Qin Xiaoyou's body trembled slightly with some excitement, she waited for a long time for this sentence, I was always perfunctory before, this is the first time I really said such a thing to her, in my heart this is a promise, maybe she will become my woman in this life. It's meant to be.

Since I separated from Ma Xiaoling, I feel that I am more and more resigned to my fate, I am different from Murong Tian, even more different from Old Man Murong, I have no quarrel with the world, I don't want to be the boss, I don't want to have everything, I just want to enjoy what belongs to me quietly, what doesn't belong to me, I don't want a penny.

Maybe it's because of my sanity and rationality that I have survived until now, those guys who are full of desires, and finally die in their own desires one after another, and the desires are endless. People are not satisfied, and the more they climb, the higher they climb. The higher the position, the higher the place is unbearable. Ma Xiaoling has experienced this cold word.

That's why she has become the lonely she is now, the higher she climbs, the stronger the rights she gets, but she is destined to lose some things, such as family affection or friendship and love.

Just like what Fan Qingyu said before, marrying a rich and handsome man is not a success, but marrying a man who looks tasteful and treats you well is considered a success.

My head began to think about things, and slowly fell asleep, and when I opened my eyes, the gentle sunlight hit my face, and I glanced at the watch on the table, it was already past one o'clock, and after falling asleep, it felt like a dream. Bai Du billion hey, Yan, brother free of charge without bullet window to watch the next chapter

To this day, I still can't tell if it was a dream or if it really happened. The door was pushed open, and Qin Xiaoyou, who walked in, was wearing a pair of black trousers and a white autumn coat. The hair on the top of the head was coiled up, and a big mushroom head was made, and it looked silly and stupid.

She didn't seem to notice that I was awake, crouching in front of the cabinet, and didn't know what I was looking for, but she laughed excitedly, raised the little apron in her hand, and ran out.

I could smell the delicious things in the kitchen through the door, my unproductive stomach began to scream, in Ma Xiaoling's cave, not to mention the lack of full sunshine, and I had to endure eating those rabbits and fish, eating those things every day, I really couldn't stand it.

Thinking that Qin Xiaoyou's cooking skills are very good, I have the urge to marry her as a wife, so that I can let her cook and eat for me every day in the future, but even if I don't marry her, she will give me good food, maybe it's for this reason that I can't always mention that energy, so that Qin Xiaoyou is the only one in my life.

I sat cross-legged on the bed, according to what Nangong Siqi once said, calm my mind, let myself relax completely, meditate to feel the real things in my heart, and think about what direction life should go.

It was pitch black in front of him, his head was empty, all his emotions seemed to be stranded, only the empty soul wailed in his body, and the taste of pain was deeply suppressed and buried in the depths of his soul.

It was as if I saw myself in the near future, playing with a woman's feelings and body, and that dirty and depraved grin, like an animal, looked like a beast.

The anger and hatred in my heart kept rising, how could I become such a guy, that is not the person I want to be, that is the person I hate the most.

I comforted myself in my heart and persuaded myself, trying to wake myself up, when I opened my eyes, I was covered in a layer of cold sweat, I don't remember what happened just now, I only remember that I was constantly fighting with the things in my heart, constantly fighting, as if I had an evil self deep inside.

I wiped the sweat from my forehead, which would be soaking wet, and I couldn't wear my pajamas, and I was covered in white sweat.

This makes me even more confused when I think about what happened before, is that I seeing myself in the future, or is it all my cranky imagination?

I got out of bed with a frown, went to the bathroom in my slippers, turned on the cold water and took a cold shower, my body gradually began to shiver with the cold rain, I changed my clothes after taking a shower, and I began to cough as soon as I put on my clothes.

It seems to be a cold, the weather is getting colder and colder, taking a bath with cold water, it is normal to have a cold, Qin Xiaoyou, this girl, is busy working in the kitchen, and now she is so stupid that she has no friends, and even stupid to the point that she will do whatever I ask her to do.

Love is really terrible, so terrible that I feel that I am very likely to become a beast, to become a beast is not as good as a thing, because human nature is evil, this seems to be something in human nature, greed, enjoyment, desire, these I also have, the so-called good people and bad people are actually only one-sided, speaking of which people have evil thoughts, but some people can restrain themselves, and some people can't restrain them.

When something swells desires to the extreme, people are no longer human, but like walking corpses, let those desires control the body and do some lawless things.

"I see."

I laughed, the dark thing in my heart was finally discovered by me, I used to think I was a good person, but I was wrong, I was just an ordinary person, I can generate ideas that others have, but I follow the rules more.

What has bothered me over the years is actually my original choice, if I didn't fight with Liu Erhu at the beginning, if I still honestly called homework, helped others write homework, and gave others protection money, then now I may have become what I looked like in the picture just now, maybe I will become worse, and if the things in my heart are not vented, I will accumulate deeper and deeper, and finally become a heinous person.

Bad people are all made by good people, in fact, when everyone becomes a bad person, they have experienced things that others can't experience.

I feel that my realm has instantly improved by several notches, and my IQ has suddenly broken through the limit, and that way of thinking has become expansive, not short-lived? Eye-catching.

Meditation is really a good thing, I suddenly understood the value and meaning of my life, and I also found the direction and recognized myself.

"What do you understand?"

Qin Xiaoyou's little head emerged from the kitchen and looked at me with a puzzled expression.

I looked back at God and said, "I understand why I'm unhappy, I'm so greedy, I feel that everything should belong to me, it's not like that, it's like there's a glass on the table, and this glass doesn't mean that if you hold it in my hand, it belongs to me, it's unique, I can't have it, I can only possess it for a short time, I can only possess it for a short time, and you can't have a person who dies, because it doesn't belong to you, and you don't belong to anyone, and people are independent individuals. In fact, everything comes from greed, even if love is the origin of all greed and desire, so love is not a holy thing, it is just a human desire, if you look too sacred, you will go crazy, such as Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai, if Liang Shanbo really loves Zhu Yingtai, you should let go, you should recognize yourself, find a woman who suits you, instead of being ambitious, and finally hurt yourself and Zhu Yingtai, so the concept we learned from childhood is problematic, those things are outdated, In this new thing, we must think about things with new ideas. ”

"Ah......h

Qin Xiaoyou looked confused, she smiled bitterly and said, "Are you okay, I really don't understand it, but you are right to say this, but some people will definitely refute your point of view after hearing it." ”

"That proves that those people are in the wrong direction, Qianqian left me until now, I have not been able to let go, I always feel wronged in my heart, I always feel uncomfortable, I don't understand why, but today I had an epiphany, I have always regarded Qianqian as my thing, and even said that I feel that I should have her, if she is gone, it is a betrayal, but I just stand in my own position to think about things, Qianqian gave me everything she could give, love, body, these have been given to me without reservation, she left sadly when she left, I should blame myself, I should recognize what I did, instead of blaming her, let her tolerate me, I have done wrong before, so I will be wrong again and again. ”

I realized today how much I did wrong, how much I missed, how much I lost, and how much I had.

"Okay, I also admit it, Qianqian is quite aggrieved, as a girl, or your girlfriend, it's true, but compared to me, she is too much worse, why can I accept that you have so many women, and she can't accept it?"

Qin Xiaoyou retorted very interestingly, I smiled and said: "Because you are very smart, you know that when two people are together, it is not who owns whom, but simply together, the so-called love, the highest realm is not to tolerate white-headed old together, but to be together, simply together, such as Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai, harming others and themselves, compared to Ximenqing and Pan Jinlian, I feel that Ximenqing is a righteous gentleman, and Liang Shanbo is a despicable villain." ”

"Poof"

Qin Xiaoyou chuckled, and she pouted and said, "What do you mean, I am Ximen Qing?" ”

"I'm a metaphor, I just want to change my way of thinking and thinking, I used to be too much like Liang Shanbo, I hurt Qianqian many times, Qianqian is also stupid, I have been thinking about me, and then she left me, indicating that she has had an epiphany, knowing that I am hopeless, and I am still blaming her, it's so ridiculous, it's too sad to live, it's a good thing for Qianqian to leave me, and it's also a good thing to leave me to find my own direction."

My heart was very sour, I didn't have time to say goodbye, let alone a chance to say sorry, she just left, what I owe her is this love and affection, I don't know if I can return it in this life.

"Okay, okay, it's all in the past, don't think about it, now let's think about how to solve the whispering thing, Sophie Fei called me just now and asked if you came back."