Chapter 140: I Can't Go
"Miss Gu. Take the stuff and leave." Gu Xiyan followed Shang Yiqi into his villa. Shang Yiqi had already given the order in a cold voice.
Hands stirred a few times. Gu Xiyan said a little awkwardly: "Qi. It's so late. Can you just let me live here?"
"Not good." Shang Yiqi didn't even give Gu Xiyan a look.
"But now that I'm out, I don't have a place to live. Open. Can you just take me in for the night?" Gu Xiyan said and wanted to grab Shang Yiqi's right arm.
"Let go. Miss Gu. Can't you see that you are not welcome in this house?" Shang Yiqi frowned. seems to be quite disgusted by Gu Xiyan's move of hugging her arm.
Gu Xiyan's eyes hurt. But he still stubbornly bargained: "Enlightenment. I'll cook supper. I will take care of the hygiene. I...... I'll warm the bed."
Shang Yiqi's brows furrowed even tighter. His words were also said with a bit of anger." Do you say that to every man. No wonder that kid Chu Yechen will take you in."
"No, no, no. Brother Chu is very good to me. He took me in." Gu Xiyan didn't know where she annoyed him. Seeing Shang Yiqi displeased. She quickly waved her hand and explained lamely.
"It's none of my business. Miss Gu. Take what you lack. Take it and go." After Shang Yiqi said this, he broke away from Gu Xiyan's hand.
I didn't take a few steps in the direction of the living room. Shang Yiqi listened to the 'female' behind him, and his tone was trembling. I don't know where you hate me and don't like me. But I just like you and I love you. I know I'm not a good woman. I also know I'm being vexatious. I'm even ruining your relationship with Vice Master He. Obviously, I have so much uncertainty in my heart. There are so many reasons why I don't deserve you. But I still don't want to let you go. I just love you. I just want to stay with you. Why do you have to treat me with such disgust? Did you know? My heart was really hard when you did this to me. But. I can't go. I'm afraid I'll be gone. You can't belong to me anymore."
After Gu Xiyan finished speaking, she ignored Shang Yiqi's reaction. She ran upstairs. Entered the bedroom that once belonged to the two of them. Gu Xiyan's legs were soft. A man sits behind the door with his knees folded, sobbing like a little beast.
There was no light in the bedroom. What surrounded Gu Xiyan was darkness. Original. Only when you 'lick' your own scars in the dark will you not be seen. Original. Only when in the dark. She didn't have to keep pretending to be strong.
Open. I've never been a strong person. If it weren't for the favor you once gave me, the love you had for me. Where did I get the capital brave. Open. I love you. Love you. So. No matter how dismissive you are of me. I'm still going to be by your side. Even if you are burdened with the burden of destroying other people's feelings. Open. I'll get you back. I will.
I don't know how long it took. Gu Xiyan was dimly aware of the sound of knocking on the 'door'. Stand up. She noticed that her legs were numb. After shaking the 'legs' a few times. Gu Xiyan opened the 'door'.
As soon as Fang opened the 'door', Gu Xiyan saw that the little girl was staring at her with her head up. The little guy's face is puffing up. It also looks cute and childish.
The little girl hasn't said anything yet. Gu Xiyan had already rushed to open her mouth." Yan'er. I know you hate me. You don't say it. Don't say. You said it. I'm going to be very sad and uncomfortable."
Gu Xiyan's eyes were dyed with a thin layer of mist at this time. Raise your head slightly. She wanted to let the tears rolling in her eyes flow back.
The little girl finally pursed her lips and glanced at Gu Xiyan. Finally he left without saying anything.
Gu Xiyan then closed the 'door' and turned on the light to herself. Then she walked in the direction of the closet.
The right hand only touched the cabinet 'door' of the wardrobe.Gu Xiyan faintly retreated. She's afraid. I'm afraid that there will be no traces of myself in this cabinet. Even. It may have changed into other 'female' clothes here.
But everything is unknown. If she doesn't open the door, she won't know what the real answer is.
After seeing the closet as it was before she left. Gu Xiyan covered her 'lips' with one hand, and she couldn't tell whether she was moved or delighted in her heart. Or some other emotion.
At least. He hasn't thrown his clothes away. This is not an explanation. He's not really that much of his own.
After finding a set of pajamas. Gu Xiyan went straight to the bathroom to rinse. And the other compartment. After the little girl went downstairs, she jumped to Shang Yiqi's side.
"Yan'er." Shang Yiqi smiled bitterly. I don't know what to say to the little guy.
"Daddy. Why are you bringing her back?" The little girl climbed into Shang Yiqi's arms. A pair of watery eyes stared at Shang Yiqi's dark eyes.
"Daddy will let her go tomorrow. Yan'er. Don't be upset. Daddy only let her stay here for one night. Is it good?" Shang Yiqi intuitively decided that the little girl didn't want to see Gu Xiyan. Patting the little one on the shoulder. Shang Yiqi comforted her.
Unexpectedly, the little guy's face swelled even more when he heard Shang Yiqi's words. Until the side of her cheeks stiffened a little. Only then did she open her mouth in annoyance, "Daddy. Do you like her or Aunt He?"
"What Yan'er likes is what Daddy likes." Shang Yiqi gave the little girl a vague answer. He knew that the little guy was very sticky now. And he. also agreed to give He Jun a wedding.
In fact, if you think about it, he was too cruel to He Jun. He Jun is a very good 'woman'. If it hadn't happened this time. He probably would never agree to be with her. After all, he's just a human being. And a person has only one heart. His heart has been given to another 'female' person. I can't get it back. For He Jun. Except for apologies. He's the 'excited'.
"Daddy. Are you really going to marry Aunt He?" The little girl was silent for a while and then said.
"Doesn't Yan'er like Aunt He. If Daddy and Auntie are married. Aunt He will also be very good to Yan'er." Shang Yiqi said in a gentle voice.
The little girl put her little head against Shang Yiqi's arms. It took about ten minutes before she muffled, "Daddy. Yan'er thought. Yan'er actually doesn't hate that 'woman' that much."
Shang Yiqi was silent.
"Daddy. Or...... You better not marry Aunt He." After carefully taking a look at Shang Yiqi's face. The little girl grabbed his arm and said.
"Yan'er. Don't say that again. She will be unhappy when Aunt He hears it." Shang Yiqi suddenly put the little girl down. Loudened the voice of warning.
The little girl could only look at her father in a daze and walked in the direction of the stairs. It took a long time for her to raise her little hand and 'touch' her eyes. Kicking the sofa with both 'legs' non-stop. The more the little guy thinks about it, the more aggrieved he feels. Obviously, Daddy doesn't like Aunt He either. Why is she angry when she says that? And. Shouldn't Daddy like that 'woman'?
If. If Daddy really likes that 'female' guy. Then she could have hated that person less so. As long as that person doesn't think about leaving her and Daddy in the future.
When Gu Xiyan went downstairs, the little girl was looking at the little 'essence' spirit of her pet while cursing her 'lips' and was unhappy. After a short pause. Gu Xiyan still walked towards the little guy.
I sat down next to the little girl. Gu Xiyan tried her best to find something to talk to the little guy.
The result was that Gu Xiyan didn't think to say anything. But the little girl suddenly opened her mouth." Do you like Daddy?"
When the little girl said this, her eyes were still looking at TV. It's like she's just asking casually.
"yes. Yan'er. I love you Daddy so much. I love you too. But I have forsaken you. I'm so bad." Gu Xiyan reluctantly squeezed out a smile arc from the corner of her 'lips'.
The little girl didn't even roll her eyes. He asked, "Then why did you abandon us?"
It's not hard to hear. The little guy is still skeptical about Gu Xiyan's departure.
Gu Xiyan sighed helplessly. Then he said, "Yan'er. Do you remember the last time Mommy told you the story?"
The little girl didn't nod either. Nor do I shake my head. Just didn't say a word, and listened to Gu Xiyan continue to speak.
"Yan'er. That's the story Mommy told you back then. The husband in the story is your daddy. And my wife is me. Do you remember Uncle Wei. Uncle Wei gets shot in order to save Mommy. At that time, he was in the hospital for several days at a time. Mommy is really scared that he won't wake up. Later, your Uncle Wei's mother knelt down and begged me. She even gambled with her life to divorce me from your daddy. Let me stay with your Uncle Wei. I can't refuse such a loving mother. Yan'er. I know. I know I shouldn't come back if I leave." Gu Xiyan said and wiped her tears with her hand. After calming down a little. She continued: "Yan'er. I also know you must be disgusted with me right now. Because I lied to you. Abandoned you. But even so, I still can't bear to leave you. Yan'er. It doesn't matter if you don't like me. From now on, I will definitely try very hard to be good to you and your daddy. I'll wait slowly. Wait until the day when you're willing to re-accept me. Yan'er. Please don't sentence me to death now. Give me a chance."
After Gu Xiyan finished speaking, she stretched out her hand and wanted to 'touch' and 'touch' the little guy's head. The little girl wants to get out of the way. In the end, he resisted the idea of escaping. Gu Xiyan smiled slightly. There was also a hint of rich warmth in his eyes.
Yan'er. Thank you for not refuting it. Yan'er. Thank you for not running away.
After half past ten, Shang Yiqi came downstairs to beckon the little guy to go back to his room to rest. As for Gu Xiyan. Shang Yiqi raised his leopard eyes slightly. It looks very difficult. Actually, this chapter is a ~~~~~~ that has not been added to the 38th verse