Until Jiang Zuoyi drove me back to the villa, I hadn't been able to stop trembling from the earth-shattering scene just now.

I thought that I had already tempered the disposition of not being afraid of heaven and earth in all kinds of adversity, but now, I couldn't even say the sentence 'I want to go back to the hospital to accompany Yezi' three or four times.

"You look like this, don't look at the kids." Jiang Zuoyi pressed me on the sofa, but I couldn't sit steadily. I said you let go, I'm going to accompany the leaves! Shu Yan, that pervasive slut, I can't put the leaves there alone!

"Shu Lan!" Jiang Zuoyi grabbed my shoulders, and his deep eyes were far and heavy: "Look at me, you look at me!" ”

I looked into it, and saw that in those brown pupils, I had a tired face.

"Jiang Zuoyi......" I muttered his name.

"It's okay, Shu Lan. I forgot what I had just seen...... "He took me in his arms and caressed my back like a child. With each stroke, I trembled an inch.

In the end, I cried out with a wow, I said Jiang Zuoyi, you don't know how many times I have fantasized, one day you can help me break those bad guys into pieces.

But just now, I watched two people die in front of me with their heads smashed like that!

"Are you really killing? You used to ...... Is it all like this?! ”

I admit that I was indeed strongly impacted by what had just happened, even if I saw Mo Jianlin fall from the upper floor and break his head, even if I stabbed Ye Jinliang's body with broken glass with my own hands, I was never afraid of blood or death.

But that's murder!

"Are you scared?" Jiang Zuoyi let out a low groan and picked my jaw with one hand.

I said I don't know, I can't really generalize about it by being afraid or not afraid.

Everyone has been driven to the point of losing their minds, and I have had the idea of killing countless times.

But there are some things that I can't do in the realm of social morality that I have received since I was a child.

"Moral category? Anan said the same thing to me before. Jiang Zuoyi snapped his fingers and asked the maid at home to bring hot water.

When I turned my head again, I found that Jiang Ling actually got up, standing at the door in a small pajama and peeking at us in a daze.

"Why are you up and go back to sleep." Jiang Zuoyi waved his hand.

"Godfather, what are you talking about...... What happened to Yezi her? ”

"Ye Zi is fine, tomorrow we will go to the hospital to see Ye Zi, you sleep obediently." After Jiang Zuoyi blew the child away, he took a towel to me.

I remember that he wiped my face several times.

I especially liked the feeling of him putting one hand around my shoulder and grabbing a towel over my face with the other fingers. Like a father's love for his daughter, and like an uncle's doting on little Lori. Although this man, who seems so much stronger than me, is not a few years older than me at all.

"This is probably the first time Anan has killed someone." Jiang Zuoyi said: "For so many years, he has followed me through thick and thin to fight the world, but he has never touched a drop of blood with his own hands.

Anyway, he came up with all the bad ideas, and the brothers under him who sold their lives. In the early years, for a small field, two factions and one fight could send dozens of lives, and they could die anything.

He sits in his wheelchair and will always choose a vantage point to look down on the panorama.

At that time, I often came back with wounds, and Ah Xue would help me bandage them, and Ah Nan would read the Bible on the side.

If you later ......"

Jiang Zuoyi put down the towel and exposed my face. Then look at the black gray on the towel. frowned and said, "You haven't washed your face for a few days?" ”

I shook my head aggrievedly, I didn't sleep all night last night, and it's normal to rub some dust.

"You...... What did you want to say just now, if something later-"

"If Ah Xue doesn't have an accident later...... Jiang Zuoyi got up and poured out the water, and then brought two plates of waffles. Probably he had just ordered the maid to bake it.

Drizzled with thick cranberry jam, I was terrified. I said no, this jam looks too similar to the brain just now, I'd better bite it.

It's fragrant and crispy, but for me at this time, even the best food is just a means to fill my stomach.

"But......" I whispered, "I remember you mentioned that Ah Xue died only four or five years ago, right?" Didn't you leave the Tao long ago? ”

"When I said that Ah Xue had an accident, I didn't mean her death." Jiang Zuoyi teased the coffee milk, and in an instant, the whole room was full of salivating appetite.

"Oh." I said go ahead, you're going to say it today anyway, and I happen to want to hear it.

Holding the coffee cup he handed me with both hands, I still couldn't suppress the occasional trilling of my teeth.

"You're so afraid of me, and you still want to hear my story?" Jiang Zuoyi pushed the tableware in and wrapped his arms around me with one hand.

I say I think, not because I want to know what kind of past you have, but .....because I want to know what kind of person you are.

"Sinners." Jiang Zuoyi sneered, and as soon as he raised his head, his face turned blue again: "Why did you run out again!" Isn't it underwhelming? ”

When I looked, it turned out that Jiang Ling had run out again. Lying in the doorway like a little Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle, his eyes blinking.

"Godfather, is Nan's mother still coming back today? He said he had baked me a cherry cake earlier—"

"Get out!" Jiang Zuoyi ran to the door and kicked him: "Such a big man is still thinking about sweets all day long, you are embarrassed!" ”

Me: "......."

Alas, Jiang Zuoyi, your face hurts.

"You're so cruel to Xiao Ling." I pouted.

"There's no way, two people with children always have to have a red face and a white face. Anan spoils him too much, I'm afraid I'll be spoiled as a fool. Jiang Zuoyi's reason is too cheap, but I have to admit that it makes a lot of sense.

In the past, Ye Jinliang and I were obviously the model of a tiger mother and cat father in our attitude towards Ye Zi, but now that the painting style has changed so much, it is no wonder that my poor daughter has a dual personality......

I said Jiang Zuoyi, Ling Nan didn't even blink his eyes when he killed someone, but he would be so attentive to an adopted son whose parents died. I genuinely find it incomprehensible.

"Lin Xuejun, the two of them did hit the muzzle of the gun." Jiang Zuoyi said: "Anan likes children very much, and he likes them morbidly. We made a lot of money in those years, and he gave most of his own money to the orphanage.

The gang is mixed, but disciplined. He turns a blind eye to everything, but as long as anyone dares to dabble in child trafficking and organ smuggling...... It's absolutely unforgiving. ”

"Did he ever lose a child?" I asked cautiously.

Jiang Zuoyi shook his head and said that it was not the loss of the child, but the loss of the younger brother.

In order to avoid the pursuit of the enemy, he protected his sister, held his infant brother, and hid in the cabinet behind his father's corpse.

When it was dawn and it was safe, my brother had been accidentally suffocated to death......

"Anan was twelve years old that year, and Axue was ten years old. The family was ruined overnight, and he went to the distant aunt of the Jiang family as a female worker.

I was also twelve years old that year, and it was the first time I went out hunting with Uncle Li, and the first time I killed people with blood.

In fact, my two siblings and I should have existed in two worlds where the three views are different and never intersect. But since it has happened, either one side will fall, or one side will be redeemed.

Oh, of course, in the end I won. ”

"So Ling Nan hates others for hurting children the most, is it because of such a shadow and origin? So his family died tragically at the hands of the enemy, wouldn't he resist a murderous demon like you from the bottom of his heart? I asked.

"Didn't you see how little mercy he showed when he shot me!" Jiang Zuoyi snorted coldly: "For so many years, he is the only one, and I have never seen through it." ”

"Leaving a sinister and vicious military advisor by your side, I think you have committed the taboo of the big brother in the rivers and lakes." I said wryly.

"If he were my enemy, I would have died in my sleep many times ago." Jiang Zuoyi stood up and stretched, and at the same time pulled me out, as if he was inviting me to dance a waltz: "It's not early, rest early." Tomorrow I will take Xiao Ling to see the leaves. ”

"Ah, wait! Can I ask one more question? "I admit that I'm a little sleepy, but what Jiang Zuoyi said tonight is really a little too refreshing: "You said that Ling Nan and their brothers and sisters are carrying family feuds, so ...... Did you report it for them? ”

"What do you think?" Jiang Zuoyi took off his tie, took off his shirt, and plunged into the bathroom.

Leaving me stunned for a few seconds, I said that I think you have already done what you have to do, otherwise you would not have been able to lose your anger and become the casual and casual appearance you are today.

"Jiang Zuoyi, I still like it...... That's you. I hung my head and said to the air in front of me, "Don't get me wrong, it's not the same thing as liking." ”

Well, so the water was rattling, and he probably didn't hear anything.

Later, I lay on the couch with my clothes, and I don't know when I fell asleep. Anyway, when it was dawn, I was already thrown on the bed by Jiang Zuoyi, and the downstairs was clanging, noisy and irritable.

I put on one of Jiang Zuoyi's shirts and stepped on the floor heating to the window. He was seen sitting in the yard downstairs, repairing a funny bicycle for Xiao Ling.

The warm winter sun stretches his figure far and long, and his focused attitude and serious craftsmanship constitute his charming plus points.

I think, the man who loves children so much, the nature is ...... How bad can it be?

Have you had too many unpleasant experiences, too many tragic pasts, and will your heart be plated with iron little by little. If you peel off those rusty marks, there will still be bright red blood when you poke it inside......

At this time, a car stopped outside the courtyard gate, and Ling Nan and Andy walked down. I'm still a little giggled, seeing that they came over this dusty night, eighty percent of them have already dealt with the corpse.

Am I an accomplice? Does it count as not reporting knowledge? Alas, Ling Nan killed people as if he was angry with me. The more I think about it, the more I feel that it is neither powerful nor pleasant.

"You ...... How was it handled? "At breakfast, I weakly said more. As I expected, Ling Nan said to Jiang Zuoyi so generously: "Let's kill this woman together, she will do bad things." ”

- As a result, he was almost pressed into the toast plate by Jiang Zuoyi!

That Thursday afternoon, I sat in a sunny consultation room and signed my name on the surgical risk notice with a trembling pen. Next to Ye Jinliang's name.

I've only had three times in my life, oh no, four times...... Write the name next to Ye Jinliang.

In addition to the marriage and divorce, I remember that there was also a high school exam. The physics questions were biased and difficult, and I couldn't write three big questions empty, and I almost cried on the table when I handed in the papers.

Ye Jinliang snatched the scroll from my back seat, crossed out my name, wrote his, and wrote his stroke on mine. Although the final result was a bloody dog who was scolded by the teacher, in my heart as a girl back then, I always felt that he was very handsome.

It's a pity that the frog at the bottom of the well has to stand up, and I thought that there would never be a resurgence of emotions, and when I saw Jiang Zuoyi reading a complete fairy tale for Ye Zi in the ward, I finally ...... I still moved.

Ye Zi said, can you finish this story today?

"No, godfather said, the story is serialized, and the rest will be more tomorrow." Little Zero sat in front of the bed in a regular manner, his eyes blinking.

Ye Zi pouted: "Adults don't count when they speak, and they don't remember when they're busy." ”

"Then why don't you do this, I'll read the rest, and I'll tell you later?" Xiao Ling lightly touched Ye Zi's hand: "Aunt Shu said that you are going to have surgery, Ye Zi, don't lose your memory." Otherwise, we'll have to start all over again. ”

I stood outside the door and looked at Dr. Su: "Ye Zi, is it possible for her to have amnesia?" ”

"I'm thinking too much, the memory center is not very close to the entry point of the operation. Not normally. ”

"Then you ......" I know it's just nonsense, after all, I'm going to go to the operating table tomorrow, and my mood is complicated and depressed like a ghost.

I said, can you make her 'amnesia'? The leaves are still so young, and those unpleasant experiences in the past should be forgotten.

As a result, Su Xihang scolded me righteously, saying that human memory is a person's faithful right to precipitate the past, and no matter how happy or sad it is, no one else is qualified to erase it for him.

Because there is no kind of life that does not need to experience pain, under all the glamorous satisfaction, to put it bluntly, it is just the three words "want to open".

I said sorry, I was hypocritical. As long as the surgery is successful and my leaves can open my eyes healthy and intact, I really really don't want anything more.

"Ms. Shu, there is something I want to give you an explanation." As soon as Su Xihang's expression was serious, I became nervous. I said that you can tell me directly, it's all up to this, don't hide it from me.

"Even if the surgery can successfully remove the half of the needle, it will not cause any functional damage to the child's brain. There is also no guarantee that the child's second personality 'smile' will be removed. ”

"Huh?!" I was startled and took two steps back: "What...... How so?! ”

"'Xiaoxiao' is not a monster that lives in the golden hoop stick, could it be that if she picks out the thorn, she will have no place to stay?" Su Xihang also explained to me the cause of Yezi's condition in popular medical language: "Acupuncture caused the child's corresponding brain tissue to be damaged by the disorder, causing her to secrete more pituitary fluid and breed an avoidant personality.

And the changes in your family have made this avoidant personality more and more lacking in love and security, and then a second personality has emerged.

Now we remove the needle, but the second personality that has been formed will still exist in the child's cerebral cortex and the frontal response memory center.

Fortunately, the child is still young, and the onset of the disease is not long, and optimistically speaking, it is not a permanent station.

As long as she gets along in the future, let her really feel the love and care, and don't suffer too much negative influence. I believe this is a battle that will not take long. ”

"I ...... I know. I bit my lip and nodded, in fact, after knowing Yezi's condition, I had such a plan - when Yezi's surgery is over, I will make those bastards pay the due price as quickly as possible, and then take the child abroad for a while.

So I told the doctor about this idea, but Su Xihang obviously didn't think so.

"It's not a question of where you live.

- You hope that Ye Zi can choose between 'Ye Zi' and 'Xiaoxiao', so you, as her mother, should always choose a father for her early in your heart, right? ”

This burst of blood poked at my heart, damn it, I think Su Xihang must have studied the human brain a lot, what kind of rhythm is it to change careers and become a psychiatrist at any time.

I bit my lip and said I can't choose this kind of thing, right? I am divorced from my ex-husband and have their own family. I'm just a single mother now, and I'm not ready for a new marriage.

"But at least in front of the leaf, your wavering attitude will make her tangled with you."

"I'm not wavering." I'm telling the truth. I love Ye Jinliang, but we are afraid that there will be no fate in this life and this life. I also gradually developed a good impression of Jiang Zuoyi, but he would neither reciprocate my equal dependence, nor be serious about me.

I'm not a fresh second-hand item that everyone is scrambling for, I'm just a person who is out of breath and no one wants it-

"I'm just reminding you." Su Xihang shrugged his shoulders: "When it's really time to make a decision, I hope you can think about it for your daughter's condition."

In fact, what kind of man you choose depends on what kind of lifestyle a woman wants, and it is difficult for my wife to decide between me and my brother in the first place. Hehe. ”

I silently closed my mouth in shock, and I thought I could understand the so-called difficulty - the twins were exactly the same, and it was difficult to even tell the difference, let alone how to choose one to love.

And I, obviously, don't have this kind of trouble.

Ye Jinliang and Jiang Zuoyi are clearly the opposite side of the same coin, one loves me but hates to abuse me to death, and the other tolerates me and takes care of me but doesn't love me at all. Best of all, this coin isn't my fucking money at all!

Later, Su Xihang said that he was going to rest, and tomorrow's operation was roughly estimated to be more than seven or eight hours, and he wanted to maintain his best condition.

I took his hand and thanked him with a thanksgiving, asking only that his smooth and holy white coat could drive away the haze of death for me.

"Oh yes, have you ever investigated the murderer of the child?" I think Su Xihang just asked a little more, although the doctor is used to seeing life and death, but making such a heinous act on the leaf will indeed impress everyone with a little conscience and morality and can't help but care more about the facts.

I chuckled in my heart, and I didn't dare tell the truth at all.

Shaking my head, I said no. In the past few days, I have put down everything and only thought about my daughter's illness.

"This kind of scum, if you catch and shoot, please remember to notify me." Su Xihang picked his lower lip: "It's been a long time since I've met a fresh corpse, no matter men, women and children, I'm going to decide." ”

Me: "......"

I want to say that you really guessed, it has been shot, but unfortunately the body will never see the light of day.

I don't know what kind of method Ling Nan will use to deal with the aftermath, anyway, he is so perverted, I am not surprised that he cooks and eats it!

"However, I can remind Ms. Shu that there are not many cases of child abuse like this, and they usually start with the people around them. I have a friend who works as a private investigator, so go find him if you need to.

This person charges according to the mood, and if he is good-looking, he is generally expensive. ”

"What?" I listened in amazement to Su Xihang's remarks as I took a business card he handed me.

"There's no way, his wife is strict. Avoid arousing suspicion. ”

Well, it turned out that I was afraid that my wife would suspect that there was any plan to give a discount to a beautiful female client! Such an alternative and strange private detective, is it unreliable!

Looking at the three words 'Lin Yuqing' on the business card, the flower body Chinese, and I had the urge to wrap it in chewing gum.

"What did you talk to that doctor about for so long?" After Ye Zi fell asleep, Jiang Zuoyi walked out of the ward with Jiang Ling, who was also asleep, on his shoulder.

I'm so drunk and speechless, Jiang Zuoyi, you tell a story about hypnosis. After a while, you will both fall asleep.

"Here, he gave me the potion, and said that if the leaves paint your face again in the future, use this to wipe it." I took out a small bottle from my pocket and gave it to him, to be honest, it wasn't because Su Xihang took Jiang Zuoyi's face to heart at that time.

It's because he said "later", as long as my leaves are still in the future, she can still hold a paintbrush and enjoy her life for the next few decades, even if she paints a set of backgammon boards on me, I don't care.

"Well," Jiang Zuoyi said, for this sake, he won't kill him for the time being. He called Andy over, picked Jiang Ling back, and then asked me what I plan to do today?

I can't sleep when I go back, and I want to go where to relax, and he accompanies me.

"Jiang Zuoyi, I'm not used to you pretending to be a warm man." I said, "Forget it, okay?" You are willing to accompany me to bring leaves, and you are willing to treat her well. I'm already grateful.

I'm an adult, and there's no shortage of love. ”

I said I'd go home first and go into the operating room at ten o'clock tomorrow morning, I didn't want Ye Zi to see her mother tired and haggard.

"Shu Lan, I thought you were different from other women."

Jiang Zuoyi suddenly said such a sentence without beginning or end, which made me very speechless.

I said I wasn't the same, at least you haven't gotten me until now.

Jiang Zuoyi only smiled and didn't speak, and the voiceover was probably "I'm not rare".

I said don't tell me you're not uncommon, men will always be interested in women who don't get it. And your interest in me will be the only bargaining chip for me to rely on you to trust you and cooperate with you.

So don't expect me to say I'm in love with you again.

"Again?" Jiang Zuoyi raised his eyebrows: "Did you say it before?" ”

Me: "I'm leaving." ”

Unfortunately, I didn't enjoy a worrying night that was just for me, and as soon as I entered the door to put the bath water away, I received a phone call.

"Is this Ms. Shu Lan?"

I said yes, which of you.

"I'm a nurse at the Hejia Shelter on Beilin Road in S City, and I have a child here—"

Child?!