It's almost six o'clock now, so I'll go home and pack some things. Then go downstairs to the community kindergarten where the leaf is located.

"Mother Ye, you're here to pick up the leaves." Teacher Qi said that she thought I was still busy with work, and this time I had to miss the appointment.

"I just wanted to call you, but your leaves said no. She said that her mother had promised her that she would never break her promise again. ”

I was ashamed to die, because I had hooked her up this morning, saying that my mother was back to work now, and although she would be as busy as before, she would never leave the leaves again no matter what.

And I'll pick you up every night, let's sleep together and tell stories together, okay?

But in less than twelve hours, I'm going to break the contract.

I said Teacher Qi is really sorry, I originally said that I was admitted to the hospital for daycare, and I planned to pick up the child every night.

But today, I need to drive to the outskirts of S City, and I may not be able to come back that day.

"So Teacher Qi, can you please help me coax the leaves? I'm really in a hurry. ”

I'm so fragile that I don't dare to face the leaves, damn Jiang Zuoyi is dead, I'm fragile, Jiang Zuoyi is alive, I'm still fragile.

I feel that even if anyone in this world is sorry for me, but only Yezi, I am sorry for him.

"But Mother Ye, this is ...... The child will be very sad. ”

Teacher Qi was already embarrassed, and I felt that I was too much.

I would love to tell her that after today, Mom will give you a home, a dad, and even a fortune that will fall from the sky when you become an adult—we will make you grow up like a carefree little princess.

But it suddenly occurred to me that I had already told her such a promise too many times.

"Mom, let's go home!" Ye Zi carried a small schoolbag on his back and ran out with a box of colored paintbrushes.

I stood still, not moving.

"Mom?"

"Ye Zi......" I crouched down, just about to put my hand on her shoulder. The child rolled his eyes and pushed my hand away.

"You go get busy, I'm used to it anyway."

Xiaoxiao...... "I felt very uncomfortable, so I made up my mind, I said why don't my mother take you with me?" Let's go find Daddy.

I hadn't planned to take the leaves with me because I wasn't sure what I was going to see or what was going to happen. I'm afraid that I won't be able to control myself, and I will beat Jiang Zuoyi and cause trauma to Ye Zi's young heart.

"No, I'll play by myself." Smile is not polite at all, not as easy to coax as our leaves.

I sighed and said forget it, believe it or not, I brought it on myself, but my mother promised you that I would come back soon-

"Yezi, will you go home with your father?" Hearing someone talking behind me, I turned my face and saw Ye Jinliang.

I said how do you ...... How did you come here?

"I know you're going to go to City X tonight desperately, so I'll take care of the leaves for you."

I hung my head and said thank you for a long time.

"It's mostly my responsibility to make the leaves the way they are." Ye Jinliang bent down and picked up the child, and Ye Zi's eyes suddenly became gentle

To put it irresponsibly, I didn't want to put all the missing responsibilities as a mother on Ye Jinliang. But most of Yezi's heart knot may have been formed from the ridiculous days before and after his divorce from me.

I think maybe it was the moment he yelled at the leaf, 'I'm not your father', that stimulated the child's second personality. During this time, the two daughters have alternated, which makes people cry and laugh and feel difficult to sleep at the same time.

Because it's not a way to go on like this.

"Since I said that I want to help the child heal, I have to persevere. Don't worry about going to him, I'll pick up the leaves these days. ”

"Jin Liang......" I looked at the little head of Ye Zi lying on his shoulder, and I couldn't tell what it was like.

"Shu Lan, I don't have any relatives in this world, only Ye Zi, and I'm willing to call me Dad." Ye Jinliang took Ye's coat from the teacher and draped it on her: "But she always has to grow up day by day, and growing up means staying away from me."

I thought, it won't be long before I can ...... Not even qualified to look at her from afar. ”

I said hehe, it won't be long before I, as a mother, may not be able to support my little princess!

"The reason why Jiang Zuoyi wants to knock on his body full of death certificates is that he hopes to use the hidden assets of Gao Shanfeng's previous pen to buy credit on the leaves. When the child is an adult—"

"Do you think Jiang Zuoyi refused to show up because of this?" Ye Jinliang's rhetorical question made my whole person feel bad.

What do I mean by saying you, you obviously know and pretend that it doesn't matter to you, and if I don't settle accounts with you, it doesn't mean that I won't be angry.

"You don't know each other at all, but you dare to say that you love each other so much." Ye Jinliang hugged the child who was dozing off on his shoulder: "Whatever time you come back, if you don't want to come back, I'll tell Ye Zi that you're dead." ”

"You-"

I put my light luggage in the car, but there was no poetry to show off and distant places.

From here to X City, it takes more than eight hours to take the national highway. I wore a thin black trench coat and bought several cans of coffee at the convenience store before I got on the highway.

When I arrived at Coral Town on the outskirts of X City according to the address Ye Jinliang gave me, it was just dawn.

In the late summer season, the mountain grass is verdant and vibrant.

The people of the town seem to have a special rhythm of life, so much so that I can't use my feet yet

Before contaminating this land, I already felt out of place.

The road on the address is called Sanqiu Road, I don't know if this is some kind of implication that I don't see for a day like every other three autumns, but I simply feel that the name of the road is matched with such a turquoise-colored door number, which is so literary that I can't bear to knock it.

So, I didn't knock, I just kicked it open.

It is a small clean and elegant courtyard surrounded by a small two-storey building with some cultural heritage. It's so quiet that people can't bear to wake up the owner who has been sleeping in his heart for a long time.

Near the door, there was a wooden horse. I had a string of bright red bells tied around my neck, and I was somewhat familiar with them. Because of this thing, I also have a leaf at home, and I said that I was taught in the labor and handicraft class before.

Of course, I think Xiao Zero is better than the leaves. What a clever and warm man.

The morning sun had climbed out of the clouds, and the first golden rays were spilling at an angled angle on the terrace in front of me.

I tilted my head and squinted.

The window on the second floor was pushed open by a pair of slender arms, and the familiar figure seemed to be a painting sent out of the window.

The silhouette is studded with gold edges, and the movements are casual and languid.

I looked at him, and he should have seen me.

At that moment, I endured so much grievance that I didn't take off my shoes and throw them on!

"Aunt Shu!" The downstairs door opened, and the little snapping figure pounced out.

I almost cried, but I always felt that at this time, I was robbed of the first tear by a child, and it would seem very shameless.

So I drew a bill, stuffed it into the child, and I said good, go out and buy buns.

Aunt Shu, come over and settle accounts.

One glance at the dog in the corner of the yard, he had been barking wildly since I had just kicked the door.

I don't know when Jiang Zuoyi started to like dogs, could it be more intimate than me!

I was depressed and wanted to scare the dog blocking the stairwell.

"Aunt Shu, don't bully Andy, my godfather loves him very much."

Me: "......"

I said, what's the name of this dog?!

Damn, I don't think I should name all my flies and cockroaches Ah Yi to be missed enough!

I threw off my shoes and ran upstairs, almost trying to pretend to be a fat lady with her feet facing the sky. I didn't even bother to say sorry, and rushed into the bedroom on the second floor.

"Jiang Zuoyi, you still have no end!" As soon as I opened my mouth, I washed down my tears: "I have already seen me come in, if you want to hide, why don't you hide quickly!" ”

The man's figure is still upright, fortunately, there is no exaggerated cripple caused by serious injuries.

At least I looked at it at the same height on my shoulders and as long as my legs.

His hair seems to have been cut a little shorter, maybe because of surgery? I don't know.

At this time, the snow-white shirt was covered on the body, and the rugged scars on the back could be faintly revealed. I was distressed.

Jiang Zuoyi ...... "I took two steps forward gently.

The moment he turned around, there was not even a gap for brewing emotions, and he stepped forward to pounce on him.

His chest was still so solid and powerful, and the gauze under his neck had not been completely removed, but the heavy smell of medicine could not resist the addiction I was most familiar with.

"Jiang Zuoyi, you speak......"

I hugged him, not caring if such an exhausting thru would hurt him.

I said you look at me, are you talking to me well? You convince me that none of this is a dream! You're alive, and I can reach out and touch you.

Ye Zi and I will no longer be the most lonely mother and daughter in the world. And you, the man of our family.

I raised my arms and climbed up the man's shoulders to his cheeks. Light stubble, gentle and low eyebrows. It was as if a catastrophe had robbed him of all his sharpness and rage.

I have always felt that the most temperamental thing on Jiang Zuoyi's whole face is his eyes, as sharp as an eagle falcon and as cunning as a white fox.

Even if the expression can be completely unwavering, the light in the eyes is enough for anyone to shudder.

But......

Jiang Zuoyi, why don't you look at me!

I held his cheek hard, from his thumb to the tiger's mouth, gradually wetting.

He was weeping, and his tearful eyes were becoming clearer and clearer.

Finally, he reached out and grabbed my wrist, up my wrist, and touched my fingertips—

Then down my wrists, all the way to my shoulders, neck, and then to my cheeks, earlobes, and near my eyebrows.

Shu Lan ...... "This is the first time since he came back from hell that he called my name so truly and clearly.

In these dozens of dreamlike nights, how I fantasized that I could hear his voice again, and I could feel his body temperature again.

Jiang Zuoyi ...... You bastard, you bastard! ”

I wanted to hug him and cry, but I was startled by his jerky retraction.

In the end, he said Shu Lan, I can't see it.

I said you can't see, nonsense, your heart has been poked into a hornet's nest by conspiracy, what's the use of your long eyes!

"Jiang Zuoyi, you can't see it, you can't see it, I've been drunk and dreaming of death in the past few months, it's not like you back then, you can just grab a woman and go to bed!"

I threw a punch and made a pretense that almost punched him in the face. But—he even blinked his instinctive dodge move...... None of them!!

My hands hung in the air, trembling and stretching out two fingers, gently swaying back and forth in front of his eyes.

How terrible it would be to finally realize that the person you love most will never be able to give you a loving tracking emoji again? No wonder I always thought that the word 'Shu Lan' that Jiang Zuoyi wrote on the envelope was a little strange, it turned out that at that time, he was already blind.

"Shu Lan, are you ......" Jiang Zuoyi gently tilted his cheeks and said to me, "I heard the wind." ”

I said I am.

He reached out and caressed my neck, and his smile was as pure as a big child. He said, "I can hear the tears from your left eye faster than your right...... Hurry up. ”

"Jiang Zuoyi!" I jumped up and hugged his chest and thrashed without the slightest pity: "You bastard! Would you rather die from me because of this!!

Do you know that on the way here, I thought, if you are seriously injured, crippled, or disfigured, I will never let you go even if you are raised in the nest! ”

"Shu Lan, but you forgot...... I'm as proud as you are. ”

I punched him in the chest again, and let out a desperate muffled sound: "Jiang Zuoyi, pride is useless!" Do you know how I've spent these two months? I've done almost everything I couldn't have thought of before, because you're dead and I've become the kind of person I ever hated the most.

I was hopeless, vulnerable, suicidal, irritable, I didn't want to be kind to anyone, and I didn't want to be responsible for anyone.

Jiang Zuoyi, you once turned me into a stronger and more independent woman by word and deed, today, you can't see me like that, so you would rather destroy me! ”

I tilted my face and licked the tiny tears from the corners of my lips, but I couldn't tell whether it was mine or his.

I just think that Jiang Zuoyi, who has such a pair of eyes, is like a gentle rabbit, and he can cry when he scolds......

I hugged his narrow waistline, but preferred to rely on him as a beast.

I said Jiang Zuoyi, it's not because you can easily replace Ye Jinliang, I can find someone else to easily replace you.

Your poison is deeper than his. I'm addicted and can't quit.

"Come back with me, okay? Let's go look at the leaves—"

"Ye Zi......" He stroked my hair, I already had long short hair, shoulder-length but not waist-reaching: "Shu Lan, I'...... After all, I still didn't get a chance to look at the leaves again.

I was missing my first five years as a father and hadn't taken a single picture of her. And for the rest of my entire growth history, I couldn't even watch her transform into the beauty of her entire youth—"

"But so what!" I yelled, "She still has her father, she at least has a complete home!"

Jiang Zuoyi, what you can do will be done before you are thirty-three years old. I beg you to put away your last pride, even if it's for my sake, okay?

Just like you once promised, accompany me to endure my whole life, no matter how many ups and downs, ups and downs.

I...... I'll raise you......"

"Okay, you raise me."

That afternoon, under the pretext of going to the supermarket, I found a doctor following the medical records in his drawer.

I asked him if he was helping Jiang Zuoyi see a doctor.

The doctor didn't care about the weirdness of my uninvited guest, but only said to me, you are here to ask about his eyes.

I said yes, he didn't want to say more, and I didn't want to ask more.

I just want to know, what's going on with Jiang Zuoyi's eyes, and is there any salvation?!

"His eyes were burned by high temperature due to the adhesion of the medial membrane and the outer lens cell layer, and if he wanted to be cured, he had to change the cornea. However, the location is special, and the operation is more difficult, so it must be done in a larger city. ”

I took a deep breath and said that changing the cornea is not more difficult than climbing to the sky, why didn't he accept the operation!

The doctor explained it to me again, but I didn't understand.

Later, he changed his popular way of saying: "The operation to replace the cornea is not as simple as others imagined, especially the degree of burn of his original tissue, and the donor will not be able to have a little myopia, farsightedness or astigmatism."

And if the surgery fails, there is a risk that the surface of the eyeball will shrink—"

What will happen? I said urgently.

"Yes..."The doctor's face was embarrassed, and he hesitated for a moment before saying, "It will look a little out of shape, not so handsome..."

Me: "......"

I said, doctor, can you look at my eyes?

I have good eyes, and when I went to school, I copied Ye Jinliang's answer sheet from three seats, and each time I copied the score higher than him.

Because Ye Jinliang said that I was ugly with glasses, and asked me to protect my eyesight no matter what, and then I played a mobile phone game and had a bit of a prescription, he insisted on confiscating my mobile phone, saying that anyway, who do you want to call when you are with me all day long! Then on the weekend, he would accompany me to climb the mountain and look into the distance, and after two months, with our eyesight, we were able to go to the CIA as snipers.

However, the doctor looked at me and said that a living donor's corneal transplant is a bit like euthanasia, although it makes sense in theory, it is always contrary to moral medical ethics. What's more, he doesn't think the patient will agree.

I said that if you don't pick one off, the two of us have one eye, and this life is enough!

The doctor and I were startled when we heard a dog barking outside the door, wondering how pets could be allowed in this place.

When I looked up, I saw that it was Andy.

Andy is a purebred Golden Retriever and guide dog.

I don't know how Jiang Zuoyi can not cry every time he shouts its name, it's really not like words, he is still called by you when he dies.

"Shu Lan, what are you doing?"

Jiang Zuoyi said that the town is very small, there are few vehicles, and it is not very difficult to get in and out of daily life.

His heart and attitude towards life can be changed, but only the occasionally gentle and occasionally domineering attitude towards me will never change.

"I came all the way to my territory, and I still didn't obey at all!"

I ran over and hugged him, and Andy warily bit my pant leg.

I said Jiang Zuoyi, let's go back to S City, okay? It's not too late, and it's easy to find a matching cornea in a big city!

"Shu Lan, have you ever thought that I will be blind like this forever?"

The sun was setting, and I took the man's hand and walked across the sunset lakeside.

This lake is called Poplar Lake, and it is best to take a boat ride in this season.

Andy was snorting in front, and I held Jiang Zuo Yi with one hand and the other empty.

I think there's one leaf missing...

"Shu Lan, to be honest, sometimes I think it's good like this.

Whether it's attachment or protection, too deep an obsession can only hurt everyone.

I'm used to the darkness and silence now, like... Back to my childhood when I didn't have any dreams.

Shu Lan, can you understand? ”

I said I could, but my nose was sour and tears rolled down: "But don't you want to see me at all?" ”

I said that my hair had grown, my face had become thinner, I was less smiling than before, and my breasts had become bigger.

"Jiang Zuoyi, I know you feel uncomfortable in your heart, but you don't want to show a posture of wanting to change in front of me, are you afraid that I will be desperate for you?"

He stopped, turned to me, not too right, and was prompted by the dog to arch his legs.

"Shu Lan, I'm just..."

"You're just scared it won't work out." I said that today I can be the eyes to see the world for you, or I can be your heart to confirm your true thoughts for you.

I said I've never seen you so pretended to be so calm and yet so fragile. Really, I want to protect you.

He smiled, the backlit arc, the gentle and still look in his eyes, like a skin pulled out of another world full of blood and carnage.

I hugged him and said don't be afraid, I'll take you home.

A gust of wind ruffled my long hair, and fish jumped up in the lake with the shimmering water.

Andy jumped happily on the ground, and I laughed and said, you're not a cat!

At this time, Jiang Zuoyi grabbed me from behind, and his breath gently passed over my ears.

I said I know, you want to accompany me to see the changes of the grass and trees in the world, the mountains and rivers, the flowers and leaves, the falling springs and the mountain streams.

I... Why don't I sing to you?

I'm not very good at singing, and although I don't have a complete pentatonic voice, my voice can be a little hoarse when it comes to a gentle tone.

Jiang Zuoyi said yes, he really wanted to hear it.

Fluorescent all around

I don't feel the eye sockets of the times

Memories are like waving in front of your eyes

The arm shook a little

It seems to go back in time

You and I hold hands and hum

We looked at each other with red faces

It's the same as no state and no dream

Those whispers of the years of flowing water

The wish made is like a firework

I should be singing for you right now

I can feel it when you wave your hand

When you're proud of me

Maybe I'll just use this shoulder

Also because of the trembling of happiness

The road is not easy to walk, but you are still there

There is no reason for the love in the eyes

It's like the silence of your youth

I can't guess

Later, Jiang Zuoyi said to me, Shu Lan, I really regret not being able to accompany you through your entire youth.

I said it wasn't too late, he said just right.

"Let's go back, Xiao Zero must be hungry and waiting for us to eat."

I took his hand and walked back, only to find Andy missing.

I said Jiang Zuoyi, guide dogs are specially trained, right? Is it generally not tempted by unexpected circumstances in the outside world to leave your post without permission?

He said yes, a good guide dog is more expensive than a car.

I swallowed and said could I whisper a complaint? Anyway, your Andy is riding a across the road...

Jiang Zuoyi was shocked, and said to me in a daze: "Are you sure it's a mother?" ”

Me: "......"

Jiang Zuoyi, are you stupid!

I frolicked and beat him, I said whatever, he should also leave you to find his own life and happiness, and you will have me enough in the future

The weather in the town has been very good these days, and Jiang Zuoyi told me that he still wants to stay here for a short time, at least he has to wait for the police to arrest Taki for a lifetime.

I feel at ease when I mention this.

"I told Lu Linshuang before that my father-in-law's money was given to me by him as a dowry. Ye's credit custody is actually looking for someone to do it, at the beginning... Even I don't know.

So I also feel sorry for the Taki thing. I don't think my father-in-law owes him anything, but some things just don't make sense. ”

I said that it is no wonder that I have been by the boss's side for so long, and in the end I got a lot worse than I expected. All loyal dogs can become devils in an instant-

"I wish there wasn't another incident."

I said let's take the leaves. This time, I will never break my promise again, she must be very happy to let her see Xiao Zero with her own eyes.

"Okay."

Tomorrow is the weekend, I wonder if I should call Ye Jinliang unkindly and ask him to send the child over.

I know this is excessive, but I have eaten Ye Jinliang. Anyway, he fights, scolds, works hard, and complains, and asks for himself!