238: Fear of losing
"What do you mean by that?" she felt in her heart that she shouldn't ask, the answer from this person's mouth must have made her collapse. But she still couldn't hold back after all, maybe it was the doubts in her heart that were at work. For so many years, whether she wants to believe it or not, she has become a cocoon trapped in the net, and she will never be able to break out of the cocoon into a butterfly.
Ji Hongye endured the pain of piercing his heart and bones, and stood up and looked at Lu Qian condescendingly. The voice was as cold and emotionless as a ghost from hell: "Your brother has never loved you, and he hates you very much. That's why when I was dying, I said something like that to you, so that you couldn't give up if you wanted to, and then you were trapped in your own demons for the rest of your life. ”
"You're talking nonsense!" she stood up tremblingly, her body slumped, and gradually showed what she should look like at her age. She clenched her fists tightly, gritted her teeth and said, "You haven't seen my senior brother and you don't know what kind of person he is, he is an out-and-out gentleman, he will never do anything that ignores his conscience, let alone lie!"
"You killed his wife, and you wish you could die at his hands, so that you will be free, and you will be gone. He knows what you're thinking, that's why he won't let you get what you want. The most unforgettable thing in this world is never love, but missing. ”
After Ji Hongye said these words, he turned around and was about to go out. Midori stopped him from behind him and stiffened and asked, "What can you do to me if you know this?" I still won't give you a solution, you can only be at my mercy. ”
"Naturally, it won't be useless, at least I know the purpose of your trip, and I also know the people behind you. A retrospective ancient city, I haven't paid attention to it yet. Ji Hongye turned around and hooked the corners of his lips at her sarcastically: "You still have one night to consider, one is to solve the Gu, and the other is to suffer from acupuncture every day until you die." ”
Lu Jing's eyes were full of resentment, and she roared angrily: "Let me solve the Gu for you, don't think about it! I am tortured, how much better can you be than me? In the end, it is just a fish to die and the net is broken." ”
Ji Hongye didn't bother to look at her, although the qi and blood in his body were surging, although he wanted to get close to her very much, he still held back. He knew very well that he didn't have any feelings for this person, all of this was just the Gu worm in his body. The person he really loves should still be waiting for him to go back.
When Ji Hongye returned to the guest room, the sky was already white. Nalan Jinxiu had been waiting for him undressed, and finally fell asleep on the desk when he was extremely sleepy.
He sat down next to her, looking sideways at her. He was very fond of her, and every time she slept beside him defenselessly, he couldn't help but feel pity. Why didn't he feel anything now, if it weren't for those deep memories, I'm afraid he would really treat her as a stranger.
Nalan Jinxiu felt that a pair of eyes were looking at her in her sleep, and that feeling made her uncomfortable, as if she was being targeted by a poisonous snake. She woke up suddenly, but met Ji Hongye's eyes.
She was stunned, and she always felt that something was different. The third brother's eyes when he looked at her have always been gentle, even if he became a scholar of the Criminal Department, after entering the Wenyuan Pavilion, the whole person changed from the previous gentleness to coldness, but it was the same for her as always.
But now, the third brother's eyes made her very strange, too calm, too cold, and even more distant than just now. She was suddenly extremely afraid in her heart, a fear that would be lost, she reached out and grabbed his sleeve and called him softly: "Third brother." "Only in this way can I have some peace in her heart.
The voice was thin and small, with a complete sense of caution. Ji Hongye looked at her hand quietly, and there was an urge to brush her away, but the will finally controlled the movements of the hand.
"Third brother, let's leave things here alone, let's go back to Jinling! I'm a little scared. Nalan Jinxiu gripped his sleeve tighter, and the uneasiness in his heart grew.
Ji Hongye felt that he was like a careless person now, but his memory was so clear, he had liked this girl, how could he not know? He suppressed the discomfort in his heart, stiffened his hand to touch her hair, and his voice was very soft: "Don't be afraid, I'll go back in a few days." ”
Nalan Jinxiu is not a sentimental person, and she doesn't want to think about everything in the worst way, but she is very unstable in her heart. She was afraid that she would finally be able to be with her third brother, but because of her love Gu, she was only happy in the end.
"Third brother, will you, will you not like me anymore?"
Ji Hongye shook his head and said, "No." ”
"But love, Gu will sway people's feelings, you ......"
"No, it won't. Ji Hongye said lightly: "Thousands of people and thousands of faces, not everyone can be swayed by a worm, and not everyone will fall in love with the person who casts Gu on them." ”
"The third brother won't fall in love with her, so he won't forget me?"
"Of course. ”
"Why?" Nalan Jinxiu didn't know what was wrong with her, and it seemed that only by hearing his personal promise could she remove the uneasiness in her heart a little.
Ji Hongye looked at her quietly, trying to remember their past, remembering the joy or emotion she had brought him. He looked at her with a very serious look, then curled the corners of his lips slightly, and said with a smile: "Because you are Ah Jin, you are the only one in the world." ”
Nalan Jinxiu felt as if she had been hit, and she felt violently dizzy. It's like a drinker who just happened to be slightly drunk, and he was in a daze. No wonder her third brother never said love words, it turned out that it was so earth-shattering.
Ji Hongye's words came from his own memory, and there, this girl is indeed irreplaceable. But when he said it, he didn't feel much taste in his mouth, as if it was a little sour. Looking at this girl's expression again, she smiled stupidly, revealing a hint of sweetness.
He suddenly remembered that when he hadn't liked her yet, he was also so heartbroken. He couldn't even understand why he was so attracted to such a girl in the first place, and had those indelible affections?
Although Nalan Jinxiu is a little dull at some times, it doesn't mean that she is dull. She could feel that the third brother was trying his best to comfort her, and she could also see the blankness in the third brother's eyes. She wanted to smooth out the folds between her brows for him, but she knew she couldn't expect too much now, and the future would be long. He is rejecting her now, although he knows that it is a trick, but she still has some bad feelings in her heart.
"Go sleep for a while. Ji Hongye said softly.
Looking at his pale face, Nalan Jinxiu's heart swelled, and the person who was suffering now should be him. Not only did she not help, but she kept asking him to comfort her, and she hated herself a little.
"I see that your face is not good, you can go to sleep too!"
"Good. Ji Hongye got up and went out, glanced back at her before opening the door, and saw that she was looking at herself blankly, her face was dazed, but she smiled the moment her eyes touched him, and waved at him.
Ji Hongye frowned, and there was always a feeling of discomfort in his heart, as if he wanted to say something to her, but he really didn't know how to speak, so he finally stepped out of the door.
Nalan Jinxiu couldn't sleep at all, she paced back and forth in front of the window. I wonder if the master has received her letter, and I wonder when he will come to meet her? She only knew that she could not wait any longer, but she was helpless about the present situation.
As if God heard her heart, someone knocked on the lattice outside the window, she opened the window, and Qu Qingjia was smiling outside the window. When she saw him, she couldn't help but say happily, "When did you arrive?"
"Just when you and your third brother are nong, you and me. ”
Nalan Jinxiu was speechless, did he want to say it so bluntly? If it wasn't for the fact that he was indeed her master, she really wanted to treat him as a disciple.
"I asked you to come over, not to make fun of me. ”
"You don't even need to call the master now, do you understand the respect for the master?" Qu Qingjia swaggered and sat at the window, looking like he was afraid that others would not see him. He was so respectful to him before he missed this girl, and even worshipped him like a god, so he almost didn't offer him.
Nalan Jinxiu also knows the truth of being a teacher for one day and a father for life, but she really can't treat him like she used to. In the final analysis, I didn't know his age before, and I didn't know that his style of acting was so uninhibited. Now when she thinks of her master, in addition to her medical skills, she can only think of being disrespectful to the old man. But when I think about it, I don't think it's appropriate, he is obviously not old at all.
"Okay, I'm just casually saying to tease you, look at your bitter and hateful look. Qu Qingjia jumped down from the window, sat down on the table, picked up the teapot on the table, and sucked hard at the spout of the teapot. A few knocks, a pot of tea, the bottom.
Nalan Jinxiu especially wanted to ask, are you a thirsty ghost? But she endured it and still didn't say it, and it was very offensive for the apprentice to say this sentence to the master. Although she felt that her master was a little strange, in the end, the master was the master.
Qu Qingjia rushed to her letter after receiving her letter, and she really didn't even drink saliva on the way. He still knows his little disciple well, she has an independent personality and is calm, and she will never be so anxious in the letter until the last resort.
"You only said intercession in the letter, Gu, the reason was not explained clearly, now tell me about it. Knowing that she was in a hurry, Qu Qingjia didn't go around the bend and cut straight to the topic.
Nalan Jinxiu had no choice but to explain the ins and outs to him clearly, thinking that her master would also make it difficult to hear it, after all, this thing is really difficult. Who knew that Qu Qingjia's reaction was unusual, and he said lightly: "Those harmful things that came out of the ancient city will pull them out sooner or later." ”