Chapter 37: Find a place to talk
"Doctor Joe, I'm here."
Joanna looked up and found that her face was even more ugly today than yesterday, and she couldn't help but twist her eyebrows slightly.
"Miss Jiang, haven't you rested well?"
"I had nightmares for almost half the night."
Since she decided to see a psychiatrist, Le Yao didn't think about hiding her condition.
"Tell me what you dreamed about last night?"
Le Yao tilted her head and thought for a while, and probably retold more than 80% of the content.
Hearing her clearly described it, Joanna breathed a sigh of relief.
"Congratulations, Miss Jiang, I think you don't have to undergo hypnotherapy anymore."
"Why?"
Could it be because she is not in good spirits?
Joanna shook her head and said, "Miss Jiang, don't be nervous, in fact, in psychology, there have been a period of hypnosis, and in different situations, the patient will continue to remember some fragments in his mind that have not appeared in the hypnotic suggestion, which means that the patient is subconsciously reviewing his past." Of course, such cases are rare, because the loss of memory itself is due to brain damage, and if a large number of memory fragments pour in due to external forces, it will bring irreversible damage to the brain. ”
Here, Joanna did not explain the words, but it is clear that the "external cause" in her mouth refers to forced hypnosis.
"So, I'll recover my lost memories myself?" She asked rhetorically.
"Theoretically, this is true, but to what extent it can be recovered, it depends on the patient's own brain consciousness and physique, Miss Jiang, here, I have to tell you: don't force yourself to recall if you can't remember, after all, you still suffer from retrograde amnesia."
Speaking of this disease, a trace of gloom appeared on Le Yao's face.
"It's really incurable, isn't it?"
There is a wry smile on the corner of her lips, she is obviously a beauty, revealing such sadness, anyone will feel distressed.
"Miss Jiang, everything is man-made, medical production has produced a lot of miracles, although the probability of miracles is low, but if you don't work hard, how will you know that you are not the lucky one?"
Admittedly, Joanna's words soothed her uneasy emotions.
"Thank you, Dr. Joe."
"You're welcome, since you didn't receive treatment today, I'll ask the front desk to refund the money to you."
Le Yao waved her hand, "Although I didn't receive hypnosis today, I received your psychological treatment, and the money still has to be paid." ”
Joanna thought for a moment, but nodded. She could see that Le Yao was a stubborn person.
"Well, if I don't take it, probably you won't get out of this door." She joked.
Le Yao also smiled, "Then I won't bother you to see a doctor, goodbye." ”
Le Yao's impression of Joanna is very good, she thinks that she is not only young and beautiful, but also soft-spoken, she should be a very good person to get along with, right?
"Dr. Joe, can we be friends?" She asked, standing by the door, holding the doorknob in her hand.
Joanna was stunned for a moment, then bowed her head, "Of course you can." ”
Although being friends with her means that the probability of meeting those two men will increase, as far as Le Yao herself is concerned, she is not rejected.
As if waiting for her words, Le Yao's face bloomed, and she walked over quickly, took out a business card from her bag and put it on the table.
"Here is my contact information, if you need help in the future, you can always come to me."
Joanna didn't understand how such a woman could be loved by two excellent men, but now she suddenly understood something: no matter who she was for, she had the greatest enthusiasm and kindness. In such a utilitarian society, this quality is too rare!
"If you want to ask me for psychological counseling, I will still charge you money! It's cheaper, though. She humorously.
The two women chuckled for a while, and Le Yao walked out of the office.
Standing under the clear sky, Le Yao took a deep breath and felt that the turbidity in her body had been swept away.
"Xiao Yao."
Hearing someone calling herself, Le Yao turned around and saw Yan Bin in a black coat.
"You're also coming to see a psychiatrist?"
Is this guy secretly following him, or is it really such a coincidence? Why does she meet him everywhere she goes?
"Do you look at me like I'm mentally ill?"
The corners of his mouth were slightly hooked, but it was just a shallow smile, and there was actually a feeling that everything was recovering.
Because I have some previous memories in my mind, the complicated feeling I had about Yan Bin before has returned.
"Do you have time?" She asked.
This is the first time that Le Yao has not asked him to get out of the way without a high voice, and there was surprise in the corners of Yan Bin's eyes.
"Yes! Yes! Of course! ”
It's not that she didn't see him happy, but suddenly, her heart was sour.
"Let's find a place to talk."
There are some things that they still have to make clear between them.
Yan Bin hurriedly agreed, and then went with her to a café not far from Joanna's clinic.
"A cup of pure black coffee, thank you." She said.
Then, Yan Bin also ordered a drink for himself according to her words.
"We didn't get along well, did we?"
The corners of the man's mouth, who was originally smiling, froze and did not speak.
Le Yao was already a smart woman, and when she saw his expression, she knew that she had guessed correctly.
"In the past few days, some fragments have flashed in my mind, it should be our previous relationship, right? It's not very pleasant. ”
In fact, what he dreamed about the most was his distrust and hurt her. That feeling, even if she is an amnesiac bystander, is a little unbearable, let alone someone who has experienced it herself?
"I'm sorry ......"
In fact, Yan Bin's thoughts are also contradictory, hoping that she will remember all the things in the past, but also hoping that she will never remember those hurtful memories......
"People in the mall say that you act boldly, so why can't you let go emotionally? You don't like me, do you? ”
"Nope! I love you! Not wanting to be misunderstood by her again, Yan Bin directly shouted out his heart.
"What is the truth that your love cannot make you trust the person you love?"
It's okay not to love, but at least you shouldn't hurt each other.
"That's my ridiculous self-esteem, right?" Yan Bin lowered his head and didn't let her see the bitterness on his face, "I thought that no matter what I did to you, you wouldn't leave me." ”
It was because of such fearlessness that he hurt her even more, forcing her to leave the country......
"The human heart is made of flesh, why do you think that a person who has been completely hurt will stay with the abuser?"
She doesn't have "Stockholm syndrome" and likes to be abused.
"So, after you left, I began to reflect on what I had done."
The more he remembered that past, the more he hated his own distraction. In this world, there will never be a woman like Jiang Leyao who loves him so purely, and what has he done to this woman?
Catching a glimpse of the pain on his face, Le Yao's heart was also a little uncomfortable. Obviously, she didn't have a deep impression of him, but that kind of worry came from the bottom of her heart.
"Lele, can you give me another chance? I promise to love and respect you well this time. ”
He grabbed Le Yao's hand on the table.
If this had been said before, he would never have been able to say it. However, now, as long as he can redeem Le Yao, he can make any promise!
"What is this now? Repentance? ”
Le Yao withdrew her hand without a trace and took a sip of coffee.
"I really want to be good to your mother and son for the rest of my life."
He knew that there were still many obstacles ahead, but as long as Le Yao was saved, those were nothing.
"You're so self-righteous! Leaving aside the fact that I don't love you anymore, even if I still have feelings for you, I won't risk myself coming back to you. ”
Some pains are enough to go through once.
"Lele, I don't dare to expect you to forgive me immediately, but time will tell."
Since he had come to Australia with him and had not achieved his goal, how could he give up?
"Time has proven now: without you, Kaikai and I are doing well."
Facing Yan Bin's entanglement, Le Yao was already a little impatient.
Seeing her unhappy face, Yan Bin's heart was both a little frightened and a little hurt.
"Lele, I won't bother you."
"Your presence is my biggest problem! Sorry for the misaccompany. ”
After saying this, she picked up her handbag, put a hundred-dollar bill, and left the café......
Although Le Yao left, Yan Bin seemed to have become a statue, sitting there motionless, his eyes were dim, and he couldn't see what he was thinking. When a few guests passed by him, they would subconsciously speed up their pace.
"I've been thinking about what happened to Jiang Xiaoyao these days, it turned out to be because of you."
The familiar voice came from behind him, and Yan Bin's body shook and saw a handsome little figure sitting opposite him.
"You're here to tell me to stay away from Lele?"
"If I did, would you really leave?"
"If I had left, I wouldn't have been here a long time ago."
Although the coffee gradually cooled, the bitter taste in his mouth still made his tongue feel numb.
"Jiang Xiaoyao is a person who loves to laugh, but after I met you, I saw that there was an indelible sadness between her eyebrows."
Because this was true, Yan Bin's face turned even paler.
"Shouldn't loving someone make her happy?"
Is this implying that his appearance deprived Le Yao of his happiness?
"Jiang Xiaoyao is the bravest mother I have ever met. I remember one time, I had a fever at night, no matter how much medicine I took, my father was not at home at that time, Jiang Xiaoyao was so anxious that she was about to cry, but she had red eyes, and while comforting me, she drove me to the hospital......"
Kai Kai's words made Yan Bin fascinated, "Then? ”
"Taking advantage of the gap between the doctor's examination and injection, she called Daddy, although Daddy finally rushed back, but she has been by my side for three days and three nights, Dad said that he wanted to exchange with her, she refused to live or die, it was three days and three nights without sleep, without eating or drinking!"
When Yan Bin heard this, he immediately felt bitter in his throat, and he finally missed the opportunity to be by their mother and son's side and spend that difficult time together.
"Later, I got better, but Jiang Xiaoyao fainted because of dehydration and malnutrition, and the doctors who came to check it felt strange, saying that it was the 21st century, and there were still people who fainted because of malnutrition! Or in such a rich place as Australia......"
Hearing this, Yan Bin's hand on the table held the coffee cup tightly, and the force was so great that the coffee cup cracked!
"After Jiang Xiaoyao fell ill that time, she recuperated at home for a week, her health was not good, and her father was worried about us, so he stayed at home and guarded us that week, giving us delicious supplements in different ways."
When Kai Kai said this, his face was very calm, but every word pierced Yan Bin's heart, making him miserable.
"You keep saying that you want our mother and son to give you a chance, but what about you? When Jiang Xiaoyao gave you a chance, did you cherish it? ”
Yan Bin pursed his thin lips.
If I had been willing to put a little more effort into Le Yao, this would not be the case today.
"Daddy will be back tomorrow, I hope you've figured it out before then."
With that, he jumped out of his seat and walked silently as he had come......