Chapter 192: Mom is so pitiful
The third uncle wanted to say something, but when he saw my appearance, he vaguely guessed something, nodded and helped me find wine.
I sat at the door, looking at the night sky in the countryside, when I was a child, Lao Jiang always sat in the yard with me, he said that only in the countryside, can you see such a pure starry sky, he said that the sky in the city has long been polluted.
In fact, it is not the sky that is polluted, but the human heart.
If he hadn't gone to Cannes, he wouldn't have met Bi Yao, and he wouldn't have had those things later, right?
Does he regret it?
He must have known where she was, he must have missed her very much, he wanted to scratch his lungs, but he knew that she had forgotten him.
As long as she's good, no matter which man she's with, it's actually the same.
I'm sorry, but all my love and tenderness for you can only be hoped for from now on.
I'm sorry, but from now on, I can only look at your face in the vast sea of people.
I don't dare to think about it anymore, what happened between them back then, was it Gui Yaoming who separated them, or was it someone else?
In the past 20 years, has she really forgotten our father and daughter?
Lao Jiang, Lao Jiang......
I've finally found the woman you've been thinking about, but you tell me, why isn't everything the way I imagined?
Why would she be my mom?
Lao Jiang, Lao Jiang......
With tears in my eyes, I looked at the picture on the cold tombstone, my dear father, how can I tell you, how can I tell you?
When you lie in this cold underground, when you never marry for him, even if you are unjustly imprisoned and die tragically, the woman you love with your whole life, where is she and what is she doing?
She's next to another man, she's next to a pair of children, but she's not with us.
Lao Jiang, you're lonely, aren't you?
I slowly moved over and hugged the tombstone with open arms, tears rolling down it, turning cold in an instant.
After crying for a while, I suddenly thought of something, hurriedly let go of my hand, raised my sleeve and carefully wiped the tombstone.
Lao Jiang was the most relieved person when he was alive, and if he sensed my tears, he would definitely be sad.
I don't want him to be upset, I don't want him to be sad for me.
Rubbing and crying, the book always says that love is not long, when I asked you what this sentence meant, how did you explain it?
Lao Jiang, you said that if the feelings are too pure and too deep, God will be jealous and will withdraw this feeling.
You also warned me not to lose yourself for love, no matter what, loving yourself is the most important thing.
But Lao Jiang, are you and her in love?
No, you are very pure to her, but what about her to you, she has long forgotten you.
Now that you're gone, she remembers, is there any point?
As the wine went up, I leaned against the tombstone in a daze and fell into a deep sleep.
It was very cold, as if something had sucked the heat out of my body.
I don't know how long it took, but something warm wrapped me up, something warm stuck to my forehead.
I opened my eyes in the haze, Gai Nie's face was blurry and clear, I wrapped my arms around his neck, and cried aggrieved, vaguely feeling like a dream, and like reality.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to shut it down, I just ...... I just don't know how to deal with it. Gainie, I'm ......"
He wrapped his arms around me tightly and pressed against my forehead: "It's me who should say I'm sorry, I should have told you earlier." I always thought that if you knew one day late, it would be better. Baby, I'm sorry, I'm sorry ......"
I cried more and more: "I can't accept it, Lao Jiang is so pitiful...... He shouldn't, shouldn't lie here alone when the heyday was peaceful. ”
Gagne didn't say anything, just wrapped my coat around me and let me cry as long as I could.
When I came out of the cemetery, the sky was already slightly bright, and I turned my head to look at the vast cemetery, and my heart was full of sorrow.
Shang Ruyu and Mrs. Zheng stood at the door, I was really surprised when I saw them, and then I saw the small bottle cap in their arms, I suddenly came to my senses: I was too careless, how could I run away without saying a word, the small bottle cap could not find my mother, how anxious I should be.
Gai Nie walked over with me, Shang Ruyu handed me the vial cap, without the slightest sense of reproach, but looked at me distressedly: "You kid, you can tell me if you have been wronged, you can't do this in the future, I feel distressed to death." ”
I held the vial cap and pressed my face against him: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, never again." ”
Mrs. Zheng also cried: "I'm sorry, it's me and your grandfather who should say I'm sorry, we didn't take good care of you." ”
She hugged me gently: "Girl, girl, grandma really misses you." I'm thinking about you all the time, don't be angry, okay? ”
Should I be angry, who should I be angry about, Bi Yao or Gui Yaoming, or Gu Yingjie?
It seems that no one should blame, because some factors are not controllable by man, I just feel sorry for Lao Jiang, he didn't have time to take a look.
After eating something, I went upstairs to sleep with a small bottle cap, and I could see that someone had cleaned it, and there were fresh lilies on the windowsill of my bedroom.
Gai Nie pushed the door in and said, "I have discussed with them, the driver will take them back to Cannes early tomorrow morning, and we will stay with Dad and Grandpa." ”
I opened my eyes to look at him, and he also looked at me, with a smile at the corners of his eyes and eyebrows: "Why do you look at me like this?" ”
In fact, when I was eating just now, Shang Ruyu asked me when I planned to go back, and I was not easy to speak at that time, in fact, what I wanted to say was that I didn't want to go back for the time being, and I wanted to stay with Lao Jiang.
Unexpectedly, unexpectedly, Gai Nie knew everything.
I reached out to him, and he threw off his shoes and climbed up, careful not to make the sleeping vial cap.
I slipped into his arms, sniffed at the reassuring scent, and asked slowly, "Over there...... It's okay if you're not there? ”
He hugged me tightly: "How can the affairs of Cannes be as important as the wife and children?" ”
"I'm sorry, this time I was too willful, never again."
He let go of me a little and stared at me, "This time I was negligent and didn't take your feelings into account. In fact, when the Zheng family first looked for you, I should have told you. ”
"You knew that then?"
"Actually, I only knew about you and Biyao at first...... I'm sorry, I can't call Sister Biyao anymore, I should call my mother. I know that my grandmother has come to me in private in the future, and she has analyzed the pros and cons for me, and we both think that you shouldn't have anything to do with Akabanemon, so we have been hiding it. When Gong Yinshu appeared, we were all very happy, since she loved vanity, then she would bear it instead. ”
"Then how did you know about my relationship with the Zheng family?"
"I didn't know about it, I didn't know until the old lady of the Zheng family came to me. Isn't this what happened to the Red Feather Gate later, I will take care of it, and the Zheng family will protect your safety for the time being, as long as you are not involved in the bloody storm of the Red Feather Gate, as long as you are a good child, I am willing to do anything. Wife, I know you can't accept it for a while...... If you feel unwilling to admit your mother-daughter relationship with her, even if you don't want to admit your relationship with the Zheng family, I will follow you, as long as you are happy, as long as you don't leave me. ”
I sighed: "Blood relationship, can you not admit it if you don't recognize it?" I've been looking for her for so many years, and my grandmother has been secretive, and I can't find a photo of her at home, and I finally found one, but it's so yellow and blurry that I can't recognize it. And Lao Jiang, he must know where she is, but he didn't go to her or tell me about her existence, and they kept saying that my mother died of illness shortly after giving birth to me. For more than 20 years, I have become accustomed to being without a mother, and now a fresh person suddenly jumps out, I ...... If it were possible, I hope nothing has changed, and in my life, it is enough to have you, grandma, and a vial cap...... But I know it's all extravagant hope. ”
"You're right, I guess Lao Jiang has always known about Biyao's existence, but for various reasons, he can't recognize her, and he can't tell you about her existence. He can't break the balance, maybe it's deep love. ”
I closed my eyes and tried not to think about whether Lao Jiang saw her every time I looked at me when I was very young and not sensible.
But in fact, we don't look like each other at all, I'm more like Lao Jiang.
Did he stop talking when I asked him if he wanted his mother, trying to tell me where his mother was, and finally being silent?
He knew that at that time, the appearance of prosperity and peace was actually in dire straits.
He gave me a home, and another home would be broken; He gave me a mother, and I had to lose two children; He gave himself a favorite woman, and another man lost the woman he loved the most......
Lao Jiang, Lao Jiang, why are you so stupid?
The next day, Shang Ruyu and Mrs. Zheng went back, and before leaving, they reluctantly held the small bottle cap and did not let go, Mrs. Zheng looked at me deeply, as if they were going to say goodbye forever, and finally hugged me and called my name vigorously.
I didn't want to cry, but I couldn't hold back.
They're right, no one is wrong, God has treated me very fairly, but in the end I still have my mother, and so many people are by my side.
Besides, she's been looking for me, hasn't she?
She didn't give up on me, did she?
Just like Lao Jiang said a long, long time ago: "Yiyi, your mother has always been by your side, and you are not alone." ”
At that time, I didn't understand what he meant, but now I finally understand.
He knows that our mother and daughter will always meet one day across thousands of rivers and mountains.
Gai Nie said that Bi Yao's mental condition is not very good now, so she herself does not know the relationship with me, and everyone has discussed that we will tell her when she is better.
In addition, in order to prevent Dao Ye and Wuka from taking advantage of her, it must be like this.
That's fine, give me a buffer period, or I really don't know how to face her.
After a few days of carefree days in the countryside, when they couldn't think about it, Xiao Liang and Niu Niu came over accompanied by Xiao Qi.
Gai Nie and I went to see Lao Jiang with a small bottle cap, picked some wild flowers and came back, and before I got home, I saw two figures running over.
Niuniu hugged me and cried, scaring the vial cap.
She also realized that she was a little abrupt, and immediately let go of me, wiped a handful of tears, and looked at me pitifully: "Aunt Xiaojiang...... You ......"
Behind him, Xiao Liang corrected with red eyes: "Bah, what aunt, that's our sister, our own sister." ”
Niuniu sneered: "Sister, you are really my sister, you are really my sister?" I said, the first time I saw you, I was inexplicably kind, I especially hoped that you were my sister, but I didn't expect it to be. Sister, sister......"
I was at a loss, and although I liked these two children from the first time we met, I was really not used to them becoming my younger siblings.
It's really awkward to change from an aunt to a sister.
Gai Nie coaxed the vial cap: "Okay, okay, it's scared to the child, go home first, and then talk about it when you go home." ”
Niuniu took my arm and walked forward: "Sister, the two of us actually look quite alike, why didn't I find out." Hey, I wish I had known that you were my sister, and I was so happy. ”
She changed roles quickly, and she called one sister at a time, not caring whether I reacted or not, and said: "If it weren't for my grandfather coming to us, I wouldn't believe that you were really my sister." I used to think that God was not good to me at all, but now I find that it is so good to me that it has made you my sister. No, no, when I get back to Cannes, I'm going to the temple to burn incense. ”
Xiao Liang, who was still emotionally stable in the back, scoffed: "Why didn't you say that you were going to become a nun?" ”
"Bah, can you speak? If I become a nun, who will accompany my sister and the bottle cap? By you, what will you? ”
Xiao Liang waved his hand to admit defeat: "Okay, okay, it's just your sister." Don't you forget what your grandfather said? ”
I looked at them: "What did he say?" ”
Xiaoliang smiled: "Grandpa said that if we can persuade you to go back, we will go and discuss with our grandparents, let us immigrate over, and come to Cannes to be with your sister." And my mother's, we can be together as a family in the future. ”
I looked at Gagne, and he had a "I don't know anything, I can swear to God" expression.
Zheng Huairen is really stubborn, this temperament is really a bit like me.
When I got home, Niuniu took out the things they brought, including my favorite snacks and milk powder diapers with small bottle caps, as well as the Transformers and cars assembled by Xiaoliang and Xiaoqi, and finally the little girl took a pair of valuable cuffs and handed them to Gai Nie, she was still a little blushing, and coughed: "That...... Brother-in-law, this is a gift from me and Xiaoliang, don't dislike it. ”
Gai Nie was stunned and took it: "Why did you suddenly give me a gift?" ”
Niuniu smiled like a flower: "Because we didn't have a relationship before, although we called you uncle, but we always felt intimate." It's different now, you're our brother-in-law's brother-in-law, who don't send you. You must be good to my sister in the future, and you are not allowed to bully her. ”
Gai Nie looked at me and laughed, "Do I dare not be nice to her?" ”
Xiao Qi, who was silent on the side, suddenly tasted: "It's been a long time, you are all related by blood, just me, an outsider, it's not interesting." ”
Xiao Liang smiled squeezed, and clicked on the mandarin duck score: "It's not simple, you married Niuniu, won't it have anything to do with us?" ”
Niuniu blushed and kicked Xiao Liang coquettishly: "What nonsense are you talking about? ”
Xiao Qi looked at me thoughtfully: "Hey, you love each other, why don't I become a monk." ”
Everyone laughed, Niuniu came over again, and looked at me fixedly: "Sister, it's really like a different world, like a dream." ”
She leaned on me like a child: "It's good, it's good, I'm so satisfied." ”
I was really happy in those days, every morning Xiao Qi and Xiao Liang followed Gai Nie out to pick up mushrooms and fish, we cooked together at noon, made some biscuits and cakes in the afternoon and sent them to the third uncle's house, in the afternoon they either went out to eat or made their own, and watched TV together at night, how comfortable it was to be.
On the day that Ling Huaiyi was executed, we saw a report on the TV news that the dignified eldest son of the Akabane Gate, a character who called for wind and rain, had fallen to such a point that it could not help but make people sigh.
Fortunately, he and Niuniu and Xiaoliang don't have a deep relationship, and the two children don't have much affection for this "uncle", so they don't react too much.
It's just that Xiao Liang suddenly pointed to a figure in the crowd of onlookers: "Isn't that grandpa?" ”
I thought he was talking about Zheng Huairen, but the next second I reacted, he should be talking about the knife master.
It's a pity that the camera turned too fast, and when we looked up, it was already another news.
Xiao Liang is particularly determined: "It's him, I'm 100% sure." ”
Gai Nie pondered for a while and thought it was possible: "Ling Huaiyi is his son, and it makes sense for him to appear there. ”
"Doesn't he know that this is a national live broadcast, and Uka may be able to see it?"
I thought that Ganie would offer to go back and forth to Cannes, but who knew that he would make a few phone calls and explain something, and then continue to stay in the country with us as if nothing had happened.
But I knew he had something on his mind, and when I woke up in the middle of the night and saw him smoking on the balcony, I knew he wasn't at ease.
He was worried that Wuka would use Biyao to threaten the sword master......
Maybe there is a more tragic ending than that, he knows that I am hard-mouthed and soft-hearted, he doesn't want me to regret it in the future, and he has helped me think of everything I can't think of.
A few days later, Gong Yinshu's case will be tried, and I guess that she should be sentenced to ten or fifteen years, or you should be longer, who knows that after the first trial, she was only sentenced to eight years.
The things I had been worried about did not come about, she did not show a mental illness certificate to avoid the criminal law, nor did she indicate that she wanted to file an appeal, let alone cry out for injustice, and when she finally made a statement, she pleaded guilty and said that she would definitely reform well.
As a result of the trial, she was held in a remote women's prison, far away from us, which is said to be strictly managed.
Gai Nie was cooking in the kitchen, and I walked in and hugged him from behind: "Let's go back." ”
He shook and turned his head to look at me, "Are you sure you can accept it?" ”
I laughed, "Don't you want me to have regrets?" Lao Jiang must also hope that our mother and daughter will recognize each other. ”
"Why did you suddenly get your senses?"
I looked up at him: "Last night I dreamed of Lao Jiang, and he asked me if I had found my mother. He said that my mother had a hard life, and he wanted me to protect her well, and asked me to live in harmony with my younger brothers and sisters, and to honor my grandmother and grandparents. You say, is he stupid? People don't remember him for so many years, he just makes himself amorous. ”
Gai Nie and I touched my forehead: "Wife, we have to believe that our parents really loved each other back then." Mom lost that part of her memory and forgot Dad. ”
My heart was sour: "You shouted smoothly, as if you were her own son." ”
He glanced at the door, making sure it was closed, and he suddenly turned me around and pushed me against the fridge, his lips pressed down.
The next day we set off back to Cannes, and Niuniu and Xiaoliang couldn't wait to follow Zheng Huairen and his wife to see Biyao and asked me if I wanted to go.
I instinctively shook my head: "No, you go." ”
The two children nodded sensibly, and Niuniu hugged me: "Sister, if you don't want to go, don't go." I know that my mother owes you all these years, and you can't accept it. However, she is not in a good state of mind now, and I don't know your identity for the time being, and we won't tell her. ”
Xiao Liang looked at Gai Nie: "Brother-in-law, are you going?" ”
Gai Nie looked at me: "You go first, I have something to do with Lei Ling." Take good care of your mom. ”
The two children nodded heavily: "Don't worry, it will be." ”
After they left, Gai Nie looked at me: "I have already called Li Muzi, and she will come over to accompany you in a while." I have to go to Lei Ling's side, the second brother and the third brother have been waiting for me for a long time. ”
I nodded, and he lowered his head and kissed me on the forehead: "Don't think too much, just let it be." In short, no matter what you decide, I support you. ”
I kind of wanted to laugh: "You have called people a "mother", what decision do I make, didn't you have been bought by her a long time ago?" ”
He thought for a moment and laughed: "She's my mother-in-law, can I be nice to her if I don't treat her well?" ”
When Niuniu and Xiaoliang came back in the evening, both of them had red and swollen eyes, and Zheng Huairen also sighed.
I panicked and asked them what had happened, could it be that she was not good?
Niuniu hugged me and cried: "Sister, mom is so pitiful." She kept holding a photo and asked us to help her find her long-lost daughter. She finally remembered the man......"
I raised my voice all at once: "What man? ”
When Niuniu lay the photo in her white palm that I was so familiar that I could trace it with my eyes closed, I suddenly covered my mouth and cried.
I also know that it turned into ashes, it is a photo of Lao Jiang.
Xiaoliang looked at me: "Sister, this is your father, you look alike." ”
I nodded: "Yes, I really look like Lao Jiang." By the way, where did this picture come from? ”
Xiao Liang sighed: "Mom has been wearing a necklace, and it is hidden in that pendant." You say, is it a token of love given to her by your father? ”
Niuniu echoed: "Sister, don't blame your mother, okay?" She never actually forgot your dad, she just can't remember. She said...... She said that she had only loved that man in her life, and said that she always heard him calling her in her dreams...... Sister, can you forgive your mother, your mother is so pitiful. ”
Lao Jiang Lao Jiang, it turns out that she hasn't forgotten you, she really loves you.
That night I cried in Gai Nie's arms, he patted me and coaxed me to let me, and finally asked me: "The heart villa is renovated, I want to take my mother over to live with us, as well as Niuniu and Xiaoliang, what do you think?" ”
"Will the doctor agree?"
"I've already asked, as long as I go back to check regularly, it's fine."
I sobbed, "Whatever you say, I'll listen to you." ”
His hand slid to my waist and to my ear: "Listen to me, huh?" Then I love you, okay? ”
"Okay." I offered to kiss me.
The next day, I took Niu Niu and them to the new villa to clean up, Gai Nie arranged it very thoughtfully, everyone's room was designed according to their personality and preferences, and everyone was very satisfied.
Since he became a brother-in-law, Niu Niu Xiaoliang has become more satisfied with him, and he has followed his ass like a fart, and everyone has said good things before and after.
"Sister, I found out that my brother-in-law is really a male god, and only you are worthy of him."
Hearing Niuniu say this, Xiao Liang rolled his eyes: "Nonsense, our sister is worthy of any man." ”
Niuniu was so happy that her temper got better: "I'm looking forward to the scene where our family lives together now, and my mother must be happy to death." Tomorrow we will pick her up and surprise her. ”
Xiao Liang rolled his eyes again: "As long as it's not frightening." ”
Niu Niu kicked over: "Bah, crow's mouth." ”
I didn't expect Xiao Liang to say a prophecy, and I didn't expect Uka to sneak into Bi Yao's hospital room unknowingly, and planted time bombs under the bed, in the bathroom, and on the balcony.
The most unexpected thing is that Dao Ye will swagger in the ward.
When I went in with the thermos box, I saw him sitting on the edge of the bed holding Bi Yao's hand, and Bi Yao was lying on the bed with his eyes closed, not knowing whether he was asleep or what happened to him.
The thermos box fell to the ground, and I was so frightened that I turned around and was about to run, when a cold voice came from behind me: "Xiao Jiang, don't you want your biological mother?" ”
There was a thunder on the ground, and I was too frightened to move, so I stood up and looked at him.
He sat still, but a voice came: "The first time I saw you, I felt inexplicably cordial, it turned out that you were Bi Yao's biological daughter." ”
I have a faint bad premonition in my heart, he knows that Biyao is not his daughter anymore?
I didn't dare to speak, for fear of being caught by him, after all, he was an old fox.
And I'm a little white rabbit.
"Come here, Xiao Jiang, come and talk to your mother for a while."
I didn't dare to move, he slowly turned his head and smiled at me: "I'm so good to you, you actually teamed up to lie to me, so how can I swallow this breath?" ”
He turned out to know, he turned out to know......
I tried my best to calm down: "You should know that this matter has nothing to do with us. First of all, she was injured and lost part of her memory, and perhaps Gu Yingjie was controlled by drugs. Actually, she still doesn't know my identity. Finally, she is not in a good mental state, for the sake of her staying with you for so long, please don't hurt her. ”
He raised his hand, and something hit the ground.
When did he hold the cup in his hand?
His voice was full of anger: "You beg me, why do you beg me? You go and let Zheng Huairen come, he not only wants to rob me of a woman, but also a daughter with me, what kind of thing is he, you let him kneel in front of me, see if I forgive him? ”