Ma Jiao came to talk to me, did she want to ......

When I think about this, my heart is very excited.

Ma Jiao must have seen Zhang Dan and others rushing towards me one after another, so she also wanted to end her first time, otherwise she wouldn't have talked to me so late.

I thought it was strange just now, under normal circumstances, Jin Mei'er and the others would have come to me a long time ago, but none of them came to me today.

It turned out that Ma Jiao wanted to "talk" to me.

"Ma Jiao, go!" I stood up and grabbed Ma Jiao's hand.

When I grabbed Ma Jiao's hand, I couldn't help but recall the innocent years in the past.

I was the same back then, holding Ma Jiao's hand and looking forward to a better future.

Ma Jiao was grabbed by my hand, and a trace of blush flashed on her face in an instant, but she quickly returned to normal: "Zhang Nan, we are not children again, is it appropriate for you to hold my hand like this?" ”

I smiled and said, "How is it not appropriate?" All we need to do is ......"

I really wanted to say that as long as we are lovers, we can ignore other people's gossip, but I didn't say this because I really don't want to say that now, and I don't know what kind of relationship I have with Ma Jiao now.

If Ma Jiao and I are in a relationship, we have rarely been together since three years ago.

If Ma Jiao and I are not a couple, we can't forget each other until now.

It's like the first time for every man, the first time for every woman, it's always so impressive, even if it's not the first time for the person you love now, but you still think about it occasionally, and even sigh with emotion.

"Just what?" Ma Jiao said with a smile.

But although she was talking with a smile, I could feel that there was a hint of bitterness in her smile, maybe it was because of our relationship!

My hand slid off Ma Jiao's hand, and I raised my head and took a deep breath.

Now I have a sense of guilt whether I am facing Ma Jiao or Xiaoyu.

Originally, we could have been together, but too many things happened later, first Zhang Dan's matter, then Jin Meier's matter, and finally Sister Rong's matter.

Especially Zhang Dan and Sister Rong, one gave birth to a son for me, and the other conceived a child for me.

None of them will marry me, but I always feel indebted to them, and to my children.

I can't avoid these things, and when I am with Zhang Dan, I was forced by Zhang Dan.

Being with Jin Meier is self-defeating.

Being with Sister Rong is to consolidate my position in the entire group.

Maybe this is what people say, people are in the rivers and lakes, and they can't help themselves!

"Alas! I didn't think we could talk about it yet, and we were stuck in a quagmire! Ma Jiao said with emotion.

Ma Jiao was right, our conversation did get bogged down.

I sighed and said, "Let's go to my room first!" ”

Ma Jiao nodded and followed me into the room.

After closing the door, Ma Jiao suddenly hugged me from behind and said softly, "Zhang Nan, have you missed me in the past few years?" Have you ever thought about me in your heart? ”

How could I not have thought about Ma Jiao, I have thought about it on many occasions.

For example, I was surrounded by the people of the Lei family, and I thought to myself, if I died, I don't know if Ma Jiao would shed tears for me.

For example, when I see a beautiful woman, I can't help but smile in my heart.

For example, I just finished running an errand with Zhang Dan or Jin Meier, but Ma Jiao suddenly came to mind in my mind.

Although I know that this is a different dream in the same bed, whether it is for Zhang Dan or others, it is not a good thing, but I really just thought of it.

I told myself not to think like that, but I couldn't help myself.

This may be the power of first love! Even if you are surrounded by people who love you deeply, even if you love the people around you deeply, you will miss her for no reason.

I nodded with difficulty.

The reason why it is difficult is because I am sorry for Zhang Dan and Ma Jiao for doing this, and this feeling of guilt in my heart makes me very painful sometimes.

"Zhang Nan, in fact, I miss you very much!" Ma Jiao said behind me.

"However, although I miss you, I can't accept your current state of life! You've had affairs with too many women and even had children with them! ”

Ma Jiao's understanding of love is different from others, she is a very pure person.

She feels that her love should be like a mandarin duck, there is only one in her life, and she only loves one in her life.

She couldn't accept a chaotic relationship between men and women, especially someone like me.

In fact, I used to think the same as Ma Jiao, I just wanted to be with the woman I loved the most and live an idle and wild crane-like life.

But that's not possible! People are in the rivers and lakes, and the path you take is not something you can decide.

However, Zhang Dan and Jin Meier look at this kind of thing very lightly, because there are too many such people around them.

Zhang Dan once drove a KTV with Shen Rui, which was full of all kinds of dirt, so it was too common for them to feel that the relationship between men and women was abnormal.

Jin Mei'er is used to seeing those sons and brothers in the big family, so she naturally thinks the same way.

Which of those sons and daughters of big families is not playing indiscriminately outside, there are not ten women around them, but there are eight, and some even play stars.

In Jin Meier's eyes, no matter how a man plays outside, as long as he can treat his wife well when he goes home, he is a good man.

"Zhang Nan, now that you have a child, I can't force you to do anything! And Zhang Dan has always been good to me! So I'm ready to ......"

Ma Jiao didn't say the next words, she swallowed.

I know what Ma Jiao means, she is embarrassed to say it.

"Zhang Nan, I'm going to ...... me Take me ...... Over to you! In the end, Ma Jiao still said what was in her heart.

I was surprised, since Ma Jiao just said that we couldn't be together, but why did she give her to me, it seems very contradictory!

Don't......

I suddenly thought of a possibility, Ma Jiao must want to leave her most precious things to me, just like the TV show.

I watched a TV series in which a girl was forced to marry a rich family as a concubine, and before she was about to get married, she gave her body to the person she loved the most.

Could it be that Ma Jiao also wants to learn like that?

But if Ma Jiao did this, she would not only be sorry for herself, but also for me.

I couldn't do that, it would go against my principles, and it would burden me with sin.

I shook my head and said very resolutely, "Ma Jiao, you can't do this!" You're only going to mess up our relationship by doing that! ”

If I get Ma Jiao, I will definitely feel guilty, just like I did to Zhang Dan.

I actually rejected Zhang Dan before, but after that incident, especially after Zhang Dan was pregnant with my child, to be honest, I didn't reject her at all, but accepted her, and even regarded her as one of the most important women in my heart.

Ma Jiao turned to me and said very firmly, "No! I made this decision! ”

With that, Ma Jiao stood on tiptoe and closed her eyes to kiss me.

Seeing Ma Jiao's youthful and beautiful appearance, I really wanted to have a chat with her in bed, but I knew I couldn't do that.

Doing so would not only plunge me into endless guilt, but it would also hurt her.

I stretched out my hand, blocked Ma Jiao's mouth, sighed and said, "Ma Jiao, forget it!" We're not ...... It's not ......."

I don't know what to say about the rest of the story.

Ma Jiao opened her eyes and looked at me, her eyes were full of tears: "Zhang Nan, why don't you want me?" Why are you? ”

I smiled bitterly: "If I want you, I will definitely hurt you!" I don't want to do that! ”

"Didn't you really want to get me?" Ma Jiao said word by word.

Ma Jiao's words reminded me of the days when we fell in love together.

At that time, I really wanted to get Ma Jiao, and I thought of a lot of ways to get Ma Jiao. It's a pity that Ma Jiao didn't want to give it to me at that time, she said that she would only give it to me if we got married.

Now that I think about it, it's really a thing!

I once wanted to get Ma Jiao, and I was so anxious.

But now I don't want to do it, because I don't want to hurt Ma Jiao anymore, I don't want her to be hurt.

Maybe it's because I still think about her and love her!

"Ma Jiao, I'm afraid of hurting you!" I looked at Ma Jiao and said.

"Then do you think I'm not pretty anymore? Or do you don't love me anymore? Ma Jiao asked me rhetorically.

I shook my head and said, "No! Your beauty is unforgettable! Any man will definitely be tempted when he sees you. ”

Immediately after, I said, "It's because I still like you that I don't want you!" Because I'm afraid I'll hurt you! ”

I was actually trying to say, I still love you, but I don't think it's the right word, so I used I still like you.

Ma Jiao shook her head and said, "I'm not afraid!" You're going to hurt me! ”

Ma Jiao looked at me very seriously, and I felt a little hairy when I saw it.

But I knew in my heart that even so, I couldn't move Ma Jiao.

I said, "If you're willing to marry me, we'll do it today!" ”

In fact, I know that Ma Jiao is definitely unwilling to marry me, because her requirements for love are pure! She would not allow a single blemish.

"If you can drop everything and immigrate to other countries with me, I will marry you!" Ma Jiao looked at me and said very seriously.

I smiled wryly, is this possible?

I can't let go of Zhang Dan, I can't let go of Sister Rong, and I can't let go of my children.

Because they need Father's love and need my care.

"Zhang Nan, why are you so stubborn!" Ma Jiao probably knew that it was impossible for me to let go of these, so she shook her head and said.

"Forget it, don't talk about that! Let's get down to business! Ma Jiao said as she began to undress.

I was stunned to see this.