After Shen Xinpei left, I stood outside and cried dry before touching the key. I didn't touch it for a long time, and finally I had to ring the doorbell.

"Madame, you-"

"Leave me alone......"

Ignoring Sister-in-law Lin and not asking Yezi, she plunged into the bathroom.

I turned the shower to the maximum and rushed back to the room without taking off my clothes.

Inch by inch of skin, I scratched hard with my fingernails. I felt like I was dirty and disgusting inside and out.

Sister-in-law Lin knocked on my door outside, and I said I was fine.

I'm fine. I just locked the bathroom door, I just knelt in front of the vanity mirror with a slump of slumps, I just picked up the spare razor blade that Ye Jinliang left in the drawer-

Slowly press against the turquoise blue of your wrist!

Before today, I had no idea I could be so vulnerable. I thought that from the moment I saw my daughter come into the world, no matter what kind of danger and desperation there was, I would be able to survive for her.

But when I looked at her beautiful little face and watery eyes, I really couldn't find the slightest trace of my dearest and beloved person!

I can't help but love her, but I can't help but hate why she came into this world!

I wanted to die, and I watched my blood dissipate along the life force that had been lingering. Leave no explanation, no rebuttals. No one needs to give an explanation, as long as I die, all this pain and despair will be over!

Gritting my teeth, I pressed down the strength of my fingers.

The blue soon faded, and a trace oozed from the shallow red line.

It hurts a lot, it hurts, like a needle prick and then a longitudinal tear on the skin.

But I couldn't do it after all-

Because I died, Leaf really became an orphan that no one wanted. She will bear the name of a motherless wild seed and live her sad childhood.

She will become more and more withdrawn, and she will become more and more miserable. I can't imagine her future, her end!

Rushing out of the bathroom, I threw myself into the children's room and hugged my daughter, who was drawing under the lamp.

I cried so darkly that I was hoarse. Sister-in-law Lin was so frightened that she didn't dare to make a sound or step forward, but just used a dry bath towel to try her best to wipe it on my body and face.

"Mom, what's wrong with you?" Leaf's little hand landed lightly on my icy stinging cheek, and my tears scalded her fingertips.

"Leaves...... If mom and dad are separated, will you be okay with mom? ”

"Why separate?" The daughter's eyes rolled, as if something was about to flow down: "Mom, is it that Dad doesn't want leaves?" Wow-"

My daughter's cry broke my heart like a hammer. I hugged her and said no, Ye Zi is the most well-behaved. Daddy doesn't hate leaves...... It's all mothers who are bad......

Such a young child can't understand the so-called love and forgetfulness, so I can only try my best to make her understand that she has not been rejected and abandoned.

This is the only thing I can do for my children as poor mothers.

Ye Zi fell asleep when she was tired of crying, I didn't explain anything to Sister-in-law Lin, I just said to her: "In the next few days, I will look for a house outside."

You have been with our Shu family for most of your life, and I wanted to take you to retire and enjoy Qingfu. I didn't expect it to be—"

Sister-in-law Lin's eyes were also red. My mother left early, and this old servant took care of my daily life after I was seven years old. She has never been married in her life, and she is the only one in her life.

"Lan Lan, I'll go with you, I'll bring you leaves." She doesn't say anything or ask anything, but I know she understands.

After marriage, Sister-in-law Lin kept calling me Mrs., Mr. Jinliang. At this moment, I heard the word 'Lan Lan' when I was a child again, and I couldn't help but hug her rickety shoulders and sob.

I thought, I'm just too helpless, I need the arms of a real person too much.

Except for the leaves, I only have Sister-in-law Lin.

Changing into clean clothes, I leaned back on the bed and looked at the two divorce agreements that had been put on hold.

The moment I put pen to paper, I didn't hesitate any longer.

My wrist was cut and not bandaged. There were drops of blood that happened to drop off the money, and I gently pressed a fingerprint on it. It is such a sad mark for our marriage.

I don't know how Ye Jinliang will feel, but I have already decided not to say anything.

What shall I say? Do you say that your mother sent your wife to be raped in order to save you?

I know Ye Jinliang too well. He's going to break down, he's going crazy, he's going to kill people! There was absolutely no way he could break his teeth and swallow in peace—

It's better to think that I was confused for a while and did something sorry for him. It's better for him to hate me than for him to not know who to hate.

Ye Jinliang, I love you after all, or I love me a little more than you......

Just then, there was the sound of the door opening downstairs. Sister-in-law Lin greeted her: "Sir, are you back?" ”

Ye Jinliang is back?

I wiped my eyes, grabbed the divorce agreement in my hand and rushed downstairs-