Chapter 101: It turns out that my heart can still hurt so much
Before Guo Jingshu could say hello to me, he was stunned when he saw Qin Yue standing up, his face became a little weird, and the corners of his mouth twitched, "Qin Yue, why are you here?" ”
"You know?" I was a little surprised.
"I don't know," Qin Yue's face changed very badly, and she smiled at me, "I'll give you my friend's phone number when I go back, you can go directly to her, I'll go first." After the words fell, Qin Yue picked up a few paper bags on the side and left.
I was a little confused.
"Qin Yue, you don't eat it." Seeing that she was about to walk out of the door, I stood up and wanted to catch up, but Guo Jingshu chased after me one step ahead of me.
It's the first time I've seen Qin Yue lose control like this, it seems that she has a story with Guo Jingshu.
Guo Yanyan looked at Guo Jingshu's back, her eyes were dull and dead, and when she turned her eyes, she just met my eyes and grinned a little embarrassed.
At this time, the waiter pushed us to order, pulled the grill on the table and added charcoal to light the fire.
I motioned for Guo Yanyan to sit down, estimating that Guo Jingshu would not come back so soon.
Guo Yanyan looked at me and smiled shyly, and sat opposite me, her original smart eyes were mournful and godless after ten years of bars.
"You live in Guo Jingshu now?" I opened my mouth first.
"Hmm," Guo Yanyan clasped her hands a little unnaturally.
For a while, the two of them had nothing to say, and the atmosphere was a little heavy.
"Let's eat," I couldn't help but look at her at a loss. It turned out that I was not ruthless to her at all, and I once thought countless times that if I saw her, I must give her a few slaps. Can you really see her...... Except for the sourness and bitterness, I don't have the slightest hatred.
"Hmm," she nodded heavily, the corners of her mouth lifted slightly, but there was a mist in her eyes.
Looking at her like this, I feel very uncomfortable. But I am not holy enough to comfort her, the hatred is gone, but the resentment is not gone.
"You eat too." Guo Yanyan picked up a piece of meat and put it on my plate and smiled at me.
I was tasteless at the meal, and Guo Yanyan seemed to be absent-minded.
After the meal, as I expected, Guo Jingshu still did not come back.
I called the waiter to settle the bill, and then got up, and when I saw Guo Yanyan looking at me stupidly, I sighed lightly, "I'll send you back, anyway, I'll stop by the way." ”
Guo Yanyan lowered her face, "Won't it be too troublesome." ”
"Let's go." I was the first to walk towards the gate.
On the way back, Guo Yanyan looked at me from time to time, as if she had something to say but didn't know how to speak. It wasn't until my car stopped at the gate of the community where they lived that she bit her lip and said, "Xiaotong, thank you for being able to do this to me." Then, with red eyes, he got out of the car.
A wry smile tugged at the corner of my mouth. Former Friends...... I can't go back.
When I returned to the apartment, I was startled to see Xiao Liu standing outside the door, and then I remembered that he would come over to deliver medicine at this point every day. I asked him why he didn't give me a call, and he was waiting here stupidly. He smiled and said that it had not been long since he arrived.
When I entered the house and saw that I had finished drinking the medicine and he turned to leave, I stopped him.
"Xiao Liu, do you know what Mr. Zou is doing when he goes back to Beijing this time?" I don't know why, I always feel that Zou Zichen went back this time not only for work, or for work, he will not ask me again and again if I want to go with him.
Xiao Liu looked at me and scratched the back of his head, "I don't know very well." ”
"Oh, that's fine. You go back and drive slowly. I smiled at him.
Xiao Liu glanced at me, "Then I'll go first." ”
The look in his eyes made me think he knew. Suddenly remembered the words that Zou Zichen asked him when he was in the hospital, and I regretted opening my mouth to inquire about him. If it doesn't work, he will report to Zou Zichen as soon as he gets downstairs, saying that I will find out what he is doing when he goes back to Beijing.
After Xiao Liu left, I sat cross-legged on the sofa and was stunned.
This week, I feel like I've been incredibly slow.
I never thought that one day, I would think that one day I would think so hard about a person, I thought that I couldn't be emotionally attached to any man in this world except Ah Zhe, even if I could move, it couldn't be deep in my heart.
But Zou Zichen just broke in like that, and under my defenselessness, he was domineering and domineering and squeezed into the depths of my heart, and he couldn't get rid of it, so it was engraved in my heart...... Deeper and deeper.
My phone rings, interrupting my thoughts.
I took my phone and looked at the call, it was Wu Yue. I hurriedly picked it up, "Hey, Wu Yue." ”
"Mr. Lin, it's me." Wu Yue said at the other end: "Wait a minute, the chairman has something to tell you." ”
I frowned.
After a while, my father's old and frail voice came from the microphone, "Tong Tong is me." ”
"Oh, what's the matter?" My tone was a bit stiff.
"I'll be discharged from the hospital tomorrow and I'll tell you."
I sat up straight, what kind of hospital did he leave if he didn't stay in the hospital?
"Why don't you stay in the hospital and be discharged?" I was in a hurry.
The father chuckled: "I don't want to do chemotherapy anymore, it doesn't make much sense, it's better to spend a few comfortable days at home." ”
"Can you not be so willful, there is at least hope for good treatment with the doctor, you are like this......" I stopped for a while.
"Chemotherapy for this disease is only barely relieving the deterioration, and it does not do anything, but is very energy-consuming...... I would like to go back to the old villa. Father's tone was softer than ever.
As soon as my eyes were hot, my vision blurred.
"Okay, I'll go back and see you when I'm free." As the words fell, I hung up the phone and took a deep breath. Sometimes I really look down on myself, even though I let go of cruel words, but I always can't harden my heart.
I crossed my knees, staring blankly at the TV, but I didn't look at it at all, and I was bored with the remote control in my hand.
"Ouyang Xue, what are your criteria for choosing a mate?"
Suddenly, a familiar name poured into my eardrums. I was stunned and hurriedly replayed the past, which was a very famous entertainment program in China.
In the night crystal screen, Ouyang Xue was wearing a casual and fashionable sportswear, youthful and bright, bright and moving, she looked at the host with a smile, tilted her head, her beautiful eyes were shy, and said: "Actually...... I already have a boyfriend. ”
"Oh my God!" The host stood up in shock. Exaggerated and lively, shouting: "Hurry up, hurry, who is it?" ”
Ouyang Xue was troubled by the host, and her reserved smile turned into a mouthful, and she smiled shyly: "He is not an insider, I have actually known him since childhood, and he can be said to be childhood sweethearts." ”
"Oh my God, this is breaking news!" The two female guests beside Ouyang Xue also screamed, and asked, "Then you should hurry up and say, who is this 'bamboo horse'?" ”
"Well," Ouyang Xue stroked the broken hair around her ears embarrassedly, and then smiled generously: "Actually, we are about to get engaged, and you will know then." It's a secret for now. ”
As soon as Ouyang Xue's words fell, the three hosts on the stage began to take turns asking questions, and the face was violent. And Ouyang Xue was so pointed, no matter how much the host played, he only laughed silently.
And the remote control in my hand fell to the ground with a 'click'. Then I didn't listen to what was said on TV.
Zou Zichen and Ouyang Xue are getting engaged?
I saw them on the street that day, and they went into the jewelry store together, and it flashed through my mind again.
Did he go to Beijing this time just to get engaged?
I suddenly felt very tight in my chest, my heart seemed to be choked by something, and it was a little difficult to breathe. The whole body trembled.
Didn't I already know that there would be such a day? But why, is it still so uncomfortable?
I slumped over the couch and curled up, feeling like a hole had leaked through my heart.
Tears slipped silently.
It turns out that my heart still hurts so much.
But I brought it all on myself, who let me not keep it.
I laughed stupidly, tears streaming down my face.
The sadness and sorrow in my heart couldn't stop coming out at this time, and I buried myself deep in the sofa, trying to forget everything.
I don't know how long it took, but I felt that the phone was ringing and singing over and over again, but I didn't seem to hear it, my mind was blank, my eyes were empty, and my heart ached.
After a while, the doorbell rang loudly, followed by a knock on the door, followed by the sound of the door opening.
"Miss Lin...... Miss Lin. ”
My eyes moved slightly, my consciousness gradually cleared up, and I looked at Xiao Liu, who appeared at some point, and was slightly stunned.
"Are you alright?" Xiao Liu's honest face was full of worry.
"I'm fine," I reluctantly pulled the corners of my mouth and sat up from the couch, "why are you here?" ”
I couldn't help but stroke my face, and the tears on my face had dried for some time.
"Mr. Zou called you a lot, you haven't answered, he is very worried, let me come and take a look, I rang the doorbell at half a point, you didn't open the door, I was afraid that something would happen to you, so I used the spare key." Xiao Liu was still sweating on his forehead, and asked with concern, "Are you really okay?" ”