I crept upstairs, intending to go to the bedroom to get what I wanted, but I heard a voice from the study.

Could it be that Luo Ange is at home?

I walked over and saw him sitting in front of the computer through the crack in the open door.

He didn't even know I was coming in, I could just see what was on the screen.

It's Bogart holding the baby!

They were on a video call, and the child asked in a milky voice, "Dad, why don't you come and stay with me and Mommy." ”

Luo Ange said: "Yun Tian is good, Dad has some things to deal with. When the matter is settled, will I take you and my mother to Japan to find Uncle Yosuke, okay? ”

"Dad, do you love me and Mommy?"

"Love, Daddy loves you the most."

Bogart is wearing a white dress, and she seems to have a kind of magic that can catch your eye and stay only on her.

"Okay, okay, you go get busy, don't waste time with us."

Luo Ange was a little dissatisfied: "Bobjia, we are a family, don't say such things." ”

"Okay, okay, I won't say it, I'll take Yuntian for a nap."

When she laughed, I felt as if I heard time stand still. I must be the only one who feels this way, or Luo Ange wouldn't even know that I was standing at the door.

I could hear the sigh in his heart, sighing and sighing......

Bogart, Bogart, why is the person who is with me not you?

Bogart, Bogart, I don't love her, I don't love her, I just use her as your stand-in. In my heart, no one can take your place.

I could also hear the sighs in my heart, sighing and sighing......

Ilshan, Iyishan, are you stupid, why do you believe it? How can you believe that there are men who are desperate for you and your children?

Yi Yanshan, Yi Yanshan, do you deserve it, the end of the moth to the fire is to be rejected by this man.

Ilshan, Ishan......

I need to hold on to the door frame to not fall down, and Luo Ange's voice is in my ears, so gentle and good.

But it turned out that they were Jia Baoyu and Lin Daiyu, and he became a monk when she died. Although I am with him, even if we are a good match, even if we get a certificate, after all, one is the moon in the mirror and the other is a flower in the water.

Xue Baochai didn't get anything in the end!

It's all wrong payment!

I don't know how I got back to the bedroom, I just remember rushing into the bathroom, washing my face with cold water and washing my face countless times, and finally sobering up.

I want to ask Luo Ange face to face, you love their mother and son, what about me and my children, what are we?

I want to ask Luo Ange, you and they are a family, so what about us, what are we?

I want to be so simple, my mother won't play with you.

Love what's wrong.

The spring rain lingered and came down, relieving my hot heart, and I stood outside the ward, looking at Xia Qi's sleeping face, and cried uncontrollably.

She is ready for a new life, but my new life has not yet begun, and it has already ended inexplicably.

The rain was still falling, and I didn't know where I was going or where I could go.

I was abandoned by the whole world, I lost myself, and I could never get it back.

I was sitting at KFC at half-past seven, ordered a burger, and coughed violently before I could start eating.

As soon as I coughed, I couldn't stop coughing, and the young people sitting around me probably thought I was seriously ill and got up and walked away from me.

I coughed and wiped my nose, and after a sneeze, the smell of blood came from my mouth.

I didn't expect to meet Shu Aiqing here, but she wasn't surprised at all, as if she had come to find me.

I coughed so badly that my tears and snot were mixed together. She sat next to me, kept handing me tissues, and kept sighing.

I didn't want her to see that I was coughing up blood, so I crumpled up tissues and put them in my pants pocket.

"You can't have tuberculosis or lung cancer, right?"

I looked at her and wanted to spray blood on her face.

"Did you quarrel with Luo Ange, for Bo Jia?"

Bojia Bogart, these two words are like Tang Seng's mantra to Sun Wukong, like the doomed fate, I can't escape.

I got up to leave, and she laughed: "You can't stand saying these two words from you, so what about after that?" ”

I sat down again, holding back the pain that was in my bones, and just looked at her.

"Do you know what a person's heart consists of, pericardial pleura, fibrous membrane, serous membrane, epicardium, myocardial endocardium, right atrial appendage, left atrial appendage, coronary sinus ......"

I was able to pick up her words at such a time: "Everything, but without me." ”

"I advise you not to torture yourself, Luo Ange and Bao Jiana are in the past after all, and few people can tell the story of that past. I can see that he loves you very much, and you also have children, so let's swallow your anger and live well. ”

"The sun is coming out in the west today, and you will say this to me."

Shu Aiqing smiled: "Everyone is a woman, and the child is innocent." Since you are going to bring him into this world, you should not give him pain. If you are in pain, why did you bring him into this world? ”

I stood in the cold wind, and my mind was full of Shu Aiqing's last words.

She's right, I'm already in agony and I'm going crazy, so why bother to let my child into this world?

I'm already going to share Luo Ange with another woman, and I can't let my child share Dad with another child.

Yes, it's as simple as that.

I unfastened my watch, threw it in the trash without thinking, and took a taxi to the hospital.

Aunt Wu is a former student of my grandmother, and she is now the head of the maternity hospital, and people who queue up for her to see a doctor every day can line up to the moat.

She did a routine check-up for me, and then took advantage of my unpreparedness to forcibly break my hand, took the blood-soaked paper ball from my hand, handed it to the assistant, and said that she would take it for testing.

Actually, I really don't think it's serious, I love coughing since I was a child, and every cough takes ten days and half a month to get better.

The loquat and pear trees in my grandfather's yard are said to have been planted for me.

Seeing Aunt Wu frowning, I couldn't help but shiver twice, could it be that the child had an accident?

She gave me a few orders and told me to go for a check-up first and then get the results.

I don't know if it's a hallucination, but when the doctor gave me an ultrasound examination, I kept hearing a small voice in my head.

Slightly shout for help, lightly call for mom.

At that moment, I thought of Bogart and the child, in the corners that others couldn't see or hear, had they also shouted so subtly countless times?

I clutched the receipt and rubbed in the bathroom for a long time before I had the courage to push open Aunt Wu's door.

She was reading my ultrasound report, her brow furrowed, and she saw me and asked, "Do you want to see it?" ”

I shook my head: "You know my body, I don't want this kid anymore." ”

She was more straight to the point than me: "Girl, I am a doctor who saves lives, not an executioner." ”

I also insisted: "I am the mother of the child, and I have the right to decide whether he goes or stays." ”

She looked at her watch, "Ask your grandfather or your father to tell me." ”

I cried: "Aunt Wu, you just help me for my grandma's sake, I really don't want this child." ”

She hugged me: "Girl, there is fate between you and the child, don't do anything stupid." By the way, what about the child's father? ”

I heard my heart crackle and shatter, and even my blood clotted and shattered. Before I had a nosebleed, I took the order, said yes, turned and strode out of the office.

The cleaning aunt saw that I had been squatting by the pool and vomiting, and kindly asked me if I needed help.

I had tears and snot on my face, and I waved my hand to say it was okay. Isn't it just vomiting, I'm not afraid of vomiting blood.

"Auntie, get out of here, leave me alone......"

"Girl, this is pregnant, but it's the first time I've seen it like this...... Yo, why are you still vomiting blood, girl......"

Private hospitals are good at this, as long as you pay the money, they can accommodate any request you make.

Lying on the cold operating table, I still cried uncontrollably, the doctor was used to such a scene, and comforted me: "It's okay, it's over after a sleep, it doesn't hurt at all." ”

When I pushed the door open, I was greeted by anxious faces and noisy voices in my ears. I couldn't hear anything clearly, I didn't want to say anything, I just wanted to sleep.

Someone ripped off my quilt and pulled me up, and I only saw his mouth open and closed, and I only saw a lot of people around him.

Then someone smashed a couple of pieces of paper in my face, and this time I finally heard it, and he said, "You're the executioner, you're a vampire, you're a scourge." ”

Thank you so much for giving me so many compliments at once.

He said, "You get out of here, you get out ......"

I gathered all my strength, rushed to the side of the cabinet and opened the drawer, took out the marriage certificate from it, and tore it to shreds without hesitation.

I don't love anymore, what do you want to do in this form of hypocrisy?

Someone rushed over and tried to snatch something from me, so I just didn't stop doing it, and took out all the jewelry and smashed it on the ground. I didn't think it was enjoyable, so I grabbed it and threw it in his face.

Xiang Xiaoyu died, probably that's it.

I was slapped in the face, I had no strength, and I staggered and hit the cabinet.

Intense pain came in waves, from slow to tight, and finally turned into a dense needle in my lower abdomen, into a blender that smashed everything in me.

You see, it's really fragrant.

It is better to know that it is better to be born like a dream.

Xia Qi has said a long time ago that sluts don't end well. Like me, it's better not to be a mother in this life, which child follows me and doesn't suffer?

I don't know how long I slumbered, but when I woke up, it was a white world, and if it weren't for the ticking liquid in the needle of the hanging bottle, I really doubt that I would have reached heaven.

Someone fell asleep on the edge of the bed, and I looked over and could just see the two spins on top of his head.

And a few gray hairs......

He was only thirty years old and already had gray hair.

I stretched out my hand, but I could only hang it weakly, what qualifications did I have to touch him, I didn't get that authorization from beginning to end.

The hand touched the lower abdomen, and the tears finally fell.

Aunt Wu is right, everything must be fate, I have no fate with this child.

This is the end of everything I do with all the people and things.

There were several people standing at the door, like bodyguards, if I went out, Luo Ange would be the first to know.

But if you want me to stay, you might as well let me die.

I'm now carefree, bright-hearted.

"Wife ......"