On an autumn afternoon, at four o'clock, the west-slanting sun cast a golden halo on the street, and Su Nian slowly walked on the side of the road holding the cardboard box in despair.

People come and go, the streets are still very lively, and she seems to be an outsider to the whole world.

Unprecedented loneliness, great loss, and sadness clung to her heart, until she walked far away she realized that she should be going to take the subway, but before she knew it, she had already walked, and under the nearest subway station, her body followed the elevator down, little by little hidden in the dark.

The cold underpass, the miserable white light, the hurried steps of pedestrians, one after another tired and numb faces, when she passed the security check, she was bumped into by someone, caught off guard, and the cardboard box in her hand fell to the ground, scattering a mess.

Drawings, pencils, badges, etc., which are usually drawn casually......

Piecemeal fell to the ground, the people behind were a little anxious to push her, she had no choice but to let the other party go first, bend down to pick up those things, pick up and pick up the impatient, swept into the carton, simply walked next to the garbage can and threw it all in, and then turned around and left.

The train was still crowded, and she stood with her ring pulled, her pale face reflected in the windowpane. Like many of the faces here, numb, apathetic, and emotionless.

But she knew, no.

Her heart is being Lingchi, dripping blood, and being torn apart, and no one knows.

The moment she returned to the house and opened the door, all her strength was used up, and she closed the door and slid down with her whole body, sitting on the ground without caring about getting dirty. Tears flowed out at once, surging, hysterical, collapsing, exploding.

She covered her mouth, tears kept pouring out, she cried, the voice was very loud, she didn't want to suppress it anymore, the cry was heartbreaking, she bent down to hug herself. His hands tore his hair, and he cried softly.

The whole house was full of weeping female voices, I don't know how long it took, Han Jing's bedroom door opened, and Han Jing came out with a little messy hair, and his sleepy eyes suddenly returned to clarity the moment he saw Su Nian at the door.

Sleepiness swept away.

He originally wanted to make up for sleep in the afternoon and then go out, I don't know which woman disturbed people's dreams, the crying was so loud, Shengsheng woke him up, the more he listened, the more wrong it became, the crying seemed to come from the living room, and when he came out to see, he was almost stupid.

Su Nian's crying looked too miserable, I don't know what kind of grievance it was, she covered her face and shrunk on the ground and twitched, unable to stand up.

Su Nian? ”

He frowned and walked over, and the closer he got closer, the more the cry shook his eardrums directly, piercing his heart.

She didn't speak, she cried too much, until Han Jing raised her hand to touch the top of her hair, and she looked up like frightened. Instinctively duck back.

The originally delicate little face could no longer be seen, the staggered tear stains and tears, the red and swollen eyes, and the eyes were full of fear, Han Jing was stunned, panicked and anxious, and grabbed her hand.

It's okay, it's me, it's me, I won't hurt you. ”

She didn't slow down, her body twitched, looking at Han Jing for a long time, her head lowered, and her crying became unbearable.

He didn't pay attention to it anymore, so he simply sat on the ground and hugged her, "It's okay, just cry, you cry, don't bear it, it'll be fine soon, I'm here with you, no one can hurt your ......"

Su Nian cried again, like a child, crying without control, he hugged her tightly and stroked her back, stroked her abrupt shoulder blades, and his heart throbbed with her crying.

In fact, Su Nian has always been a relatively strong and introverted girl in his eyes, outside the waiting room of the bus station for a night, there was no squeamish complaining, and all emotions were well hidden, she cried once before, but it was different from this time, her crying at this moment made him feel as if she was about to collapse and be on the edge.

He hugged her tighter and sighed heavily.

Han Jing's plan was all disrupted in the end, because Su Nian actually cried for more than two hours.

When it was almost eight o'clock, the crying slowly weakened, and she almost collapsed from crying, and was picked up by him and put on the bed in the bedroom.

He didn't leave, lying on his side, holding her hand with one hand. The other hand stroked her hair.

She was tired of crying, and gradually quieted down, her eyes were swollen and frightening, his eyebrows were frowning, his hand touched the corner of her eye, and suddenly a mobile phone rang.

It was her mobile phone ringing in the bag, and he helped take it out and saw the words "Mr. Ye" on the screen.

He pondered that it might be Ye Shucheng and asked, "Yes...... Mr. Ye, do you want to take it? ”

Her heart was still uncomfortable to death, and she spoke. The voice was hoarse, "No." ”

He hung up and put it on the table, and in less than two seconds, it rang again.

As soon as he saw that it was still the same "Mr. Ye", he simply pressed the answer, and without waiting for the other side to speak, he said directly: "Su Nian is not convenient to answer the phone now, don't call again." ”

After saying that, I hung up, I didn't expect that there was so perseverance over there, and I actually called again.

Su Nian lay quietly on the bed. looked at Han Jing and said, "Turn off my phone." ”

Han Jinglisuo complied, then threw the phone aside, looked at her, and sighed, "Are you better?" ”

She nodded.

In fact, it wasn't really much better, but she didn't want him to worry about the person who was willing to be by her side at this time.

It's very ironic that at this time, it was actually Han Jing by her side.

Han Jing was a little relieved, "You scared me to death just now......"

He looked palpitating, and she smiled, but tears flowed again.

He took a tissue to wipe her tears, "I was supposed to leave in the afternoon, but fortunately I didn't leave, I don't see if I'm not here, you really don't know what will happen today." ”

His tone was a little reproachful, and he paused, "You wait, I'll put ice water on your eyes." ”

He was about to leave, but she grabbed him with her backhand.

Senior, you said you were leaving, you this time. Where are you going? ”

Her voice was hoarse and heavily nasal.

He said, "In a village in the sand, I had a magazine that asked me to take pictures of that place, and I wanted to take them. ”

She looked at him quietly for a few seconds and said, "Go ahead, I'll be with you." ”

Han Jing was stunned for a few seconds, "Huh? ”

Let's go together, where is the village? The farther away the better. ”

He was dumbfounded, "Now? ”

She said, "No? ”

It could be...... "he touched his head, "but the conditions were very difficult. It's not suitable for you girls to stay, I'll go for a few days, do you want to wait until I have that kind of beautiful place to go and then ...... together"

No, let's go now, what car are you taking? I'm going to wash my face right now. ”

Han Jing was dumbfounded, "I took the train, and it was more than eight o'clock in the evening, so I would definitely not be able to catch up at this time." ”

Then let's go and change the book, I'll buy another ticket. ”

After speaking, he got up without waiting for Han Jing's reaction, and really went to the bathroom to wash his face, Han Jing was in a daze for a while, this woman said that the wind is rain, and she didn't give him buffer time at all.

His things had already been packed, he was used to walking outdoors, and everywhere he went was an oversized backpack, Su Nian changed into a piece of clothing, and also rummaged through the cabinets to take a few changes of clothes and toiletries, and then stuffed a small trolley into it, Han Jing felt inconvenient, and found her a smaller backpack.

The bag was men's, and she didn't like it, so she stuffed things into it, took her documents and wallet, took a bottle of ice water handed over by Han Jing and put it on her eyes, and walked out.

Han Jing was a little dazed throughout the whole process, her action of packing up her things was simply fast, he followed her footsteps, "Let's go?" ”

She nodded.

He was too scared to speak, and went downstairs to think of something, "Did you get your phone?" ”

She fumbled into her pocket and shook her head.

Want to pick it up? ”

I don't take it. ”

He weakly reminded again, "We're going to be there for a few days." ”

She said: "I don't take my phone either, and I don't want to answer the call anyway." ”

Han Jing wanted to say. But it would be very troublesome without a mobile phone, so he had to follow her all the time, she was too worrying, but he finally shut up after thinking about it.

If you don't leave an inch, you can't leave an inch, anyway, it's only a few days.

The two of them took the bus to the train station, Han Jing's ticket had already passed, and he could only change it, originally he bought it in advance as a sleeper, but now he bought a ticket temporarily, and he could only buy a hard seat until one o'clock in the morning, he was a little hesitant. Su Nian handed over the money and documents directly and urged: "Then this is it." ”

After buying tickets, the two of them sat and waited on the chairs in the waiting hall, it was already night, and there were a lot fewer people in the waiting hall, the miserable white light of the incandescent lamp reflected on Su Nian's face, the redness and swelling of her eyes did not subside, she looked haggard, even if she sat next to him, quiet and silent, as if a soul.

She just lowered her head and looked at the ticket in her hand, dumbfounded.

He touched the tip of his nose, what is this, inexplicable, the two of them are going to travel together?

It wasn't what he thought.

He turned his head to look at her, took the ice water from her hand, and pressed it to her eye.

She was stunned, and then quieted down again, letting him put ice water on her eyelids, which was cool to the bone, but her heart was slowly quiet, and her heart was desolate after the catastrophe.

Except for the occasional arrival and ticket checking voices, this huge waiting hall is relatively quiet. Someone spoke also sounded far away, he carefully and gently applied her eyes, she was very well-behaved at this time, she didn't cry or make trouble, she didn't choke with him, he looked at her with some pity, and the other hand gently rubbed the top of her hair.

She didn't say a word, and after getting in the car, Han Jing found that the air-conditioned car was a little cold at night, and took out a coat of her own from her bag and put it on her. She sat at the window, habitually throwing her head over the windowpane, a cry consumed too much energy, she felt sleepy, he turned her head over, deliberately lowered his body a little, so that she could lean more comfortably.

She didn't speak, just leaned on him, and fell asleep in a daze.

Han Jing could see her face when he lowered his head, he couldn't help but raise his hand, just touched her chin, and suddenly withdrew it like an electric shock, he looked down at his hand in a daze, for a long time, the corners of his lips hooked up a shallow wry smile.

The car window reflects a pair of figures, snuggling up, like a pair of lovers.

……

Xu Jinghe cried for a long time in the conference room in the afternoon, regardless of the occasion, and when Ye Shucheng took her back to Yishui Yunju to settle down, it was already night, and she was lying on the bed holding Ye Shucheng's hand and not letting him go.

In the end, he called Su Nian when he went out to smoke. As a result, no one answered the first call, and the second call, a man answered.

Hearing the man's voice, and said that she was inconvenient to answer, he raised it in his heart, and called again without giving up, and there was a sudden busy sound over there, and when he called again, it turned off.

He was distracted, Su Nian looked terrible today, and he was worried that something would happen to her. Turned back to the bedroom and said goodbye to Xu Jinghe, Xu Jinghe got up from the bed and grabbed him, "Don't go, please, I begged you like this, do you still want to go?" ”

She had dragged him all afternoon, and he couldn't bear to see her red and swollen eyes, but the uneasiness lingered in his heart, and he said, "I'll come back, you rest first, and I'll come to see you tomorrow morning." ”

She said pitifully: "Are you going to find Su Nian?" ”

He didn't speak.

You lied to me. You won't come back, you go to her, you won't come back, you'll leave me, just like then, you won't care if I live or die......"

Jing He! ”

He almost screamed.

She was stunned, and tears were about to well-up again.

He was suddenly extremely irritable and tired, Xu Jinghe was like a shackle, heavy, tight, and he could barely breathe.

She brought up the events of that year again and again. It only made him feel depressed, guilty, these emotions pressed on his shoulders like stones, and he felt that he was about to crush him.

How to treat her, how to accommodate her? He didn't know, he felt like his freedom was running out.

He said: "I repeat, I won't leave you, but there are some things I have to figure out, what happened to you and Su Nian back then?" Also, Su Nian's picture is gone, does it have anything to do with you? ”

Xu Jinghe burst into tears. Silence fell.

She thought that it would be okay to drive Su Nian out, but she didn't expect to encounter this kind of thing at the last moment, she was unwilling, but she also knew that she couldn't keep Ye Shucheng.

She let go of her hand, sat down on the bed, and looked at him, "Shucheng, I really like you...... For so many years, from the time I wrote the letter, you have been so cruel to me like this. You're gone, I'm really going to die......"

The crying was heavy, and the tears rolled down drop by drop, Ye Shucheng was stunned for a few seconds, and finally turned around.

Seeing her tears now only upsets him.

The two of them were completely unable to communicate, she couldn't listen to what he said, she didn't answer what he asked, he couldn't hold on, he just wanted to escape from this extremely oppressive room as soon as possible, he said: "You rest early, I will come to see you tomorrow." ”

After saying that, he walked straight out.

The door was closed, Xu Jinghe was stunned for a few seconds, threw herself on the bed, buried her face in the quilt, and cried again.

……

Along the way, Ye Shucheng drove under the speed limit, and when he arrived at the community, he went upstairs directly to knock on the door, it was already more than nine o'clock in the evening, and his hands hurt when he knocked. No one in there responded either.

An aunt in the neighborhood couldn't bear to be disturbed by the noise, and pushed the door out and looked at him, "Don't knock, okay?" You've been knocking for a long time, and there's obviously no one here, so it's useless to knock down. ”

He frowned, "Do you know where the people here go?" ”

Who knows, they are all rented houses, and today they are the noisiest in this family! In the afternoon, a woman cried inside for a long time, and the voice was still so loud, and now it's you again, what do you want to do other ways to contact. It's night, keep knocking on the door, how can the others sleep......"

The aunt closed the door and went back, and he stood in place for a long time, his reactions and thoughts were a little confused and slow.

He was thinking back to what the aunt had said, and she said that there was a woman in the house who had cried for a long time in the afternoon.

Is it Su Nian?

He clenched his fists, his heart clenching.

When she cried in front of him, she was deliberately suppressed and forbearing, and she never cried, and he couldn't imagine that she would cry until the neighbors heard her.

He took out his mobile phone and dialed Su Nian's number again, the other end was still turned off, he listened to the cold female voice on the phone for a long time, and finally smashed the anti-theft door panel in front of him.

The metal door panel was hard, because of the excessive force, some edges and corners scratched the skin at the joints, and the blood slowly oozed out, and he held his mobile phone, not knowing what to do.

There was a panic and horror in his heart, he was afraid, this feeling was even worse than the accident on Mochizuki Island, at least he was still by her side at that time, and now he didn't even know where she was or what she was doing, his heart seemed to be tightened, a sense of suffocation hit, and he suddenly remembered He Zeng.

By the way, He Zeng and Su Nian have a good relationship, maybe they will know something, but he doesn't have He Zeng's mobile phone number, he can only call the director of the architectural design department to ask first, he was just about to dial, but the mobile phone rang in his hand.

What is shown on the screen is Aunt Chen, the maid who is responsible for taking care of Xu Jinghe's daily life in Yishui Yunju.

He hesitated for a few seconds before pressing answer.

I only heard Aunt Chen's voice on the other end panicked: "Mr. Ye, come and take a look, Miss Xu, something happened to her!" ”

He became irritated again, "What's the matter? ”

Miss Xu cut her wrists and shed a lot of blood......"