I took a breath and cautiously replied, "Hmm." ”

After saying this, the two fell silent, and strangely enough, this silence did not make people feel embarrassed, because it was the most suitable way for us to get along.

Thinking of Fu Yao'er's request, I brewed the wording and said, "Fu Yeqing, you and Shen ......"

"An An, the last thing I want to hear from you is to intercede for Shen Yingrong." Fu Yeqing poured himself a glass of water, glanced at me lightly and said, "If you make a choice, you will go your own way, you should come to see Jiajia less in the future, don't give him too much hope." ”

If there is no hope, there will be no disappointment, is Fu Yeqing telling me this?

He once said that between me and him, don't talk about someone who doesn't matter to us.

It is true that I should not have come to persuade and I have no position.

I reluctantly tugged at the corners of my mouth and said, "Okay, since that's the case, then I'll go back first." ”

He asked me not to give Jiajia hope, but behind his back, he was not saying, let me not give him hope.

Fu Yeqing lowered his head and drank water, didn't say anything, I glanced upstairs, and my heart was surprised, Jiajia stood at the stairs at some point, holding the painting in her hand, her dark eyes were full of sadness and accusation, my heart seemed to be grabbed by something, and suddenly it hurt, and I murmured: "Jiajia......"

Jiajia crumpled the paper into a ball with her little hand and threw it on the ground, turned around and walked towards the room, I was just about to catch up, Fu Yeqing got up and said, "You better go back first, leave it to me here." ”

Fu Yeqing was not asking for my opinion, but ordered me to go back, he put down the water cup and immediately went upstairs, Fu Yao'er heard the movement and came out of the kitchen, glanced at her father who hurriedly went upstairs, and asked me blankly with a spatula: "Sister An An, what's wrong?" ”

I squinted deeply, waited for the pain in my heart to pass, and said in a dumb voice, "It's okay, I'll go back first." ”

I thought I wouldn't cry, but I couldn't help but shed tears when I turned around, so in order not to let Fu Yao'er find out anything, I covered my mouth and walked out of Fu's house at a faster pace.

Because I couldn't make a promise to Jiajia, Fu Yeqing didn't let me go up, otherwise it would be a circular knot that would never be opened.

went up, Jiajia was sad and left, Jiajia was disappointed.

After all, the result cannot be reversed.

Later, I didn't know how Fu Yeqing coaxed Jiajia and what he told him, I don't know what happened later, but the next day Fu Yaoer came to me when I and Simu just finished taking a set of wedding photos, she told me that when Jiajia was sick and had a fever, it was actually Jiajia who soaked her body in cold water, so she caught a cold and fever, and what Jiajia wanted was just me and Fu Yeqing to be good and be by his side all the time.

And after I left yesterday, Jiajia tore up all those paintings, locked herself in the room and didn't come out until now, didn't eat a mouthful of food, didn't drink a drop of water, and even Fu Yeqing couldn't do anything about him.

Fu Yao'er won't say this to me unless she has to.

Hearing this, his heart was like a knife, and a fear rushed out of his heart at that time, Jiajia was so uncomfortable, then when he grew up, he would definitely blame me and Fu Yeqing, and this one in his stomach, if he knew the truth, he would hate me even more.

Being hated by my own children for a lifetime, that kind of feeling is really worse than death, I am thinking, can I really not let go of my hatred to be with Fu Yeqing?

What is the thing that entangles Fu Yeqing?

Simu knows my thoughts, the only thing that can affect me is the child, this is the biggest variable, the variable of this wedding, he squatted at my feet and wanted to comfort me, but he couldn't find any words, and I, before I could speak, tears fell first: "Simu, the child will hate me, really hate me." ”

I was panicked in my heart, as long as I thought that I would be hated by Jiajia for the rest of my life, my whole body couldn't help but tremble, and I stood up suddenly: "No, I'm going to find Jiajia, Simu, I'm sorry." ”

The photographer came over and asked, "Mr. Huo, Miss Chu, it's time to take the next set." ”

I grabbed my wedding dress, looked at Simu, and thought for a while and said to the photographer, "I'm here today, I'm sorry, it's hard work." ”

The photographer was stunned, but it was hard to say anything, after all, the money had already been paid.

I was grateful, sniffed, and said to him, "Simu, thank you." ”

Simu grabbed my hand, just like when I was about to step on the plane back to Rongcheng, he asked me, "An An, are you still back?" ”

At the beginning, my answer was that I would definitely go back, because he was my fiancé, at this moment, I hesitated for a few seconds, looked at him and said, "Simu, I'll go see Jiajia, and I'll be back after reading it." ”

I hesitated and longed for it, but my answer made him breathe a sigh of relief, I was tired of loving me, and he was even more hesitant to come to this point.

I changed my clothes and followed Fu Yao'er to Fu's house, and on the way, Fu Yao'er hesitated and asked, "Sister An'an, you don't want to marry Huo Simu at all, right?" ”

A woman's heart is the most meticulous, and Fu Yao'er is usually very aggressive, but she can see it clearly at this point.

I can't hide it from her, but I don't want to admit that women have the ability to deceive themselves.

I smiled and said, "How come, I have known Simu for many years, been engaged for many years, and the wedding date has been set, how can I not get married." ”

"Sister An An, what I'm asking is not whether you will get married, but whether you want to get married, you don't want to, right?" Fu Yao'er grabbed my hand and said, "I can see it, and Huo Simu can also see it, why do you want to do that when you don't want to?" Shouldn't marriage be two people who love each other together? My brother married Sister Yingrong, reluctantly, you and Huo Simu are not sincere, I really don't understand, marriage should be beautiful, how could it be like this. ”

Fu Yao'er, who has never been involved in marriage, has a girl's heart for marriage, thinking that marriage is sacred, pure, and the union of two people who love each other, but my marriage made her see the ugly side.

"Yao'er, there are many things you don't understand, and when you come to my point, you will know that many things must not be done, but they must be done."

"I don't understand, but I know that a marriage without love will not be happy, since I know that it is wrong, why should I be wrong again and again? At that time, everyone will not be happy, you are not happy, brother is not happy, Jiajia, Huo Simu, are not happy, where is the meaning of this marriage? I really don't understand. ”

The most onlooker, the most visible.

yes, why keep making mistakes again and again?

A marriage where no one is happy, wrong but don't know how to turn back.

I wanted to say a reason to persuade Fu Yao'er and convince myself, but I couldn't find an excuse, all this was just that I wanted to escape my feelings for Fu Yeqing and chose Simu as a safe haven.

My hand was attached to my lower abdomen, and when Fu Yao'er saw this move, she said abruptly: "Sister An An, are you for this child?" ”

In Fu Yao'er's cognition, this child was longing, I didn't shake my head, I didn't nod, I just looked out of the car window with a blank look.

When I arrived at Fu's house, Fu Yeqing was standing at the door with a bowl of egg custard and persuaded Jiajia to open the door, the door was locked by Jiajia from the inside, it had been a night, Jiajia still didn't open the door, and I heard Fu Yao'er say that Jiajia was at the door, so I didn't dare to find someone to kick the door, otherwise it would hurt Jiajia.

Fu Yeqing frowned when he saw me coming, and he didn't say anything at the moment.

I glanced at the closed door and said to Fu Yeqing, "I'll come." ”

Fu Yeqing brought me the egg custard in his hand, turned sideways and asked me to come, I knocked on the door, there was no movement inside, and I didn't know what was going on inside, I said tentatively: "Jiajia, open the door, it's my mother." ”

There was still no movement inside, Fu Yao'er was a little anxious, knocked on the door and said, "Jiajia, don't you want a mother?" My aunt brought you my mother, and you opened the door to see. ”

There was no response at all, my heart also rose to my throat, thinking that Fu Yao'er said that Jiajia deliberately made herself sick in order not to accompany him with Fu Yeqing before, and patted the door and said: "Jiajia, my mother came to see you, it was my mother who was wrong yesterday, my mother will never leave in the future, and I won't want you, can you open the door?" Jiajia, you are a good child, do you want your mother to worry? If you don't open the door again, Mom will really leave. ”

The last threatening word is the most effective for Jiajia, as soon as the words fell, the door was opened from the inside, Jiajia is not tall, she has to pad her feet to unscrew the door, she has locked herself in the room since last night, and now it is almost noon, Jiajia has not eaten anything, she is already hungry, as soon as the door opens, her little body is a little unable to hold on and almost falls to the ground.

I was shocked: "Jiajia......"

Fu Yeqing quickly carried Jiajia to the bed, and Fu Yao'er went to get water.

A three-year-old child, where did he get the courage and self-control to starve himself for so long, looking at Jiajia's little face, he was distressed.

Running away, fever, locking yourself in your room, again and again, what will be the next time?

I can't imagine.

Do I really have to wait until I lose Jiajia to know that I regret it?

Jiajia was very hungry and weak, Fu Yao'er fed Jiajia some water first, I sat on the edge of the bed, scooped a spoonful of custard and fed it to Jiajia's mouth, but Jiajia closed her mouth and shook her head, the eyes of black grapes looked at me and asked, "Mom, are you really not leaving?" ”

I said in a hoarse voice, "No, mom won't go anywhere, just stay here with Jiajia." ”

Jiajia didn't believe me this time: "Mom lied, my mother promised Jiajia before that she wanted to accompany Jiajia, but in the end, she didn't want Jiajia." ”

"No, mom promises, I won't lie to Jiajia this time, mom really won't leave." I said eagerly, "Jiajia, let's take a bite first." ”

"Mom promised Jiajia, I can't do without Jiajia, I can't do without Dad, okay?"

"Okay, mom promises you everything, everything promises you."

When I said this, Fu Yeqing glanced at me, he probably thought I was lying to Jiajia, but I blurted out that words, I didn't think about deceiving Jiajia, how could I not be sincere when I said it from the bottom of my heart.