In fact, to be honest, I do think that going to school is not much fun, people go to school, either to study, to graduate from a good university and get a good job in the future, or to mix in school, make friends and fall in love or something, although learning is rotten, but it's fun to have fun.

But what about me, I don't study, I don't fall in love, I'm going to be beaten every three or five days, what do you mean by me staying here, instead of this, it's better to go to the society and save tuition.

After having this thought, I went straight home, thinking about telling my dad about my plan, to see what his attitude was, I guess he didn't care much about me, after all, if I don't go to school, I don't have to pay tuition, he can't wait for it.

Indeed, when I got home, my dad asked me why I came back at this point, and the school was on vacation?

I shook my head and said I didn't want to go to school anymore.

My dad was very calm after listening to it, he took out his cigarette and lit a puff, and said with an indifferent look: "If you don't want to go, you won't go, you can save money for Lao Tzu!" ”

After saying this, he was silent for a moment, and then continued: "Since you don't go to school anymore, Lao Tzu can't support you in vain, so you will go out tomorrow to find me a job." ”

I ignored him and went straight back to my house, looking for a job if I wanted to, what's the big deal.

Actually, by the afternoon of this day, my inner emotions had almost calmed down, and when I calmed down and pondered, I regretted it a little, because I felt that I was so young, what could I do if I didn't go to school? If you go to mix in society and work part-time, you may not have much success in this life.

But I have already shouted that to the head teacher, and I am forced to pretend to go out, if I go back, then I really can't raise my head in the class in the future, and Su Xiaoyi and the boy sat at the same table, and the relationship will definitely be closer in the future, if the fuck goes back to class, watching them talk and laugh every day, can this be comfortable?

In short, this day was very struggling and tormenting.

At ten o'clock that night, my dad went home with a few strong men, their faces didn't look very good, and when they saw what was worth in the house, they moved outside, and when they left, someone threatened my dad, saying that they wouldn't have enough money for another week in a week, and they would chop off one of his hands.

Later, I found out that my dad went to gamble tonight, not only lost all the money, but also owed a lot of debts, these people came to the house to move things, just to pay off the debt, I couldn't make up my mind to drop out of school, he came out, but also made me hard-hearted, the family has become like this, the future living expenses are all problems, I still go to school.

In this way, I finally made up my mind to drop out of school, and the next morning I didn't go to school when I arrived at the school point, and my dad drove his car out early in the morning in order to pay off the debt, as if he was going to sell the car, which had to make me sigh: This loser, the family has just had a good life for a few days, and now he is like this, why am I so miserable?

My dad said yesterday that I should go out and look for work today, but I didn't go out today, I stayed at home all day, and he came back in the evening and scolded me, saying that I don't go out to earn money, and we will both have to drink the northwest wind in the future.

I thought that I was no longer studying, and I had no confidence in my heart, so I didn't talk back to him, but the next day I went out to try to find a job, because I was afraid that my classmates and acquaintances would see it, so I didn't dare to look for it in the city, and I kept wandering around the suburbs and the urban-rural junction, and when I ran to this evening, I didn't find a job.

Speaking of which, I blame myself for backing it, in 97 and 98, when the big wave of layoffs broke out across the country, too many people lost their jobs during this period, and many people were looking for jobs.

I was worrying about the truth, and suddenly ran into Ren Zhe.

Ren Zhe was still riding his 125 motorcycle, and when he saw me, he took the initiative to say hello to me and asked me what I was doing here alone.

I was beaten by Wang Yang before I teased Su Xiaoyi, I was naturally a little unhappy when I saw him, and I was not very happy to deal with him, so I casually told him that it was okay to wander around.

He parked the motorcycle on the side of the road, came over and took the initiative to hand me a cigarette, and said with a smile: "The girl who was with you last time had a very strong temper, so I would think about teasing her, and touched her casually, but that scolded me, she was a tigress!" ”

I thought that you still have the face to mention this, I said that if you hadn't teased her last time, I wouldn't have been beaten, he was stunned for a moment, and asked me what's the matter, I told him about Wang Yang because he teased Su Xiaoyi, and then blamed me on the head and beat me.

Whether he is pretending to be here, or really wants to find me to beat someone, anyway, looking at his posture, and listening to his words, I feel very comfortable, plus I also want to let go of Su Xiaoyi now, and my displeasure with Ren Zhe is not so deep, and then I took his cigarette and chatted with him next to him.

Speaking of this, B also made me speechless, chatted with me for a few words, and then pulled it to Su Xiaoyi, and asked me about Su Xiaoyi's situation, and said that I would go back to find me at the school gate, and let me call Su Xiaoyi out to talk, so that he could apologize to Su Xiaoyi and see if he could be friends with her or something.

I'll just say, this B took the initiative to talk to me, handing out cigarettes and saying good things, the purpose is still for Su Xiaoyi.

I snorted coldly and said, "Don't think about it, I've dropped out of school now, and I won't go to school in the future. ”

Ren Zhe was stunned for a moment, then smiled awkwardly and said, "In this way, then you won't go to school, do you have any plans?" ”

I said what can I do, find a job.

He said that his friend was just short of people, and if I was okay, I would go to his friend's place, and I said that if it was a job in the city, I would not go, I would look for someone in the suburbs, or from another place.

He smiled and patted me on the shoulder and said, "What's the matter, are you still afraid of embarrassing your acquaintances?" Don't worry, the work in the factory in Linxian County is not from our city, and I go to the factory every day, and I can't even see anyone, but I am a little tired, I don't know if you can bear the hardship. ”

I said big man, what kind of hardship can't be endured, he said that's okay, take me to see the person in charge tomorrow, if people agree, take me directly to the factory, but I have to eat and live there, I have to pack up my things tonight.

At that time, I was quite moved, I felt that although this B had caused me to be beaten before, but now I have found a job, which can be regarded as a charcoal in the snow, I have to remember this favor, but the next day after meeting the person in charge with him, I secretly saw the person in charge of the game in his hand, and then I understood what was going on, he introduced a person to work, and he had money to take, which was not to help me, but to make head money.

And after I went to the factory, because I was not a regular worker, I had no skills or anything, and I did the dirtiest and most tiring work, basically carrying things from morning to night, and the salary was very small, 100 yuan a month.

But the path I chose, I have to finish it on my knees, what can I do, I can only grit my teeth and persevere, that is, occasionally when I go to bed at night, I think of my current situation, think of Su Xiaoyi, think of the school days, I will secretly wipe my tears, and I always think: During the time I disappeared, did Su Xiaoyi think about me? Even a little bit is fine......

When I finished the first month, it was already more than April, the weather became a lot warmer, when I went home to get summer clothes, I learned that my dad had moved, the landlord said that he had moved to the southern suburbs, and he also gave me a note, which was the address of the new home, I went and found that my dad re-rented a broken bungalow, a total of a few square meters, there is only one bed in it, fortunately, I only came back to live for one day, otherwise I would be squeezed here with him every day, and it would be uncomfortable to die.

When I was eating at a nearby noodle restaurant in the evening, there were a couple of people in their twenties who looked like gangsters sitting at the table next to me, and I didn't pay much attention to them at first, but when I heard what they were talking about, my heart tightened.

I heard a yellow hairy say: "That little policewoman surnamed Chu just wants to die, she has to go against our eldest brother, you say that she is a little policeman in Xiguan, what are you doing in our southern suburbs?" ”