He Yichi drove the car to the hospital, didn't have time to find a parking lot, and parked directly next to the illegal street, Ji Rongke fell into a coma with a high fever after ferocious drinking and blowing cold wind, he only had the last trace of consciousness, but he was also confused, he covered his eyes with his hands and frowned against the back of the chair, his pale face was very weak and haggard.

I probed his forehead with my palm, it was so hot that I quickly withdrew it, not daring to delay any longer, let He Yichi help him into the consultation room, and I went to the toll hall to register.

When I found the consultation room, he was lying on the bed for examination, he heard the sound of me talking to the doctor and opened his eyes, the bottom of his eyes was scarlet, he stretched out his hand to my vague shadow, I immediately held his hand and asked him how he was, he didn't have the strength to laugh, "It's just a fever, don't worry too much." ”

"It's just a fever." The doctor interrupted him suddenly, raised his head from the case book, and looked at Ji Rongke through the glasses hanging on the bridge of his nose, "Your stomach bleeding, mild alcohol poisoning, and excessive blood viscosity are all life-threatening, and fever is just the trigger, and it is the least serious one of your current conditions." ”

I angrily shook off Ji Rongke's hand, staring at his hateful face that avoided the serious, he pursed his lips and smiled, he didn't dare to contradict me again, I asked the doctor if he needed to be hospitalized, he said that he would stay for a few days for observation, and his stomach needed to take a detailed film.

I shuddered and tugged at the hem of my clothes, "Is that going to be serious?" ”

The doctor pushed the frame that had slipped down the bridge of his nose, "He usually drinks too much and socializes, his stomach is bad, he doesn't sleep well, and his spirit is in a state of high tension all year round, which has an impact on his body." It's not so serious, but for the sake of health, the situation is still improving. ”

The environment in which Ji Rongke is located is too dangerous and too turbulent, he is not allowed to slack off at all, and his accumulated habits are difficult to get rid of, unless he washes his hands with his whole body, he can relax from his heart, but that is the best way for people who have not mixed up, Ji Rongke can't do it, he climbed step by step to get rid of the past of the Kowloon Society, become an independent gangster brother, create Ji's family, occupy South China, this painstaking and lonely effort is better than the hundreds of lifetimes of ordinary people, how can he be willing to discard, even if he is willing, How could the enemies of the Tao who regarded him as their old enemies give up their dreams of stabbing him?

I glanced back at Ji Rongke, who was lying on the bed staring at me, he saw me looking back at him, and immediately became a little more energetic, seeing that my face was not as ugly as just now, he smiled very gently at me, as if he was afraid that I would be angry again, and he would leave him and turn away, he didn't have the strength to chase me back now. I suddenly felt very sorry for him, his calmness, wisdom and maturity could not hide that he would also be like a child to rely on people he trusted, I would feel inexplicably sad when he smiled at me, I was really afraid that one day I would not be able to find such a smile, and completely disappeared from this world.

The fear and helplessness of struggling in the mire are exactly the same as my worries.

He Yichi took the slip to pay for the medicine, and a nurse and I helped Ji Rongke to the ward, he was reluctant to let the nurse help him at first, he was the strongest, sometimes stubborn and colorful, he didn't want to expose his fragile pathology to strangers, if I didn't suppress him with my temper, he wouldn't compromise at all.

Ji Rongke had a high fever of 39 degrees and two-thirds of his stomach was bleeding profusely, and after the nurse pricked him with a needle and hung a drip, she told me some things, and then went out of the ward with a medical tray.

I looked at Ji Rongke leaning on the head of the bed, his face was still very pale, and it was not relieved by taking medicine, I knew he was in pain, but he wouldn't say, he didn't want me to worry, and he didn't want me to force him to quit this road, in the past, he could turn a deaf ear to my request, and use a few sweet dates to coax me to make me happy, but now because of the child, the distance between us is much closer, and many subtle feelings have taken root in my heart and his heart. That house is a home, he has more respect and care for me as a husband and wife, and he will consider every request I have and do his best to meet me.

I know that he is very tired, even if I want to get something again, I will not ignore the reality and make trouble with him, he maneuvers between the two families, balancing the relationship between me and He Run, He Run is as gentle as water, I don't fight or grab, I think this is to love him, is the greatest understanding that I can give into.

I clearly told him that what women want most is a home, a stable life, not a man who holds the power of life and death of others like an emperor every day, you can't give it to me, I don't force it, but you can give it to me, you don't have to be stingy. He asked me what I wanted, and I swallowed back the marriage that came to my lips several times, and I said to him, I want you to be safe.

Ji Rongke fell asleep in my long silence and distraction, I called the nurse to pull out the needle for him, He Yichi originally took the medicine and came back to get hot water, but he suddenly received a phone call, his face was slightly gloomy after looking at the screen, he glanced at me, hurriedly walked out of the ward, and did not come back until Ji Rongke finished the infusion.

I covered him, closed the window completely, and went out with the kettle under the bedside table, and I stopped a nurse passing by and asked her where the water room was, and she pointed me to a somewhat deserted hallway, "Just turn out of the morgue." ”

I was stunned, "Morgue? ”

She said helplessly, "There was a doctor-patient accident in the water room on the first floor, and the dean is intervening in mediation, and you can't fetch water for the time being, this floor is just that small, or you can wait a minute." ”

After she finished speaking, she pushed open the door of the ward next to her and went in, I stared at the creepy mouth, and I told me that the most terrifying thing in this world is not the ghosts, but people, the living people are the most terrifying, and the human heart is far more real and bloody than those things that do not exist and scare themselves, but then again, I still don't dare to go over, I waited for the nurse to come out of the side rounds, and asked her the address of another internal staff room, in the staff dormitory at the back door of the hospital, about twenty minutes back and forth, I asked her to take care of Ji Rongke's ward, and she agreed very kindly.

I came out of the water room to the inpatient department, the mobile phone in my pocket kept ringing on the way, but I couldn't free up my hand to pick it up, and I didn't know who the other party was, I kept playing perseveringly, one after another, and when I climbed to the second floor, I saw He Yichi who was dialing at the staircase, he saw me coming up from downstairs and asked me why I didn't answer, I knew that it was him, and then my brain exploded, I subconsciously thought if Ji Rongke had an accident on the way I left, and was assassinated by the people of the Kowloon Club, I almost didn't even mention the kettle.

I rushed over to take a look at the ward, the door was open, there was no sound inside, a trace of white light seeped out, I turned to look at He Yichi, he took the initiative to take the pot in my hand, and whispered to me, "Miss He is here." ”

He Run's face flashed in front of my eyes, "She knows it too." ”

He Yichi said, "Brother Rong turned off the phone, so he contacted me, she asked me why Brother Rong didn't go back, I couldn't excuse myself, and Brother Rong didn't explain how I should make it up, I said that he was in the hospital, and he drank too much for entertainment, and he had a fever, Miss He was worried about Brother Rong, so she rushed over immediately." ”

I suddenly saw the coat and handbag He Yichi held in his hand, all of which were my things, and his face was very embarrassed in the face of my strange gaze, as if he was very shameless and helpless for such a sneaky behavior, "I'm worried that Miss He misunderstood, and took out your things before she entered the ward, more is better than less, and I don't know if the He family will come over later." ”

As he spoke, his voice became quieter and quieter, as if he was not confident enough, worried that I would be uncomfortable about it, I smiled and understood, and reached out to take the clothes and handbag from his arms, "It's okay, it should be." As early as the moment I knew that Rong Ke would marry a wife and stubbornly stay by his side, I knew that I would always give way to He Run, and that I would always be the one who would retreat from all the places that would collide. ”

He Yichi felt sad for my words, he wanted to comfort me a few words, but I raised my hand to stop, I felt that I didn't need an outsider to appease me, many of the scars were cut by myself, so I licked them myself.

He Run's voice came from the fever in the ward at this time, she was calling Master He, He Yichi looked at me, I nodded, he walked a few steps and looked back at me again, so I smiled back to him, he sighed slightly, and walked quickly into the ward.

At the moment when He Yichi's figure disappeared from my sight, the lines of forced laughter on my face disappeared without a trace, and I couldn't say the dull pain in my heart, I only felt that the dark clouds covered the top and the torrential rain poured.

I'm going to hide again, but I really want to see if he's awake, if he will open his eyes and find that it was He Run who was with him instead of me, with a faint sense of disappointment and worry.

I put on my coat and put my hat on the top of my head and tried my best to gather in the middle, covering my face with all my arms, showing only a pair of eyes, even if I He Run suddenly came out of it, if she only saw my back, she might not recognize me wrapped beyond recognition.

I quietly approached the open door, I heard the slight footsteps inside, there was a gentle breath, and the crisp sound of the glass touching the corner of the table, I grabbed the wall frame with my fingers, hid behind the door, and exhaled deeply, I saw He Run holding a towel and wiping his hands for Ji Rongke, the latter did not wake up, and fell asleep peacefully, probably because the medicine worked, the pale color of his face faded a lot, and there was a trace of normal ruddyness.

The remnant sun of dusk outside is sinking more and more, and it is hanging obliquely on the treetops, a ray of golden light envelops He Run's warm face, her eyebrows are slightly frowned, but the bottom of her eyes is so tender as water.

She loves the man who is still asleep, she is not less than my love, she may not pay as much as me, she is not as aggrieved as me, but she is more worry-free than me, and she is more likely to be a woman than me, a woman who makes men unbearable to hurt.

She will not make Ji Rongke worry and angry, will not touch his bottom line, will not test his reason, she is always cautious and well-behaved, when she sees this face and eyes, all the fatigue disappears.

I can't do it, I can't be such an impeccable woman in my life.

My stubbornness, my willfulness, my strength, all became flawed in every way under her beautiful posture, and the flaws could not be concealed.

I hung my head at this moment and suddenly laughed, like a thief, like a sad outsider, calculating my good and my bad, calculating the distance between me and love.

I also had a very gentle time, I don't know how I became like this, the powerful and cruel reality, the miserable situation, I shouldn't be compared with He Run, she doesn't have to worry about being hurt and looked down upon, she just needs to put her family background out, she can poke everyone's vital point, her weakness is wrapped in a strong and unshakable background, but my strength is wrapped in cowardly and humble bones. If I were so pitiful, I would have died under the guns a long time ago, and the Ji family would have collapsed, and during the days when Ji Rongke was in Picheng, the Ji family would have become a white bone.

I can't become He Run, and He Run can't become me.

I envy her for being Ji Rongke's wife and having the marriage of my dreams, and she envy me for meeting him earlier than her and occupying his heart. In this world, it is really impossible to have both, I would rather be the blood of mosquitoes on his body than the white moonlight that cannot be touched outside the window.

He Run put the towel in his mouth, she said vaguely, let He Yichi help her turn Ji Rongke over, she wiped his back, in the process of their tossing, Ji Rongke didn't know where it hurt, or dreamed, a trace of sound overflowed from his throat, he whispered something, He Run immediately stopped moving, the towel in her mouth fell to the ground, when she bent down to pick it up, Ji Rongke suddenly shouted vaguely Feng Jin, the word in front was swallowed, only the brocade word on the back was spit out very clearly from the tip of his tongue, He Yichi's face changed suddenly, He Run stood up again and leaned over to listen to Ji Rongke's lips, but he fell asleep again and became extremely quiet, she listened for a long time, and found nothing but his breathing.