He Run was very unbelievable that I was going to surrender, she couldn't imagine why I made such a decision, prison is completely different from the outside world, I lost my freedom, I lost my dreams, I lost my dignity, and I lost all the things I had worked so hard to manage, such as love and life.

I kept convincing her, using all kinds of excuses to get her out of trouble, but I never convinced myself to find a better way to live for me.

She couldn't find a reason for me to do this after thinking for a long time, and she finally asked me, "Is it the case of Gao Zhuang who shot and killed the Kowloon thug?" It's not your fault, there's something wrong with each of us defending ourselves and defending our right to exist. The people of the Kowloon Society are like beasts and hungry wolves, we fall into their hands, if we don't do it, we can only become fish on the board, they kidnap and hold them hostage first, we passively hurt people's lives, is this fault also on our heads? The police did not come out in time to save us, are they still qualified to blame? Although Rong Ke and my brother concealed it first, why did they hide it, because they didn't believe that the police would be more certain than ourselves, and who knew if they were wine bags or real heroes who didn't care about life and death? In the face of life, everyone's impulsiveness is worthy of forgiveness, why do you turn yourself in, let my brother be accommodating for you, all the bad people are killed, they have one less social stability, it's too late to thank you, what is there to pursue. ”

He Run is actually not stupid, it can be seen from her words that she has a very cool mind and her own standards, but she is very timid and afraid, and she is too dependent on others, and she does not rely on the capital and ways of her own life, she can only be submissive, she is the best embodiment of the woman who has lived under the power of men in China for thousands of years, before she got married, in the control of her father, although she was regarded as a treasure, but she also lost her independence and thoughts, after marriage, she respected her husband, did not have her own world, and did not have her own career, has no children and no love foundation, she lives at a loss every day, and she has nothing better to face this time except for weakness.

So she envied me, envied my freedom, my cleverness, my means, and all the attention and scenery I got from men, and I also envied her, envied that she had a way to rely on, a way to retreat, a barrier, she didn't need to fight anything, as long as she put on a cowardly and naïve posture, she could get what she had to catch and I put a lot of effort to get, maybe I couldn't get it.

She saw that I had not spoken for a long time, and my silence made her very confused, "Isn't this the case?" ”

I couldn't help but laugh out loud, I shook my head, her open and closed red lips and her wide eyes were very funny, "What else did you do?" ”

I picked up the teacup and took a sip, "You don't need to know this, you just need to know, you have to become the most critical witness to bring down the He family, and explain your father's culpability to the police as I just told you, your parents can't escape, instead of letting others expose it, it's better for you to come in person, at least you can save yourself, the current situation, if the He family doesn't fall, Ji Rongke will fall, maybe three years, maybe three months, maybe only three days, everything depends on when your brother gets the evidence, But the He family can't support you for a lifetime, maybe someone else will stand up and expose it, when the time comes, you won't get anything, people always have to ensure their own food and clothing, and then strive for a better life, hold Ji Rongke, hold the man you rely on all your life, this is the choice of the smartest woman. ”

He Run sat there silently, she looked at me, her eyes flashed with a small light, she seemed to pity me, and seemed to feel that my cleverness was mistaken by cleverness, no one still remembered my misery and poverty before I met Ji Rongke, they all only remembered the scenery and dignity that this man gave me, I once controlled Ji is calling for wind and rain, I was worth more than 100 million dollars, I had walked through the rain of bullets and bullets, and I also got his warmest embrace, the most affectionate gaze and the most cruel calculation.

I decided to bury this scenery with my own hands, shatter it to pieces, and become a prisoner with nothing, and He Run's compassion for me is what I look like in the eyes of the world.

Another pot of fragrant tea became cold in the silent time, I touched the teapot, there was no trace of temperature, I smiled and said, "Shouldn't you be happy, from now on losing my fierce rival, who else can grab Rong Ke." Your marriage is at ease, and there may be other women who will prey and compete in the future, but your position will never be replaced. The only me who can replace you has been bound for the rest of my life long after being within the iron wall. I asked you out today to talk about such a deal, you are the witness to bring down the He family, and you should cooperate with me inside and outside, Bao Ji Rongke will get the He family, and pull down all the enemies who can use their authority to investigate him and bring him down, such as He Qu. You don't lose money on this deal. ”

He Run never thought that I would propose such a deal, she just thought that I was here to show off to her and force her to withdraw to embarrass her, she couldn't believe that I would entrust Ji Rongke to her care, and never bothered again, her pale and thin hand covered her mouth, she kept breathing, "But why do you want to turn yourself in." Even if you want to report my dad, you don't need to pay such a terrible price. Even if you are pregnant with a child and capital punishment is not applicable, you still cannot escape the punishment of the law. ”

A cool breeze with the scent of flowers poured in from the window, and the sound of the wind drowned out her already soft voice, and it also swept over my face, blowing up my hair and swaying over my eyes.

I narrowed my eyes and looked at He Run, who was full of confusion through the swaying broken hair, "He Qu has evidence of my crime in his hand, he threatens Ji Rongke with this, so that he will give up the plunder of the He family, and also give up the idea of subverting and encircling the He family, Ji Rongke is reluctant to send me into the dark cage, he can only be led by He Qu's nose, but He Qu does not intend to stop in moderation, he also wants to show his supreme sense of mission as a judge, he wants to collect evidence enough to cause Ji Rongke to die, The Ji family, who has dominated South China for nearly 20 years, has been completely wiped out, his greed for power and official position has swelled to the point of being eager to make meritorious contributions, he can't tolerate Ji Rongke, I only have to cut off his only bargaining chip, burned it all down, so that he has nothing to threaten Ji Rongke, the He family will become Ji Rongke's mouth, he can not only get the He family, but also sit back and relax, because in this world except He Qu, no one must bring him down. Only when He Qu falls, all the sins of Ji Rongke can sink into the sea and never see the light of day. ”

After He Run listened to my explanation, she was even more shocked than before, she looked at me in surprise as if the sky was falling apart, "You want to sacrifice yourself for Rong Ke?" ”

Her voice trembled when she said this, and I smiled and asked her, "Can't you?" You also said that I can't die, even if the rest of my life is dark, he just needs to be fine. ”

She was dumbfounded by my question, and didn't know what to do for a long time, I drank the last half of the cold tea in front of me, and she stared at the transparent empty cup in my hand, "I don't know why." Didn't you tell me that the most important thing is to protect yourself and live well? Then why do you sacrifice yourself for him, even if you are separated from Rong Ke, you can still live well, you have been in the Ji family for so long, the Ji family is defenseless against you, you can easily get the evidence that killed Rong Ke, if you are willing to help my brother, he will be good to you for the rest of his life, he values love and righteousness, and he loves you very much, although this love is mixed with some impurities, it is also because you refuse to keep yourself like a jade from the beginning, you let me hold my husband and get a worry-free life, why don't you hold it. ”

"Because I love him."

I rejected He Run with five words, and she was stunned for a long time.

Yes, because I love him, I love him for stumbling, I love him for being vigorous, I love him for breaking my liver and intestines, I love him for not being afraid of life and death, he makes me feel that I have lived a lifetime of joys and sorrows for twenty-four years, he has fallen for me, so that I even feel so beautiful to sacrifice for him.

He Run pursed her lips, her gaze at me became more and more dim, and finally it was completely down, continuing to stare at the empty cup I held in the palm of her hand, she chuckled lowly, with a bit of self-deprecation, "I can also give everything for him, but I never have a chance, I don't understand anything, I can't support his property when he disappears, I can't know what he is silent because of when he is down, and I can't control when he needs help and when I need to dodge, so I don't even have the qualifications to sacrifice, I don't even have the ability to let him remember that I was touched by me. You always stick it in the tip of his heart, and finally pull it out a little as time fades away, and you insert it back again with one move, deeper than the last time. ”

She said with a wry smile and brushing away the ends of her hair hanging from the teacup, "If you are gone, how can he forget it, how can he escape, if you are not there, and you are separated from him by such a close distance but so far." The cinnabar mole on his chest, the white moonlight in front of his window, are all you, my wife with an empty shell, who can't get rid of your shadow in this life. ”

She lifted the half cup of cooled tea, poured it down with her neck back, her rolling throat seemed to swallow sour tears, in this love war without gunpowder, she won people without winning hearts, I won hearts without winning people.

There are no bloodless disputes in the world, and there are no winners from beginning to end, especially the love of children.

I picked up what belonged to me, left a few bills, pushed away the chair and got up, I staggered towards the door, I don't know if it was tea or wine, how suddenly I was so weak, as if I was drunk.

I walked to the door and was about to open the door when He Run suddenly said behind me, "Won't you regret it, will you really not have the slightest remorse." ”

I was stunned for only two seconds, I simply opened the door, the waiter saw me come out, he subconsciously looked at my hand, saw that I didn't take the money, and looked over my shoulder to see where I left, when he touched the red bills, he didn't react, he passed me into the private room to count the coins and pick them up, and then walked back and asked me if I needed change, I said no, he bowed goodbye and left the corridor.

A long road was empty, the sound of footsteps gradually drifting away in my ears gradually quieted down, I held the doorknob in my hand, the cold touch turned my burning palm cold, I stared at the almost transparent stone wall opposite, "I have only one request, to love him as deeply as I do." You don't need to die for him, live well with him. ”