I hailed a taxi home, and said goodbye to the bright lights, to He Xiaofeng's exaggerated laughter, and to ...... For the good sisters who are about to get married and pregnant, the most sincere blessings are in good mood.

The drink didn't make me relax and get drunk, but when the cold wind blew, I became more sober.

I pinched my phone and hesitated all the way, and finally dialed her number when I stood at the gate of the community:

"Hey, Winter Night......"

"What's wrong, Lan Lan?" Li Dongye picked it up quite quickly, and the surroundings were quiet, sounding like he had arrived home.

"You...... With Du Chenfeng? I took a deep breath and pressed one hand to my beating heart.

"yes. Do you have something? ”

"No ......" I closed my eyes: "I just, I forgot how to arrange the process tomorrow." What time is it to the auditorium? ”

"Oh, I said you can do it!" Li Dongye raised an octave and yelled at me: "I went out at nine o'clock, and the ceremony officially opened in the auditorium at ten o'clock." Then there is luncheon and in the afternoon to the Civil Affairs Bureau.

Chenfeng and I are all simple, and there are not many guests. I think you got married and got married in a high-profile way, but I don't remember a single link! ”

"Oh, what about me...... Came over early in the morning to see you put on makeup? ”

"Lan Lan, what is the matter with me?" Li Dongye seemed to hear that something was wrong with my emotions: "Is it ...... What's hidden from me? ”

When I said no, I felt like I was going to marry you off, and my heart was empty.

"Fool. People say that when they marry their daughters, their parents' feelings are complicated. My parents are gone, I thought I could escape such a tear-jerking session, but I didn't expect you to join in the fun. "Winter Night said words that seemed to be teasing, but in fact moved, but it made my heart ripple layer by layer.

"I want to ask you, Winter Night, why you decided to marry Du Chenfeng...... What is it? "I breathed in a breath of cold air so hard that my alveoli ached. The eyes are very sour, maybe the alcohol is starting to paralyze: "It's because of the thread that Ye Jinliang and I pulled, do you think it's reliable?" Feel the same age and don't want to be single anymore? Or do you think that you don't want to get married until you are thirty years old, and your second uncle will take away the inheritance of the villa? ”

The sister on the other end of the phone seemed to be silent for a long time, but in fact, it was only a short three or five seconds, but it opened up the deep distance between me and reality and reason.

"Lan Lan, of course it's because I love him." Li Dongye's answer was particularly firm, even more resolute and firm than when she used a craniotomy to make people brains.

"But you've known each other for a long time, in fact, it's not long......" I whispered out this sentence, feeling a little empty: "Of course, it doesn't necessarily mean that if you know each other for too long, you will necessarily ....... it will be better." I mean, do you really know Du Chenfeng? It's only been half a year, and I'm ......"

"Lan Lan, I know what's wrong with you, ha." Li Dongye chuckled: "The matter between you and Ye Jinliang makes you feel that the marriage contract is too fragile, and you are afraid that I, a guy who has never been in love, will be impulsive, right?"

Don't worry, I'm an adult, and it's not the first time I've been on a blind date. What Chen Feng has in his body is something that I decided to spend my life with him after feeling it with my heart.

Don't worry, now I just need to bless it. ”

Okay, okay, let's not talk about it, I'll toss for a day tomorrow, I have to recharge my energy. ”

I finally didn't say anything—

Because I can choose not to believe He Xiaofeng's words, I just think I'm drunk and listening to gossip.

Everyone has a past, and everyone has an unspeakable experience. Possible...... Think about it slowly with a calm and rational attitude, just like Jiang Zuoyi said, if people don't die, what else can't be passed?

As long as Li Dongye feels happy, as long as Du Chenfeng can keep his original intention...... I'd love to see them happier than I am.

When I got to the door, I looked up at the whole building. Thousands of lights are happy. Some intimacy is reflected in the window, some laughter floats in the air, some loneliness floats out of the years, and some indifference shuttles through gestures. But there are a few people who dare to guarantee that they don't have those...... What about the secrets that even your loved ones are hiding?

"Coming back so early? I thought you'd get drunk enough to be picked up. ”

A tone that is colder than the night wind in winter, and a more ironic appearance than reality-

The moment Jiang Zuoyi came up from behind me and threw his coat on me.

It dawned on me that I might not have to face a cold house alone. That feeling seems to squeeze out a bit of relief that has to be welcomed.

The coat was woollen, with a strong smell of mothballs, and his shaking action was throwing, not draping. When I came out of my head a little embarrassed, I realized that I forgot that Jiang Zuoyi was not a warm man.

This man who can never be compatible with gentleness and thoughtfulness, like the wolf king who crosses the snowy mountains, will only force you to pull out the leg trapped in the hunting pit with a firm look, but will not lean over to help.

"How do you ...... Coming here? "Honestly, I didn't really want to see him at this time. Because of complex and tangled feelings, it is often necessary for a person to calm down and settle down.

And every time Jiang Zuoyi appears, in addition to bringing me different emotions, it will also bring a lot of different plans.

"Didn't you say that your house is closer to the auditorium where you're going to attend tomorrow? So I don't think it's an excuse for you to refuse to spend the night with me tonight. "Jiang Zuoyi hugged me into the elevator, so he acquiesced that I was willing to invite him into the house?

"Jiang Zuoyi, don't make trouble. I...... Sorry, I'm really not in the mood today. Ahh

It may be that my attitude and expression are too virgin white lotus, or it may be that the woman who rejected Jiang Zuoyi has already been left in the sewer, anyway, the moment I said 'sorry', his eyes became a little scary. He slammed my shoulder on the door, and the words 'open the door' were cold and hard.

I didn't say anything more, anyway, Jiang Zuoyi's thinking can't be measured by normal logic.

I went to rummage through my purse, and the hand that pulled out the key shook the rope, and I couldn't get it out several times.

Maybe it's because my hands are frozen, or maybe it's because I, who was already full of doubts and worries, admit that I don't have a good mood to dismiss Jiang Zuoyi, who suddenly appeared.

Because his expression, demeanor, and movements at this time are not like a boyfriend who really wants to spend a good night with me. And like a gangster with a dagger to my waist, waiting for me to withdraw a bill from an ATM!

Especially from the moment he approached me, I seemed to be able to see a trace of inexplicable emotion in his calm eyes.

"What are you shaking? Isn't it okay to be dedicated? Jiang Zuoyi held my hand, and the key was half-inserted in the lock hole. It's like a glamorous suggestion that makes people involuntarily blush.

I shook my head, "I'm just, thinking about something else. In fact, tonight is not suitable for entertaining guests. And my house is a mess......"

"Restlessness is often the undesirable consequence of long-term abstinence. Your good sister is a doctor and didn't tell you? ”

Me: "......"

I said enough, Jiang Zuoyi, what are you doing today?

"You."

Me: "......"

"Sorry, I remember saying a few hours ago that I wasn't ready. Hmm-"

He suddenly kissed me against the door, slowly tightening the strength of his palms along my shoulders. The whole upper body is slightly raised, but the waist and legs are dead against me!

"But......" the man leaned over and gently spat out a numb provocation in my ear, "it's ready." ”

I knew I might be doomed, because this almost wild instinct had pushed me into a corner like a target.

I don't think there is any need to figure out Jiang Zuoyi's heart whenever and wherever I am.

What is he planning and what decisions he makes. Many times it seems to be as meticulous as a chess game, but in fact, it may just depend on whether he is hungry or not.

One second he was kind and pleasant, and the next second he could pick his skin and cramp, he was talking about people like him.

"You won a game with me, and you can't wait to get paid?" At this point, I am no longer to be outdone. With my hands hanging naturally at my sides, I resisted his 'inexplicable' play tonight by not responding.

I have been dealing with Jiang Zuoyi for two months, and from the moment he put forward the nonsensical request of 'being his woman', there seems to be a very insurmountable barrier between us.

The relationship and tacit understanding that has nothing to do with love slowly breeds in the daily life of fighting side by side.

I'll admit he's very powerful, even a little pompous, but I'm not afraid to wander the boundaries where he can kill at any time. Because since I can't guess his thinking or his position, I think it's much easier to get along with him.

We didn't have a relationship, and at first I really thought he was waiting for him to heal and come back to life. However, even if there are men in the city, their eyes can't deceive people.

I've always felt that Jiang Zuoyi didn't really have an interest in my body. At least, there was nothing better than the interest he showed in trying to conquer my unintelligent brain.

So I still can't figure out what brand of medicine he took when he suddenly changed his face and came to my house tonight!

"Jiang Zuoyi, do you just feel that your body is better and you have physiological needs? Or, if you don't take something from me, you always feel like you're not pretty enough to win. ”

"It's okay if you think so, I just think it's time to swallow you first." Jiang Zuoyi raised a palm and slowly combed the corners of my eyes, the bridge of my nose, my cheeks and my lips along my forehead.

It's not like foreplay and teasing at all, it's a bit like toying.

"First time, Shu Lan." He stopped abruptly and stared into my eyes.

"What......" I opened my mouth in surprise, but he unceremoniously pinched his mandible, and the sound he made was hilarious.

"Have you ever heard a word? Man creates machine, and machine is subordinate to man. Once one day something that has been created begins to question its creator in reverse, do you say, has it come to the end of its destruction?

So Shu Lan, I'll give you a total of three chances to get out of control, and this is the first time. ”

"Jiang Zuoyi, I don't understand what you're saying." I shook my head desperately, and my eyes finally rose: "Are you here tonight to have fun, to find a philosophy of life, or to trouble me?" ”

"Who told you to make friends with He Xiaofeng? Who asked you to help Lei Zhengtian eradicate his political opponents? Shu Lan, you don't seem to be following my script. ”

As soon as I heard Jiang Zuoyi's words, my tense cranial nerves finally collapsed, and I almost burst into tears of laughter: "So it's because of this?"

Oh, I'll admit it – I think your approach to the problem is too old-fashioned, so I changed the formula.

What could be more profitable than turning an enemy into one of your own? You've always thought I'm stupid, I can't just be stuck on the wall forever, right? Really, I thought ...... You're going to praise me. ”

"I don't like women who are too smart."

I laughed self-deprecatingly, and I said that I was far from being 'too smart', right? What's more, between you and me, we have never relied on 'likes' to tie each other.

"Shu Lan, pretending to be a pig and eating a tiger is not something I taught you." Jiang Zuoyi's eyes became colder and colder, getting closer and closer, as if he wanted to pull out my cranial nerve circuits as spaghetti: "So I want to think about it, I should teach you a lesson." ”

With a twist of the key, the door slammed open, and Jiang Zuoyi pressed me down on the sofa directly.

The remote control was on my waist and eyes, and I couldn't help but cry out in pain, but he pressed back into the deep kiss.

It's not that I haven't thought about this day, in other words, everyone is an adult, even if there is no responsibility, no creed and no commitment, just by virtue of your willingness, why not?

But when this moment really came, I hated him for his motives of toying and punishing.

I admit that I like Jiang Zuoyi's resume of taking me step by step with my hands, but this should not be exchanged by me mechanically opening my body.

He is like this, it will make me feel very cheap, very cheap, like countless women who have climbed over his bed but can't get into his heart, just a plaything!

"Jiang Zuoyi, let go!" I was pressed against the couch by him, almost breathlessly. Several times I tried to catch his tongue, and then I broke it hard to relieve my anger, but he flexibly avoided one disaster after another. Well, I'll admit that his kissing skills are top-notch.

So I simply took the initiative to hook his tough neck, fixed it with all my brute force, and finally found the sluggishness and flaw.

I bit so hard that a momentary fishy smell suddenly permeated my mouth and nose. Sweet and salty.

Jiang Zuoyi let go of me and put one hand in my ear: "Shu Lan, everyone is an adult, is it necessary to be so chaste and martyr for this kind of thing?" ”

"Nonsense!" I deliberately sneered: "If you want to go up, you can say that you want to go up, what do you do with those excuses?"

What is out of control, what are the rules of the game? Jiang Zuoyi, you figure it out, I have always only cooperated with you!

You're willing to teach me, it's just that you're bored with wishful thinking, but you don't want to control me! ”

With a swipe, he violently tore open my shirt, and the buttons fell to the floor and rolled around.

"Agitation with hooligans? Shu Lan, your IQ and city government are really not very stable. ”

I turned my head away, unable to tell if it was humiliation or disgust, or ...... And a little blind little expectation?

"Hooligans are not a derogatory term, just an adjective of temperament." I sneered, "It's just that I'm a little disappointed in you.....

Isn't it to love before anyone? It is said that women are more likely to love and rely on sex than men. Jiang Zuoyi, are you cheating like this? ”

He stopped and leaned over to look at me for a moment. I didn't expect to break in with my back in the end-

"You-"

I felt like I had been stabbed with a dagger, blown from the scalp to the spinal cord. In the next moment, I made a difficult and bold decision.

If Jiang Zuoyi will never forget the woman in his life, except for Ling Xue, I am confident that I will become the second.

- because I kicked him right out of my body!

He would not believe that there were women in this world who could not be restrained at such a time. Not only can he resist the surging demand in his body's instincts, but he can also resist his powerful possessive desire.

Just kicked off the sofa, Jiang Zuoyi simply spread his whole body and lay down on the floor.

Just as I didn't expect him to give up, he couldn't imagine that I would suddenly roll over and press back.

I sat on his lap with my hands around his ribs. Sticking out the tip of his tongue and licking a little bit of scarlet on the corner of his lips. I smiled and said to him, "Jiang Zuoyi, you can't defeat me, whether it's on the bed or under the bed." The shackles I took off because of Ye Jinliang, don't expect me to put them on again for any man! ”

"Itchy ......" He tried to push my hand on his waist, but I gently poked him, and it broke instantly.

It's the first time I've seen Jiang Zuoyi laugh like an idiot. He reached out and pinched my face, then grabbed my shoulders and rolled them out. The relative position has changed again......

This time he wasn't too rough and didn't attack again. He pressed me like that and kissed me for a few minutes.

That's when I noticed that I was getting into a bit of a groove, and he said he was going to take a shower......

Jiang Zuoyi, are you sure you weren't sent by a monkey to fix me!

This home was rented by me after my divorce from Ye Jinliang, and I have never had the slightest hint of a man's breath.

No bath towels, no slippers, no ashtrays.

I know that Jiang Zuoyi is a high-end hooligan who pays attention to the quality of life, but I also know that he is not a pure turtle-haired man who cannot bend to the environment.

While he was taking a shower, I went downstairs to the convenience store and picked up a few simple household items for him.

Unexpectedly, as soon as I entered the door, I saw Jiang Zuoyi wrapping a duckling bath towel around the leaves, and took my cream lid as an ashtray!!

His hair was drenched and his body was tickled with water. After seeing me come in, he swallowed his cigarette casually: "I thought you called the police." ”

"Catch the hooligans?" I smiled wryly and threw him the bath towel and slippers or something: "The hair dryer is in the drawer, didn't you find it?" ”

"Electricity leakage." He gave me a blank look.

I nodded weakly, saying that I was looking for a house in a hurry at that time, and I felt that the location was suitable and the price was fair, so I quickly moved in.

Later, I found out that the infrastructure was poor and the property was not very good.

It's not the first time that the socket on the side of the sink has leaked, and no one has come to the door to answer after I have urged it several times.

"Change."

I said okay, I'll go and urge the landlord tomorrow morning.

"I'm asking you to change houses."

Me: "..."

"Have you forgotten the days when you didn't have money? This is in the center street community behind my company, and a three-bedroom apartment of 120 square meters is only 4,000 yuan, as if it fell from the sky. ”

"Is Mr. Shu still a person who is short of money?" Jiang Zuoyi squinted his eyes, got up and turned his back to me, and finally freed my daughter's poor little bath towel, and he went to the bedroom naked. At the same time, he left a sentence: "The key is on the coffee table, Tianchi Jiayuan, which is three kilometers away from here." 2 bedrooms, double south facing.

On top of that, there are high-end kindergartens in the community with teachers in pairs of eight, four boys and four girls. The family background has a threshold, and the quality of the children is relatively high, so I plan to let Xiao Zero-piece go. Ye Zi follows such an unreliable mother as you, I really don't feel at ease. ”

"You—"

I gradually looked away from his muscular, sturdy back and snow-white ass.

Seriously, what he gave me was hard for me to accept. It makes me feel like I can't think of any good way to exchange thanks other than to pounce on it and repay it with my body.

"Don't try to pounce in, I'm not interested in your body!"

With a bang, Jiang Zuoyi closed the door.

Me: "..."

Jiang Zuoyi, you occupy my bedroom, where can I sleep!

Although since you don't go to bed, you can't go home!

I dragged my pajamas around the floor, tidied up Leaf's room a bit, and picked out a few storybooks she wanted to pack. She made a list for me yesterday afternoon, and I forgot it when I went to the hospital this morning.

The pretty princess bed was so small that I would have wanted to curl up in it. Smelling my daughter's breath, sticking to her colorful pillows and quilts, no matter how lonely my heart is, I want to accompany her in to have a look.

Hey, no matter when and where, as long as I think of my daughter, I have tears in my eyes.

Tomorrow is a big day in the winter night, and I can't stare at two peaches in the eyes.

So I closed the door of the leaf and tossed the duckling towel on the floor that had seen chicks into the laundry basket, oh no, the bin!

I turned and went into the room, ready to compromise for the night under the dove's nest of the shameless man.

This room was originally Sister-in-law Lin's, and before she left, she washed and dried all the bedding she used.

I was thinking about whether to ask a live-in aunt to bring the leaves in the future, so I didn't make a big move on the furnishings of the house.

At this moment, my head was on a pillow, and I was about to be killed by memories.

It was a little cold in the house, so I went to the drawer of the bedside table to find the remote control for the air conditioner—

Huh? What is it?

Looking down, I lowered my gaze and pulled a piece of paper from the crack in the bed.

When I opened it, it turned out to be a hospital diagnosis certificate.

Lin Qiufen, advanced pancreatic cancer.

I admit it, it's not that I haven't thought about whether Sister-in-law Lin's departure will have another hidden meaning. I was just... I'd rather not explore, I'd rather believe that she had found a good old companion ready to spend the rest of her life with.

I'll admit that I'm selfish because I can't carry anything negative in my life anymore.

I made a phone call and went out and called Ye Jinliang.

Maybe he is staying by Shu Yan's side at the moment, but if you want to ask, who else can understand my surging sadness at this time, except for Ye Jinliang... No one treats Sister-in-law Lin as a relative like me.

"Shu Lan? You... What happened to you? ”

I didn't cry, I just choked up. Ye Jinliang also went when he sent Sister-in-law Lin away that day, and now recalling his recollection, his expression is as if he knew something from the beginning.

"Sister-in-law Lin..."

There was silence on the other end of the phone for a long time: "Shu Lan, she said let's hide it from you." ”

I said you really know? When did you know that the date on this report is five months ago, and if it is not treated properly, it will be half a year at most. So she's now... Isn't it already...

"What else is there for you to hide from me? Who else knows about Sister-in-law Lin's illness except you. ”

"Lu Zhaoxin also knows." Ye Jinliang said that Sister-in-law Lin was sent to the hospital by Ye Zi with sleeping pills that day, and the doctor told them the next day after the examination.

I remembered that Ye Zi was sick for the first time that day, and I didn't believe Ye Jinliang, so I called Lu Zhaoxin to the hospital to accompany Ye Zi, and I hurried to find Li Dongye.

It turned out that this was the case, the doctor helped Sister-in-law Lin to wash her stomach, and it was impossible not to find out her condition...

"Sister-in-law Lin said that she didn't want you to worry about her, and she had decided not to treat her anymore, so she wanted to leave quietly alone."

Ye Jinliang said calmly, but I could no longer suppress the surging tears: "Why don't you tell me, why do you hide everything from me?"

I always thought that the problem between us was external, but did you know that the real lack of trust is not something that can be bought back by knowing each other long enough!

Ye Jinliang, tomorrow is the wedding of Winter Night and Chenfeng.

My best sister, to marry your best friend. You tell me the truth now, you used to... Do you know about Du Chenfeng? ”