Chapter 10 We Can't Go Back
? "Gu Xiaobei, you are really capable!" There was no approval in Li Haonan's tone, but a layer of terrible anger was hidden, Gu Xiaobei almost heard the sound of him grinding his teeth secretly, she was so frightened that she leaned into He Zijun's arms, He Zijun hurriedly reached out and hugged her.
She drilled into He Zijun's arms like this, which definitely made him angry more than killing the eighteenth generation of Li Haonan's ancestors, the eyes of the two men 'intersected' in the air, Li Haonan's face was cold, looking at He Zijun's eyes There was a chilling atmosphere, faintly conveying the hostility of killing, as if the gunpowder smoke in the corridor between Shicai and Gu Xiaobei was brought in, and it lingered in the sky again.
But when he saw Gu Xiaobei who was close to He Zijun's arms, he staggered back and smiled self-deprecatingly, his eyes seemed to be a extinguished fire, leaving only a dark ash.
Without saying a word, he turned around, walking quickly, and exhaled heavily until he was out of the room.
Gu Xiaobei didn't expect Li Haonan to let go of herself so easily, she was stunned, watching Li Haonan's back disappear at the 'door' in a daze, she felt that her body was hollowed out from the inside out, and there was a buzzing 'chaos' in her head, an unprecedented loss, which occupied almost all her senses.
He Zijun let go of Gu Xiaobei, walked over and closed the 'door', and when he came back, he saw Gu Xiaobei still sitting there quietly stunned, he stood beside her for a while, and then sat beside her without saying a word, and ignored the confusion in her eyes, and reached out to take her into his arms.
He used a lot of strength to hold Gu Xiaobei tightly in his arms, Gu Xiaobei felt that He Zijun's two arms were trembling faintly, he came to his senses a little, and hurriedly asked, "Brother Zijun, what's wrong with you?" Isn't there something uncomfortable? ”
He Zijun didn't answer, just hugged her tighter, Gu Xiaobei couldn't see his expression, he was a little worried, he tried his best to break free from his arms, and he was afraid that he would hurt him too hard and he was still weak in his illness, so he asked repeatedly, "Brother Zijun, how are you?" ”
"Xiaobei, don't move!" He Zijun's voice was obviously a little choked, and Gu Xiaobei was so frightened that he didn't dare to ask again, so he obediently let him hold it like this. But just for a while, Gu Xiaobei suddenly thought of her sister, He Zijun was now her brother-in-law, she shook her head and broke free from him, and then stood aside.
He Zijun's eyes were a little red, and there was still some wetness in the corners of his eyes, looking at Gu Xiaobei's eyes with a hidden sense of loss and understanding, like two bright lone stars hanging in the distant sky, "Xiaobei, why didn't you tell me earlier that you remembered the past, why didn't you come to me when you recovered your memory?" His voice was low and hoarse.
"Brother Zijun...... "She wanted to tell him that she had gone to find him, and after she tried everything to break free from Li Haonan's shackles, the first thing she did was to go to him, but she saw him living with his sister.
"Xiaobei, you finally remembered me, and finally got rid of Li Haonan, you can return to me this time!" He Zijun may really be poisoned by carbon monoxide, his head has become dull, he has forgotten about Gu Qingbei's existence at this time, and just looks at Gu Xiaobei fragile and expectantly.
"Impossible." Gu Xiaobei blurted out, and then, looking at He Zijun's surprised face, he smiled apologetically, his handsome face was still so familiar, the look in his eyes was the same as before, Gu Xiaobei was full of coldness, bit his 'lip', and said: "Brother Zijun, we really can't go back!" ”
Five years is not a long time, but the things that happened in the middle have blocked the love of the two little guesses, childhood sweethearts, when she just snuggled in He Zijun's arms, she felt in a trance that those cruel things seemed to have never happened, they are still the golden boy 'jade' and 'female' that everyone envies, they are still standing under the big locust tree in the town holding hands, saying that they will not be separated for the rest of their lives.
Everything that was once the most precious and beautiful in memory has now become the white 'locust' flower that will wither at the end of 'spring', and even the lingering fragrance is far away and can never be found.
"Xiaobei, are you blaming me, are you blaming me?" He Zijun's tone was lonely, Gu Xiaobei in front of him made him feel strange, she was no longer the little girl who nodded when he said anything, she was no longer the little lover who was foolish and foolish in his arms, he looked at her distractedly, and muttered: "You blame me for leaving you, you blame me for marrying your sister, so you started lying to me, even if you met me on the street, you lied to me that you were fine!" But you had already divorced Li Haonan at that time, and you had suffered so much......"
Gu Xiaobei looked at He Zijun, after her feelings calmed down, reason returned to her mind again, she felt that she needed to make some words clear now, she couldn't take advantage of He Zijun's guilt towards her, and she couldn't put all the suffering she had suffered on his head, it was unfair, she lowered her head and mustered up her courage, and said slowly but firmly: "Brother Zijun, it has nothing to do with you if I don't go to you, and it has nothing to do with my sister, I am very happy to know that you are married, after all, in this world, You are the people I value the most, you can live together, take care of each other, and ...... each other So I'm satisfied. As for the relationship between us, we have been separated for too long, and I am with you, and I can't find the sweet feeling of love at the beginning, I ...... I can't love you as much as I used to! ”
Her words made He Zijun stunned, as if he couldn't understand what she meant for a while, and as if he had long known that she would say this, Gu Qingbei's words swirled vigorously in his ears, "She loves Li Haonan now, and she loves Li Haonan now......" He felt that his heart was constantly poked by a needle, turning into a blurred mass of flesh and blood, and he looked at Gu Xiaobei intently, "Xiaobei, we can start again, I can give you whatever you want, my marriage with your sister has come to an end, whether you come over this time or not, I'm going to divorce her, I'm willing to give everything for you, let's get out of here......"
"What? You're going to divorce my sister? Gu Xiaobei seemed to have just reacted, and he was nervous in his heart, He Zijun swore so much to himself, and the premise was naturally to divorce his sister first.
"Yes, I want to divorce Gu Qingbei, even if you don't come back, we will divorce."
"Don't, Brother Zijun, don't divorce my sister!"
Gu Xiaobei's eyes were full of apologies and rejections, which made He Zijun's heart fall heavily, at this moment, he found out that this little girl turned out to be so cruel, he looked at Gu Xiaobei like this, exuding a cold chill and endless disappointment.
"I'm sorry." Gu Xiaobei also felt that she had interfered too widely, she had been married, and things between husband and wife were like drinking water, and she knew her warmth and coldness. ~