Chapter 22: Counting the Beads
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After such a jump, Zhou Linuo felt that she might have an enmity with her mother, although she always felt that her mother had a hatred for herself, similar to hatred of iron and steel, I heard my father say that when she was a baby, her mother took her to interview for advertising child stars, but because she didn't like to laugh like other children at all, no matter how funny she was, she never succeeded, and for a while, Zhou Shuguang even thought that Zhou Linuo's IQ was defective.
As she grew older, the relationship between Zhou Linuo and Zhou Shuguang became more tense, both of them seemed to be grabbing the other end of a rubber band, trying to drag each other to her side, she hated her even more, from every time Zhou Shuguang repeatedly shouted "You are disobedient!" "How can you be disobedient!" "I'm your mother!" Judging from these lines, she hates her because she lives so arbitrarily and recklessly, living like Zhou Shuguang once idealized herself, not bound by her parents.
"Mom, you should understand me, others may not understand, but you should understand." Zhou Linuo pleaded with his back to Zhou Shuguang, who was sitting on the sofa, "Don't you often say that if your grandmother didn't care about you so much, you also have what you want to do and your own life, but your grandmother doesn't understand, so you will ......" will-"Become like this" - "become like this" swallowed the second half of the sentence, she didn't say.
Zhou Shuguang grabbed a carton in front of him and turned around and threw it at Zhou Linuo.
"Can you look like an adult?" Zhou Linuo walked over and picked up the box and put it back on the coffee table, "Communicate with me like a mother?" β
Zhou Shuguang grabbed the cushion behind him, and when Zhou Linuo lowered his head, he smashed it on her head, although it didn't hurt, it also scared Zhou Linuo, and she hurriedly took a few steps back.
Since Zhou Linuo broke her arm, Zhou Shuguang has always had such a weird attitude, she said a word to her, and she silently grabbed something next to her and threw it at her.
In order to take care of her, he changed shifts with the workers in the factory several times, and did not complain to her, his eyes were full of distress, and he also talked a few times, saying that he was not aware of his daughter's pressure and was an incompetent father.
There has never been a communication problem with her father, Zhou Linuo believes that Ren Meimei can be said to be the best in the standard of a hundred and a thousand fathers, but she has never felt that she is close to him, in fact, she does not think that she may have an intimate relationship with anyone in this world, even if it is Yi Xuejia, she can just touch the shell she uses to wrap herself, and other people, it is impossible to find the true coordinates of her soul.
The strange thing is that Zhou Shuguang, who does everything against herself, makes Zhou Linuo feel a strong sense of bonding, like positive and negative poles, the sun and the moon, day and night, but they are always closely connected, she wants to stay away from her, and wants to please her, Zhou Linuo feels very awkward for this contradiction, and even ignites hatred.
As a young woman, she thought they were the only mother and daughter in the world who hated each other.
Zhou Linuo soothed the resentment that was about to come out of his chest, and tried his best to speak calmly: "Mom, let's each make a step, you think about it calmly, recall, haven't I always been very obedient?" I wear clothes, inside and out, don't you tell me to wear whatever I want? Since I was a child, what time did you tell me to go and what time to go home, and when did I not be punctual? Whether it's junior high school, high school, or Olympiad class, now in college, I will take the test wherever you tell me to take the test, you go downstairs and ask, go to ask Aunt Lin, ask Uncle He, ask Grandpa Ke, you just find someone to ask, I also want to know, where am I disobedient? β
The TV remote control was thrown by Zhou Shuguang at Zhou Linuo's feet, but this time she didn't throw it at her.
"I'm not going to take a break from school, I don't have to delay a year more than my peers in school, I've never let you down, you should trust me. In the afternoon, I asked Jiajia to accompany me to the training class you designated to report. Zhou Linuo didn't bend down to pick up what Zhou Shuguang had lost, she left the living room and walked to the entrance, "For the goal you set for me, you can't be angry because you ask me to walk for two years to reach my destination, and I choose to run for only one year." β
After walking out of the door, closing the door, Zhou Linuo's back was attached to the blue-gray security door, she just wanted to breathe a sigh of relief, only to hear the explosion of "bang-", and was frightened by the impact on her back, accompanied by a short and rapid tremor from the iron door, and thought about it, Zhou Shuguang should have lifted the chair at home and smashed it against the door.
"You're a! The dog bites Lu Dongbin, I don't know what to do! Who gave you life? Who gave you the name? Zhou Linuo! Gifts are still exchanged, a promise is a thousand gold, Zhou Linuo! The old lady was pregnant with you for seven months and was born prematurely, gave birth for three days and three nights, died and died before the ghost gate closed, lived and died, it rained for a week after you were born, let that poor sour dog thing in the United States, other people's wives drink chicken soup and eat Wang Ba in confinement, he only gave me scrambled eggs with chili peppers, which made my joints hurt now when it rains, you are what I bought in exchange for half my life-" Zhou Shuguang slapped and roared through the door, "It's good now, can I still count on you?" Mao is going to be my mother in turn before he grows up, look at the face you put on, look at your posture, you are advanced, you know everything, how smart you are and how stupid I am, ah? Don't want to think about which hole you fell out of! You're too senior to look down on your crippled mother, I'm embarrassing you, and you've deliberately fallen into a cripple, you just want to me off-"
She has always been like this, shouting blindly when she has a temper, logical disorder, incoherent, although Zhou Linuo is used to it, she will still be frightened, just like facing the construction noise made by the construction site downstairs every day, even if it is put into the ear on time and quantitatively, it is impossible to desensitize, and she still has a headache after listening to it 10,000 times.
Regardless of her, Zhou Shuguang has always been like this, looking for trouble when he has nothing to do, turning small things into big things, and making big things bigger, but even if the sky falls apart, what can he do? Zhou Linuo knew that they couldn't do anything to each other, she was connected by blood with her, even if she went to court to sever the relationship, she was still mother and daughter.
She hurriedly walked downstairs, just wanted to call Yi Xuejia as soon as possible to dissipate her anger, friendship is not the same as family affection and love, there is no blood relationship as a bond, and there is no marriage certificate to witness, she is not good at interpersonal communication, although she knows how to solve the equation, and she also knows how to use the root word to memorize words, but she doesn't know what means to use to keep an independent individual with self-awareness around her.
Although she has a kind of confidence that Yi Xuejia will never leave her, she also believes that once there is a rift between them, it is always right to repair it as soon as possible.
After Zhou Shuguang was angry with him, Zhou Linuo loudly begged for her forgiveness in an angry way downstairs with Yi Xuejia, and when she couldn't see her give in, she was even more angry, you must know how cold and arrogant she is on weekdays, but she crushed her self-esteem in the face of Yi Xuejia - forget it - Zhou Linuo, who only felt that he was being attacked from front to back and was isolated, and when he turned around angrily, he really wanted to jump into the river for a moment.
"Nono, Nonoβdon't be impulsiveβ" The sweaty Ke Feifei eagerly chased after her and persuaded, "You calm down, don't think about it!" β
"I think very openly." She didn't answer directly, just to deliberately scare him, she wouldn't think about it, she also knew that sometimes she was too calm, she lived too methodically and boringly like a machine, and she wasn't even as cute as the noisy boy behind her-
She also wants to cry and laugh like an ordinary girl, like Yi Xuejia, angry is angry, and she doesn't care about what she will lose because she is angry-
Isn't she afraid of losing me? It occurred to her mind.
However, she was afraid of losing her, and Zhou Linuo clearly realized that she couldn't lose Yi Xuejia on her lifeline.
So when Yi Xuejia finally caught up and said that she could forgive her, all the pressure in Zhou Linuo's body burst like a flood, and she hugged her and cried a mess.
When comforting Zhou Linuo, Yi Xuejia repeatedly emphasized: "I'm angry with you, but I'm angry at you for being hurt, angry at you for being impulsive, angry at you for not consulting me before doing such a stupid thing, in the final analysis, I'm not angry because I care about you and feel sorry for you." β
"Vomit-" Ke Yufei, who was following the two girls, pinched his neck with both hands and retched, and deliberately said in a Taiwanese accent, "Why are you suddenly Daoming Temple on your body, what kind of confession of true feelings, I will vomit it for you at dinner yesterday." β
Yi Xuejia put her hands together on Ke Feifei's mouth and said, "You vomit, I'll take a bowl for you and don't waste it, your dinner today is over." β
"Then you're still mad at me." Zhou Linuo ignored Ke Yufei's gag, and reluctantly took Yi Xuejia's hand and blamed him, "I thought you would never be angry with me." Her eyes were red, and her face was flushed from tears, and she looked like a spoiled rabbit.
Yi Xuejia opened her mouth in a daze and wanted to defend something, but in the end she could only raise her hands and surrender, "I was wrong." She sighed helplessly, "It's all my fault, I shouldn't be angry, I just have to feel distressed." β
"It's good to know that mistakes can be corrected." Zhou Linuo nodded with satisfaction, her eyebrows and eyes were no longer crowded, and she returned to her usual solitary height.
Yi Xuejia breathed a sigh of relief in her heart, she had never seen Zhou Linuo's emotions bump like just now, such a comparison, compared to her physical injury, what she couldn't stand was her mental trauma, she was Zhou Linuo, she was not suitable for whispering, she was a person who should be high-spirited for the rest of her life.
As for the destination that Zhou Linuo was going to, the three of them were still confused after asking all the way, and finally Ke Yufei decided to "take a taxi!" with a wave of his hand! In less than ten minutes, the driver pulled them to a vocational high school, looked up along the 400-meter-long slope, located in front of the concrete building on the mountain, two rusty iron pillars supported a string of school names - Xiangzhu City Staff Vocational and Technical School - which is divided into categories to teach such as cooking, computers, design and other technologies suitable for employment, but also teach dance, art and other subjects for the college entrance examination extra points, the original "art examination pre-comprehensive training class" is a school for teachers to earn extra money extracurricular tutoring class.
They were about to walk into the school gate, pondering which department to contact for registration, when a man and a woman were arguing on the long slope.
The woman has a baby face, she can't tell her age, she has short blue hair, makeup on her face, she is wearing an exaggerated fishnet-shaped torn T-shirt, the pink underwear inside is clearly visible, and the words "alone" are tattooed on her bare thighs outside the hot pants, she tugged at the boy's collar and yelled at him: "Chu Yiquan, you have to pay back what you say today!" β
"Pay it back to your mother." Chu Yiquan should be eighteen or even twenty years old, he has bangs covering his eyes, the ends of his hair are long above his neck, and he is wearing a black dress, if it weren't for the guitar on his back to make him look like he still has something to do with the school behind him, he is a very typical ruffian image, he is one meter tall and in his early eights, he was dragged by a girl to hook his back, and he put his face on her defiantly and said, "That's a fucking breakup fee, you splitting bitch." β
The voice of the man and the woman arguing came from afar to Yi Xuejia and them, Zhou Linuo frowned in disgust, Ke Feifei glanced at it curiously, and saw that the other party was a bad girl and a social hooligan, and quickly withdrew his gaze, they didn't want to get into trouble, so they were far away, and walked towards the school gate with the shop on the left.
"I split my legs? If it weren't for someone sharing the same woman with his brother, and shouting that the whole world knew about it, I hate that I can give you a double fly award, can I be heartbroken by you and take advantage of others? The blue-haired girl gritted her teeth and glared at Chu Yiquan, counting his Tao Tao charges, "You have to worry about Lao Tzu, that's your leg first, I'm afraid that you will infect me with STDs, so I don't care if you want to pay for mental damages-"
"You're enough, I warn you-" Chu Yiquan was about to raise his hand and move, but he was stunned because he glanced at Zhou Linuo out of the corner of his eye, and it was the girl's screaming and reprimanding that brought him back to his senses, "Enough." He suddenly leaned over and kissed her, then held her face and said, "Nana, you know that I love you, do you think I am short of that money?" I can't cheat anyone to cheat your money, I just can't give up with you, I don't want to break up, don't you understand? β
Without waiting for Nana to refute, he blocked her words with his mouth again, and continued to confess affectionately over and over again.
Finally coaxed Nana into submission, watching her go away in a daze, Chu Yiquan stroked his bangs, shook the guitar behind his back, ran into the campus, chased after Zhou Linuo and them, and greeted her from behind with a smile: "Classmate, wait a minute." β