Chapter 199: The Woman He Loves the Most
The warp dye at this moment is mechanical, as if no matter what Tang Keqing does, she is so stiff and let her come.
Deng Yun is intestines are all repentant, how could he be so confused and let Tang Keqing also come to see Qu Ran, "You come with me, Qu Ran, I'll come back to you again." β
She and Qu Ran haven't seen each other for four years, and it is really sad to have such a bad attitude when they meet.
But Tang Keqing was firm, "Deng Yun, you go, if the resentment between me and Qu Ran is to be resolved, now you let me take her to a place." β
"Tang Keqing......" Deng Yun doesn't trust her very much at the moment, after all, Tang Keqing is too impulsive, and sometimes she does things indiscriminately, this woman seems to be very worried from head to toe.
It's just that Tang Keqing is also very rare serious, "Believe me, since I'm here, I won't hurt her." β
However, Qu Ran needs to be sober at this moment, she is languishing and looks extremely decadent, Tang Keqing must make her sober and regain her strength.
Qu Ran is always insolvable, the discomfort and pain make her unable to resist, as if she is like a walking corpse at this moment, and she is really only a shell, but she knows very well that Tang Keqing is by her side at this moment.
For a long time, she still let Tang Keqing take her anywhere, she had no objection, and she didn't seem to feel scared at all.
After a long while, Qu Ran finally broke the silence, "I'm retribution, after I hurt so many people, I lost the person I want to care for the most in my life, the closest and dearest." β
She lost her daughter.
Such a sense of pain accumulated in her heart, as if her body weighed thousands of pounds, and she was unable to move forward, as if she owed more debts, no matter how many regrets, she couldn't take care of it, she just wanted to stop and stop here.
In fact, Tang Keqing also knew Qu Ran's thoughts, and learned everything that happened to her in prison from Deng Yun, although she still had a lot of hatred for Qu Ran, but her distress for Qu Ran replaced all hatred, and it was accompanied by anger at Qu Ran's stupidity.
"It didn't belong to you in the first place, so, you're going to lose it eventually! What do you say, you still insist on giving birth to a child when you are in prison, you are letting the child suffer and be distorted, you don't understand, you are not only doing your own evil, you are harming others, giving birth to a child is not so simple, it is not something that can be done after giving birth to her. β
Did she have a brain at that time?
If Tang Keqing was willing to forgive Qu Ran before, and was willing to really wake up from the grief of He Jinhang's death, she would definitely stop Qu Ran from doing such a brainless thing at all costs, and actually gave birth to the child like this, which is a bravery that many women dare not imagine.
Qu Ran stopped talking again, indeed, now that she thinks about it, she gave birth to Sisi so hard, not for her good, but for her alive.
Even at this moment, Qu Ran almost couldn't believe how much abuse had happened to Sisi during the period of time when she was taken home by Lin Yueqin for adoption, she would not be naΓ―ve to think that Lin Yueqin wanted to make up for her, her mind was always ill-intentioned.
Tang Keqing was also annoyed when she talked about the child, and her attitude towards Qu Ran at this time was also very extreme, even if this would make Qu Ran hurt, it was almost a heart-rending pain, but she had to be made realize that she didn't even have the qualifications to be decadent.
Qu Ran was forcibly brought to the cemetery where He Jinhang was laid to rest by Tang Keqing, which was the first time Qu Ran came.
When Qu Ran's eyes were fixed on the portrait of He Jinhang on the tombstone, at that moment, Qu Ran's heart was hysterical fear and panic, and an overwhelming sense of guilt arose.
"No......" She didn't want to see He Jinhang, and she didn't have the face to see him.
In an instant, it was as if the world had been collapsed, and tears and horror were everywhere.
Tang Keqing knew that this was cruel, but she definitely had to make Qu Ran realize that she had to face this matter, "Since He Jinhang left, you haven't been here once, right?" β
These words shocked Qu Ran's heart even more panicked, and his heartbeat intensified violently, "Keqing, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, the most sorry person in my life is He Jinhang, I killed him." β
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Her words were choked, and she couldn't continue to speak, her eyes almost didn't dare to face He Jinhang's portrait, such a fresh and clean face, she looked so young, and she was clearly full of vitality and vitality.
It's just that He Jinhang was persecuted to death by her at the best age, and the uncomfortable feeling of the melody here poured out like a storm.
Tang Keqing didn't allow her to escape, "Yes, that's right, you killed him, if He Jinhang wasn't for you, how could he let go and put his life aside, didn't he know his condition, he knew, He Jinhang himself was a doctor, how could he not know his own situation." β
Afterwards, about He Jinhang's matter, what he did, in fact, Tang Keqing thought very clearly, how much He Jinhang loved Qu Dye, so he would not even care about his life to save the person she loved.
This kind of relationship is not something that anyone can do, maybe this kind of thing rests on her, and Tang Keqing thinks that she can't do it.
It can be seen that He Jinhang's mind may be all Qu Ran, Deng Yun said that she has been secretly in love with He Jinhang for so many years, it is all her own passion, in fact, there is nothing wrong with it.
After being exposed by Tang Keqing like this, it even made Qu Ran even more ashamed and guilty, this is not something that can be made up for with a few words of sorry, Qu Ran burst into tears, but he couldn't say a word.
She didn't want to.
Knowing such words, I would rather watch He Chenfeng leave with despair than do such a despicable and shameless thing.
This is not what Tang Keqing thinks about making Qu Ran heartbroken, but there is still resentment in his words, "During the time He Jinhang left at the beginning, I hated you, hated you, and I would be very vicious to think about why it was not you who died, why I wanted to love someone, but I didn't even have a chance to love, He Jinhang could obviously live under my sight, but you were completely ruined overnight." β
"Who am I, Tang Keqing, even if I still haven't been able to pursue He Jinhang in the end, I will definitely become a friend with him who has nothing to say, a friend for life, but Qu Ran, you are my best friend, my most important confidant in my life, but you treat me like this, so I have always hated you all these years, even before I came to see you, I still have a lot of resentment in my heart."
Although she had a lot of grievances before she came, Tang Keqing knew that all her emotions were when she saw Qu Ran, and when she saw Qu Ran again, she was tired and very depressed after four years, which was not what Tang Keqing had seen, she softened her heart and woke up.
Tang Keqing swallowed her throat, and also had a very solemn expression, "Qu Ran, listen well, since you are sorry for He Jinhang, you have to make up for him, make up for him with your heart, the person He Jinhang loved the most in his life is you, so for him, you have to live a good life for me, cheer up, no matter what has happened, or what is about to happen, you must face it bravely, and you can't escape it." β
Qu Ran listened to Tang Keqing's words, but he didn't come back to his senses.
Tang Keqing's tone is impulsive, this has always been her attitude of speaking, but she can hear her seriousness and truthfulness.
Tang Keqing added more and more seriously when facing Qu Ran, "You heard it right, I want you to start over, if He Jinhang is in the sky, he will not be willing to see you fall like this, he will never think of letting you punish himself." β
"A man who can't even take his life for you, how can a man who loves you so much be willing to punish you, so, warp ran, stop, stop all your self-blame, you are not wrong, in that case, anyone will do this."
Tang Keqing's words made Qu Ran even more stunned.
However, at this moment, there were more tears, and in the end, the choked voice turned into heart-rending crying, "I'm sorry, but Qing, I hurt you ......"
In Qu Ran's heart, she even thinks that she is a sinner and harms the dearest and most loved people around her, she is like a scourge, harming the people around her.
"Don't say anything, Qu Ran, don't you understand now, everything has nothing to do with you, don't blame yourself anymore, in fact, the person who should say sorry is me, I was wrong, I shouldn't have blamed you unreasonably before."
"Why do you want me to blame you, foolishly, He Jinhang and I have never started, we won't start before, even if he is alive and alive in front of me, we can't have any chance."
It's just that this kind of realization seems to have come too late for Tang Keqing.
After finishing speaking, Tang Keqing took the initiative to get closer, "Qu Ran, forgive me, you know that my temper is so hopeless, for the sake of a woman like me who has no friends, forgive me." β
Tang Keqing was already hugging her tightly at this time, and she was also in tears at the moment when she hugged Qu Ran, "I'm sorry, it's all my fault, if I could have woken up earlier, maybe you wouldn't have to suffer so many grievances, at least you wouldn't be so sad......"
In the past, when Qu Ran was the saddest, she would always be by her side, but this time it was different, when Qu Ran was the most sad and painful, she fell into the well.
"But it's sunny...... Thank you...... Thank you for forgiving me......" Although Qu Ran couldn't forgive herself, Tang Keqing was able to reconcile with her, and if her friendship over the years could go back to the past, this was the only thing that Qu Ran could make her a little happy.
"Promise me, from this moment on, put aside He Jinhang's matter, he loves you so much, if you really feel sorry for him and don't want to live up to his feelings for you, you will give me an easy life from now on, even if you have to be punished, your punishment in prison over the years is enough, don't blame yourself, full of guilt."
Tang Keqing is so serious, looking forward to Qu Ran being able to come out of her grief and start over.