He Qu's operation lasted for five hours, during which the nurses came in and out three times, and each time I immediately met them, but they were very secretive about my inquiry, and they only said that they waited patiently and hurriedly broke free from my shackles, and I panicked in the face of ambiguous answers, and I leaned against the wall without saying a word, and my eyes were getting more and more cloudy.

He Run sat on the chair, she grabbed Ji Rongke's arm, crying intermittently, she kept saying that she had been angry with him many times before, and now she feels very regretful, what is the great hatred between brothers and sisters, just endure it and pass, why argue. Ji Rongke was always comforting, telling her that He Qu would not blame her, He Run cried even more when he heard this, her cry made me irritable, when the nurse came out of the operating room for the fourth time, I chuckled in my heart, and a bad premonition immediately surged into my chest. Her face wearing a mask could not see the expression, but her forehead was covered with sweat, and she stood directly in front of us and her gaze swept over the faces of everyone who was waiting, "Who are the family members?" ”

I was so frightened that my body almost collapsed on the ground, I covered my ears and didn't dare to listen, Ji Rongke and He Run stood up, the nurse handed them an agreement, I saw from her mouth that she mentioned the word critically ill, of course I knew what it meant, I suddenly felt that the sky was falling, as if all the lights had gone out, and it became dark.

I rushed over and took the agreement in my hand almost like crazy, I couldn't read a word, my vision was blurry, a few wisps of wet marks crossed over the handwriting, my whole body was trembling, I asked the nurse if He Qu couldn't carry it, the nurse said to me, "There was indeed a little accident, one of the bullets was very close to the lungs, the warhead had punctured a blood vessel, the chief surgeon has been trying, there will be risks, but we must try our best to rescue, this critical illness is the process we must go, I hope that the family can understand and cooperate. ”

He Run covered her mouth and cried bitterly, she stood behind Ji Rongke, her forehead against his back, and she squeezed out one brother after another in her throat, like a sharp knife piercing my heart, slashing every inch of flesh fiercely.

Ji Rongke took the pen handed by the nurse without saying a word, he signed He Run's name in the family column, and then handed it to the nurse, the nurse took it and looked at it, she closed the agreement, handed all the pen and paper to another nurse, she turned around and entered the operating room again. This time it lasted two hours, and there was still no one coming out, no one entering, and we lost all news and were caught in a long wait in the hallway.

He Run was tired of crying, lying on the chair a little tired, and there were tear stains on her face, which were gently wiped off by Ji Rongke, and she fell asleep.

He Yichi went to the cafeteria to buy four servings of vegetable porridge, but everyone had no appetite, so they put it on the chair and let the porridge get cold, and he said to Ji Rongke to go back to Ji's to see, the Kowloon Club didn't know if there was any action, so he couldn't be too passive.

Ji Rongke nodded, when He Yichi walked to the side door, I came back to my senses and called him, he stopped and looked back at me, I walked over and stretched out my hand to him, he frowned and asked me what, I gestured a posture of lighting a cigarette, He Yichi does not smoke often, but he will also prepare a box with him, because Ji Rongke smokes very fiercely, almost a box a day, he saw that I wanted cigarettes, and directly and decisively rejected me, I grabbed his coat, reached into my pocket and took out the cigarette case and lighter, although he didn't want this, but he didn't dare to refuse me, He knew that I was fluctuating too much today, and he was worried that I would have a tire gas, so he didn't dare to go against my idea at all.

I pulled out a cigarette and bit it with my teeth, he snatched the cigarette case from my hand when all my attention was attracted by the cigarette roll in my mouth, I didn't intercept him this time, I turned around and walked back to the windowsill, pushed the glass open, looked around, and made sure that no nurse passed by, I leaned out of the window with most of my body, letting the smoke disperse in the air outside, I stared down at a cluster of light blue flames, but I didn't pout, Ji Rongke suddenly grabbed my wrist and turned my body back, I

Wherever he had great strength, I didn't have the slightest room to struggle, and the cigarette was pulled out of his lips and teeth.

He threw the unlit cigarette out of the room, closed the window, and looked through the glass at the huge fountain in the garden shrouded in colored lights, the splash of water reflected in his clear pupils, and the neon glow of the entire bustling street at night, and he said with some reminiscence, "I remember you didn't smoke much." ”

I said that I was irritable and wanted to smoke a cigarette to relieve my boredom.

His gaze fell on my abdomen, "Bear with me if you're pregnant." ”

I subconsciously looked at He Run lying on the chair, she was covered with Ji Rongke's black coat, she looked petite and exquisite, she closed her eyes and fell asleep peacefully, her red lips were slightly open and closed motionless, as if she couldn't hear everything, I stroked my stomach, I felt a bulge, counting the days, it was almost two and a half months.

I raised my head and stared into Ji Rongke's eyes, there was a trace of exhaustion in his eyes, and a lot of hard new stubble grew on his chin, I suddenly thought that when I was in the biggest crisis, he was fighting Gu Wennan to the death, bent on saving He Run, who was his wife, and it was He Qu who had only known me for a short time who rushed to me regardless of life and death, he didn't think about his half-sister at that juncture, he only thought of me, he only cared about whether I was safe, I am also an ordinary woman, I will play strong, I will pretend to be vulnerable, But I also deeply longed for a man who treated me as his all, who could rush at me openly, protect me under his broad wings, and not need to be condemned by the world's gossip to protect me from the wind and rain.

I admit that I am jealous, no matter when, as long as I am in danger at the same time as He Run, Ji Rongke's first choice will always be her, maybe he will be inclined to me and the child in his heart, but the name and marriage govern the qualifications I want, I can only pick up what she doesn't want, she has the rest, as a baby Thanksgiving, everyone's mood is slowly changing, when I feel that the child is growing up day by day, when I worry every day about whether He Run will suddenly announce that she is pregnant, Ji Rongke happily picked her up, Smiled and said that I am going to be a father, the He family put on the lights to welcome this righteous little life, where should I go to be sad, and said sorry to the child in my belly.

When I watched other husbands accompany their wives to their prenatal check-ups and accompany their wives to conceive every detail of their marriage, I am like a stone that cannot be seen, buried in the high walls of the deep house, and I will repeatedly ask myself what is the end of such a day.

If He Run lives to be eighty years old, will I live in her shadow for the rest of my life, and when I die, the child will have no father, and I will have no husband.

Ji Rongke questioned me that day, he didn't promise it doesn't mean that he will never be able to give it, I never believed it, and whatever he said would be useless.

But everything he can give, all the things I want the most, have been crowned with the traces of He Run, how many women who believe in it stupidly have finally been crushed by reality and turned into a madman.

I'm also stupid, I don't say anything or make a sound, but I've always been stubborn in the cage of stupidity and watch my hope of seeing the light of day, when today I hold the dying He Qu, looking at Ji Rongke who rushed down from the upstairs, He Run is in the arms I want the most, occupying the man I love the most, her face is full of tears, but I seem to see the advantages and rights of my wife behind the tears. I finally had an epiphany that I had already been sentenced to life by this extramarital love that the world did not tolerate.

But I am not the third party, He Run, she used her proud family background to defeat me and expel me.

My empty gaze moved fiercely at this moment, my right hand was still raised to my lips, maintaining the posture of holding a cigarette, I exhaled deeply, tilted my head and whispered, "Did He Run see you crying?" ”

Ji Rongke didn't know why I suddenly asked this, he stared at me for a moment, "Crying." ”

"When you hugged her, she called out to you something."

Ji Rongke frowned, and he replied in a somewhat awkward tone, "I don't remember." ”

"When you hold her, don't you think it's normal?"

Ji Rongke's left hand was in his pocket, he touched the button on his neck with his right hand, he wanted to untie it, but the button was on his bar, he didn't open it after a few clicks, he simply pulled it hard, tore off the top three, the button broke off from his clothes, fell to the ground, bounced half a meter, and rolled under the chair.

I stared down at a beige tile illuminated by the light, "Do you know why I rushed in?" ”

He was silent, he seemed to have guessed what I was going to say tonight, maybe I had to give up, a trace of panic flashed on his face, a trace of fear, and a trace of emotion that I didn't know how to make up, I continued, "I heard the gunshot, I didn't know that He Qu had kung fu at that time, but even so, I didn't worry about him who was the most behind, but I was bent on thinking about whether you would be attacked by the ambush people, and whether you would be injured." I'm not a female warrior, I'm just a woman who eats in the wind and moon, I take wine glasses, cigarettes, poker mahjong, and a lot of money from men, I hate those days, but now that I think about it, there is nothing bad about those days, you see how I lived after I broke away, reality forced me to pick up a gun, stained with blood, if I had never known you. ”

I stopped when I said this, Ji Rongke's frowning brows became deeper and deeper, and a few wrinkles squeezed out in the middle, "I thought He Qu would take care of it..."

"He Qu likes me."

I interrupted him suddenly, Ji Rongke's second half of the sentence came to an abrupt end, he had been staring at my face, and after I said these five words, his expression changed instantly, until it set off a huge whirlpool, and then returned to silence and calm, it only took half a minute.

He didn't let me smoke, but he took half a box out of his trouser pocket, he slammed his fist open the window, his hand trembled a little and lit it, he took a big puff and spit it out in the opposite direction of mine, his voice was very hoarse and said, "It was an accident." ”

I looked at He Run, who moved on the chair, she called Rong Ke in a low voice, as if she had a nightmare, Ji Rongke continued to smoke, he took one puff after another, without a break of half a second, and soon the cigarette was only a cigarette butt, I looked out the window at South China where the night was low, "This accident is very beautiful, it makes me suddenly want to settle down." ”