoy your love and care, so that I can be coquettish and willful in your arms when I was a child......
Is it good to exchange Comrade Xiaojiang's life for Ozawa's life? It's cruel...... I can't bear to accept Brother Yi