In the depths of my memory, except for the cry I had when my father died, it seemed that I had never shed a tear for anyone again.

It used to be Zhang Shaoyang's time, but now it's Blue Pool's Xuanshi, and there is still none.

But on the eve of my 'marriage' to you, I cried.

It's not that I cry because I'm happy to marry you, but because the marriage is real, but the bride is not you. From now on, the person who will accompany me through the second half of my life is not you.

Pulling out your jet-black hair from the delicate silver box, it is as if I see you and feel your body temperature.

This long hair was cut by me on purpose, thinking that even if people who can't see you in the future, it is also a kind of satisfaction to be able to hold your hair from time to time.

After you left, I moved to the room where you used to live, and my mother said that it was the New Year, and this quilt should be washed, but I held on to the corner of the quilt tightly, because there was still your breath on the sheet.

We've only been 'sharing a bed' for a month, and now that you're gone, I'm going to be alone.

Coagulation, are you wearing intestinal poison? Why don't I smell your breath, I can't sleep peacefully.

I have been with you silently in Wuyang for three years, and I can't remember how many nights I have stood under the big tree downstairs in your dormitory, just as I can't remember how many nights I have stood under your small apartment in the past five years.

Memories are like a bone-eating pain, I want to reject, but it has long been like a maggot attached to the bones, it turns out, I have long been like my mother, the rest of my life, can only live in memories.

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It's been two years, and it's been more than two years since you graduated and worked in 'Shen Yuan', and in the past two years, I've become more and more anxious. Because I don't know how to approach you.

But when I graduated, I made a promise to my family, asking them to give me another three years, and if after three years, you still haven't been recognized by the Lan family, and I still haven't been loved by you, I will go back to Italy to inherit the Lan family, and then live and grow old in that castle.

The patriarch couldn't resist my persuasion, so he promised me another three years, but more than two years have passed, and I still can't find a breakthrough, because the wall of 'Shen Yuan' is blocking me, I don't want to use abnormal means to let you out, so I can only often wander at the door of 'Shen Yuan', secretly giving you the opportunity to create various performances, I believe that by the ability of me, Wei Lao, and Teacher Jiang, I am absolutely sure to make you a world-famous performer, so that your achievements are worthy of the identity of the fifteenth generation heir of the Lan family.

But one day, Lawrence said to me, you actually eloped with Lin Yuhao.

During that time, I can't tell whether I was disappointed, frustrated, or angry, and I locked myself in the house for more than a week without going out.

After getting out of the shadow of disappointment, I decided to give up, because no matter how good you are, the Lan family will not accept a woman who has eloped with someone else to become my wife, even if I am willing or not, it is a rule set by the Lan family for hundreds of miles, and it cannot be changed.

Just as I was about to leave China with my loss, something happened that changed my fate.

After learning the news that you were going to Wuyang from Mr. Jiang, I couldn't hold back the thoughts of you in my heart, and I also moved my mind to go to Wuyang.

It turns out that my love for you has never changed, I actually hope that after graduation, when we meet again on the Wuyang campus, you still remember me, and remember that in your life, there was a person named Zhang Shaoyang.

In fact, I did!

It's just that Zhang Shaoyang at that time seemed to have no chance with you, because he just passed by you.

That day, on the way to Wuyang, I didn't squint, but I still saw you sitting in the co-pilot, and Lin Yuhao in the driver's seat, and the whole person was as if I had lost my soul......

The car accident didn't take my life, but it made me lose my self-confidence.

Because I received family training since I was a child, I urgently saved myself in a car accident, and my life was saved, but my hands and face were injured, and the injuries were so serious that I could no longer play the violin I loved, and I could no longer show people with Zhang Shaoyang's face.

After a few months of repair, my body gradually recovered, but I was no longer Zhang Shaoyang of Wuyang.

Looking at the unfamiliar face in the mirror that was more handsome than before, I was sad for a long time, and I kept myself in the hospital room and no longer showed myself.

By the time I had the courage to meet people again, the world had become a little less familiar to me.

My beloved Chu Ning, what have you experienced?

You have endured such a sad parting of life and death, Lin Yuhan,-- the sunny boy I had a relationship with in Wuyang, the boy I admired very much, has left this world.

There are too many coincidences in this world, and the two men who also love you deeply were both injured in a car accident, but I am luckier than him, although I am unrecognizable, I am finally alive.

And he left the world forever, and I have to mourn his death.

In those days, I stayed in Y City every day, and my car was parked by the river that the locals called the Han River, and then I sat alone in the car, because the scar on my face had not healed, and because of my pride, I didn't dare to appear in front of you rashly, I was afraid that I would scare you.

So I can only sit quietly in the car, watching you from afar, watching you often run alone to Lin Yuhan's grave to cry, and then watching Lin Yuhao go to carry you back.

Then, I learned that Lin Yuhan's mother was sick, and then you disappeared from my sight, from the sight of all your relatives.

Chu Ning, why do you need to blame yourself so much, the responsibility that did not belong to you was borne, but you took it all, and then disappeared from everyone's sight in such a decisive way.

Maybe it was meant to be! The world is so big, you just met Mr. Jiang, who is unlikely to go to Y City, and then by mistake went to Rome,-- the city where the Lan family has lived for 500 years.

So I decided to let the family give me another five years, and after five years, if I still haven't got your love, and you still haven't been recognized by the family, then I will accept all the arrangements of the family, including my wife.

So, a month after you flew to Rome, I also appeared on the banks of the Tiber River, I re-acquainted with you as my true identity, and silently supported you, silently accompanied you to grow up, I hope that in five years, you will be the best Chinese performer in Rome, and even the best young performer in the world.

Finally, five years later, my efforts and your efforts have finally come true, and your ideals have been realized, but Lin Yuhao appeared in Rome......

It seems that all my dreams of five years have been shattered overnight.

In the past five years, I have been silently accompanying you, never taking half a step beyond Lei Chi, and always treating you with courtesy, because I want to touch you with my companionship and affection for you, and let you know that my love for you has long surpassed everything, including desire.

Chu Ning, when I was Zhang Shaoyang before, I thought I lost in time, because you knew Lin Yuhao first, but until today, I didn't know that even though I had five years of companionship and ten years of dedication, I still lost, it turned out that I didn't lose in time, but lost to Lin Yuhao.

When I saw you coming towards me with the shyness and apologies of a new wife, I couldn't hide the sadness in my heart and eyes.

At that moment, there was a trace of hatred in my heart, and I wanted to grab you by the neck and question you, the man who had disappeared from your life for five years, actually gave himself to him without hesitation on the first night after your reunion.

And I, silently cry with you, laugh with you, grow up with you, hehe, it's been five years, but I can't get a serious look back from you, are you unwilling, or don't dare?

If you take a closer look at me, maybe listen carefully to my voice, it will not be difficult for you to recognize that I am the arrogant and arrogant Zhang Shaoyang in Wuyang back then, but you don't ......

Chu Ning, you are the most infatuated woman in the world, and the most ruthless woman in the world, how infatuated you are with him, how cruel you are to me.

Hehe! Am I to blame God's injustice, or am I to blame myself for being too confident? I should have listened to Mr. Jiang and the old patriarch, and confessed to you earlier, even if I was sentenced to death by you, it was better than dying in vain.

The moment I watched the lights in the small apartment go out, I actually felt that all thoughts were discouraged, it turned out that not all efforts would be rewarded accordingly; Not all true feelings can be touched; Not all love can be exchanged for the cherishment of the other party.

It's just that I can give everything for you, even my life, but I will never cry for you, because crying means that I am reluctant to you.

So, there you go! From now on, never again in my life.

Just as I was in the agony of a permanent loss of love, lying in my office all day drunk and dreaming of a room full of 'you', Lawrence told me that you had disappeared at the airport.

At that moment, my heart was unpredictable, in the past five years, I know your life circle and the people I come into contact with every day, if at this time you are abducted, and there are people who can also abduct you at the airport, there will be many in Italy, and there will be many in Rome, but there is no reason for others to kidnap you.

Only the Lan family, hehe! It seems that as Lin Yuhao said, the patriarch is already satisfied with you and wants you to become my wife, but I have promised to let you go, and there is no point in abducting you back to the Lan family.

Fang Weinan actually came to Rome, and this matter became tricky, Lin Yuhao said well, even if I want to keep you, he can't help me? But Fang Weinan, I have to think about it, the one who is in the business field and has mixed up at a young age; In the dark, he is a pivotal figure in the whole of Asia, and I don't want to clash with him head-on, and getting into trouble will not benefit the Lan family at all.

The most important thing now is to find out whether you were kidnapped by the Lan family.

As expected, you have been taken captive into the ancient castle, so I vented my dissatisfaction with the Lan family and the patriarch in anger.

After calming down, he went to Lin Yuhao and Fang Weinan to discuss countermeasures, but to no avail.

When I returned to the castle, I broke into the council chamber despite the crowd's obstruction.

The patriarch gave me two paths, and at that moment I hesitated, and I almost wanted to say to the patriarch that I would like to marry you, and then we would live in the castle for the rest of our lives.

But I know that it is just my wishful thinking, and the last thing I want in this life is the person I want to love, and all kinds of contradictions are intertwined with me, making me feel painful.

The moment you saw me, you actually laughed, laughed heartlessly, laughed so much that I was ashamed, laughed so much that I almost wanted to run away, and even felt helpless because of my initial selfishness.