Chapter 525: Introspection (I)

Gu Zhiqiu's condition is getting better and better, and it can be heard from the phone that she has returned to the little Fenqing who was full of vitality before she got married.

In the past, when Zhang Cuilian saw that others were in a bad state, she would resign and leave her hometown, go to Yunnan, go to Tibet, travel everywhere and relax. When you come back, you'll be completely different and rededicated to your new life.

She has never believed that there is any important effect of traveling and relaxing, and what is the use of a person not trying to change it from the heart? Could it be that after breathing in the fresh air and looking at the blue sky, the whole person's soul is baptized?

But this time, Gu Zhiqiu ran away from home, and her condition was getting better and better, which gave her a lot of hints. Although the provincial city is where Gu Zhiqiu went to university, she does not have much contact with her classmates in this city. In this kind of city where you can't look up and see acquaintances, everything about her is brand new.

Maybe she still minds the public opinion brought about by the failed marriage, the various mustards with her parents, and the fact that her ambitions have not been developed.

Zhang Cuilian remembers reading a sentence in a book that says that travel is not only about scenery. It's a dialogue with the heart on the way to find the scenery.

Just when Zhang Cuilian was puzzled, she called her with her editor for many years. The two chatted on the phone for almost two hours, Dong Lihua hugged her little granddaughter and watched Zhang Cuilian go from excitement to disappointment, and finally slowly fell silent.

You don't have to think much to know that Zhang Cuilian must have encountered something. What it is, no one knows.

Zhang Cuilian, who put down the phone, looked tired, and Dong Lihua couldn't help but step forward to ask: "What's wrong?" Is it another reminder? ”

Zhang Cuilian shook her head and sighed: "It's my new book that has a bad response and sells too badly." ”

Dong Lihua breathed a sigh of relief and said disapprerovingly: "Oh, I thought it was a big deal." Maybe the reader's taste is different, hey, I don't understand. What did you editors say? ”

Zhang Cuilian raised her face and looked confused: "He said that my mentality in the past two years has not been good, and the author's state will be reflected in the work." The results of the work are enough to explain my current situation, and he asked me to find out the reason for myself. ”

Dong Lihua sneered: "He's really interesting, how good our family has been in the past two years." What's your problem? It's your fault that doesn't sell well, I think it's because the publishing house can't do it. Didn't you say that yours was published in that girl's magazine.,Why haven't I seen these two issues? ”

Zhang Cuilian looked up in amazement: "What did you say?" "First Love" magazine withdrew my two issues of serialization? ”

Dong Lihua was a little panicked for a while, and hurriedly handed Huahua to Zhang Cuilian, ran to the bookshelf to find the magazine that had just arrived two days ago, and handed the two issues of the magazine to Zhang Cuilian. Zhang Cuilian flipped through it, and sure enough, her article was forcibly taken off the shelves.

It seems that what the editor said is not wrong, no wonder he feels that he seems to have some things that he did not explain. And the editor thought that she had already known that she was forced off the shelves by the magazine, and she didn't say anything about taking care of her face.

"Mom, you take Flowey next door to play for a while. I want to be quiet! Zhang Cuilian looked decadent and seemed to be a little exhausted. Dong Lihua responded again and again, and went to the next door with Huahua in her arms. There is his sister-in-law over there, and the two of them are not bored and flustered when they talk and chat, and take care of the children.

Every time Zhang Cuilian starts to think about a problem, she is used to taking out a pencil and scribbling randomly. Now that the editor sees the problem, the work must reflect her usual thoughts.

The so-called author's idea is that the three views between the lines deviate from the reader's three views. Zhang Cuilian began to think about her work, the dialogue between the characters, the development of the story, and the final ending. At the same time, she began to recall her life, career, love and family affection in the past two years.

Thinking about it, Zhang Cuilian couldn't help but draw a vertical line on the white paper with a pencil. On the left is the date and event, and on the right is your attitude, practice and impact on the rest of your life.

This time, she is looking down on what she has done over the years from God's point of view, and she is looking at her own practices with the mentality of a bystander. In other words, to put oneself as an author, to observe one's own life from the perspective of a third party.

She admonished herself not to judge everyone around her by her likes and dislikes. Just like in a psychology book you've ever read, try to pull yourself out of it.

Almost three hours passed, and Zhang Cuilian sighed in cold sweat on her forehead. No wonder the ancients said that the day should be three provinces of my body. She is not a saint, and it is inevitable that she will do the wrong thing. But she was reborn, and she did many bad things about being a good daughter-in-law with the banner of being a good daughter-in-law.

Recalling the recent situation in the family, Xie Jun is still as normal as usual, like a wise old man, and never embarrass the younger generation. Dong Lihua is like a model worker, doing her best to take care of herself and her two children. Things in the family here are not all smooth sailing, and there is also a reason why the turmoil of the Xie family and Dong Lihua has not returned to her parents' house for many years.

Even if it is related to relatives in the family, it is related to her status as an adopted daughter who is not rightly named. But in the final analysis, it's because they have long regarded themselves as their own flesh and blood. And what about yourself? With the idea of repaying the favor, he is actually being a bloodsucking leech and constantly absorbing the feelings of the two old men.

The affairs of the in-laws' family are even worse, and they have had a big quarrel with Gu Zhicheng recently because of this. Relying on the fact that she is a pregnant woman, she is unreasonable and unreasonable. He was so angry that he just went out to hide for a few days, and he was still angry at home and complained everywhere.

If it's written in it, I must be that ignorant daughter-in-law. And now I still have a grudge in my heart, An Rong doesn't like her children, and she hates the words she said to Kangkang.

Zhang Cuilian was lying on the sofa and skimmed the bookshelf out of the corner of her eye, on which there was a stack of psychological books. I bought it to enrich myself back then, and I thought that reading more cases would make the characters in my pen fuller. Later, when I was pregnant, I went to buy some books on adolescent psychology. It was also after reading those books that I paid more attention to Kangkang's emotions towards the second child.

Suddenly, Zhang Cuilian sat up suddenly, her heart pounding. "I only thought about myself, I thought about Kangkang, why never thought about others?"

Others? Of course, it is the mother-in-law An Rong, whose temperament has changed drastically and makes people more and more disgusted.

Zhang Cuilian closed her eyes and slowly recalled the past, vividly remembering the bits and pieces.

"No wonder! No wonder! Zhang Cuilian was crazy, and hurriedly got up and walked in front of the computer. Turn on the computer and listen to the familiar startup sound. Find your own document and read between the lines from beginning to end.

Storyline, character contradictions, plot description, image building. Sure enough, in the psychology of many characters, the handling is unsatisfactory. Especially the idea of the protagonist, many places are disappointing. There is a lot of dissatisfaction with the supporting characters, and the emotional bias is inappropriate.

This made Zhang Cuilian regret again and again, no wonder they all said that the work is the character. I am still too confident and greedy, and I am not honest enough and tolerant enough to the people around me.

Think about your mother-in-law and sister-in-law, sometimes you are too strong. dragged mud and water with the Zhang family, but for some reason he was ruthless to his mother-in-law.

Maybe she still remembers that she disliked her background and looked down on her upbringing. ruthlessly snatched away her daughter Qiaoqiao and raised her personally, so that Qiaoqiao became closer to her.

hated her for being an executioner in her own marriage, hated her for finally forcing herself to jump into the river. After being reborn, she resented her vampire-like parents, and she almost ruined her brother if she didn't succeed. It has never been shown that she hates this mother-in-law even more. But in fact, he has unconsciously chosen to avoid her.

I'd rather live with the army without a job, and I'd rather let my son go to Yangzhuang like a left-behind child. Isn't it all because of instinctive avoidance of the mother-in-law who scared her?

An Rong has always said that he broke up his daughter's marriage, and no one in the family should take this matter seriously. But now thinking about what she did at that time, Zhang Cuilian couldn't help but feel a chill.

The person who the sister-in-law married in the previous life was outstanding in appearance, ability, character, and family affairs. is the object of admiration of her daughter Qiaoqiao from childhood to adulthood, and she is obedient to Gu Zhiqiu.

I was envious and jealous in my heart, but I knew that my ability was not up to the level of others at all. After being reborn, I saw my sister-in-law, thinking about her ability, thinking about her person, and thinking about the person she would marry in the future. Thinking of her daughter's intimacy with her, she wanted to have a good relationship with this little girl. I also want to be like her, to be an elegant, intellectual, decisive but not strong woman.

The sister-in-law fell in love, and many things happened during this period, and she wrote to her sister-in-law. At that time, Gu Zhicheng was in tune, and she was bent on how to get Gu Zhicheng "out of the sea of suffering" and didn't take it seriously. Thinking in his heart, Gu Zhiqiu would not worry about marriage anyway. Find a person who can live just as well.

But she forgot that the divorce of her in-laws in this life had a great impact on her sister-in-law. Especially when the mother-in-law reaches middle age, her marriage will change, and her psychology will definitely be distorted and irritable.

The two of them didn't fulfill their responsibilities as brothers and sisters-in-law, so they just let them go. Anyway, being a mother won't hurt her daughter, anyway, Gu Zhiqiu's natural noble lady's life!

When she found out that Li Mingyu was not a good match, she also tried. She knew that the two of them were coming back to get married, and Gu Zhiqiu was happy and her mother-in-law was also happy. Things were about to settle, even if it was very different from what she had imagined. She just reminded Gu Zhiqiu to put her property alone.

But An Rong and Gu Zhiqiu thought of the divorce between An Rong and Gu Dehai. Because of the house, because of the money, because of the family relationship that has been bad for many years.

At the beginning, the husband and wife had two conflicts, and Zhang Cuilian was a witness. She did not play a good guiding role, but made Gu Zhiqiu deepen his idea of divorce.

In the constant friction with her mother-in-law, she also constantly attributed the tragedy of this family to this poor mother. thinks that she is living in the fantasy of the life of a capitalist lady, and thinks that she is greedy for vanity and only cares about her own ideas. thinks that she is the driving force behind Gu Zhiqiu's failed marriage, and thinks that she is really not generous enough and not tolerant enough.

But I forgot that she Zhang Cuilian is also a mother. How can a mother sincerely hope that her child will have a bad life? Even if there are different views, even if every fierce quarrel, it is his mother-in-law An Rong who bows his head in the end!

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