The wind and snow whistled in my ears, bringing with them an icy chill.

The breath is exhaled out of the body, quickly atomized, and dispersed into the wind.

Xu Wei stood in the snow, his body stiff.

The cold wind kicked up the snow and mist, and the cool air poured straight into the neck, but the back was warm and soft.

He lowered his head and looked at the arm around his waist, obviously so slender, but with incomparable determination, as if, even if the sky fell apart and the sea withered and the rocks rotted, he would not let go.

He felt something overflowing, surging and surging, flooding his cold heart and regaining his consciousness a little bit.

It was at this moment that he realized how weak he was, how frightened he was in a world that had nothing to do with him. It's like being in this snowstorm, without any warmth, unable to find any support, can only look at the vague target, gritting his teeth and moving forward.

How many times, he can barely hold on, wants to give up, and just goes with the flow. If God doesn't give him a way to live, then there's nothing wrong with disappearing into this world like this.

However, he is not reconciled, how can he be willing? I have lived this scene, but I have no identity, no surname, no place to exist, and no self-worth.

He, no matter what his name is Xu Shun, or whatever, is a person who really has a zài, why is his self-existence erased because of the whimsy of an old monster?

was forced to become Xu Zheng's stand-in, carry the mandate of heaven for him, and follow the route set by the other party, or fail to die, or retire successfully. The person who created him has never thought that he is also a living person, with thoughts and feelings, love and hate. There are joys and hates-

He certainly didn't want to suppress himself. Of course he wants to get someone he likes. But. He didn't dare.

He knew what kind of life he was living, and if he dragged her into the water, she would live in fear every day. Fear of being discovered, worry about each other's safety, fear, worry. If you're not careful, you'll be implicated in him and killed, even if she's always safe. What if one day he died? With her fierceness, I'm afraid that she will go to great lengths to avenge him. He didn't want her to live like that, even if he died, he hoped that she would be able to live well and unaffected. Yuan Baby, turning into a god, maybe one day, can fly into an immortal.

Like someone, to make her live better, not to be a burden to her.

Now he can't do it, so. I'd rather be a stranger to her. At least then, she's safe.

Let alone. Once you confess your heart and become that kind of relationship with her, she will become her own weakness. What he wants to do, he can't see any possibility of success, and after he has weaknesses, how can he still lay out risks without scruples? What he has to bear is not only his own fate, but also the lives of those swordsmen. Duan Feiyu and Fu Yuanqing, these people gave him their lives, and all they asked for was a hope. How could he let his feelings be above the lives of these people? He couldn't.

"Cheng Lingyu," in the wind and snow, he heard his calm and resolute voice, "You ......"

"If you have the ability, you can push me away again!" Her voice, as cheerful as a genius, was as unbridled as triumphant, so plain and enthusiastic that he couldn't speak.

"You...... How can you be so ......"

Bummer! The two words rolled on the tip of his tongue, and finally swallowed it. He felt in a trance that she was like a scoundrel who was molesting a little girl, and what made him even more speechless was that he seemed to be the little girl who was molested......

The arm around his waist finally let go, and at the same time, his heart was instantly empty, and that little bit of warmth and gentleness was quickly taken away by the cold wind and snow. Chad is more lost than never gained.

Lingyu stepped on the thick snow, walked around in front of him, and looked up at him: "Do you want to say that you don't like me?" ”

Xu Wei did not move. In her clear eyes, he saw his own reflection.

Then, she smiled, her eyes curled into moon buds: "It's okay, I know it's enough that I like you." ”

I know...... I like you......

For a moment, he seemed to see nothing, heard nothing, only her smile in his eyes, and only the words she said in his ears.

She said she liked him. This is the first time, she admits so.

Although he had vaguely guessed this from her words and actions, he had never heard her say it in person so directly and shockingly.

There is endless joy in the bottom of my heart, and no matter how I warn myself, I can't control it.

For a long, long time, until each other was covered by wind and snow, reason broke out of joy.

"Do you know what you're talking about?" He heard his own voice, incredibly calm.

"Of course you do, do you think I'm you?" At this time, she didn't forget to hurt him.

Xu Wei stabilized his feelings and tried to communicate with her calmly: "What do you like about me?" Without waiting for her to answer, she continued, "You know that my qiē is all fake, and I am just a stand-in, a puppet who will be abandoned at any time." I've never been nice to you, I broke your appearance the first time we met, ignored you the second time, threatened you the third time, and wanted your life the fourth time...... What do I have to like for you? ”

Every time he said a word, Lingyu nodded, and at the end, she held her chin and pondered: "You say that...... It seems to make sense, I didn't expect you to be so bad to me. ”

Just when Xu Wei was both disappointed and relieved, Lingyu smiled, she looked up at him, and said, "But, I just like you, what should I do?" ”

“……”

Lingyu stretched out her hand, wrenched her fingers and said, "The first time, you did break my appearance, I thought at the time, this person is really annoying, but I followed you first, and I can't seem to blame you for anything." The second time, you ignored me, well, I have to thank you for ignoring me, at that time my cultivation was not at the same level as yours, and if it was involved in your grievances, it would be troublesome. Moreover, you healed the wound on my face, and the previous hatred of the broken phase was erased. ”

She pulled off her third finger: "Third time...... Do you know how much I hated you back then? How can there be such an abominable person in this world? Your grievances with Fu Yuanqing are none of my business, I just escaped death, and I was forced to join the team by you. But so. You're a man with a good conscience. I'm not at a loss......"

"And a fourth ......," she paused. Looking up at him, there were many things flowing in his eyes, "I was annoyed when you drew your sword and faced each other, I was obviously doing you a great favor, but I wanted to be killed by you." But I don't hate you, I guessed your identity, to your position. It's normal to make such a choice, but I blame myself for being too careless and putting myself in danger. ”

She turned her head and exhaled, "Things in this world are so strange that sometimes they don't make sense. If I hate you, then every qiē you do will become a reason to hate you. But I like you, so it doesn't matter. ”

The wind and snow were louder, surging all over the world, as if to drown the two of them.

Lingyu squinted slightly. Turning back to meet his eyes: "I was also terrified when I found out that I seemed to like you a little. I know what kind of predicament you're facing, and if I let this liking go, I'll be in a quagmire. However, liking this kind of thing is not something that can be controlled by reason as it wants. So I asked myself, what do I like about you, do you like Cheng Dù who doesn't want to give up no matter what kind of situation you are? ”

The wind and snow swept by, and her voice fell on it, obviously cold, but with a hint of warmth.

Xu Wei felt that his breathing was a little heavier, and he wanted to get an answer from her mouth.

"At first, I thought you were a dustless person, and even a little arrogant and annoying. But after knowing your identity, I realized that it is not that you want to be arrogant, but that you can't let others approach. What does being approachable do to you? Too much proximity from outsiders will only increase the likelihood that you will be exposed. It is because you know that you are not Xu Zheng, not the real Xu Gongzi, that you can see the real you under the surface. ”

“…… In the three years of peace and quiet in Linhai, I saw you, almost trying your best to move forward, as long as you can make yourself stronger, you will do anything. But, despite all your self-interest and danger, you can still stand ahead of us. That's when I thought, you're such a good companion, and with you, I can trust my back to you. ”

"Later, my dantian was damaged, my life hung by a thread, and I finally picked up a small life. Master said that you sent medicine to save me, and then I thought, you are really a very good person. obviously saved my life, but he had to pretend to be ruthless, not wanting me to owe me a favor. Therefore, when you came to Taibai Sect, you were so depressed, it made me feel that I should give you a hand. ”

Lingyu looked at him and smiled: "Everything has a cause and effect, if it weren't for you to save your life first, there would be no follow-up, maybe I would stand by and watch." ”

"......" Xu Wei closed his eyes, and although she said so, he knew that it was not. She is a person who loves and hates clearly, and while she is wise enough to protect herself, she also maintains a kind heart, and will not hesitate to lend a helping hand to others when she is able. Even if he didn't deliver medicine, he would still say those words when he saw him like that.

"Actually, after all that, I don't know what I like about you, it seems that you have a little bit of everything. Especially when Master told me that the 'Xu Gongzi' would be destined to be lonely and widowed with the destiny of heaven, I realized that it seemed to be a little special to you, but at that time, you sent a congratulatory gift......

Xu Wei has never regretted it so much as now, and his momentary indulgence will lead to this consequence. If he knew that the congratulatory gift would trigger Lingyu's feelings for him, maybe he wouldn't do anything.

"You ask me what I like about you, and I can't really say clearly. Maybe it's gratitude, appreciation, sympathy, or maybe you feel like it and want to reciprocate...... I don't know, but I know for sure, I feel happy to see you, happy because of your rescue, I want you to be happy, I want you to be free, if that's not liking, I don't know what is. ”

He stood in the snow, dancing wildly in the wind and snow around him, obviously cold, but a little joy fell in his heart and took root. (To be continued......)

PS: Will I say that I cried when I wrote this chapter? Is there ever such a person who brings him pure joy, wants to be with him, wants him to be free and happy, obeys his heart, and doesn't care about a qiē. To the youth who once worked hard.