"I don't understand, and I don't want to understand, why do you want to erase even the last thought I have of him? Oh, yes! In the past five years, without his company, I am really lonely on the road of music, and I often involuntarily think of the flute ensemble next to me as Yuhan, but, you have also seen it, woo--" Chu Ning actually fell into Lin Yuhao's arms and cried bitterly, attracting the attention of passers-by.

Lin Yuhao stretched out his hand to stroke his forehead, this was the scene he expected, although he was mentally prepared, but she cried so unscrupulously, it was even more spectacular than when she was a child?

"Chu Ning, can you calm down? My heart is also very sad, so I told you that we need to be stronger. Lin Yuhao, who was helpless, had to caress Chu Ning's hair and coaxed softly.

"But I'm already strong, when I first came to Italy, I felt like every day of my life was torment, but I've been born again, I can talk and laugh now, and I have a concert to give, am I not strong enough?"

"Yes, you are indeed very strong, but for the sake of your future, you have to be stronger, you even have to learn to be cruel, only by completely forgetting Yu Han's imprint in your heart, can you be truly reborn." Lin Yuhao thought of Jiang Xu's words, is this considered the fierce medicine that Mr. Jiang said? But why did even he feel so bitter?

"No, you're going to make me forget about him? But how could I forget? Yu Han, he didn't even worry about me at the last moment of his life, let me live well, let me not shed tears for him, you actually made me forget him? ”

"You can remember him well, you can hide him in your heart, you can even cry and shed tears when you think of him, but you have to understand that he can only be your memory, and it is impossible to be your ensemble again, do you understand?"

"He's just my memory--" Chu Ning stopped crying and muttered Lin Yuhao's words, "By the way, Brother Yuhao, I remember that in order to be in tune with my piano sound back then, Yuhan secretly practiced until late at night every day; He deliberately lowered his breath for fear that I would laugh at him, but even though our two families were separated by the Han River, I could still hear his suppressed flute. So in our ensemble, there is his accommodation and tolerance for me, and my gratitude to him. ”

"So you know it all!"

"Of course I knew, in the beginning, as soon as I closed my eyes, Yuhan's figure would come to me, sometimes looking at me sadly, without saying a word; Sometimes he happily said to me, 'Chu Ning, you want to be happy!' Chu Ning, you have to come on! Sometimes in my dreams, I know I'm dreaming, but I hope it's not a dream, and I hope that every time I wake up, I can still see him, even if it's sad, as long as I can see him alive.

Later, Mr. Jiang and Mr. Wei found me the current job, and I gradually felt that I had some purpose in life. So I worked very hard every day to rehearse and perform, but I found a problem, I didn't dare to perform with the flute player, because as long as I heard the flute, I would think of Yuhan and every scene we had played together. Chu Ning cried so much that the pear blossoms brought rain, but Lin Yuhao looked distressed.

"Because in your heart, you have already formed a habit, you will subconsciously reject others, and even be very critical of their ensemble, you think that in this world, only the sound of Yuhan's flute can completely merge with your piano sound, and it is this terrible habit that sways your thoughts. In this world, there are many excellent musicians and performers, and the reason why they are excellent is because they not only have profound musical skills and superb performance skills, but also have a strong inner world.

Music is not only for you, because music is a realm, a kind of inheritance. Like Mr. Jiang, the reason why he was able to make a name for himself in the music industry at such a young age; Like Wei Lao, can become an evergreen tree in the highest hall of music, isn't it because they have already regarded music as a kind of inheritance? Mr. Jiang could have accompanied his wife and daughter to enjoy the joy of family, and Mr. Wei could have sat back and sit-down and lived for his old age, but they were still active in the forefront of music and inherited the spirit of music as they understood it. ”

"I'm sorry! I always feel that my music world is my own, and all the glory is my own, and after Yuhan left, I lived alone in my personal music world. I can't get out, and no one else can get in. ”

"Chu Ning, the highest state of music, is the integration of people and music, and the essence of music in addition to inheritance, I think that people who study music must have a tolerant and harmonious heart. If you understand, you can go further, otherwise you can only stop, understand? ”

"People and music in one? Inheritance, tolerance, harmony? ”

"Yes, you can still keep the bits and pieces of Yuhan and you in your heart, and it will not affect him to become your eternal memory, but have you ever thought that if you are lucky enough to perform this time, a lot of glory will come with you, which means that there will be more ensembles of all shapes and shapes around you, and you may have to accommodate him in the spirit of music, or even cater to him, if you don't try to change, are you sure to do it? If not, how far can you go in music? ”

"Brother Yu Hao, I--"

"Nowadays, you are also a little successful in the music industry, you have the qualities that Mr. Jiang and Mr. Wei have, but the only thing you lack is to harmoniously integrate into your surroundings, think about it carefully, why can you integrate with all the instruments, but not with the flute, because you have been rejecting any flute except Yuhan from the beginning, and then rejecting all the people who play with your zhengdi, you are afraid that you will not find the kind of tacit understanding and resonance with Yuhan's ensemble, so you instinctively resist the person who plays the flute, right?"

Chu Ning nodded instinctively, and then shook her head again, at this moment, she was extremely conflicted and ashamed in her heart, what Lin Yuhao said was also taught by the teacher, but time has passed, she has forgotten it cleanly, and she has unconsciously gone astray so much?

"Brother Yuhao, thank you for reminding me, although I don't know if tomorrow's rehearsal will change a lot, but I know where my problem is." After a long time, Chu Ning stared at Lin Yuhao, his eyes clear.

"Just find out what the problem is, there are still three days, and I'm sure you will be able to overcome it." Lin Yuhao breathed a sigh of relief.

"Hmmm! I think I know what to do, but Brother Yuhao, you are not from a conservatory, why do you have such a deep understanding of music? ”

"Where do I understand, it's your teacher Jiang who knows you too well, he sees that the problem lies in you, although that flaw is not a problem for the general audience, but for the two mentors with such a high status in the music industry, they expect you to show the world the most perfect side."

"It turns out that you and Teacher Jiang have been talking about this issue all night long! I'm so sorry! Mr. Jiang has to spend time supervising me every time he comes back, but he does know me very well, in the past in Wuyang and 'Shen Yuan', every time I was not in good shape, he would always find out the reason for me and help me overcome it again and again! ”

"Hmmm! Mentors and friends, nothing more! Lin Yuhao stroked his forehead again, obviously looking a little annoyed.

"Brother Yuhao, what's wrong with you? What else did Mr. Mo Feijiang tell you? ”

"Indeed." Lin Yuhao nodded, he looked at Chu Ning hesitantly, the hesitation was not because he had no confidence in Chu Ning, but in fact he did not have full confidence in himself, he was worried that after he said it, Lan Chi Xuan was about to become his strong rival in love, but if he didn't say it, he was afraid that he would not be able to pass this level in his heart.

"If it's hard to say, don't say it!" Chu Ning saw Lin Yuhao's hesitation, and shook his head indifferently.

"Ning, the concert is coming, I didn't want to put too much pressure on you. But after the concert, we are going back to China, and on the way back just now, I have been thinking about this question, first, I am afraid that I will not have the courage to tell you after returning to China, and second, I think you need to know these things, so, no matter what? I want to tell you everything. ”

"Then tell me --, speak! I'm going to be able to handle it. Chu Ning asked cautiously, she was afraid that there was something wrong with her.

"It's none of your business, it's about Blue Pool Hyun."

"Ah Xuan? What happened to him? ”

"Ning, do you remember the scene when we went to the Holy Angelo Bridge that evening and met him, I called you Chu Ning in front of him, and he didn't think it was strange, but naturally acquiesced to this title?"

"Yes! I never told him my real name, and I guess Mr. Jiang and Sister Xiaoxuan wouldn't tell her, could it be that he investigated me? Chu Ning subconsciously put his finger to his mouth, nervously recalling the scene of that night.

"No, he doesn't have to." Lin Yuhao was immediately relieved, it turned out that his Chu Ning was defenseless only in front of him Lin Yuhao, even if that Lan Chi Xuan had been with her for five years, she was still defensive against him.

So all Lin Yuhao's previous worries disappeared, he took Chu Ning's hand to his lips and rubbed it in his palm, "Do you feel like a person, a person you knew before?" ”

"That's not true, I just think that Ah Xuan has the same family background as one of my previous seniors in Wuyang, and I always feel that he and Yu Han are quite similar sometimes, especially when they are ruffians."

"That senior of your Wuyang is called Zhang Shaoyang, right?"

"Zhang Shaoyang? How do you know? Chu Ning looked at Lin Yuhao in surprise.

"Because, Lan Chi Xuan is Zhang Shaoyang!"

"Nope! That's impossible! I can't believe it! Chu Ning shook his head vigorously, and then felt dizzy. She covered her mouth and subconsciously got up, her tone changing from direct denial, then to suspicion, and then to incredulity.