The bright office was as warm as spring, the air was filled with the smell of 84 disinfectant, the sunlight spilled in from the window, scattering irregularly shaped yellow spots on the white floor tiles, and with a soft "click" Mi Zixuan lit a cigarette, and the curling white smoke slowly rose in front of him, making it a little difficult to see his face.

Mi Zixuan held Hong Yifan's full-abdomen CT film in one hand and looked at it in front of him, with one hand on the dark brown desk, one finger knocked rhythmically, and Yan Haojie, who was sitting opposite him, frowned and said nothing.

Both of them have encountered problems, and now they are saying no to Hong Yifan's parents, not saying that it is not, to tell the truth, Hong Yifan's illness cannot be cured, can his parents stand it? In the end, the resentment will only be vented on Hong Yifan's grandparents, and now the old couple is so guilty that they can't wait to die on behalf of their grandson, if they are complaining about their son and daughter-in-law, can the old couple still live?

Not to mention,It is to hide the patient's condition from the family,First of all, it violates medical regulations,Secondly, Mi Zixuan and Yan Haojie can't get along with their conscience,As a doctor, you should let the family know the patient's condition as soon as possible,Let the family be prepared as soon as possible,If you don't say it at this time,It will definitely make the family hope,Think that their relatives are still saved,But when their relatives leave,How can they bear it? The greater the hope, the greater the disappointment.

Mi Zixuan and Yan Haojie are in a dilemma at this time,Mi Zixuan really wants to save this child,But now he really doesn't have the ability,He can see the whole abdomen CT and remember every detail clearly,But there is still no way,A sense of powerlessness rises in Mi Zixuan's heart,Suddenly there is a feeling that he should not be reborn in this era,If it was in the previous life,He has a way to cure this child's illness。

But in this life, because of the limitations of various raw materials and technologies, Mi Zixuan has no dragon slaying skills, but no dragon slaying knife, and he is aggrieved in his heart.

Mi Zixuan was worried,I didn't have the heart to ask Yan Haojie why he looked at him with that kind of resentful eyes in the morning,And Yan Haojie was so worried that he forgot the order of his mother-in-law Su Xuan-when he saw Mi Zixuan, he took him to see An Zixian。

The flickering cigarette butt had a long curved section of gray-white soot, but Mi Zixuan didn't have the slightest intention of flicking the ash to the ashtray, and was frowning and looking at the CT film, looking at the posture as if he wanted to see the flowers.

Yan Haojie finally couldn't help it, and sighed: "Director Mi, don't think about it, we really can't do anything about this child's illness, let's tell the family as soon as possible, so that they can be psychologically prepared as soon as possible." ”

Mi Zixuan also sighed for a long time, put down the film, looked at Yan Haojie and said, "Tell the child's parents, can Hong Yifan's grandparents still live?" ”

A simple sentence made Yan Haojie speechless,He's not stupid,He's been a doctor for so long,Naturally know this situation,If you can't save the child,This family is the end of a broken family,Even if the child's grandparents don't think about doing something stupid,But their son、Daughter-in-law will never forgive them for the rest of their lives,When you see them, you will only treat them as enemies,Because they killed their only son,And the old couple will feel guilty forever,Finally end up with hatred。

A good family has become enemies like this, and everyone lives in hatred, guilt, and remorse, which is too cruel for them, and life should not be like this.

Yan Haojie didn't know what to do, lowered his head and kept sighing.

Mi Zixuan can't think about it now, so he thought about it and said to Yan Haojie: "Hong Yifan's illness Don't tell your family that there is no hope, just tell them that we ...... We're researching, researching, waiting for me to find the best of both worlds. ”

Yan Haojie didn't say anything, nodded and turned around and went out.

Mi Zixuan's approach seems to some people to be redundant, you and Hong Yifan are not related, you are a doctor, since you can't cure Hong Yifan's disease, then tell the truth, they are just strangers to you, this family is ruined in the end, or live in hatred, guilt, and remorse for the rest of your life without a penny of relationship, why do you bother to take a mouse and take care of this idle matter? Want to get the best of both worlds? Are you sick? Hungry?

There are a lot of people who say this kind of cool talk, and there have always been a lot of these trolls and keyboard warriors in these years, and I don't know why there are so many people with dark hearts and in their brains in this era.

Doctors want to treat the disease, but more importantly, to cure the heart, the so-called treatment of the heart is simply to take into account the feelings of patients and their families, if the doctor is also like these trolls, keyboard warriors, then patients with cancer, the doctor will not hide the disease from them, directly tell the patient no.

There's nothing wrong with a doctor doing this, isn't a doctor just treating people, and it's not the doctor's fault what disease a person has, so what's wrong with telling the truth? That's right!

But if the doctor really said that, what would be the patient's state of mind? What kind of mentality will the family have?

As we all know, cancer is a terminal disease, there is no cure, once you have cancer, it is equivalent to stepping into the ghost gate, life will begin to count down, death is fearful for anyone, once you know that you are going to die, everyone will be afraid, everyone will think that they are suffering from illness and life is worse than death, will want to swallow their last breath and lie in the morgue with a burst of corpse smell and the smell of incense and candles, will think that in a few days they will be sent to the crematorium to be burned into ashes, The last one was put into a cold little box, and then buried deep in the ground, and there was no sun, blue sky, or white clouds from now on, only boundless darkness and coldness.

When you think of the boundless fear of death for a healthy person, what would be the fear of a person with cancer?

Knowing that people who are suffering from cancer will have a nervous breakdown, completely lose hope of living, will give up treatment, and will live in fear and fear of death all day long, such a huge mental torture is more painful than physical pain, it is no exaggeration to say that life is worse than death.

If the situation is better, persuade his lover, the two of them will go to Huangquan together, and those in poor condition will even do it to drug the rice, close the doors and windows while the family is asleep, and turn on the gas, this is definitely not alarmist, let alone nonsense, such a thing doctors dare not say that they often encounter, but they will not encounter a few such tragedies that year?

So sometimes doctors have to be like Mi Zixuan to meddle with rats, take Hong Yifan's matter as an example, if Mi Zixuan really thinks the same as those trolls and keyboard warriors, and tells the truth directly, what kind of consequences will it be?

It is no exaggeration to say that Hong Yifan's parents and his grandparents will be enemies in the future, one of the two sides will always live in hatred, and the other will always live in guilt and remorse, and there will even be a tragedy of the son killing the father and the son killing the mother, this is not alarmist, a father was killed by his own son, this is the pain of killing the son, he will lose his mind under grief and anger, even if the other party is his biological parents, but when he loses his mind, he can do anything, this is a person, a feeling is very complex and difficult to understand, A speculative animal, an animal that can do anything under the control of emotions.

Maybe those trolls and keyboard warriors can watch such a tragedy happen indifferently, and even stand aside to gloat, sneer, and applaud, but Mi Zixuan can't do it, and most doctors in this world can't be indifferent.

Doctors and doctors must not only heal the disease, but also heal the heart.

Mi Zixuan was trying to figure out a way, not wanting the tragedy to really happen, but the situation had already begun to deteriorate in Hong Yifan's ward.

During the morning round, Hong Yifan's mother Shi Fei frowned when she saw Mi Zixuan, even if she knelt down, he didn't say that there was a way to save his son, just to find a way, Shi Fei was not stupid, she could see that Mi Zixuan couldn't help it.

Hong Yifan is the meat that fell from her belly in October, no one is more distressed about her son than her mother, she doesn't want him to die, she wants to watch him grow up little by little, work after graduating from college like other children, and then marry a wife and have children, but before Shi Fei sees his son grow up, he is about to leave her when he is young, and he is buried alone in the cold ground, she can't accept it, she knows that her son is afraid of the dark, she knows that her son is timid and never dares to walk alone at night.

But now her only son will face the boundless darkness forever, and he will not see the sun, he will be very scared, he will be very lonely, he will cry and shout for his mother and father, but she can't hold him in her arms to comfort him, and use her warm embrace to dispel all the fear of darkness in his heart.

The reason for all this was the two people sitting opposite Shi Fei, she slowly raised her head and looked at her father-in-law and mother-in-law with a guilty and remorseful face, at this time they were so hateful, so ugly, they killed their son, yes, it was them, they were the two old immortals, they should die for their son, it should be them lying on the hospital bed, not their poor child.

Thinking of this, Shi Fei's delicate facial features suddenly twisted together and became hideous and terrifying, she suddenly stood up violently, took three steps and two steps and threw herself towards the old couple, and her mouth let out a fierce howl like a demon: "You return my child, return my child." ”

Completely lost, Shi Fei was like an angry lioness who kept scratching and biting the two people who were her father-in-law and mother-in-law with her nails and teeth.

Hong Yifan's grandmother looked at her husband with an expressionless face and struggled to stop her daughter-in-law who had lost her mind, and suddenly sat on the ground and cried: "Let me die, let me die!" ”