I looked at his face and was almost out of breath. It's all now, how else is he going to explain it? Couldn't what I saw with my own eyes compare to what he said? I can't remember who said that a man who is obsessed with his first love is completely unwanted, because no matter what you do, you will never be able to compare to the status of first love in his heart. What's more, it's me who was noticed by him because he looked similar to his first love.

"Gu Qinzhi, is it still necessary to explain?" I asked him rhetorically.

"Please." He said word by word, with a sincere look in his eyes.

I shook my head: "That's it, there's really no need to explain." ”

At this time, the security guard of the hospital had already pushed open the door of the ward, and when he saw that we were not in conflict, he stood aside with his hands tied, looked at me with his eyes, and asked for my opinion.

"Please leave." I say.

In the face of Gu Qinzhi, I can't do it as ruthlessly as I do to Du Heng, and I refuse him with careful words. His face turned pale, and the hope in his eyes was extinguished.

"Sir, please leave." The security guard walked up.

Dad walked between me and Gu Qinzhi to block his sight and said, "You are not welcome here, and you don't have to come again in the future, I will ask the lawyer to send the divorce agreement to you, and you will be responsible for signing it." ”

Divorce!

These two words are particularly piercing to my ears.

Before my father mentioned this word, even if Gu Qinzhi treated me like that, I didn't think about divorce.

"Nope! Slowly. I want to listen to you, not other people. Gu Qinzhi raised his voice.

I don't want to say anything, divorce or not, it's all I don't want to choose, I want to choose to forget, or choose to go back in time, I don't want it to happen, and I don't want to see such a scene. If I could choose again, I wouldn't be curious to see who lives in that house.

Gu Qinzhi was forcibly pulled out by the security guard, his eyes kept staring at me as he walked out, and finally said softly at the door: "Xuxu, your heart is really ruthless." ”

Is it? I don't know who is the tougher? You can do me that kind of harm, and I don't even have the right to refuse you?

The room was quiet again, and I was silent for a long time, and when I looked up, I saw Qiuqiu's frightened expression. Suddenly, our hearts were distressed, and we were all so angry just now that we forgot that Qiuqiu was watching from the sidelines. During the whole process, he looked at us without saying a word.

"Ball ball." I reached out to him and wanted to hug him and tell him not to be so scared. However, just as I reached out to him, he subconsciously ducked a few steps back and hid in my grandfather's arms.

"Qiuqiu is not afraid, this matter has nothing to do with you, this is an adult's business." Dad also noticed Qiuqiu's strangeness for the first time, immediately held him in his arms, gave me a look, and then carried him into the suite outside.

I remembered to hold the child, but my head was dizzy as soon as I put a lot of effort on my body, and I didn't have any strength in my waist, and the pain in my abdomen seemed to wake up because of my movements.

"Grandpa, why are you arguing?" The cold voice of the ball came.

My heart tugged, how to explain this matter to him, all along, Qiuqiu has not lived a normal family life, and now it has only been normal for a few months, and something like this has happened, how can I explain it?

After giving birth to Qiuqiu, I have been carefully raising it, for fear that it will cause him any psychological harm because of my problems with Gu Qinzhi, but I didn't expect that there would still be one in the end.

"Something is wrong with their own feelings." Dad said in a soft voice outside, "It's okay with you, when you're older, grandpa will talk to you in detail, okay?" ”

When Dad said this, he probably found a small toy for Qiuqiu, which smoothly diverted his attention. After three or five minutes, I heard his chuckle, and I breathed a sigh of relief, leaned back on the bed, and closed my eyes.

Me and Gu Qinzhi. What the hell is going to do?

If you get divorced, wouldn't it just be what you wanted? If I don't get divorced, thinking that Bi Bi and Gu Qinzhi are so close, I feel that I have swallowed a fly alive.

For the first time, I understood why Fang Yihe refused to divorce Gu Qinzhi easily.

That's the way it is, if you don't put it on yourself, you never know what you want, and what you will do the same thing.

I thought about it alone for a long time and couldn't think of any solution, at this time Qiuqiu had calmed down in the company of my grandfather, and he ran in with a small clockwork plane, looking at me with a pair of big black eyes like glass, "Mom, are you better?" ”

He was the kind of child who spoke late, but as soon as he opened his mouth, he quickly learned a lot of words and phrases, and he was very fluent.

I looked at his concerned little eyes, and my hand couldn't help touching his head, and whispered, "Mom is much better, don't worry about Qiuqiu." ”

"Hmm." He nodded, his stomach rumbled a few times, he seemed a little embarrassed, pursed his little mouth and touched his stomach and said, "Mom, I'm hungry." ”

"Well, let grandpa take you to eat." I said to him.

My father looked at me worriedly and asked, "I asked Secretary Liu to come over, she hasn't arrived yet, I'll take Qiuqiu out when she comes." ”

"No, I'm fine." I say.

Now my situation is instructed by the doctor to only eat a little liquid, and I have no appetite now, and I didn't ask my dad to pack me anything to eat, so I just asked him to take Qiuqiu to eat.

I was the only one left in the room, surrounded by boundless silence. I felt very tired and wanted to sleep for a while. However, the more I tried to fall asleep, the more I couldn't sleep, my head became more and more clear, and my head began to hurt when I thought too much, until my dad and Qiuqiu came back, and I still didn't see each other.

My dad saw that I was not in the right state and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

"Sleepy but unable to sleep." I say.

"Eat some sleep aids?" He asked.

I thought about it for a while and asked him to call the doctor, and the doctor came in to check and felt that it was dangerous to take sleeping pills now, so I had to carry it alive.

Seeing my father's gray hair and staggering to run for me, my heart was like a knife, and I suddenly felt that the emotional torture I was subjected to was not so important, but it was just betrayed by a man again, I don't want a man anymore, is it okay?

After Secretary Liu came. Dad took Qiuqiu to the suite of the ward and slept for a while.

Secretary Liu saw that the two of them were asleep, and carefully closed the door and said to me: "Finally asleep, I have taken turns with the old man to take care of you in the past few days, and I can see that he is really anxious." Parents are always so with their children, from the moment they are born to the day they die. No matter how old you are, you are still a child in their eyes. ”

"Sister Liu." I sighed and asked, "What do you think feelings are?" ”

"You can use the icing on the cake or send charcoal in the snow, but you can't survive decades of plain and dull years." She looked at me and said, "That's it." ”

I thought about it. She really made sense, and she couldn't help but smile bitterly.

"Don't think about it so much, go to sleep, and take care of your body first. Whether you want to fight Xiao San'er, and then live with Gu Qinzhi, or divorce directly as soon as you are discharged from the hospital, you need a good body. Secretary Liu said.

I have been with Secretary Liu for a long time, and we have some understanding of each other, I call her sister in private, and she should also come down, which is a rare friend.

A woman must have a girlfriend. At least when you don't know what choice to make, someone can spit out. Whether her advice helps you or not, it's really not easy to find someone who is willing to listen to your.

Her words were simple but had a certain warmth and force, and I chatted with her for a few words, and the tense nerves in my brain finally relaxed, and my head was a little dizzy. She said, "You can sleep for a while, I see you're sleepy." Wait a minute, I'll call the nurse over, there are children at home, I can't spend the night with you in the hospital. ”

"I know, you're busy, I'm sleeping." After I said this, I couldn't lift my eyelids a little, and I fell asleep not long after.

I stayed in the hospital for half a month, and finally I insisted on being discharged from the hospital.

In the past half a month, I haven't seen Gu Qinzhi again. I don't know if my father stopped him and didn't let him come, or if he didn't want to come, in short, what I saw was that Gu Qinzhi really disappeared from my life for half a month. For the first few days, Qiuqiu would ask me where my dad was, but then he simply didn't ask. When I got better, he spent all day in the hospital, pestering me with picture books to tell me stories.

The child was laughing beside him, and I wouldn't think of Gu Qinzhi. But wait until the child is asleep. I couldn't fall asleep, my mind was full of him and the way he was with him.

I can imagine that Gu Qinzhi's explanation must be that there is nothing substantive happening between himself and Bi Bi, just to accompany her, and this villa was also bought in the name of Bi Bi before he met me, so it's no problem to give it to her again.

His explanation makes perfect sense, and I can barely fault it. However, thinking of this, I still feel awkward in my heart, I seriously thought that I can't accept Gu Qinzhi's explanation, so I will ask for a gender explanation, how to explain it, what is the use of me?

Living so tired, I suddenly doubt my own life, is it meaningful for me to live like this?

After I was discharged from the hospital, I went to work non-stop, and only the fact that I was so busy that I forgot about my work made me ignore my failed marriage and disappointment during the day.

Every two weeks when I went to work, Jia Ru flew directly to H City to see me, and she looked at me in the office and said, "Xuxu, I really shouldn't have told you about this, otherwise you wouldn't have to be like this, and experience a car accident." It becomes what it is now. ”

She looked guilty.

"No, I should thank you, if I am still in the dark now, it is the greatest sorrow of a woman." I say.

I don't blame Jia Ru for this matter at all, it has nothing to do with her.

She smiled bitterly: "I don't know who told Gu Qinzhi about this thing I told you, he has been making trouble for me every day for a while, and our original good cooperative relationship is now about to become enemies." ”

"He still has the face to look for you?" I asked, "It's not you who did the wrong thing." ”

Jia Ru shook his head: "He talked to me and said that he was right, and he only took care of Bi Bi on the surface." ”

I smiled, as I guessed, Gu Qinzhi really felt that he was just taking more care of Bi Bi in life. I've never heard of a man lying to his wife about going overtime in order to take care of a woman as a friend.

I thought back to the day I bumped into Pi Pi in front of the company, and he arrived at the scene so quickly. It turned out that I had never believed what Bi Bi said, and now I began to suspect that what Bi Bi said was true, and it was Gu Qinzhi who had been lying.

"Jia Ru, if you don't dislike coming to H City, with Gu Qinzhi's means in the imperial capital, you will be forced to have nothing to eat." I say.

She hesitated and didn't speak.

Jia Ru is an independent and self-reliant woman, she can say that Gu Qinzhi is in trouble with her everywhere in the imperial capital, presumably her situation is really not very good. However, she thought about it for a few seconds, looked up at me and said, "Thank you, Xu Xu, I really don't need it, even if I leave the imperial capital, I can still live well, if one day I can't get along, come to you." ”

"Okay." I laughed.

Jia Ru came to H City just to apologize to me, and after apologizing to me in person, she was ready to leave. I don't know why. I suddenly thought of Guo Jingran, and couldn't help but ask: "Jia Ru, if you think we are friends, can I ask about Guo Jingran." ”

She had already stood up, and turned to walk to the door, and when she heard my words, her shoulders moved, and she stood there, and then tilted her head slightly and said, "There is nothing to say about this matter, but the feelings can't withstand the pressure of my parents, I thought I would be that special, but I didn't expect it to be not." ”

With that, she pulled the door and went out.

Look at her back. I also feel inexplicably sad, we all thought we would be that special, but I didn't expect it to be.

The matter of Jia Ru and Guo Jingran, everyone is secretive, I don't know what happened, I only know that Guo Jingran's wife is not Jia Ru.

On the third day of Jia Ru's departure, another uninvited guest came to visit, Secretary Liu said the visitor's name on the phone with a little hesitation, I thought about it, and it seemed that I had never heard of it at all, so I said: "I don't know this person, just refuse." ”

Secretary Liu hesitated for a moment and said, "She is Bi Bi." ”

I really didn't expect that the big name of Pi Bi was Liu Yuying.

She walked into my office, looked left and right, looked at the furniture, and finally looked at me.

I watched her for a long time, waiting for her to speak first. She took the initiative to come to me, so I don't need to rush to ask.

"Xu Tu, I clearly know what happened between you and Gu Qinzhi, and now that things have come to this point, your relationship and marriage are meaningless to maintain, so I will advise you. Divorce Gu Qinzhi. She said very directly.

When she said these words, her expression was really calm and abnormal, and she couldn't see the slightest embarrassment.

People nowadays are too thick-skinned! I sighed in my heart.

"I'm not going to get a divorce because children need a dad." I said directly to Bi Bi, "It's my business whether I forgive him or not, and it's also my business whether or not to give him freedom, and your persuasion is useless." ”

As soon as my voice fell, Bi Pi burst out laughing.

Her facial features are beautiful and delicate, although they are somewhat similar to mine. But if you look closely, you will find that I have two completely different styles from her, she is softer, and there is warmth between her eyebrows and eyes. I'm tougher, and I have a heroic look between my eyebrows.

Perhaps, it is the type that men like. And I, even if I have facial features similar to her, I can't change her appearance, I work hard in the business field every day, and I will unconsciously bring some killing decisions.

"Don't you think that's boring?" Pi Pi asked, "Xu Tu, imagine if you are not in this status now." Without so much money, will Gu Qinzhi still love you? Will he still pester you? Although I didn't say it was right for me to be with you for money, money is definitely a very important factor. He is in a difficult situation now, he needs money, he needs status. That's why he came to beg your forgiveness, if he was still the same person, would he come? Pi asked.

"It doesn't matter to me whether he comes or not, and any decision I make now has nothing to do with him." I say.

Looking at Pi Pi, I thought a little viciously in my heart: As long as I don't divorce for a day, Bi Bi will be a little junior who can't see the light.

"I really can't help you like this. I'm here today just to tell you some details of our lives. "I struck a deliberate posture and sat firmly on my couch.

"Okay, you say, I'm supposed to listen to the story." I stopped looking up at her, turned on the computer by myself, and started to get busy with work, and at the same time I pulled Gu Qinzhi's number out of the blacklist and sent him a message Gu Qinzhi, your true love is in my office, talk about the bits and pieces of your life, and some indescribable scenes, do you want to listen to it. She spoke very wonderfully, and she can really talk about storytelling for a living. ”

After I finished sending the message, I threw my phone aside, listening to the words of Bi Bi deliberately trying to provoke me with one ear, while I went about my own work.

If this scene had been put in the past, I would not have been able to calm down and go about my business. But some time ago, I drove myself out and experienced another life and death, and suddenly my psychological quality improved by more than one level, and now I am very calm.

When Pi Pi walked into my office just now, I bet that Gu Qinzhi was in H City. From the sudden appearance to the present. pestering Gu Qin Zhi very tightly every day, I don't believe that she will come to H City for me.

Sure enough, I guessed correctly. Twenty minutes later, Secretary Liu called me and said that Gu Qinzhi was coming, and I smiled and said to her, "Let him come in." ”

When Gu Qinzhi pushed open the door of my office, she looked surprised because her story was told in the most wonderful place.

"Gu Qinzhi, the person who will take you with you next time you go out must be optimistic, don't let her run around, this nonsense is not appropriate to say it, whether it is true or not. I know you're better married after a long absence. Maybe it's a little hot, but it's not good to tell the story of yourself and your lover rolling the sheets to others, it's immoral. I said these words as I looked down at the papers, and when I had said that, I looked up at him, "One thing I didn't expect, you have so many tricks." Oh, by the way, your first love is also quite cooperative with you. ”

After saying that, I buried my head in the pile of papers: "If you are done, you can take your little lover away." ”

What is the face of Pi Pi, I don't have to think about it to know it.

"What are you doing again? Isn't it enough for you to hurt me? Gu Qinzhi's voice struggled to maintain calm.

I love Gu Qinzhi, there is no doubt about that. It's because of love that I can't watch him come together with this woman. Now, even if I feel disgusted by what he did, I won't let him go. I'm disappointed in men anyway, it's okay to maintain a fake marriage, I don't mind anymore.

"Qin Zhi, I didn't say that." Pi Bi's voice was full of crying, and the pride and show-off in his voice were gone.

Really good at acting! I'm ashamed of myself.

"Bi Bi, I don't mind what you said, you know why I take care of you." Gu Qinzhi said.

Pi Pi pretended to be innocent and asked, "I know." It's because you still love me, you can't bear that I have suffered so much, and you want to compensate me better. ”

I listened to the love drama staged by the two, and suddenly felt a little ridiculous, laughed and looked up and asked, "Give you better compensation, what do you think he will compensate for now?" ”

Everyone says that the more intimate people quarrel, the more hurtful they are, and Gu Qinzhi and I were the closest people, so I know which sentence to say can make him feel distressed.

Seeing Gu Qinzhi's pale face, I was very happy.

"Qin Zhi, she said this about you, aren't you angry?" Pi Pi began to add fuel to the fire.

At this time, Secretary Liu knocked on the door and came in and said, "Mr. Xu." Wait a minute, will it be as usual? ”

I glanced at the time, and there were still ten minutes before the meeting. This is a meeting that has been scheduled for a long time, and it must be held.

"Open, you go and inform the departments, I'll be there right away." I say.

Secretary Liu left the office, I quickly cleaned up the table and said to the two people sitting on the sofa in front of me: "Two, I am going to a meeting now, you can make a noise here before leaving, you can go out and quarrel if you want, please." ”

I'll be gone.

Gu Qinzhi chased after me all the way. I know. He will not pass up this opportunity for interpretation. However, I am reluctant to give, or rather deliberately hang this opportunity.

When I got to the door of the conference room, he caught up with me. But before he could speak, I quickly turned around and almost hit his nose, I took a step back and said, "I'm going to have a meeting, you'd better go and appease your first love first." ”

After speaking, I entered the conference room, and when I sat down on the chair headed by it, I saw Gu Qinzhi's helpless face through the glass.

Whether what Pi said is true or not, it is very sad for me. I don't know now if it's because I'm reacting sluggishly, or if I'm hurting too much. The perception of pain was too slow, and I didn't feel very uncomfortable.

As soon as the meeting began, I was fully engaged. Unexpectedly, after the meeting ended, I saw Gu Qinzhi waiting for me at the door of the conference room.

"What about your first love?" I naturally asked.

Gu Qinzhi glanced at me and stopped talking.

"What's wrong? What do you want to say? Or is there still anything you want to explain? I asked.

He was about to speak again, but I immediately stopped him, "I know, you want to say that you are innocent, you just want to take care of Pi Bi, and you are not actually cheating, right?" ”

He nodded.

"I've guessed it all." I said, "Is there anything else you want to say?" ”

He was stunned.

Just as he was stunned, I walked out. After walking far away, I heard Gu Qinzhi's voice behind me: "Xuxu, there is still something to say, that is, I love you." ”

His voice was not loud but clear, and I heard it in my ears, and tears flowed immediately.

The word love, really don't say it easily, it's too rare.

After saying it, I often slap my face, but I still like it in the future.

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