[Chapter 18: Caring] (1) Dissecting the heart

It's Chinese New Year's Eve again. Tang Qingyou called Ms. Tang Ying and said that when she didn't go to Macau, she was scolded. Who isn't with their family on Chinese New Year's Eve? Minglan went to the UK to accompany her son, Fei Dong returned to Beijing to accompany the shadow boy, and everyone around her had their own families to accompany, Tang Qingyou was probably out of weakness, afraid of being questioned by Tang Ying about the situation of the year, and refused to say anything.

Tang Ying hung up the phone angrily. Later, I don't know if it was because of her or Mo Er's instructions, the Modi brothers called Tang Qingyou and said goodbye to the early years in a milky voice.

There was no one in her hometown for a long time, and she didn't have to go back to her hometown. I just made up my mind to stay in the city and play with myself.

For the sake of his livelihood in the next few days, Tang Qingyou first went to the supermarket to sweep a cart of ingredients and daily necessities to prepare for the Spring Festival "retreat".

The Chinese New Year is just like that, a rare family together. For a lonely person like Tang Qingyou to celebrate the Spring Festival, his family is by his side, except for the greeting messages on his mobile phone, the surrounding environment is a little scary.

Tang Qingyou thought that when "Flying Sky" was performed at the Nanshan Grand Theater, Yu Yin was just a small role to accompany the empress, and it has only been more than half a year, and he has already stood alone in front of the audience all over the world - or in response to that sentence, opportunities only take care of those who are prepared.

Tang Qingyou couldn't help but reflect on his gains over the past year - he was busy with all kinds of trivial things every day, it seemed that he had just fooled around for a year, and he didn't get anything, but he lost a lot of personal things, time, money, friendships...... Suddenly I felt terrible.

How can it be that in just over a year, she has lived the life of a proud woman in the eyes of everyone like this...... Bitter haha?

Thinking back to this time last year, I had an ex-boyfriend to have a Chinese New Year's Eve dinner together. This year...... Inevitably, I'm lonely.

When the countdown to Chinese New Year's Eve was counting, Tang Qingyou had already begun to resent, and finally, the phone rang.

Seeing Tu Yiran's name flashing on the mobile phone screen, Tang Qingyou felt that he was almost in a mood of crying with joy, and as soon as he opened his mouth, he said angrily: "Why did you think of me at this time?" ”

Tu Yiran didn't get stuck this time, so he said directly: "Doesn't I have to think about you at this time?" ”

Tang Qingyou was completely amused, and said with a smile: "Well, I accepted this year's sweet words." ”

"Looks like you're in a good mood today?" Tu Yiran guessed her state across thousands of mountains and rivers, "Do you want to buy a ticket and come to see me?" ”

"Think beautifully!" Tang Qingyou smiled, "I'm going to be on duty in the third year of junior high school, take a plane for more than ten hours to see you, take a look at you, and then take a plane back for more than ten hours?" Have you evolved to the point where the country is captivated? ”

Tu Yiran paused for a second and said, "It seems that everyone is right." You want to leave me, after all, because you don't really love me that much. Do you know? I was thinking about this call for four hours with my phone in my hand, and I kept thinking about whether you would call me. As a result, I just waited like this, pinched off countless business calls in the middle, and I waited until the countdown to Chinese New Year's Eve had begun, and you still didn't think of me. At this time, I had to resign myself to my fate. I know that if I don't call you, you'll never take the initiative to ignore me. Yoyo, you're really ruthless. ”

Tang Qingyou was stunned by what he said, this seemed to be the first time she faced Tu Yiran's criticism, and she was so ashamed that she was speechless.

Tu Yiran saw that Tang Qing had not responded for a long time, and laughed self-deprecatingly: "You don't just rely on me to love you." It's just that I'm still cheap, eat your set. One is willing to fight and the other is willing to suffer, and there is nothing to complain about, I admit it. ”

"I'm sorry." Tang Qing apologized faintly, "Yiran, I never realized this, really." I never felt that in the world of feelings, I could rely on one person's efforts to survive, and if you think I gave too little, I apologize. Perhaps, you are right, we will get to this situation, and I have a problem. But you have to believe me, I'm just, sometimes a little sluggish, but not selfishly just want to get and not give. ”

"I know." Tu Yiran said firmly, "If you are a selfish person, probably we will not be able to go to the end in the first year." You will choose to continue to be the queen of campus dramas, maybe you will receive more and more commercial performances, you will be packaged as a star, and you will embark on a completely different life. Instead of hiding behind the scenes as it was later, being a pusher. It was only recently that I suddenly discovered that I was actually quite selfish back then, and in order to tie you to my side, I made you give up your star journey. ”

"That's what I want." Tang Qingyou laughed, "When I was rated as a drama queen on campus, I felt that it was very inconvenient to live under everyone's eyes, so I wouldn't have any dreams of being a star." At that time, I felt that what you said was so reasonable, I first had to understand this society, I had to have the ability to support myself, and then I had to pursue my dreams, so that I could distinguish between right and wrong, and I would have confidence. Just like now, although all kinds of dogs are bloody, I know very well in my heart that I will not be like this for the rest of my life. Tang Qingyou analyzed it by himself, and he felt a little enlightened, and finally understood why he was sitting on a cold bench in the North and South Cinemas, and he could still survive. Because, winter will eventually pass, spring will always come, and in summer, the cold bench will become fragrant.

After their respective reviews, Tang Qingyou still personally dissected his heart and told Tu Yiran a "little secret": "Actually, I miss you very much today." When the phone rang, I had already decided in my heart, if it wasn't for you, I'm going to call you next, I want to ask you, remember me? I have to admit that to this day, I still care about you. Such an answer...... Are you satisfied? ”

Tu Yiran finally laughed.

Although they are far away, although they have their own troubles, and they can't describe too much to each other, they seem to have gradually reached a reconciliation to some extent, but the road ahead is still a blur. At least Tang Qingyou is like this, she is still on the way to find her dreams, crawling and rolling.

On duty in the third year of junior high school, except for the security guard, there was no colleague, and Tang Qingyou almost sat in the unit for a day. Later, it was Zhou Zhilai who broke her peaceful life.

When she was about to get off work, Tang Qingyou answered a strange phone call, and when she heard Zhou Zhi's voice, she subconsciously wanted to pinch it off. As a result, Zhou Zhi hurriedly shouted: "If you pinch me, I will go directly to the office to find you." ”

Zhou Zhi has changed several mobile phone numbers to contact her, and she has been blocked by her again and again, Tang Qingyou thought that he would give up after a long time, and everyone would not get along with each other in their own ways.

Even if she was the only one in the entire row of offices, she didn't want Zhou Zhi to appear on this occasion - cameras were installed in almost every corner of the Grand Theater, and the staff of the security department often paid attention to Tang Qingyou's dynamics out of the property director Chen Dali's appreciation of Tang Qingyou. Tang Qingyou, who has never had lace news in this unit, doesn't want his reputation to be ruined. But she was so threatened by Zhou Zhi, and she was unwilling. So, her tone was full of contempt: "Do you think you can come up? ”

"Then I'll go and tell the security guard at the door now, I'm your husband. Do you think he will tell you to come to me? ”

"Zhou Zhi, don't go too far!"

"Yoyo, I beg you, come out and meet me."

"You want to see me, why?"

"I ...... I can't get your forgiveness, it's really painful. ”

"Okay, I forgive you." Tang Qingyou gritted his teeth and said, "Please don't bother me from now on." ”

"You're playing tricks on me again." Zhou Zhi probably gritted his teeth, "You say forgiveness on your lips, but you hate me in your heart." How could I not know. ”

"Zhou Zhi, are you sick?" Tang Qingyou felt that he really had only one option left, "This is not good, that is not good." What do you really want? ”

"I want you." Zhou Zhi finally said the biggest obsession in his heart for a long time, "If you know how much I love you, you will understand that the only thing you should choose in this life is to be my woman." What he didn't say was what he wanted to leave in front of Tang Qingyou, the love story of the person in his heart. In the dusty years that Tang Qingyou didn't know at all, every time Pingsheng Drama Club performed, Tang Qingyou performed on stage, and Zhou Zhi watched it offstage. From her playing the human princess in "Daughter of the Sea" to Nala in "A Doll's House", he watched all of Tang Qingyou's public performances one by one, and he even went into the rehearsal hall to watch Tang Qingyou's daily rehearsals many times, he has been watching silently, guarding the goddess in his mind from afar with the consciousness of a fan. As a result, Tu Yiran, who suddenly appeared, broke this situation and even slowly took his goddess away from the stage...... Zhou Zhi deliberately contacted Tu Yiran and became his most loyal follower, helping him lead newcomers from all walks of life and cultivating a batch of double stars, but he was always unknown, fortunately, in this process, he was able to take Tang Qingyou with him personally......

In the love time between Tang Qingyou and Tu Yiran, Zhou Zhi who accompanied Tang Qingyou the most was Zhou Zhi.

"You're really sick, why don't you die?" Tang Qingyou scolded, "If you harass me again, do you believe it if I call the police?" ”

"Hmm. Maybe you really called the police and arrested me, so I wouldn't have to be so painful. Zhou Zhi smiled bitterly, "Really, I'm going crazy." When he said this, Zhou Zhi pressed down the car window, raised his eyes to look at the two big signboards of Nanshan Grand Theater and Beihai Art Base hanging above the building, and said with determination: "If you don't come to see me today, I will wait at the door." ”

Zhou Zhi just parked the car on the side of the road, and it was not sticked. His sports car was too eye-catching, the security guards at the door frequently looked sideways, and Tang Qingyou upstairs stood at the window and saw all this, so worried that his hair turned white. - However, she really didn't have any courage to face Zhou Zhi alone. She suffered the biggest loss in her life here in Zhou Zhi, and she was really afraid.