At twelve o'clock in the evening, Qingyun Building, Cloud World Piano Room.

The lights are on.

The piano has been carried away, and valuable instruments such as violins and violas for practice have been packed and are ready to be carried.

The only thing that is still outside in the piano room is a [Shiya] brand folk guitar.

Only the piano room is still lit in the whole company.

The employees were all off work, and there was only a handsome guy with curly hair, leaning against the wall of the piano room, holding the poetic guitar, and practicing silently.

That's right, it's Ihiko, who is about to release an album.

The album is less than two weeks away.

In the past month, he has been going back and forth to major radio and television stations non-stop, playing songs, and participating in various variety shows, and Yiyan has not returned to the Cloud World Headquarters of Qingyun Building for a long time.

The last time he returned to the Cloud World was ten days ago, and the Cloud World Headquarters of the Qingyun Mansion at that time, although there were also signs of starting to pack up, it was far from being like it is now, and it was about to be cleared.

Counting on his fingers, Ihiko has been working in the cloud world for nine years.

From the age of 19 to the age of 28 this year, the most precious nine years of youth have been dedicated to the offices of Qingyun Building, and now that he is suddenly about to move, Yiyan can't help but feel the urge to cry.

In fact, he shouldn't have come to Cloud World today, because on the flight at eight o'clock tomorrow morning, he will fly to Shenhai with the team of Guoyu to promote the new record "Flower Heart", this time Cloud World has spent a lot of money on his "Flower Heart" album, and has invested a lot of hard advertisements in major cities, in order to harvest a fully flowering debut.

He had already been to Guangcheng and other places to do propaganda before. Flying to Shenhai, the most important city in the Yangtze River Delta region, early tomorrow morning, he will kick off a five-day propaganda strategy in East China.

Being arranged for such a trip, he will miss the day when the cloud world moves, and Ihiko regrets it. So tonight, after doing an interview on the evening program of Fuwan Music Channel, he deliberately drove to Cloud World to take a look, this place that left him too many memories can be regarded as a farewell to Qingyun Building.

When it comes to farewell, the heart is considered weak.

Especially seeing that the desk where he had sat for nine years had been cleaned up, Ihiko felt choked up these days because of his swollen throat due to overwork.

After walking around the empty office, Ihiko came to the piano room. Lean against the base of the wall. Picked up this Shiya guitar.

Gently plucking the strings and looking at the moon outside the window, Ihiko hummed a song with affection.

……

Let the weak know how to be cruel~

Face every cold in life fiercely~

The person who has loved reluctantly~

There is often no fate~

……

Who really takes whom~

Who is distressed for whom~

Who is the only one who is who~

A scarred naïve soul ~

I have long since denied that there is any other god~

……

Beautiful life ~kind people~

Heartache and sadness are too insignificant~

You and I meet who come and go~

It's better to look at each other and smile faintly~

……

Forget the worries ~ forget about it ~ How much do you know in your dreams~

A certain end of the earth ~ a certain island ~

A hug on a certain day, a certain year, a certain month~

Gently riverside grass ~

Quietly wait for the old world~

……

The song that Yi Yan sang was not a song from his new album "Flower Heart", but another song written by Du Xinghe for him - "Forget the Worries Grass".

When Du Xinghe chose songs for his new album "Flower Heart" before. Nine songs were set.

In order of arrangement. In order, it is. The first song "There Are Lovers in the World", which was sung by him and Fang Yajun, was placed in the first song. In order to achieve a blockbuster effect.

The second is the album's second title track "Sleepless Sleepless", and the third is the album's first title track "Flower Heart".

Basically, relying on these three songs, the average listener will be conquered to the obedient.

The later arrangement is softer, and the fourth song is a warm song "Home".

The fifth song "Only You", the sixth song "What kind of man do you want", the seventh song "Who Am I", the eighth song "Once at a Time", and the ninth song "There is a friend who is you".

The last one, vacant.

At that time, Du Xinghe gave Yiyan several choices, and finally Yiyan chose "Are You Okay Now" as the ending song of the album.

At that time, Yi Yan liked several choice songs provided by Du Xinghe very much, and auditioned them all, and at this time he talked about the guitar humming "Forget the Worry Grass", which was a choice provided to him by Du Xinghe at that time.

At this moment, at the moment when he is about to say goodbye to Qingyun Building, and it is also the moment to say goodbye to his youth, the first song that comes to Yiyan's mind is this warm folk sketch.

In Yiyan's opinion, Du Xinghe's song is too moving, although it is a pattern of folk sketches, but the warm and amorous folk style of this song is combined with the beautiful lyrics of life philosophy, so that after he tried to sing it a few times, it was deeply imprinted in his mind, this song always gave him a warm feeling, every time he was sentimental, he would miss it, hum a few words, to cheer himself up.

Aside from the song of this song, just looking at the words of this song, it can be said that it has written all the ups and downs of life, and the poetic outlook on life advocated by this advocate is also beneficial and inspiring for the cruel real life. The word "Forget the Worries Grass" can be said to have both amorous sadness and sentimental optimism.

"Let the weak know how to be cruel \ face every cold in life", such a beautiful and incisive two sentences, at the beginning of the sketch outlined the cruel and ruthless reality of the situation, but also revealed a little helplessness and sadness, and this little helplessness and sadness, from the very beginning, touched the seemingly strong but incomparably soft corner of our hearts, so that we can think about life quietly.

Therefore, I also think of "people who have been reluctantly loved", but they are often "destined to be inseparable", which is a cruel reality, and this is also a cruel sadness.

Scattered in the hot and cold world, they are busy running for each other's survival. Life is like a boat drifting in the sea, shaking, who would think of "who really takes who seriously", who can "feel sorry for whom", and who is still "the only one"?

Because of this, if we are still like this, we will always be "scarred" if we naively fantasize and admit that "there is any other god".

However, life is such a contradictory and amorous proposition, when life falls into the abyss of "complexity". The ensuing "natural and man-made disasters". The ensuing loss and change of life are also mercilessly hurting us, and in the face of more complex and painful blows, what can we do to resolve them? That is still the original kindness and simplicity of life. It's simple. Just like Du Xinghe said when he introduced the creative intention of this song: "Let people forget those things that are too painful." I remember that I was originally kind, and at such a complicated moment, I chose to believe in simplicity. It's so simple that it's just a piano, a guitar, and a smiling voice. ”

In the face of the most complex emotional moments, only simplicity and kindness can resolve a qiē grief and resolve the unbearable weight in life, so it can be achieved "heartache and sadness \ too insignificant", "you and I meet who come and go", only a simple "look at each other and smile lightly" is enough. It's as simple as "forgetting worries", as long as you "forget"; It's like "a small island at the end of the world", as long as you forget it, you just have to be free; is also like "green riverside grass", just "quietly wait for the sky to grow old".

The whole song, starting from the cruel and sad situation constructed by Du Xinghe at the beginning, and finally constructing a "poetic" optimistic situation of life - a life survival situation like "forgetting worries and grass", thus completing the process from simple to complex to simple, and also perfectly interpreting the meaning of the song itself to express the grief caused by the unpredictable qiē.

After nine years behind the scenes, Yiyan has never left the music circle, he himself is a graduate of the music department of Huaguang Art School, in the past few years in the cloud world, with Du Shan, he has learned a lot of things, and has precipitated a lot of insights on music.

At this time, he sang Du Xinghe's song "Forget the Worry Grass" with affection, and the more Yi Yan sang, the calmer his heart became, as if he had really become the Forget the Worry Grass that was getting stronger and stronger in the wind and rain.

When he first came into contact with Du Xinghe's song, Yiyan also specially asked what Forget Worry Grass was, and later he learned that Forget Worry Grass is the daylily that we often eat on weekdays.

However, the name of daylily is too cheesy, or its other name "Forget Worry Grass" is good, it also has a nickname called Forget Worry Grass, there is a poem: "Du Kang can dissipate boredom, Daylily Grass relieves Forget Worries", it is said that Forget Worry Grass.

According to the "Book of Songs", in ancient times, a woman planted daylilies in the north hall of her home because of her husband's expedition, so as to relieve her sorrows and forget her worries, and since then the world has called it "forget worries grass". Since then, the literati and writers have used the forgetting of worries to express their sorrows, transfer their emotions, dissipate the boredom for a while, and forget the worries of a moment.

Everyone has sorrows, forgetting sorrows and obtaining happiness is the pursuit of every ordinary man. How can we relieve our worries and stretch our brows, only to "repay the grass with forgetfulness, don't worry about children's affairs, and often smile with my old age" to persuade ourselves not to worry about unnecessary things, and let it forget what should be forgotten!

The flower language represented by the forget-me-your-worry grass is a hidden mood, and it is best to hide it so that you can't even find your subconscious. As well as representing the forgetfulness of love, the love of forgetting, letting go of his (her) letting go of sorrow.

It also refers specifically to great maternal love, which symbolizes motherly love.

The Book of Songs? Wei Feng? "Boxi" has a saying: "You have to be grass, and the back of the tree." ”

Zhu Xi said: "The grass makes people forget their worries; As for the back, the North Hall also. ”

The herb here is daylily, and it means to forget.

The meaning of this sentence is: Where to get a daylily and plant it in front of the north hall (so as to forget the sorrow)?

"The Book of Poetry" said: "The north hall is dark, you can plant Xuan", the north hall is the place where the mother lives, and later represents the mother.

Later, the house where my mother lived was also called Xuantang, and daylily became the name of my mother, and it also became the mother flower of China.

At this time, singing this song "Forget the Worry Grass", Ihiko, who has been working hard outside for many years, and Ihiko, who is finally about to come out, thinks of his family, and the softest place in his heart becomes warm.

Humming this song in a thick nasal voice makes it more sensational.

……

Let the weak know how to be cruel~

Face every cold in life fiercely~

The person who has loved reluctantly~

There is often no fate~

……

Who really takes whom~

Who is distressed for whom~

Who is the only one who is who~

A scarred naïve soul ~

I have long since denied that there is any other god~

……

Beautiful life ~kind people~

Heartache and sadness are too insignificant~

You and I meet who come and go~

It's better to look at each other and smile faintly~

……

Forget the worries ~ forget about it ~ How much do you know in your dreams~

A certain end of the earth ~ a certain island ~

A hug on a certain day, a certain year, a certain month~

Gently riverside grass ~

Quietly wait for the old world~

……

Life seems to always be a few propositions, but there are always so many things to say and unfinished. Inexhaustible, incomprehensible.

It's okay, it's all solved all at once, isn't it boring.

Singing "Forget the Worries Grass", Yiyan remembered his grandfather who had just left last year.

From kindergarten to junior high school, he lived at his grandfather's house. My grandfather often visited him in kindergarten, and it seemed that most of the time he was taking a nap, through the glass window with an iron bar. Inside, dim and quiet. Outside. Bright. Be quiet.

His grandfather was a good drinker all his life, and when he was a child, he always liked to dip his chopsticks in a little wine before eating. Tap it on his tongue. Look at him so spicy. Hearty laugh.

is older and lives far away, and his grandfather is a little more worried about him. Running back and forth between several of them. Sometimes he was confused, he got in the wrong car, and people called to find Yiyan according to the note in his pocket, and he was led home by Yiyan like a child. But when he got home, the stool was not yet hot, so he had to go back again, leaving him, saying that he was not used to it. Sometimes when he spoke, he cried like a child.

For Ihiko, his grandfather left very suddenly, went out alone, fell downstairs, and never got up. It was not even too late to test whether they were filial, and they were as quick tempered as ever.

Maybe he's in a hurry to rush to any of them, there is no one around him, I don't know if he was reluctant and unwilling at the last moment, he is a person who likes to be lively so much.

Singing "Forget the Worries Grass", thinking of his grandfather, Yiyan's heart was sour. His mother once said that the old people in their family were very cheap and could withstand the tortures of life, and his grandfather could live longer. Indeed, his grandfather has stumbled like this many times, and he has survived it. But that time, he couldn't come back. Perhaps, he can't stand his powerlessness in life.

His grandfather once said: To live, it's good to eat broad beans. In the most difficult days, my mother used to tell Ihiko.

At that time, Ihiko was still working hard in the cloud world helmed by Du Shan, and it was already the next day when the news came. The reason why it is not said to be bad news is because he did not feel its weight at the time.

I remember that the weather was fine that day, and his mother called the company and said that his grandfather was gone, gone. The news was blowing past Ihiko like a gust of wind, and his brain was still useful, but his heart was powerless.

It was the first time in his life that Ihiko participated in the farewell of his loved ones, he took time off, wrote eulogies, received relatives and friends, comforted his mother, contacted the banquet, and tried to do what he should and could do as appropriately and thoughtfully.

It's just that he didn't have a tear, not a drop. Even if I saw my mother lying on my grandfather in the farewell room crying hoarsely, even if I watched my grandfather's body on the other side of the glass be sent into that hot and cold world little by little. He still had no tears.

In the funeral home, there are people who are seriously grieving, and there are people who join in the fun, but Ihiko just feels in a trance, as if he is separated from them by a thick layer of glass.

When his grandmother died, he was a small child who didn't remember anything, he didn't remember any details, but he always remembered, the caravan was crowded, and his father hugged him and cried. He watched his dad cry. More than twenty years later, he put his arms around his mother and watched her cry.

When growing up, his grandmother saw Yiyan ignore his parents' arguments more than once and hide in a small room alone.

The eyes of the old man are poisonous.

Don't look at the current Yiyan is a good old man, but in his heart, there is a very indifferent field.

He often asks himself the same question: Is he really cruel?

This feeling was terrible for him. He was afraid of his own indifference and cruelty, he was afraid that he "had no feelings" or that he had no ability to express them.

For him once, doubt and deny himself. Far more lethal than arguing with others.

Therefore, the lyrics of "Let the weak of us know how to be cruel and face every cold in life" gave Yiyan great comfort, perhaps as an excuse for his cruelty. Such a cruel reality, expressed in such a calm form, but there is a kind of tenacity worn by droplets.

When I used to go to school, there was a student cadre and the head teacher in their class who was angry, and it was a very smart and capable girl. He is also the teacher's right-hand man. Later, another teacher pulled her over. Said: Xiaoli, the teacher only taught you for three years, without asking you for anything in return, and graduated. worked. Maybe once in a while I think of my teacher. That's all there is to it--the girl's tears flowed down her eyes when she heard this, much to the surprise of Ihiko, who was watching from the sidelines. She is usually a big boy, and the softest part of her heart was inexplicably touched at once.

Just like at this time, he was touched by the warm melody of "Forget the Worry Grass", and the tears already had a feeling of rolling in his eyes.

On this quiet night, in the empty piano room, Ihiko's long-held emotions finally found a way and flowed out unimpeded.

Beautiful melodies, even pop songs, still have a touching charm.

……

Forget the worries ~ forget about it ~ How much do you know in your dreams~

A certain end of the earth ~ a certain island ~

A hug on a certain day, a certain year, a certain month~

Gently riverside grass ~

Quietly wait for the old world~

……

"Li Li, are you okay now?"

Yi Yan gradually sketched the appearance of a pure student in his mind, this Li Li is the student cadre who once cried angrily with the teacher.

He is also a junior high school classmate of Ihiko.

I remember when I was in junior high school, Li Li lent him a collection of essays, which contained an article.

The article is about the teacher asking the student what is the opposite of love.

Of course, I hated it, many students replied.

Immediately, the teacher told a story: a pair of lovers who once fell in love but finally lost their chances, and reunited on the street after a few years. Look at the other party and say "hate you" fiercely. Or, the four eyes face each other expressionlessly passing by. Which one needs more passion? Love and hate both require too much passion, perseverance and strength, and they are two sides of the same coin. Therefore, the opposite of love is not hate, but indifference.

This story has left a deep impression on Ihiko.

A few days ago, in the middle of publicity, he read an article from the newspaper "We Love Each Other So Indifferently", which is about the relationship between mother and son who have been unable to find a suitable expression for a long time and almost missed. This made Ihiko feel deeply.

People seem to be like this, treating strangers and irrelevant people as much as possible to be decent and thoughtful, but the closest and most painful people are either unscrupulous or overwhelmed. It is the people we love the most who hurt us; And we hurt the people who love us the most.

To this day, Ihiko is still not very good at expressing his love for his family, although in the workplace, he is a master of relieving relationships, but when facing the person he loves the most, he always seems very wooden.

This is true for family members, and it is also true for loved ones. Otherwise, he would not have felt a piercing pain when he saw the words "never lose my love".

Every curly-haired man with a sunny and optimistic appearance has a gray heart in his heart, and this kind of death, like their hair, distorts their psychology.

Li Li is the martyrdom in Yiyan's heart.

This sunny girl like a little boy has been Ihiko's classmate since elementary school, and for a long time I was Ihiko's tablemate, until junior high school, and the two were classmates for nine years.

After graduating from junior high school, Yiyan was admitted to Huaguang Art School, and Li Li went to a regular high school like most children.

It was from then that the two began their best first love.

It's strange to say, they used to see each other every day, and they didn't feel any closer, and when they went to different schools separately, they began to miss each other and love each other.

The reason why Yiyan sang "You at the Same Table" at the celebration of Huayi School last year is so touching is not only because he has a voice that has been kissed by God, but more importantly, because he has such a tablemate in his heart that touches his heart.

The three years of studying at Huaguang Art School were three years of deep love between Yiyan and Li Li.

Later, Li Li was admitted to Chang'an University of Science and Technology and went to Chang'an to study at university.

After graduating, Ihiko, like most art school students, hopes to find a job in the entertainment industry.

It's a pity that the star journey is not smooth, no big record company is willing to sign him, and he was finally signed, and he was deceived by his senior, and his future became bleak.

Those days were arguably the darkest of Ihiko's.

Although she is in a different place, Li Li always cares about Yiyan. However, this kind of concern, in Ihiko's opinion, seemed to have a bit of sympathy, and he hated this feeling.

So, the other cold and cruel Ihiko in his heart appeared, and he hurt the person he loved the most. His most precious affection has also been lost forever. (To be continued......)