"Woo it hurts so much here"

I pounded my chest hard, trying to pound my heart out.

It hurt so much that every time I took a breath, it felt like I was going to die.

Song Cheng hugged me tightly, and the strength in his arm continued to increase, as if he wanted to clamp me into his body.

But it's not enough, it's not enough, I still feel pain.

"You hold me tight," I yelled as I shrunk into his chest, panicking.

Song Cheng's two arms shackled me like iron pincers, and I wondered if my bones had been crushed by him.

Every skin on his body cried out for pain, so as to hide the sadness that could not be concealed in his heart.

Suddenly, there was a heat on the top of my head, and my body suddenly froze.

Reaching out and touching it indiscriminately, Song Cheng hurriedly grabbed my hand and didn't let me look up.

He was crying.

But they didn't dare let me see it.

The two of us sat on the sick side of the hospital like poor worms who had been abandoned, hugging each other and weeping silently.

No one spoke, and at this time, they didn't know what to say.

Until finally I was tired of crying, Song Cheng stuffed me into the quilt and let me sleep.

My tears dried up, but my mind was very clear, and I didn't feel sleepy at all.

Suddenly learned the news that the child was gone, the whole person was completely hollowed out, and every trace of flesh and blood seemed to have lost the courage to live.

I shrunk into the quilt with my eyes open, because I was afraid that Song Cheng would find out, so I directly pulled the quilt over my head and covered myself from the air.

Even so, it still feels cold.

The cold wind from all directions blew in from between the quilt and the bed, and directly penetrated into my body, even if it shrunk into a ball, it could not resist the desolate feeling in my heart.

Song Cheng's hand suddenly reached in.

I looked blankly at his palm, and I saw that the hand was getting closer, and then it was on my face.

He touched his fingers wildly, and I quickly closed my eyes, feeling his fingers covering my eyelids, probably trying to make sure I was asleep.

In order not to worry him, I could only keep my eyes closed, and after a long time, I actually fell asleep.

When I opened my eyes again, the joy I had felt was gone.

I sat down with my head woodenly, Wenwen asked me to eat, then I will eat, help me to the bathroom, then I will go, wipe my body, and I will not resist.

Several times, I saw her secretly shed tears, hiding alone in the bathroom, crying silently with the faucet on.

The hospital report has come down and there is no problem with my heart.

In the case of cardiac arrest, it may just be that the body does not keep up with the body during childbirth.

But none of that matters anymore.

I felt that the departure of this child had taken my spirit with me, and I had become a living walking corpse.

"Wenwen, go back, I'm fine."

Wenwen stayed with me in the hospital for a week, and after being busy every day, she lost a lot of weight.

I was so upset that I wouldn't go.

Xu Le was still at home, and I heard her call Xu Le twice, telling her to be well-behaved at home and not to misbehave.

She is living well with Boss Xu now, and she is also responsible for taking care of a child in the second stage of secondary school, and I have wasted so much time with me, I can't always dominate her.

Wenwen didn't worry about me, I hooked the corners of my lips with difficulty, and said with a smile: "Don't worry, Song Cheng is here, I'll be fine."

From entering the hospital to the present, no one else in the Song family has come.

I was full of doubts before, but now I am suddenly clear.

This child is gone, who else wants to join in the fun?

"Okay, then I'll go first, if you have anything, call me at any time." Wenwen bent down and hugged me.

My eyes were hot, and I almost cried, and I hurriedly pressed back my tears, for fear that she would not be at ease.

Song Cheng went to fetch me breakfast, but he hasn't come back yet.

Wenwen wanted to wait a little longer, so I asked her to go directly, don't wait any longer.

She nodded, and went out with her bag.

She and Song Cheng watched me 24 hours a day, and I was completely under their noses.

Now that the people were finally gone, I breathed a sigh of relief, went down to the window, and pushed it open.

It was the middle of July outside, and the scorching heat was blowing in the air towards me.

The huge temperature difference between indoor and outdoor made me jerk, half of my body was in hell and the other half in heaven.

Outside the window, the tall trees are lush and green, and it is the season of summer when it is at its most vibrant.

Just downstairs is a small garden where many people walk.

Babies are lying in strollers, old people are in wheelchairs, some simply hide under trees, and the air is filled with the smell of death and new life, and it is impossible to distinguish which one is more.

I lifted my legs and climbed to the edge of the window, and in an instant, a thought crossed my mind that I wanted to fly down from here and maybe see my baby.

As I let go of my hand, I heard a "thud" behind me, followed by two powerful arms around my waist and pulled me back.

"Shen Youyi, are you crazy!"

Song Cheng's roar exploded in my ears, and I raised my eyelids and looked at him blankly.

The muscles on his face twitched violently, and he had a horrified look in his eyes, and he was looking at me angrily.

"Right, right, why can't you think about it so much!"

Wenwen didn't know when she ran back, the tears on her face rolled down, and she ran over and hugged me tightly.

I sat on it weakly, for about three or four seconds, and my mind was empty.

It wasn't until Wenwen's tears hit my shoulders that I suddenly felt a thrill that I realized that I was just looking for death.

My face was cold, my muscles tensed, and I couldn't believe that I would do such an extreme thing.

"Wenwen, I'm fine," I explained, but looking at Song Cheng's sharp eyes, I felt that everything was so ridiculous.

When I climbed on the windowsill just now, I really didn't think about anything.

In that moment, I really wanted to pounce on the earth.

If Song Cheng hadn't rushed back in time to hug me, maybe I would have become a pile of rotten meat downstairs by now.

Wenwen was out of breath crying, angrily patting my back with her fists, and yelling hysterically: "How can you die? You want to die, right, right, you can't do this, maybe"

She hurriedly stepped back and said incoherently, "Perhaps, the child is not dead?" Perhaps, you just admit that you are wrong, in short, you just can't die, have you heard? ”

I looked at Wenwen in shock, and I couldn't react to what she said for a while.

Her mouth was wide open excitedly, and I understood every word, and when I put it together, it made my heart a mess, and I couldn't think of anything in my head.

"Xu Wenwen, what the are you talking about?"

Song Cheng grabbed Xu Wenwen's clothes and dragged the person over.

"Say it to me again!" He roared angrily.

Wenwen's body trembled, and her whole face turned pale with fright.

She trembled and said, "Child, I seem to have heard the nurse say it was a boy, but later, when I went to see it, it was a dead girl."

Wenwen had a ghostly expression on her face, and her whole body trembled.

She looked at me tremblingly, and collapsed: "I don't dare to tell you that I quarreled with the nurse, I said I was mistaken, but the nurse said I heard it wrong, she said that the child was born with it"

Wenwen suddenly covered her face and cried loudly.

I grabbed the pillow and slammed it at her, and my heart seemed to fall into a pan of oil, and I was tormented by the hot oil, almost making me breathless.

Song Cheng let go of his hand in a daze, gritted his teeth and said, "Why didn't you say it before?"

"What do I say? When the right right came down from the delivery table, even the breath was almost gone, how dare I say" Wenwen wiped her eyes randomly, "I'm not afraid of her, I'm afraid that she has three long and two short, and the big and small ones won't be able to keep it when the time comes"

I sat down stunned, my pupils constricting suddenly, and I looked at Wenwen fixedly.

She couldn't help herself with guilt, and her face flushed.

Song Cheng saw that my expression was wrong, so he hurriedly came over and touched my face, and said urgently: "Right right, right right!"

I nodded, looked at Wenwen, and didn't dare to blink my eyes: "You make it clear, what did the nurse say?"

"Right right," Song Cheng hurriedly glanced at Wenwen and said to me, "Good, forget it when it passes, you are not in good health now"

"How can it be counted?" I hurriedly pushed Song Cheng and said excitedly, "Wenwen said that the child may be alive." ”

He looked at me with a sad look in his eyes, as if I had lost my mind.

"Wenwen, you tell him that the child is still alive." I stared at Wenwen.

She stood there helplessly, choking up: "I'm afraid that you will still seek my death, when I saw it, the child was indeed already"

"That's fake!" I clenched my fists angrily, "You said it was a boy, the nurse said it was a boy"

"But she said I heard it wrong!"

"And what if you heard me right?" I grabbed the quilt and eagerly explained, "Or"

"Right right." Song Cheng grabbed my shoulder and said bitterly, "Don't torture yourself anymore. ”

"No, it's not like that." I shook my head and said, "My child, why don't I even see it?" Even if she's dead, why didn't I see it? I don't believe it! ”

Wenwen said in a deep voice: "I took a look, and when I went to ask later, I heard that the Song family called and asked people to dispose of the body directly, so"

My heart was cold, my scalp was numb, and I grabbed Song Cheng's wrist tightly.

Song Cheng was also shocked.

"So, you didn't even see it?"

He shook his head blankly and said in a dumb voice: "I thought you knew, but I didn't expect it"

Unexpectedly, the people of the Song family were silent and directly passed the message to the nurse.

And we are only concerned with grief, but we never delve into it, why are they so anxious to dispose of the body of a baby when they are indifferent?