"Shu Lan, I love you." Jiang Zuoyi grabbed my two hands and imprisoned me against the wall. I could feel his heart beating fast, his breathing chaotic, but his eyes were unparalleled clear.

I said, tonight, can you not say love?

Stripped of the last piece of clothing on his body, the moon rings reflected the window, and the night breeze blew through the pale curtains of the balcony. His upper body is magnified by light and shadow on the opposite wall, with delicate silhouettes and clear streamlines.

God knows how long I've been thinking about his body?

I pushed him on the bed, behind ...... Not a word was said again.

The intensity of longing seemed to shatter all people's sanity, and I lay in the crook of Jiang Zuoyi's arm breathing, pillowing the blood from the wound under his broken bandage.

I asked him if it hurt, and he just smoked and still didn't speak.

I scrambled up to look for the medicine box, and soon the room was filled with the smell of potion alcohol. The whole process, I was cautious, and he trembled frequently.

I said Jiang Zuoyi, you are too easy to get hurt. Later...... Andy is gone, you have to protect yourself.

"Women are all ...... Unreliable. How can so many people really feel sorry for you? "I cried as I spoke, maybe the tears that I had to endure after the pleasure were difficult to digest on my own, and I always had to find an opportunity to spray thin.

Tears fell on the tip of the tweezers, staining the cold alcohol cotton.

Jiang Zuoyi rolled over, not crying out in pain, but just reached out and stroked my cheek: "Shu Lan, by my side...... There was no one left. ”

I jumped to the ground with the medicine box in my arms and thrust it into the drawer with a hula. It's not that I'm angry, but I'm really angry: "Jiang Zuoyi, why don't you open your mouth and keep me!"

As long as you keep me, I can be the last person by your side......"

"I've lost so many people who love me that I can't die well, and I can't enjoy happiness with peace of mind." After saying this, he got up and got dressed, like a passer-by who didn't even give prostitution.

I stood barefoot, not even the urge to scream.

The moment he opened the door and went out, I gently grabbed his shirt: "If Lu Linshuang doesn't die, your battle won't end, right?" ”

Ling Nan, Ling Xue, Zhu Danni, Andy...... I thought that Jiang Zuoyi was so alone in the past, but now that I think about it, people can't be too dissatisfied, this is really nothing.

"How many lives does she owe me? The battle between us is just going to roll in hell with our throats choked. Jiang Zuoyi didn't look back: "Shu Lan, if I live, I won't go to you again."

So you don't have to ask what happened to me......"

Then he left, and I stood still.

I think if, many years later, I knew that this would be the last time I would ever see him in person, I would have gone out of my way to keep him!

I remember Ling Nan once said that love and hate are always inadvertently transformed, and what is more difficult than letting go of hatred is that you obviously haven't let go in your heart, but your hands are soft.

I remember that Ling Xue once said that she never resented Jiang Zuoyi for falling in love with me, what she resented was that after that man turned her into a person she didn't like, she was powerless to protect and persist under the impact of reality.

I remember that Zhu Danni also once said that she loves Jiang Zuoyi, and she simply has no other purpose. Not every woman has the courage to take such a decisive path.

I remember Andy once said to me, you can conceive his child, what else is there to be pretentious? You don't understand love because you have never tried to silently guard the attachments and time that you say you want to digest.

Everyone says that loving each other is not enough to be together. But who dares to say - two people, as long as they love each other, sometimes they have exhausted their fate and strength.

You don't love each other enough? You still want to go to heaven?!

But why, I finally lost my courage at that moment. And didn't choose to hold the man whose soul had been shattered?

Maybe I'm more cruel than him by nature, and I never feel that Jiang Zuoyi also needs redemption and forgiveness.

In the morning, I finally checked the facilities at home. Mr. Wang from the intermediary came early and knocked on the door.

I gave him the keys and he gave me the contract.

I said that the house should be hung for three months, and if you can rent it, you can rent it, and if you can't rent it, forget it.

"In short, if you want to be serious, it's easy to talk about rent or something."

"Yes, yes, you can rest assured. We do this business to make a reputation, you put the house here to trust me-" The sleek uncle is very good at hilarious: "If you come back early, just say hello to us." ”

I said I wouldn't be back anytime soon.

I'm going to go to Canada and stay for at least a year and a half.

On the one hand, he accompanied Ye Zi well, and on the other hand, he took care of Xiaofei's recovery.

Ye Jinliang's uncle-in-law has a company over there, and I have already thrown my resume over. With my experience and qualifications, and there is no language barrier, mixing with middle management is not a face-saving experience.

It's just that I've been working for myself all my life, and this mentality needs to be transformed as soon as possible.

When I arrived at the gate of the airport, Wang Xiaofei had already arrived early.

His sister and brother-in-law came to see it off, and Su Xihang and his two daughters also came over to join in the fun.

I knew that Ye Jinliang would also come, but I originally refused, but later he said: "Winter Night and Chenfeng have gone abroad." Now Wang Xiaofei has a large family of relatives to send, and you don't have anyone, how desolate. ”

I cried like a fool over the phone, I said Ye Jinliang, you set your own positioning really accurately, aren't you relatives? You're my only relative!

He called me unkindly, Sister Lan Lan.

This title, he began to shout when he was three years old, and shouted until my mother died.

I'm two months older than Ye Jinliang, yes, it's his birthday in a few days, thirty years old.

When we got married, we joked that we were going to have a big party when we were both thirty, and the theme was 'ho-care-about-thirty, hen-there-is-a-party!'" ’

Because the age of 30 seems to be a terrible ravine for many older unmarried young men and women. People will start to be restless, and they will start to worry about whether they will never meet their loved ones again in their lives, and whether they will die alone and old like this.

But for me and Ye Jinliang that year, it was like watching horror movies while eating potato chips. Nest in each other's most down-to-earth embrace, and watch those arrogant leftover men and women drink chicken soup.

We are proud of our love and relieved because of our uniqueness.

But no one expected that when we turned 30, we would be single.

I said Ye Jinliang, turn those pages, you still have very good conditions. If you have a chance, find the right girl.

"What about you?"

I said I had leaves, and ...... And Ye Zi's father.

"Will Jiang Zuoyi go to you?"

I said I don't know, it doesn't matter if I look for it or not. I said that I have leaves, and he is the father of leaves.

Ye Jinliang said that he never understood why I was reluctant to tell him that Ye Zi was his daughter. Is it just a sentence, is it difficult to say?

"You've been so inresolute that you've made me think I still have a chance. I...... I also want to be the father of the leaves. ”

I said that I actually keep asking myself this question over and over again, probably because I think. For Jiang Zuoyi at this stage, knowing it is a burden.

From beginning to end, he is the one who loses the most and the one who suffers the most. And all these tragedies obviously have nothing too directly related to him himself.

I'm afraid that he can't bear the surprise that falls from the sky, and he doesn't know where to go on the scales of choosing love and family and hatred and revenge.

Jiang Zuoyi will definitely be a good father. It's just that he may not be suitable to be Yezi's father today.

And after all, I can only choose to be a selfish mother.

I have never forgotten my original intention, I have tried to find the biological father of the child, but I have never thought about it...... I'm going to have this man raise me for me.

Back then, he was suppressed by some hooligan. Anyway, hehe, Jiang Zuoyi is also a hooligan!

In the end, Ye Jinliang said: "Shu Lan, I will try my best to forget you, if I can't do it, I will treat you as a drug in my life."

You can walk away, but I can miss. ”

I said whatever.

"Shu Lan!" Over there, Wang Tianyu was shouting to me: "It's almost, I'm going to go through the security check." ”

I said yes, then nodded and passed.

"You, there's still a chance to regret it." Wang Xiaofei was wearing a mask, and his two big eyes were smiling at me.

I was shocked by his resilience, but after two or three months in bed, his immunity was still lacking. We were worried that he would get sick with another sneeze in a crowded public place.

Wang Tianyu is obviously still a little worried, but her little daughter is only a few months old, and she hasn't been weaned yet. can only hold my hand and tell me a thousand times, chattering like postpartum depression.

"Okay, Xiaotian, my parents are over there, and someone will pick them up when they get off the plane. It's going to be fine. Su Beiwang dragged his somewhat neurotic wife aside, and Su Xihang was gone, looking at it from a distance, as if he was chasing his two unconscious daughters again.

I don't know what he's here for!

I solemnly say to my friends, thank you for your continued care, I ...... Hehe, I won't talk about the extra politeness.

In this way, I pushed Wang Xiaofei's wheelchair and waved goodbye to everyone.

When I went through security, I was still used to looking at all the pillars that could hide people. I always feel that Jiang Zuoyi will come, and he likes to stand from a distance and look at me, like a voyeur!

But today, the people came and went like a rain curtain blurred my eyes, and even a little bit of his breath...... I can't find any.

Some people say that even if two people haven't seen each other for a long time, they can find his breath from the time and space separated by tens of thousands of miles. Therefore, life and death do not depend entirely on real messaging.

So I think, Jiang Zuoyi ...... Are you still alive?

"I don't want to marry a woman who has another man in mind." Wang Xiaofei rubbed the wheelchair forward and poked my waist: "Please, I'm a boy from a good family, let me go." ”

I kicked him in the wheelchair, and I said Xiaofei, now your sister and brother-in-law and your backers are not there, if you follow me again, I am not welcome to you.

"I didn't expect you to give me a smile all the time! But please don't change your face so quickly. Believe it or not, I'm calling for help now, my sister can hear it! Wang Xiaofei smiled evilly and grabbed my hand: "Shu Lan, after we get over there, can we start with friends first?" ”

Me: "......"

Leaned down and kissed him on the forehead, I said you should start with my leaves as friends first.

"Well, since I skipped this step, then I don't have to be embarrassed to beg you to help me go to the toilet."

Me: "!! ”

"What? Aren't you here to take care of me, it's just the two of us here, if you don't help, do you want me to pee my pants? "This dead man, he really doesn't even rely on a score.

I said okay, you wait, wait if you can't pee, I'll beat you out!

Swaggered into the men's bathroom, I said to a buddy very girlily I'm sorry, my brother is disabled and inconvenient, can you help him! I have disposable plastic gloves from KFC that I use to nibble on chicken wings, so you can gently hold it -

The man was so frightened that he forgot about it, probably because it was not good to go out and meet a female hooligan. The trouser belt was not buttoned up and ran.

Wang Xiaofei laughed so much that he almost stood up, and it is estimated that the nerves in his spinal spine have recovered from laughter. He said Shu Lan, when I liked you at the beginning, I didn't know that you were so undisciplined.

I said that I used to hide myself deeply, but now I ...... I hid my temperance very deeply.

After laughing for a while, Wang Xiaofei lowered his head gloomily: "Shu Lan, if you like me, it's fine." ”

I grabbed him by the shoulders and scooped him up. I said I like you a lot, look at you, white and tender little fresh meat, you don't even have a scar on your face, you will still have a reaction if I help you, it proves that your body is not bad-

"But today, if Ye Jinliang falls down from the stairs and becomes semi-paralyzed, you will also take him to recuperate. No matter which man you are by, the heart is always on Jiang Zuoyi. ”

I said Wang Xiaofei, are you a reporter with a powerful mouth! If you have a strong mouth, I won't help you hold it, you pee on your own!!

Don't look over, I looked out the window at another plane taking off. I said that the biggest difference between adults and children is that they often do things that I don't want to do, but what I should do.

"Don't get me wrong, it's not because I think it's my responsibility that you're hurt, I should take care of you." Seeing Wang Xiaofei's expression, I quickly explained: "I'm just, very selfish."

I'm fed up with bloody intrigues. So I just feel happy to be around you.

You see, even if you have bandages on your hands and feet and steel spikes all over your body, you can still make me laugh like a fool. ”

"Shu Lan ......"

"Yes."

"I'm sorry." Wang Xiaofei hugged my shoulders, and the clear smell of medicinal powder gypsum on my body penetrated into my pantothenic acid snort, which irritated my tear ducts more than the smell of ammonia in the bathroom.

I said you don't say sorry, you're the only one who hasn't been sorry for others.

"It's not...... I...... Splash your pants on. ”

Me: "Wang Xiaofei! ”

I packed him up and sent him to a wheelchair, eager to pull out the heel belt and tie him to the post. I said don't run around, I'll go in and wash my pants.

This is not the only restroom at the airport, so when I saw a woman who was not particular about her baby washing her butt at the sink, I came out decisively.

Go around to the gate in the front corner, where there is also a boiling water room and restrooms.

Well, I'll admit that washing pants is not fundamentally different from washing your butt.

Sighing, I think I'm right. I was just selfish and wanted to run away.

How? I still have a daughter, and I have a life to look forward to.

In my life, there has never been Jiang Zuoyi. Even if there is no future, how can it be, how?

A cleaner walked past me, wearing a mask, and asked me if I wanted to use some dish soap.

I wanted to say it's okay, it's just a little nitrogen, made by a natural little virgin, and it's not a big aunt. But the aunt had already taken out the bottle, so I casually stretched out my hand and said thank you.

So I didn't expect her to suddenly pull a rag out of the bucket and cover my mouth and nose directly! The pungent ether poured into my consciousness at once, and my limbs felt as if they had been broken, and I couldn't lift up a little muscle.

When I felt that I was being loaded into the cleaning car, I felt as if I saw my leaves, saw Shen Xinpei, and felt their fear and despair at the beginning......

But in the end, I was still thinking about Jiang Zuoyi. I'm thinking, if I'm a useless hole card, Jiang Zuoyi, I beg you to stop working hard for me.

***

When I woke up, my hands and feet were tied. I don't know, and I don't need to.

His eyes were blindfolded, and his breathing was fairly smooth. I only felt sore, but I didn't feel any pain.

I said Lu Linshuang, Aunt Lu, I know it's you.

"What about Wang Xiaofei? Have you captured him? ”

There was a sound of footsteps slipping past me, and the black cloth in front of me was suddenly removed, and I saw that there was a mourning hall in front of me. Black on white background, a comfortable portrait.

There was a distance of about ten meters from the pillar where I was tied to the front of the mourning hall, so empty and dilapidated, it was hard to understand how she hid.

Lu Linshuang stood under the mourning hall, holding her elbows, facing out the window. From this point of view, she was quiet and cold, not at all like a devil.

It's like the one who can calm down the most and pretend to be the most forced before the master makes a move. may be a move to control the enemy to burst into cheers, or a move to defeat and sigh.

"Can you help me untie the line? I want to give Yan Yan a stick of incense. I said, "Also, please tell me where Wang Xiaofei is!" ”

The reason I'm so calm is because I'm relieved.

Instead of fleeing abroad alone in fear, instead of repeatedly worrying about what the ultimate battle between Jiang Zuoyi and this woman would be. I thought it would be better for her to just get me over like that.

So I shouldn't be able to get out alive today, right? I think.

I thought I could be at peace before I died, even though I still had so much to do.

I don't know if I disappeared like this, whether Wang Xiaofei would be in a hurry to pee his pants, and I don't know if this missed date will make Ye Zi never forgive me as an incompetent mother again.

There are countless possibilities in the outside world, and I am about to be killed by this crazy woman in front of me.

Lu Linshuang waved his hand, and someone next to him came up and cut the rope on his body. I was able to stand up, but my hands were still tied behind my back.

"Get on your knees."

She said.

I shook my head and said I only bowed, not knelt.

"Because I've never been sorry for Yan Yan, as a half-sister, it's human nature that I can give her reasonable care on the surface.

The consequences of all this today are not caused by me. I don't need to magnify my shame anymore and get endless satisfaction from the abusive mentality of people like you. ”

The man behind me kicked me in the knee, but I stood upright. Then the big hand pressed down and pushed me to the ground. I'm not even afraid of death, am I still afraid of broken bones?

Later, Lu Linshuang kicked over a dagger and said that if I didn't comply, I would use this knife to rip off my kneecaps, so that I could only crawl for the rest of my life.

I looked at her in silence for a moment, then sneered.

I said that the difference between me and not being in line today is only whether I die happily or not, right?

"Lu Linshuang, in fact, don't you know yourself? Do you hate me that much? You don't have it at all, right? Because my sister is much more competent than your mother.

At least before Yan Yan left, she said that she loved me and that she wanted me to save her. But you are the nightmare she has tried to escape from all her life.

Lu Linshuang, you have no enemies.

My mom has been dead for more than 20 years, and my dad has buried his love and guilt for you for more than 20 years. No one in this world owes you a long time ago!

Step by step, you have to drag all the people who care about you and trust you to hell.

I'm fine, Jiang Zuoyi is okay. None of us want to deal with you, we're just trying to survive, we're protecting ourselves.

It is your resentment that has nowhere to vent that has forced everyone to contradict each other, so that we have to pick up a knife and gun against you. ”

"You're right. So today, I just want you to die, there is no reason and no motive, so what? ”

I laughed and said that an enemy like you is really difficult to deal with, how can anyone destroy so calmly and illogically?

What is the difference between it and the big devil who pops up at every turn in an American blockbuster to rule the world?

I said I don't have that much time and energy to dissect your personality, my mother made a mistake and she has been punished. But are you really as innocent as you think you are?

"Sixteen or seventeen-year-old girl, relying on her young, beautiful and rebellious, what qualifications do you have to destroy my family and seduce my father?

You don't know how to respect and love yourself, and when you are pregnant with Shu Ya, you still want to force my father to divorce and marry you! Isn't it you who you have everything you have today? ”

Why should I provoke her? Because I think it's better to force her last sanity and let her simply stab me in the heart than to let her take a dagger and break my nails one by one!

So when she slashed my neck for the first time, I was even a little bit expectant to see the kind of arterial blood column that the book says is seven or eight meters high.

But in fact, she withdrew.

I only felt pain, but I didn't feel the exhaustion of my breath, and my soul and consciousness drifting away.

"I'm cheap? Do you dare to go over there and ask Shu Zhongshan! In those years, under the pretext of giving gifts to Anan, how many times did he park his car in front of my school!

He dared to say he didn't want to come to see me? Dare you say that he hasn't been moved by me! ”

"What about temptation! You're young, you're beautiful, and a man can be tempted by you! But in this world, in addition to love, there is responsibility, in addition to desire and shame, in addition to fame and sacrifice!

Do you understand? You know what! ”

I said Lu Linshuang, your tragedy lies in the fact that you have suffered a tragedy since you were seventeen years old, and the poor murderer was taken away by God. So you can't find someone to take revenge on from the beginning, because you forgot - the person who really killed your parents was you, the rebellious and ignorant daughter who broke the parents' hearts!

It was you who caused your parents to die, and it was you who caused Anan and Xue to be lonely.

You hold a belly that is about to give birth, and you bet all the hatred that has nowhere to vent on the next generation.

You're basically playing a game with no payout, only excitement.

Now you've lost and you're going to ruin the whole game. But I still want us to repent to you and convince you that everything you have done is right.

Lu Linshuang, you don't deserve sympathy at all. Because you are a woman who does not respect herself and does not love herself, you deserve to come this far.

"My dad, he'......" I glanced at the handbag that had been left in the corner, and I said that if you've checked my belongings, you should know that he loved you.

"Loved? What if you have loved! A man can't give you a marriage and a future, even if he shows more guilt and sacrifice, he is just touching himself! ”

"That's because you're not worth it!" I yelled, tearing the wound on my neck as if it was about to tear: "Love is love, family is family."

In addition to your youth and beauty, do you have a little bit of anything to compare with my mother? My dad started from scratch, and no matter whether there was a way to compromise in the process of starting a business, my mother never gave up and always waited. And you're just relying on your fantasy princess dream, and you want to climb trees and pick peaches for nothing?

Do you have the capital to marry my father?

Do you think you're a strong woman with a career and means? No kidding, can you compare yourself to me? It's just that he relied on the man to get on top, and he used all the strength he wanted to use to separate his legs.

Look at your daughter! Is she really willing to do that! What have you ruined Yan Yan's life? You set up a mourning hall for her, and you remember her?

She just chose to huddle in that fire and be reborn, and she didn't want to come back to you.

Lu Linshuang, you ruined all the people who love you and trust you. ”

A tall man behind me stepped forward and kicked me down, and my back was very heavy and painful, and my internal organs were upside down.

"Sister Shuang, the ship has already arrived, hurry up and ask. Don't waste time. ”

Lu Linshuang said okay and set her up.

I was dragged up like a piece of fish to be slaughtered. Then he was tied to a shelf like Jesus, and a man with a scarred face came over and took a bucket.

I don't have to think about it to know that it's gasoline.

To say not to be afraid, that is false. So I really don't understand, what kind of way did Shu Yan use to resist this fear at that time?

Because of despair, because there is nothing to love?

I can't do it, because my heart is fuller than her, and it is full of love.

"Where is the money hidden in the high mountain peak?"

Money? I was stunned.

What money do I say, I don't know what you're talking about!

"Gao Shanfeng, this old ruffian, put me together in my early years." When Lu Linshuang said this, I seemed to have a vague impression.

It seems that Lin Yuqing told me before that Gao Shanfeng used Long Lao Er as the lower limit to set her a large sum of money when he cooperated with Lu Linshuang. There is no whereabouts so far, so she was so anxious to find Gao Shanfeng at that time, not because she was afraid that he would turn himself in, but for the money.

But later, Jiang Zuoyi fought against the water and gave his father-in-law to the police, and now the case is over, and Lu Linshuang's supply and marketing lines at the beginning, even our Zhongshan Jianye and Jiang Zuoyi's Jiangyuan Group were all frozen and seized - of course, he had already withdrawn his shares and fled, leaving an empty shell and pitting Su Beiwang for hundreds of millions, that is a later story.

But I haven't heard of Gao Shanfeng confessing a huge amount of money hidden from unknown sources!

Now Lu Linshuang has obviously sealed all the accounts, and he urgently needs a sum of money to run away.

She came to ask me? Damn it, she just burned me, and I don't know what kind of money it is!

"Look at it, I'll tell you Shu Lan, a man doesn't give you a future, but you are moved to think that his sacrifice is so great." Lu Linshuang walked up to me, a cold dagger slashed across my cheek, and walked at the end of the cold hair: "Actually, it's not about money?" Such a large sum of money is enough for him to make a comeback, and he wants you to ...... What's the use?

If you really love someone, you won't give her away.

I won't let her go under the banner of my good for you.

Not like your father, who thought he had compensated me for so many years, but never treated me as his woman!

Shu Lan, you are the most pitiful woman, your Jiang Zuoyi only has Jiangshan, without you! ”

"That's because women don't have to be men to live a wonderful life, right?"

I was not afraid of her dagger, and raised the corners of my lips and smiled: "Lu Linshuang, the biggest difference between us is." You will only ask for it from men, but you will not learn how to tell the difference between guilt and love. ”

"That's your excuse for deceiving yourself!" Lu Linshuang was annoyed, and said that he didn't have time to talk nonsense with me: "You don't say it, do you?" I'm going to bring you that stinky boy in a wheelchair right now, and chop his fingers off one by one right in front of you! ”

"You!"

"Shu Lan, she's right-

That's an excuse for men to run away. There was a thud, and the door to the hall was slammed open. The backlit figure fell in the clearest visual range in front of my eyes.

Lu Linshuang looked shocked, and waved his hand suddenly for a while, and dozens of black-clothed people immediately surrounded the scene.

I was used to Jiang Zuoyi's appearance to turn the tide, but I didn't expect that this time, he would come alone.

"Shu Lan, no matter what reason I use to push you away. Undeniably, it's all cowardice.

So I ...... Regret it. ”

"Jiang Zuoyi, how did you get in!"

The man pulled out a mask from his pocket: "Because your people are stupid, you brought me back as Wang Xiaofei." ”

What the?! No wonder I think this dress on his body is familiar-

"Shu Lan, this time, I didn't plan to hide behind the pillar. I've been behind you and want to go with you.

I want to go abroad with you, to see the leaves, and to accompany you out of the crisis and hustle and bustle here.

I...... You will no longer be left alone to face the unknown future.

So, here I am. ”