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Lingyu had never refused his closeness like this, she didn't stop drinking, she didn't move, but she exuded an aura of rejection.
Her non-resistance was even more uncomfortable in Xu Wei's opinion. Because he felt that the reason why she didn't resist was only because of a weak heart.
Since his heart is weak, it means that it is not his misunderstanding.
Obviously there was something, but he pretended to be okay and didn't say anything, which made Xu Shun's heart feel angry.
Lingyu still didn't explain, just turned her head away.
"Lingyu!" Xu Yi pulled back her face, and there was a storm gathering in her eyes, "What are you hiding?" After going through so much, is there anything you can't sue me? ”
It made him feel as if he had been abandoned. Her mind was not on his.
"I'm sorry, I ......" Lingyu wanted to explain, but felt unable to speak.
After three or two times, he couldn't get an answer, Xu Wei couldn't bear it anymore and lowered his body again.
"Don't ......"
This time he didn't stop, and the storm overwhelmed Lingyu's remaining sanity.
In the uncontrollable frenzy, Lingyu shook Xu Wei's face in front of her eyes, was in a trance, and blurted out: "Ziying ......"
The frenzy came to a standstill.
Xu Wei raised his body and looked at her in disbelief.
"You...... Who is it called? ”
Lingyu bit her lip suddenly, extremely annoyed.
She didn't know what was going on just now, but when she saw Xu Rui's face, she blurted out her instinct.
Xu Wei's breathing became heavy, pinching her chin, and her voice was cold: "Cheng Lingyu, who did you call just now?" ”
These days, Lingyu has been entangled to the point that she can't live in peace. But he spoke in such a tone again. The depression in my heart suddenly broke out: "Let go!" Didn't you hear who I called? ”
"What did you say?" This tired gesture. With an impatient tone, Xu Cheng was furious, "Ziying? So you treat me like Ziying? ”
Lingyu didn't know what to say, and reached out to cover her eyes.
This gesture of refusal made Xu Wei's anger nowhere to go, and grabbed her hand away: "Explain it to me!" ”
"Let go, I don't want to say!" Lingyu's heart was in a mess, and she didn't want to see this face again. But Xu Wei suppressed her to death, and she didn't let her go.
"Cheng Lingyu!" He suppressed his anger and shouted, "What can't you say?" We've all gone through all the ups and downs, do we still have to hide this? It's been a thousand years, we've been together for a thousand years, and we've come through all kinds of difficulties, so do you want to ruin the trust between us in such a trivial matter? ”
Lingyu was stunned for a moment, closed her eyes, and no longer refused.
Oh, yes. How many difficulties have they encountered in a thousand years? He was not yet free. The hope of being together is so slim, they all come over one by one, if they are left with mustard because of this incident, it is not worth it.
Lingyu suppressed her feelings and tried to calm herself down.
"You get up first." She said in a calm tone.
Xu Wei stared at her for a while, confirmed that she was not perfunctory, and got up to dress.
When the atmosphere returned to tranquility, Lingyu finally said, "I...... I think I might be in trouble. ”
"What do you mean?"
At this time, Lingyu still lowered his head, as if he didn't dare to look at him.
Xu Wei suppressed the unhappiness in his heart, he knew that now was not the time to indulge himself in anger. Just now I said that Lingyu regarded him as Ziying, but it was just an angry word. After all, at that time, Lingyu shouted the names of other men, how could he bear it? Even if that man was his past life, it wouldn't work.
"Did you encounter a change when you broke through the middle stage?" Xu Wei tried his best to restrain his feelings and use reason to dominate this matter.
"I want to ...... Yes. Lingyu buried her face in her palm, "I feel that Huaisu seems to be awake." ”
Xu Wei narrowed his eyes: "Huaisu is awake?" Isn't Waisu dead? ”
Huai Su and Zi Ying's situation is different, Zi Ying will appear in him because Zi Ying's sword is his body, and the divine thoughts on it cannot be erased. But Huai Su is really dead, even if he leaves his divine sense, he is still a rootless wood, and it is impossible to snatch his body from Lingyu. Lingyu is alive, the self and the body are completely compatible, just a touch of divine thought, it is impossible to stay for a long time.
"I can't tell." Lingyu was even more decadent, "In short, after coming out of the Yuan Shen Pool, I can't tell who I am from time to time. Sometimes I even feel that Huaisu's life is real, and Cheng Lingyu seems to be a dream. Even his personality unconsciously shifted towards Huaisu. That feeling of heart as hard as iron, cold and heartless, appeared in her heart more than once.
Her situation is not as strict as Xu Shun was at the beginning, and she was not taken away, so she didn't have any malice towards Xu Shun, and wanted to kill him and then hurry up or something. However, when she saw Xu Yi, she sometimes took him for Ziying in a trance.
Whenever that happens, Lingyu will feel that her heart is as strong as iron and she can't afford it.
“…… So, you don't want to be close to me because you're going to mistake me for Ziying? ”
Lingyu pressed her forehead: "I don't know if you can understand this feeling, I am still me, but I have the consciousness of others, and the qiē she experienced is what I have experienced." It's not a relinquishment, there's no mismatch between us, my ego is still there, it's not under any attack. ”
Xu Wei nodded, indicating that he understood. The battle between his Ziying, like Fan Xianshu and Jian Bufan, is a battle between two egos. But Lingyu is different, she always has only one self in her, and Huaisu's thoughts do not exist, but Huaisu's feelings follow her like a shadow. It's as if Lingyu has turned Huaisu's memories into her own.
"I don't dare to sue you, because I can't figure it out myself. Even, I feel that my trust in you is also shaking-no, it should be said that the part that belongs to Cheng Lingyu, the trust is still there, but as soon as Huaisu's feelings appear, I will feel that you are a stranger. ”
Since he is a stranger, he naturally doesn't like his closeness. It's an instinctive reaction.
Xu Wei asked, "You won't want to kill me?" ”
"No, it won't." Lingyu replied simply, "Even if I mistake you for Ziying, I don't feel anything, and I won't want to kill him as soon as possible." I just feel cold in my heart, and nothing can trigger my feelings. ”
"I thought, maybe it will be fine after a while. You can't help me with this......"
Xu Wei stood up: "In that case, let's separate for the time being." You don't have to worry about anything during this time, let's sort this matter out first, and then I have me outside. ”
"Hmm......" Lingyu raised her head, her gaze a hint of detachment.
Xu Shun's heart twitched, and he turned around and went out, not wanting to look at it again. Her detached gaze made him look uncomfortable.
He was the only one left in the room, and Lingyu fell back in decadence.
What went wrong? Is it the middle of the breakthrough, the divine thoughts of Huaisu released from the crystal of Biluo? Or are they the memories that took advantage of the void when the Yuan Shen Pool tempered the Yuan Shen?
There is Huaisu's divine thought in the crystal of Biluo, and it is not an overnight thing. When she was confused, Huaisu's thoughts would often come out. But after that, it will still be stored in the Blue Fall Crystal, but now......
It was unlike anything they'd ever encountered before. Whether it is Ziying's divine thoughts or Jian Bufan's self, they are all clear and unambiguous. But Lingyu is true, and he is sure that there is no other self in him.
What made her feel most uncomfortable was that her trust in Xu Wei was shaking.
Sometimes looking at Xu Rui is like looking at Ziying, the feeling of being far away in the sky.
This is also the source of her weakness of heart.
Now that she said it, although Xu Wei didn't express her displeasure, she could feel his injury, even if she knew that she was out of control.
Lingyu closed her eyes, and a simple Taoist temple appeared in front of her, a meandering stream, passing through the flower forest, countless petals, falling with the wind.
She stood in the pavilion and looked at this qiē leisurely, her mind calm and unwavering.
Danxiao Guanli, a hundred worlds surrendered. She holds the life and death and fate of hundreds of worlds around her, and everyone has to bow down in front of her. That kind of powerful power, looking at the world.
She seemed to see Waisu standing in front of her, looking at her with that ruthless gaze.
"Is that how you feel? Why am I so clear ......"
"Because you're me!" Waisu said with a smile.
"I ...... It's you? So who are you? ”
"I'm Huaisu, Huaisu Yuanjun, and many people call me Emperor Danxiao."
Danxiao...... Emperor. Lingyu muttered, "The heart is like a solid stone, everything does not move, this is Emperor Danxiao?" ”
Huai Su chuckled: "Whether it's Emperor Danxiao or Huai Su Yuanjun, it's just a name, and it's not bad to be called Cheng Lingyu in the future." ”
"Emperor Danxiao, Huaisu Yuanjun, Cheng Lingyu......" She read slowly, and suddenly panicked, "No, I'm Cheng Lingyu, but I'm not Emperor Danxiao, not Huaisu Yuanjun!" ”
Huaisu just looked at her quietly, with a smile on his face and a gaze like still water.
The feeling that his heart was like a solid stone came up again, and Lingyu unconsciously let go of his hand.
“…… If, this is how you feel, why are you so calm about Ziying? You don't hate him? Isn't he your enemy? ”
Huai Su said lightly: "Enemy? No, I have no enemies. ”
"No...... Foe? Then you fight with him......"
"Fighting for the sake of heaven, no one is an enemy. I want to kill Ziying, just because he is a disciple of Dao Ancestor, and he has lived from the prosperous era of Guang Lotte to the present, and he has a profound heavenly opportunity. Hate? What's that? ”
Lingyu was surprised: "But why does Ziying want to get rid of you quickly?" If none of you Mahayana are enemies of each other......"
Huai Su laughed: "Because, the Purple Ying Heavenly Monarch suppressed the worlds, but I calculated it!" He wanted to kill me for the same reason I wanted to kill him. However, he is more urgent, as long as I live, he will not be able to live in peace. ”
She is not the only one who wants to calculate the Mahayana of Ziying Heavenly Monarch, but she is the only one who has succeeded. This is the reason why Ziying is urgent.
"......" Lingyu suddenly realized something, "Are you trying to say that I am gradually becoming you?" No love or hate, the heart is like a stone......"
"Isn't that bad?" Huai Su smiled lightly, "I'm not Ziying's naturally ruthless guy, for this day, I don't know how much I suffered, so I broke off the seven feelings, you can take advantage of it!" (To be continued......)