Someone asked me, what kind of life is the most perfect life?

There are parents who love me so much, best friends who are like sisters, strict teachers who are as kind as the sea, brothers next door who are like brothers, and the man I have been quietly loving for fifteen years......

I feel that with this, my life is already the most perfect life.

Indeed, for the first twenty-five years of my life, I lived a happy, perfect life.

However, I don't know when these beautiful things got farther and farther away from me, and then I realized that my life was actually full of gloom.

Looking back at the hospital behind me, I wiped away my tears, and then left this cold and sad place as fast as I could, with great nostalgia and exhaustion.

After leaving the hospital, I kept running, I don't remember how long I ran or where I was, but when I felt that my legs couldn't run, I slowed down, and then walked alone like a wandering spirit.

I looked up at the sky and saw that it was still so blue, but why had my heart become so dark?

Recalling the scene in the hospital just now, Uncle Fang's merciless scolding voice lingered in my ears more clearly.

"You are all calamities, you are the culprit--, you are the culprit--"

"Get out of here, get out right away!"

……

So I staggered out of the hospital, and before I could lick the wound, I 'rolled' out of his sight.

Uncle Fang's words stuck in my chest like a sharp blade, and I felt that even if it was really a sharp blade inserted into my chest, the pain would be nothing more than that! I couldn't help but think of Yu Han again, when he fell on the snow in order to protect me, his mouth and body were overflowing with blood, but he endured the great pain, and even the moment his life ended, he didn't shed a single tear.

Yuhan, how strong do you have to endure and have the courage to face death?

Thinking of this, my tears couldn't help falling again, for Yuhan's short and regretful life.

The flowing water falls and the flowers go in spring, and since then it has been heaven and earth!

Yuhan, if you are still alive, I have nothing else to ask for in this life, I am willing to abandon everything, even if it is to accompany you through the world and hell. But, far away in Heaven, can you hear what I say?

Yu Han, I owe you in this life and this life, I'm afraid I won't be able to pay it back, and in the next life, I, the culprit, don't know if I can meet you.

If we can't meet, then how can I repay the love debt in this world?

If we can meet, if I still bring you harm, then we should not meet in the next life.

I looked at the rain in the sky, thinking that the rain had come just in time, just enough to wash away my sins, so I continued to hesitate in the cold rain until my legs were completely disobedient, and I sat down on the ground.

I clasped my hands on my knees, feeling helpless like I had never felt before, and deep humiliation and grievance suddenly hit my heart.

I don't know how long I was in the rain, I began to feel some pain in my head, and then my breathing was a little short, looking at myself soaking wet, I smiled helplessly, once upon a time, I became a sinner who dared not go back to my home. I wanted to get up and look for a place to live, but when I moved my body slightly, I felt dizzy.

I told myself to hold on because my life was going on, but my mind became less and less conscious......

In a trance, I seemed to see the young man with the flute in the wind walking slowly towards me, and then said to me:

"Let's do another song, okay?"

"Little Ningzi, you see so many beautiful leaves on the tree, there are green, yellow, and flowery ......"

"Also--, fish mouths are actually very untasty, all of them are skin, and they are fishy and salty."

"If I die, I don't want everyone to shed so many tears for me..., so I won't be at ease in heaven."

"Chu Ning, death is not terrible, the living will be more painful, you must..., be strong."

The boy who once accompanied me through a carefree childhood, a young girlhood, practiced the piano with me, and participated in various performances together, now, where is your soul?

In the middle of my life, a figure seemed to be running towards me......

"Yuhan--, are you here to pick me up?"