"Little book, don't be sad." Seeing me like this, the eldest sister reached out and took me into her arms.

"Sister, I'm not sad, I'm sad." I silently wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes and forced a smile.

The cruelest side of love is watching the man you once loved by other women all day long, and you can't do anything about it.

A car came speeding from the highway and stopped the car near us, Zhao Qinhan got out of the car with an anxious face and said to me anxiously: "Xiaoshu, how are you?" You okay? I just learned about the situation, sorry I'm late. ”

"It's okay, it's okay if you don't use it." His eager attitude came to me in exchange for my indifferent treatment, I knew that Zhao Qinhan really cared about me, but I still didn't want to give him a good face.

"Xiaoshu, look at you, why do you talk like this, isn't Qin Han worried about you?" The eldest sister hurriedly said to me, and then said to Zhao Qinhan, "Xiaoshu, she is too frightened, I will accompany her, you go over there to find Xingfeng, he may have something to tell you." ”

Zhao Qinhan glanced at me with great concern, and saw that I didn't want to pay attention to him, so he smiled and said, "Okay, sister, then I'll go over there." ”

After Zhao Qinhan left, the eldest sister and I walked along the long embankment of the Panjia River for a long time, and after a while, I came to my senses, I turned my head and said to the eldest sister: "Sister, I'm fine, I can calm down." ”

"I know and understand your feelings, I can't help you with anything. It's just that everything has to look forward. Put it down early, peace of mind early, you know? The eldest sister said softly.

I nodded, and I said, "I'll try my best, maybe I'll never forget him for the rest of my life." On this night on the mountain, I had a hunch that even if Jin Yan forgot me, he would still fall in love with me again. ”

"Little book, this is not a good thing. In fact, you are no longer on the same path now, and I hope you can see the reality clearly and understand it in your heart. After listening to this, the eldest sister said earnestly.

"I don't know what to do, but I always fall in love. I think some fates are destined, and people who are destined to be inseparable will not be separated no matter what. I looked at the slowly flowing Panjia River and couldn't help but say.

The eldest sister saw that I was still stubbornly insisting, so she simply didn't persuade me at all, but said softly: "It's too cold here, let's go back early, Qiuqiu and Xiaoxiao are waiting for us." ”

When the eldest sister mentioned Qiuqiu, I suddenly realized that there was something more important than missing Jin Yan, so my eldest sister and I went home. Not long after, Zhao Qinhan and Xing Feng also came to the uncle's house.

Rural people like to use a big enamel bowl for cooking, my aunt stewed a large pot of wild boar, and mixed a large plate of cold coriander, fried several plates of fresh vegetables picked from the countryside, and burned a carp weighing at least five catties.

When I saw so many delicacies in front of me, I realized that I was already hungry, Zhao Qinhan kept putting meat in my bowl, but he didn't eat much at all, I inexplicably had an indescribable feeling in my heart, so I silently sandwiched a piece of meat in his bowl. is just such a small action, but Zhao Qinhan is indescribably moved.

But I myself was so surprised by this move that I didn't understand why I did it at the time.

After dinner, I sat under the grape trellis in the courtyard of my uncle's house with Qiuqiu in my arms, Zhao Qinhan came over and took Qiuqiu from my arms, I resisted slightly, but let him hug it.

"You've been so nice to me today." He said in a soft voice.

"I don't think it's good." I say.

"You never gave me something to eat at the dinner table before, I have fantasized about this scene many times, but I didn't expect you to actually do it today, I am really touched." Zhao Qinhan said with a happy face.

When he said this, it made me feel even more embarrassed and embarrassed, and I deliberately said with a straight face: "It's just a simple action, don't think about it so much." ”

"I know you're not a hard-hearted person, and the reason why you show such invulnerability in front of me is just because you don't want to be impressed by me." Zhao Qinhan said suddenly.

"Don't be wishful thinking, okay?" When I heard him say this, I immediately got up and snatched the ball from his arms, and walked towards the Great Burry House, no longer bothering him. I heard him let out a hearty laugh behind me, but the laughter made me inexplicably unhappy, because I understood what the subtext of the laughter was.

About three days later, when I was still busy working in the farmhouse, Jin Yan appeared at the door of the farmhouse again.

The sun was scorching, and the greenhouse did not look stuffy because the temperature was adjusted, and when Jin Yan walked in from the entrance of the greenhouse, I was fertilizing the newly planted roses.

Hearing the sound of someone moving, I looked up, and when I realized that it was Jin Yan, I immediately lowered my head and continued to busy my business with an expressionless face.

"Little book." He called me softly.

"Hmm." I replied lukewarmly.

"I'm busy."

"Hmm."

After that, there was a long silence. I went to fetch water from the pool not far away, and he hurriedly came and took the bucket from me, fetched a bucket of water in a panic, and then helped me mention the place where I was standing just now.

"Why don't you ignore me?" He asked weakly, his voice sounding weak.

"Is there something wrong?" I looked up at his face, and although I didn't know why I was angry, I was just angry.

She ...... The face has not yet been swollen, listen to ...... I heard that your uncle has herbs, so I'll come over and get them, by the way...... Look at you. He said hesitantly, seeming embarrassed.

"By the way?" As soon as I heard these two words, I became angry, "Then should I thank you for your kindness?" What does it have to do with me if her face is swollen or not? I don't need you to come see me, you get out of here! ”

This is the first time in my life that I have said such heavy words to Jin Yan, and it is also the first time that I have been so angry, I can't tolerate this man who was once integrated into my bone marrow, and now he comes to me to ask for medicine for other women. I found that I had become mean, very mean.

He froze, and he muttered, "What's wrong with you?" I'm sorry...... I didn't know why that night, so I ...... I'll kiss you. Little book, you have a feeling that I am familiar with, but I really can't remember who you are, right...... I'm sorry. ”

"Even if you can't remember, should you always believe the words of the people around you? Jin Yan, I don't understand why everyone remembers, but only forgets me? Why is that? I looked at him sadly.

"I ......" His eyes were extremely complicated, he looked at me for a long time, and then he was speechless.

"You go, I don't want to see you again in the future." I was so angry that I lifted your bucket full of water from his side in one go, and who knew that the handle of the bucket suddenly broke, and all the water in the bucket spilled out, and my pants and his pants were wet.

"Don't be angry." He still said such painless words, but the eyes in his eyes that looked at me became extremely painful.

"Don't worry about it, you go!" I shouted loudly and crouched on the ground in pain.

"Where's Qiuqiu? Where's Qiuqiu? I want to meet Qiuqiu. Jin Yan saw me like this, so he said again.

"What are you doing with the ball? Am I not clear enough? Get out of here! Never set foot in here! Next time I see Tao Mengran or you appear, I will ask the villagers to beat you out!" I shouted indignantly.

"Little book, don't do this. I'm sorry, I know ...... night," he said, still standing still, paused, and added, "I was impulsive." ”

My angina became even worse when he kept saying such painless words, and I looked at this man I had loved for many years, and I looked at everything about this farmhouse. It used to be his dowry for me, and I really doubt that if this continues, will this become my graveyard one day? My heart had been aching since he appeared, and the bouts of colic made me feel like I was almost dying, and at the same time my emotions were so calmed by him that I was completely out of control like a wild horse......

"Jin Yan, you get out of here! I never want to see you again! I don't want to hear anything more from you! From now on, I hope you will never appear in front of me again! Every word you say will arouse endless hatred in my heart! You trampled on our feelings for so many years! You have no idea what I've done for you! You're just a jerk! I never want to see you again! We will never see each other again! All right? I shouted at him incredibly loudly, hysterical like a madman.

The desolation in my heart is like a desert, raising the quicksand in my heart, and all the past love no longer exists! This man, consciously or unconsciously, has completely forgotten about me! The most painful side of love is that others have gone away with their new love, but you can only stay in place and linger in the memory, and all the good things that were once mottled have become mottled and turned into flowing water that "rushes to the sea and never returns......

My original incomparably beautiful love, our mutual support for so many years, and our love for so many years are all gone. When love is reduced to a memory, it is one of the pains in this world. I couldn't forget, and I never wanted to, but today, when I was faced with such a complete stranger, I suddenly wanted to let go, and I suddenly didn't want to hold on anymore, because I couldn't find a reason to hold on.

When I was at my most desperate, he squatted down, reached out and patted me on the shoulder, and said something in a very cold tone that surprised me beyond measure: "You hate me so much, but look at what you have done yourself?" ”

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