? Li Haonan picked up a cup of honey water on the table and drank two sips, the slightly cool water went down his throat all the way to his stomach, so that the heat in his heart disappeared a lot, and after a while, he waved his hand tiredly, "Okay, you guys go and get busy, I'll recuperate here!" Akiko, go home and bring Li Yi to me! ”

At this time, in addition to Gu Xiaobei, what he wanted to see most was his son, and when he saw his son, he could rest assured, that was the only living thought that Gu Xiaobei left for himself!

……

Gu Xiaobei stood in the yard, looking up at the wind blowing the leaves and making a whining sound, the sun was covered by the dense shade of the trees, she didn't feel a little warmth, remembered the break between herself and Li Haonan on the day of their final parting, remembered the snuggling and intimacy between Li Haonan and Anya in the photo, and remembered that her son was held in the arms of other 'women', and called other 'women' mothers......

Cold, so cold, Gu Xiaobei only felt cold, as if she was alone in the incomparably empty world, she could no longer see the end, she couldn't see the faces of familiar and dear people, standing here, she felt the cold rising from the soles of her feet, slowly numbing her whole nerves.

She tilted her face up, let the wind dry the tears on her face, and then slipped down and dried again! In the future, Li Haonan will never 'stand up' for her again, and in the future, he will never love himself wholeheartedly! In the future, I will never see my son's innocent and childish little face again!

Tears flowed down her cheeks to her neck, and she drilled into it like an ice edge, her heart was like a ruin, standing desolate in the obscure world without sunlight, "Li Haonan, you won't come to save me again!" Son, you've forgotten about your mother! Then I'll be left to fend for myself! ”

Wu Mo pushed the 'door' out, and when she saw Gu Xiaobei's appearance, she felt a shock in her heart, her eyes were slightly open, the corners of her mouth were silently pulled, and tears condensed on the long eyelashes, trembling and trembling, as if the 'dew' beads were rolling on the grass.

He stared at her face full of tears, with strong pity in his heart, seeing her muttering indifferently, he walked a few steps quickly, gently supporting Gu Xiaobei, feeling that her body was trembling slightly, and her eyes were a little scattered, almost half-hugging and half-hugging her into the house, unexpectedly, this time Gu Xiaobei did not reject him at all, nor did he struggle, but sat down at the table with him very softly.

"Xiaobei, eat something, you don't eat or drink like this, your body can't stand it......"

"I asked the maid to make your favorite dish, you can eat some, just a little of everything......"

"Gu Xiaobei, Gu Xiaobei, you can eat something, I beg you......"

Wumo kept persuading Gu Xiaobei, trying to let her eat something, but Gu Xiaobei didn't say a word, looking at her 'spirit' trance, a great uneasiness and remorse grabbed his heart, thinking that it must be the news of Li Haonan and Anya's marriage that brought her hurt and irritated, he really didn't expect this matter to touch her so much.

Under the bright lights of the restaurant, Gu Xiaobei's face was very pale, she seemed to be very tired, and stood up with her hands on the table, her thin body trembled slightly, as if her vitality was weak.

Wu Mo only felt a strong uneasiness in his heart, he felt that something was wrong, but he couldn't say it, so he could only stand up, stretched out a hand and gently supported Gu Xiaobei, Gu Xiaobei still didn't react, as if he didn't realize it at all, he walked straight to the bedroom, and when he got in, he closed the 'door' with a bang.

"Shinokita!" Wu Mo beside her gently pushed the 'door' and found that the 'door' had been locked inside.

Gu Xiaobei sat on the edge of the 'bed', looking at the sky outside, 'gloomy', 'chaotic', gray and 'cloudy', she couldn't see the edge, I don't know when such a cage-like day will come to an end, a few days ago she dreamed that Li Haonan would come to save her, but now, he is married, the husband and wife are loving, sweet and happy, how can he come to save her?

The sky gradually sank, she sat still, her hands and feet were numb, and faces appeared unusually clearly in her mind, flashing in front of her eyes like a slide...... In the end, the faces of Li Haonan and her son took turns in front of her eyes!

Where did love start to breed, maybe it has always existed, but all the original intentions and results have been deviated from by mistake, and her deliberate divorce and renunciation have become a complete cocooning of self-restraint, which has brought her completely unexpected despair and hurt.

She and Li Haonan, should it be said that the fate is too deep, or the fate is too shallow, since they love each other, why are there so many catastrophes!

The long-term resentment, depression, and gains and losses have made Gu Xiaobei breathless, and the news of Li Haonan and Anya's marriage became the last straw and crushed all her hope of living.

Gu Xiaobei sat motionless, at this moment, she clearly realized for the first time that she had nothing, lost Li Haonan, lost her son, lost He Zijun, she had no nostalgia for life, and she had no fear of death.

In fact, death is not terrible, if she can, she is willing to die at the hands of her abductors, if there is a choice, she would rather die on that exploding ship, disaster will come in an instant, there is no fear and panic, and she will never experience such heart-rending pain again.

As soon as the thought of death rose, it firmly controlled her.

She raised her left hand, and there was a very faint thin scar on her wrist, too light, as if it was a line that penetrated there, which was the trace left by her suicide under Li Haonan's initial coercion, and later when she lost her memory, Li Haonan found someone to do a scar removal surgery for her, and since then, her skin is intact, thinking that no one will pay attention to it anymore, and she has never cared about it in the two years she has been hypnotized, and Li Haonan has naturally forgotten all this!

But she remembered now that such a tiny scar, if you don't look closely, it is almost invisible, but it has become a line, as if it was born there, and it will never fade away.

Li Haonan, you have forgotten that I died for you once, then let me die for you again, from now on, we can never see each other!

Gu Xiaobei stood by the window, and today through the dense dense forest, he saw the moon rarely, and the clear light of the first quarter moon sprinkled all over the window lattice.

She has already had to give up her life, so whether it is herself or Li Haonan, as long as she can make others feel relaxed and no longer cause trouble to others, she will die as she deserves!

If he dies, will Li Haonan be sad?

Gu Xiaobei's tears flowed down again, she thought of her son, such an innocent little face, such a lovely child, Li Haonan let him have a new mother, when he grows up, will he still remember himself?

"Son, you still forgot about your mother! Son ......" Gu Xiaobei couldn't help but chatter, tears flowed down his 'lips', his voice was dry, in that distant place, his son is sleeping now!

A gust of wind blew, with the smell of trees, and the tall and dense trees outside the window made a sound, Gu Xiaobei used to be scared when she looked at the green and blackened dense woods, but now she was not afraid, she didn't know if she was hallucinating, she only felt that those leaves were trembling in the dark green, like butterflies flying one by one, waiting for her.

The corners of Gu Xiaobei's tearful mouth showed a slight smile, this forest is a minefield that has been arranged, and he will be crushed immediately, Li Haonan, you are satisfied with this kind of farewell!

……

Li Haonan, who was sleeping on the hospital bed, suddenly shivered, and suddenly woke up from his sleep, he dreamed of Gu Xiaobei again, dreamed of her face full of blood, the original warm smile was gone, and shouted his name with an angry cry!

He sat up in shock, feeling annoyed and uneasy for no reason, his ears seemed to be filled with Gu Xiaobei's voice, sometimes calling himself father softly, and sometimes scolding himself for being a bastard, such an unforgettable, always remembering it, letting him know that something has grown into a part of his body.

Li Hao went south to the 'bed' and walked to the window, the first quarter moon as thin as a cicada's wings, like Gu Xiaobei's crooked eyes when he laughed, how many times, he appeared in his dream of her appearance, but how many times, he woke up in exclamation, so scared, remembering his son's cold words to her on his birthday, such an unbearable insult, now that he thinks about it, he wants to punch himself hard, no wonder fate wants to punish him and make him look down on her again.

Li Haonan slowly closed his eyes, and the beautiful memories of being with Gu Xiaobei surfaced in the depths of his mind, Xiaobei! A feeling of distress and anxiety rushed from the top of his head to the bottom of his heart: "Gu Xiaobei, where are you?" "

Li Haonan let himself shout, Xiaobei-

Where the hell are you?

Shinokita –

Anya guarding the outside of the ward, Xian Zhiming and Ruan Wenzheng, hearing Li Haonan's heart-rending cry, their hearts were panicked, this is Li Haonan's voice, with no hoarseness and despair that has never been before, like a wild wolf who has lost his partner......

They guarded the 'door' for a while, and when they heard Li Haonan's heavy coughing sound coming from the ward again, several people looked solemn for a while, and hurriedly rushed into the ward, "Brother, what's wrong with you?" ”

"Brother Haonan, do you want to call a doctor?"

The window opened, Li Haonan heard them come in, turned around, his eyes were bloodshot, and the whole person looked haggard, only a pair of cold black eyes, reflecting a cold and depressed face, because of the violent cough, causing a cramp in the stomach to sweep over, he couldn't help frowning, and cold sweat oozed from his forehead, "I'm fine, no need to call a doctor." ”

Xian Zhiming and Ruan Wenzheng hurriedly stepped forward, each stretched out their hands on both sides to quickly support Li Haonan who almost fell, two rough men with rock-like hearts looked at Li Haonan like this, and at the same time their eyes were red, their originally high-spirited and omnipotent eldest brother was gone because of Gu Xiaobei, and his soul also followed, without the rebellious wildness of the past, and without the original self-confidence and wisdom!

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